Guzzi Posted January 28, 2014 Report Share Posted January 28, 2014 Ok, so I'm not new, but I've been away for about 6 months and now really would like to "feel the love" (<- ugh! Sorry *shamefaced*) Apologies in advance if this is a bit long, and a bit depressing.. Last time I was on here I had not long had the op on my hand and knee that put me out of action. The op was in August 2013 and I was feeling a bit sorry for myself for not being able to exercise. Man! How things have changed...To start with, I'm on a long journey of recovery. In July 2011 I was in what should have been a fatal motorcycle accident (I may have mentioned this once or twice before ) I broke both femurs, shattered my pelvis (6 places), broke my right radius, ulna, coccyx and vertebrae L5, suffered a mild head injury as well as all the usual internal injuries you would expect along with it. Luckily for me, it all happened about 50 yards in front of an ambulance and paramedics were on the scene in less than a minute. Yay! I spent about 6 months on crutches, and every day since then trying to get myself back to health. It's not been easy. Although I work out regularly and have made massive improvements with my fitness, I still can't comfortably walk more than a couple of miles. My best so far was completing a 5k walk for charity last summer and I finished holding on to my best friend's arm for support. Throughout this whole bloody thing I was blessed to have the most wonderful man at my side, my husband Peter. He was at my bedside everyday for 8 weeks in hospital, then selflessly dedicated himself to looking after me when I got home. He did everything - he cooked, he cleaned, he even learned how to work the washing machine! He always seemed to know whether I needed a hug, a bit of motivation, a telling off, or just someone to vent my frustration at. I simply couldn't have made it through the last couple of years without him. Unfortunately, life sometimes likes to throw you a curve ball... In October Peter was killed in a car crash. We'd been together since I was 16, he was my first and only boyfriend, the only man I've ever kissed. He was my rock, my world, my everything, and the world just seems a little smaller without him here. After my accident we were all so aware of how fragile life is, losing Peter has only reinforced that. To hide away and wallow in my grief, to let it consume me, would seem like an insult to his memory and to the life we lived, instead I am going to go out and live life for both of us. I'm going to take pleasure in every sunrise, every sunset. I'm going to stop making excuses and look for opportunities. I'm going to go out there, grab life by the balls and make it bloody well rue the day it thought it could give me lemons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 28 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
Hong WeiLoh Posted January 29, 2014 Report Share Posted January 29, 2014 Wow. Just wow. I can't speak to near-fatal motorcycle accidents, but I lost my mom in Oct as well, for most of our lives we were all the other had, and she was the last of my blood relations. I can to a degree relate to your pain. I'm glad you're not wallowing, that you're on the path to recovery and healing, spiritual and physical. I don't come on here every day, but if ya ever need someone to talk to, drop me a PM and say hi. Quote Insert witty & pithy saying here. Link to comment
Basement Cat Posted January 29, 2014 Report Share Posted January 29, 2014 Welcome back, GuzziGirl. I'm so sorry for your loss. Peter sounds like he was a wonderful man, and I'm sure he would be proud of you for wanting to keep on fighting! Good luck with your goals and keep us posted. Quote Current form: Chubby House Cat (lvl4) Weight objective: 20% S. 4 P. 6 E. 4 C. 7 I. 8 A. 4 L. 5 Battle log Current Challenge Handy linky. Link to comment
Guzzi Posted January 29, 2014 Author Report Share Posted January 29, 2014 Thanks guys This site is truly awesome, I've never come across such a diverse, yet caring online community. When I was using it before, I made a couple of really amazing friends but unfortunately they both seem to have stopped posting too. Hong WeiLoh, I'm really sorry about your mum. That must be awful. One of the things I've been so grateful for is the support of all the family (both mine and Peter's), I don't know how I would cope if I were in your position. BIG hugs going your way xxxx This week I joined Jog Scotland's new Beginners Class. (Yay!) We covered about a mile and a half by alternating between 30 secs of (very slow) jogging and 30 secs of walking. It doesn't sound like a lot but I'm really suffering for it now. Hopefully I can keep it up and before you know it I'll be running marathons!!! Ok, so it's not very realistic, but a girl can dream 1 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
