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My Genesys GM uses World Anvil to document the campaign setting and all the worldbuilding (and it is awesome - I've encountered fantasy writers who could learn from this) and I have noticed that trying to access some of the pages on my phone or chrome book is painful. My working theory is that the world anvil site is horrifically bad at adapting to mobile devices, and that might be what you're running into on the iPad. If that's the case, you might be able to save yourself some headaches by sticking to the computer?       While it generally is a bad idea to completely ignore most of one's surroundings, there's a peaceful kind of stillness in focusing on that one single metaphorical tree that is standing so close it blocks out everything else. Scrutinize the imaginary bark, touch the non-existing leaves and enjoy the fact that you have a moment to really look closely at something for once. The moment will end, eventually at some point, but until it does, there's nothing wrong with embracing it. 

We'll add this to the list of indicators that Spinoza was a genius.

Overall feeling considerably better about everything today, despite not sleeping as much as I should have. Good quality sleep, just not enough of it, which is my standard these days. I had a surprisingly good day at work. Had a brief encounter with the Drama Llama in an early afternoon meeting, and handled it much better than last time (admittedly not difficult to do), and genuinely shrugged it off immediately after. Last week, after my little meltdown, H. patiently reminded me that since Drama Llama isn't actually above me in the hierarchy, I don't actually have to do what she wants, or even respond in kind when she pushes back against what I want to do. I can simply do what I'm supposed to do and leave it to her to figure out how to deal with it. So I'm testing that approach now.   I'm also deliberately skipping the gym visit this evening to save energy and to do other mental-health things. Right as I left work, H mentioned that he really wants to have a quiet evening by himself, with as few interruptions as possible, since he also feels drained and needs to recover after the large amounts of socializing this weekend. So now he's sitting with his gaming PC in his room and I'm sitting with mine in my room, and he will let me know when our dinner gets here, and we will both have as much solitude as we can for the rest of the evening.   Rivendell, here I come!         

Kristen Schaal is a goddess. A strange goddess of strange humors, voice to some of our favorite characters, and a wild muse. I could list her many accomplishments but I am only one man, and her accolades are so heavy. The clips below of her stand-up, they're fucking weird . Fair warning.   The slayer goddess befuddling us for 8:41 in her set from 2022.   Schaal slaying for 21:14 at Comedy Central's full set "Making Love to George Washington. 2010ish I think??   [AI images generated via Dezgo AI with the prompt "The comedian Kristen Schaal as a vampire slayer. She is wearing a complicated dress and wielding a crossbow."]     Slayer Training Lore  Reading in bed by 11pm - 5x/week ✅✅🔲🔲🔲   Meditation Ass on meditation pillow - 5x/week ✅✅🔲🔲🔲   Bodhrán meditation 3x/week ✅🔲🔲  Strength Squat - 75% 5x3 Front Squat - 60% 3x5 Paused Single Leg Extension - 75% 5x5 Yoga Life Stuffs Going on a FB diet for a month or so because Weltschmerz isn't useful when I'm upset and impotent to affect change. Writing letters to elected officials (likely a useless gesture), and volunteering in local queer groups, but sobbing over news and social media isn't helping anything. Korean food is amazing, and I had Jap Chae after a mediocre convention I visited last weekend. The convention was mostly an excuse for people to try beat sabers, but I hate people so even that was mostly an annoying thing to suffer through while waiting for delicious sweet potato noodles and Korean beef.

No, no, no, solidarity is not a good description. Stubbornness. We both have a firm belief that the other person can live up to their press releases and we are going to make this work, dammit.   That said, we have been actively working on building a good relationship for a long time.  Things are now to the point where I worry about something bad happening instead of worrying about how to fix things.   --------------------------- Monday worked out better than I expected.   I did a familiar core workout. I felt my abs engage and work without protesting.   Work continues to have more volume of tasks coming in than I can do. I am trying to do a bit more triage so that the older things do not come around to bite me. Instead of being overwhelmed I am refusing to look at the whole list of things I should be doing. Maybe not the best approach, but it's what I have at the moment.   I was looking forward to going to my spinning group to connect with people. That was great. The host gave us a tour of her extensive garden. She keeps bees and chickens too. As we walked over to the hives, one of the group noticed a swarm of bees on a tree. They were just hanging out, coating the trunk of a small tree. Not flying around or doing much. Luckily, the host had an empty hive. She suited up and moved the bees into the hive. Most of us went inside for that part, just to be safe.   I brought along a bag of silk roving to give away. I bought it a long time ago. This is the roving that I discovered has noils in it. Great if you want textured yarn. I want smooth yarn, so out it goes. Chris was delighted to see the bag of silk because she wants to do silk dyeing. I told her she could just have it, but she didn't feel right about that. It turned out she just accidentally purchased a wholesale quantity of pearl-infused cellulose fiber. This was the first time I had heard of such a thing. It is white and shiny. I took home a good chunk of it. I'm looking forward to seeing how it spins up and how it blends with alpaca.  

So often I find the Hanged Man to be reflective of exactly this "you don't know what you don't know" moment. Here's a dude who has to hang upside down and crosslegged to see things differntly / better. It's not just a transition moment to me, but a perspective shift, and not really one we can always enact for ourselves, but one that has to be imposed on us by the universe or some external source (like reading a book or seeing a movie, or hearing the garbage get picked up -- the Universe is weird and random and often makes use of mundane details because --gosh! -- there are just so many of them).    Air / Swords / Intelligence can always cut the weilder, and when taken with the (what was it, Hawthorn? I forget now, but you know which one I mean) ten card that represented burnout, I think this is indicative of a new perspective coming to you. I honestly think you've been through a seriously fertile few weeks, and that this lacuna of no-houseguest, no-Dave is exactly what will allow the perspective to percolate. Be easy with yourself. Throw away half-eaten things that were never for you inthe first place; eat good ingredients weirdly mixed; let the adulting happen in spurts and fits as it will. You are grand and the Universe loves you. ❤️ 

Maybe the Universe wants public philosphy and writing my novel to be my second job. I'm going to sit with that (while listening to Broken Boy Soldiers).    I will have ten Star Trek & Philosophy one-sheets prepped and ready to go, with a page of Notes To Self on each one for things to remember when guiding the discussion. I am pretty certain that I could put this together as a "portfolio" and write a local group and ask for $15,000 to run it monthly (which would cover the cost of renting a room at the arts center next door, advertising and printing supplies, and my TA level salary). This has merit.   I love the way the GroupThink happens here. ❤️ 

I've had a couple of days like that lately myself, where I'm just trying to make the macros fit together while still eating colorfully and getting protein. It's led to odd bedfellows: whey protein and Greek yogurt and riced cauliflower and spiced broccoli and, somehow, it fits my macros. Can't say I fully get how this happens, but, as you say, it could be worse.

#DruidApproved.

Pardon me, I'm going to sit in awe of the sheer solidarity that this statement represents.