Sukiyo151 Posted January 31, 2014 Report Share Posted January 31, 2014 Welcome! I hope that you can keep up this enthusiasm and optimism. You are very strong of heart. Now to get strong in body again!! 1 Quote Level 3 (Adventurer 2/Warrior 1) 8.5 STR | 2.0 DEX | 6.0 STA | 6.5 CON | 3.0 WIS | 3.0 CHAChallenge: 1 2Weightlifting log Link to comment
D0rk Posted February 1, 2014 Report Share Posted February 1, 2014 I am so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine what it must be like for you to walk through this. I admire that, that you keep on walking. I'm new here, but I'm glad to welcome you back to the boards. People like you are the people I look up to. The more of your kind I find, the merrier am I! Wishing you all the best as you make life rue the day it had the nerve to give you lemons. Quote A couple things to know about me; I'm a dork and I like people. "Lord of the Rings or Star Wars?" There's room enough in this town for the two of them. Link to comment
insanity Posted February 18, 2014 Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 Found this in your sig on another thread, and all I can say is damn... I know what it's like to lose someone close, but after going through your accident and recovery I can only imagine how much more it would hurt. I gotta say though, I like the thought though... "Make life rue the day it gave you lemons" Maybe you should get that as a tattoo... :-) 1 Quote "Insanity - you make my world a better place man, you really do! That shit is awesome! :D" - Guzzi- My first challenge My battle Log: Insanity: Warrior Monk Honorary Ranger dubbed by DarK_RaideR, 1000 Pound club (875 of 1000) Link to comment
Guzzi Posted February 18, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 Actually, I have it on a t-shirt 1 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
Guzzi Posted February 18, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 I think my accident was what made it possible for me to accept Peter's death, weird as that must sound. The last 2 years might have been awful in one way, but in another way they were the best two years of my life. I couldn't ever have asked for more, I loved him completely and was truly loved in return. Not everyone gets that much in life. I'm just so grateful for that. I'm very lucky. My life has been dis-proportionately blessed with amazing people. 4 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
Leah Posted February 18, 2014 Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 Wow, your post really puts life into perspective! Obviously we are all here because we are dealing with, well something in our own way! I wish you well on your journey and you have definitely motivated me to better myself. Thank you 2 Quote Link to comment
Barfly Posted February 18, 2014 Report Share Posted February 18, 2014 wow... Quote The past is only smoke in a dream. Lvl 6 Ranger Berzerker STR 9 DEX 4 STA 9 CON 8 WIS 2 CHA 8 Barfly ain't even tryin'... Link to comment
insanity Posted February 19, 2014 Report Share Posted February 19, 2014 I think my accident was what made it possible for me to accept Peter's death, weird as that must sound.The last 2 years might have been awful in one way, but in another way they were the best two years of my life. I couldn't ever have asked for more, I loved him completely and was truly loved in return. Not everyone gets that much in life.I'm just so grateful for that. I'm very lucky. My life has been dis-proportionately blessed with amazing people.Makes sense, I imagine it has to do with the fear of death that permeates society today, when you realize how fast it can happen, it probably makes it easier to accept. On top of that, before it happened he showed you just how much he truly cared for you. That's kind of what happened with my brother for me, while he was sick, we lost all four of my grandparents in a matter of a few years. So I got kind of accustomed to the idea of people dying, and while it still sucks, I couldn't have asked for a better brother. And I want that shirt... 1 Quote "Insanity - you make my world a better place man, you really do! That shit is awesome! :D" - Guzzi- My first challenge My battle Log: Insanity: Warrior Monk Honorary Ranger dubbed by DarK_RaideR, 1000 Pound club (875 of 1000) Link to comment
RES Posted February 20, 2014 Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 I want the tattoo...I am in total admiration of your story and am at a loss for anything to say...which is very difficult to do...welcome back 1 Quote RES...and I want to live days worth dying for Current: RES: No challenge this round Spoiler Really Eclectic Scorpio, Level 86 |1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11|12|13|14|15|16|17|18|19|20|21|22|23|24|25|26|27|28|29|30|31|32|33|34|35|36|37|38|39|40|41|42|43|44|45|46|47|48|49|50|51|52|53|54|55|56|57|58|59|60|61|62|63|64|65|66|67|68|69|70|71|72|73|74|75|76|77|78|79|80|81|82|83|84|85|86|87|88|89| | My Character Page | Tracking Spreadsheet | My Blog | Growth happens when you care more about the well being of your future self than the comfort of your present self! "Pass on what you have learned. Strength, mastery. But weakness, folly, failure also. Yes, failure most of all. The greatest teacher, failure is." -Yoda Link to comment
insanity Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 I want the tattoo...I am in total admiration of your story and am at a loss for anything to say...which is very difficult to do...welcome back The more I think about it, the more I agree... it is a badass little mantra... Quote "Insanity - you make my world a better place man, you really do! That shit is awesome! :D" - Guzzi- My first challenge My battle Log: Insanity: Warrior Monk Honorary Ranger dubbed by DarK_RaideR, 1000 Pound club (875 of 1000) Link to comment
EvillePanda Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Welcome back. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what that must be like. I do think it would be a good tattoo though. Quote "I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that causes total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will allow it to pass over me and through me until only I remain." My Current Challenge Level 2 Bene Gesserit AssassinSTR 4 | DEX 3 | STA 3 | CON 3 | WIS 4 | CHA 3 Link to comment
Guzzi Posted February 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 Thanks everyone, that really means a lot to me. I'm in a good place right now, got a LOT of really great friends round me, and I live with Peter's parents and brother, I live on their land so I see them every day, and we're very close. It's great to have that support network. Insanity - I'm sorry to hear about your brother and grand parents. That really sucks. Wish I had some better words, but.... Well, you know yourself. There just aren't any I liked this sentiment:Those we love don't go awayThey walk beside us every dayUnseen, unheard, but always nearStill missed, still loved, and very dearAnd I LOVE the shirt! You can't have it! (You can get your own on redbubble tho) 4 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
Tomu-san Posted February 23, 2014 Report Share Posted February 23, 2014 I'm so sorry for your loss. Peter sounds like the man that I try to be. And good on ya! Burn life's house down! With the lemons! Quote Tomu-san - Level 3 HalfOgre Ranger [ STR 2 | DEX 2 | STA 3 | CON 8 | WIS 6 | CHA 2 ] Spoiler "A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects." - Robert Heinlein, Time Enough for Love "I came here to drink milk and kick ass. And I've just finished my milk." - Maurice Moss Link to comment
insanity Posted February 28, 2014 Report Share Posted February 28, 2014 Thanks everyone, that really means a lot to me.I'm in a good place right now, got a LOT of really great friends round me, and I live with Peter's parents and brother, I live on their land so I see them every day, and we're very close. It's great to have that support network.Insanity - I'm sorry to hear about your brother and grand parents. That really sucks. Wish I had some better words, but.... Well, you know yourself. There just aren't any I liked this sentiment:Those we love don't go awayThey walk beside us every dayUnseen, unheard, but always nearStill missed, still loved, and very dearAnd I LOVE the shirt! You can't have it! (You can get your own on redbubble tho)Glad to hear you're doing well, I think that's all that can really be asked... Link? I looked but couldn't find anything... Quote "Insanity - you make my world a better place man, you really do! That shit is awesome! :D" - Guzzi- My first challenge My battle Log: Insanity: Warrior Monk Honorary Ranger dubbed by DarK_RaideR, 1000 Pound club (875 of 1000) Link to comment
EvillePanda Posted February 28, 2014 Report Share Posted February 28, 2014 Found one here: http://www.lookhuman.com/design/28895-make-life-rue-the-day-it-thought-it-could-give-you-lemons And the same shirt here: http://skreened.com/classynerd/make-life-rue-the-day-it-thought-it-could-give-you-lemons And then there's this: http://www.tshirtvortex.net/when-life-gives-you-lemons-burn-lifes-house-down-t-shirt/ My Google-fu is masterful. Quote "I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that causes total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will allow it to pass over me and through me until only I remain." My Current Challenge Level 2 Bene Gesserit AssassinSTR 4 | DEX 3 | STA 3 | CON 3 | WIS 4 | CHA 3 Link to comment
Guzzi Posted February 28, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 28, 2014 Haha! Why thank you, that is indeed my shirt. Except for the fact that mine's a girly-fit, of course 1 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
insanity Posted February 28, 2014 Report Share Posted February 28, 2014 Found one here: http://www.lookhuman.com/design/28895-make-life-rue-the-day-it-thought-it-could-give-you-lemons And the same shirt here: http://skreened.com/classynerd/make-life-rue-the-day-it-thought-it-could-give-you-lemons And then there's this: http://www.tshirtvortex.net/when-life-gives-you-lemons-burn-lifes-house-down-t-shirt/ My Google-fu is masterful.Mine usually is, but I'm not a 3rd degree black belt yet... only second degree. And thanks.. :-) Now to find a non tank top version... spindly arms don't work for tanks... Quote "Insanity - you make my world a better place man, you really do! That shit is awesome! :D" - Guzzi- My first challenge My battle Log: Insanity: Warrior Monk Honorary Ranger dubbed by DarK_RaideR, 1000 Pound club (875 of 1000) Link to comment
EvillePanda Posted February 28, 2014 Report Share Posted February 28, 2014 Look human has various styles. And they've got a lot of other nerdy fitness tees too. Quote "I must not fear. Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that causes total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will allow it to pass over me and through me until only I remain." My Current Challenge Level 2 Bene Gesserit AssassinSTR 4 | DEX 3 | STA 3 | CON 3 | WIS 4 | CHA 3 Link to comment
IronGlider Posted March 4, 2014 Report Share Posted March 4, 2014 Whoah, I'm left absolutely speechless after reading that post. I had to take a moment to pause and just let all that sink in. Guzzi, I think you've got to be the strongest person I've ever met, virtually or in the flesh. Reading that makes me want to laugh at all the things/experiences that have I've have difficulty with facing or shirked over the years. You've come out of this like a Phoenix made of titanium! Absolutely extraordinary!!! And yeah, reading your posts has also given me an abundance of mental strength and a reality check, I've been having a issue with facing/fitting in my side challenge, but after reading this I'll just going for it! I'm going to go ahead and clip your OP into my evernote, because it's truly a tale to remember forever! Yeah, NF is truly fantastic and with meeting members like you, keep us updated, though, I'm sure you will! :-) And yeah, I find myself fairly active here because Tapatalk makes it so convenient for me to read, post as well as notify at any time it's hard not to get attached to this website, and it's worth it! I hope for the absolute best for you! Keep kicking A!!! :-D Sent from my Z10 using Tapatalk 1 Quote Introduction, Bodyware: Fitness JournalChallenge Belt: (1), (2), (3), (4), (5), (6), (7), [WOOT], (8), [TEMP HIATUS], (9) Bodyweight Info: Starting: 264.5lbs, Current: 167.8lbs (NEUTRAL) IronGlider v2.10, Adventurer Rank: Level 8 Link to comment
Angie j Posted March 11, 2014 Report Share Posted March 11, 2014 I love your outlook on life. And I admire your humility in the way you portray yourself as a heroine rather than a victim. I think you are spot on that you are blessed. We all go through life facing various 'monsters' and healing many 'deep battle wounds' but not all of us can say that we have loved and been loved, fully and completely. I believe your incredible strength comes from this love and is continually fed by it. And it is something that can never be taken away from you, though the presence of your companion leaves a void. That love remains and is a forever gift. Cherish it and continue to let it empower you! Congratulations on your fitness accomplishments. Five steps is more than four and I look forward to seeing you progress at whatever rate your body allows. Angie J 4 Quote Link to comment
Guzzi Posted March 11, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 11, 2014 Wow, thank you so much! That is beautiful, I <3 you! 1 Quote Make Life Rue The Day Turning back the clock Recipe book 14 Life is far too short to take seriously Link to comment
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