cracked_belle

I'm still adjusting my eating plan and my exercise plan. the introduction of cooking with H and my physical therapy is requiring some edits. this is Battle Plan v4, I think. for the current run, at least. rando reminder that meal-planning-wise, my weeks start on Saturday. ˜”*°• ɢᴇᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ 125 ᴘᴏᴜɴᴅꜱ •°*”˜ Do a Daily Workout Saturday weightlifting (upper body)warm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (5-7.5 miles) Sunday rest daywarm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (2.5-7 miles) Monday physical therapywarm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (2.5-5 miles) Tuesday weightlifting (lower body)warm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (5-7.5 miles) Wednesday physical therapywarm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (2.5-5 miles) Thursday weightlifting (upper body)warm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (5-7.5 miles) Friday physical therapywarm-ups and cool-downsbicycling (2.5-5 miles) Adhere to Caloric Schedule low-carb. continue cooking keto-friendly shit w H and limit my carbs when alone.Goal Average Kcal/Day: ~740 exact calories gets tweaked on Fridays depending on plans for the week. also, I know that's not a lot of calories. as I start eating healthier w H, it will be easier for my Crazies to allow me to add calories. baby steps.Sat: 1,300Sun: 1,300Mon: 550Tue: 750Wed: 0Thu: 0Fri: 1,300 Log Daily Metrics continue to complete the daily Metrics spreadsheet, filling it in as completely as possible. Make Next Week's Food Plan every Friday, make the caloric and cooking food plan for the following week (as weeks starts on Sats). Log Monthly Body Measurements take body measurements at start of every month. ˜”*°• ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇ ᴍʏ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ •°*”˜ Do Daily AM Prep complete morning preparations for the day, every day. Do Daily PM Review complete evening review of the day, every day. Complete Mood Form Daily complete the mood tracking form at least once every day, most days twice. Track Meds track all medications and (certain) supplements consumed every day ˜”*°• ᴘᴜʀꜱᴜᴇ ᴍʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ •°*”˜ Create and Maintain Working Schedule I think I need to have a semi-consistent working schedule to ensure I'll get anything done. ˜”*°• ʀᴇꜱᴜᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ •°*”˜ Write for One Hour per Week work on any writing project for a total of at least one hour a week. Be Artsy for One Hour per Week do any artistic work for a total of at least one hour each week.

Ｓｕｎ ０７／１９／２０２０ [link to spreadsheet here] ˜”*°• ᴅɪᴀʀʏ/ɴᴏᴛᴇꜱ •°*”˜ today was my and Raptor (Brian's nickname) 10-year dating anniversary, so naturally we celebrated. ^_^' I had honestly prepared myself for much worse in the caloric intake and the weight gaining departments. but it turned out okay. ˜”*°• ꜱᴛᴀᴛꜱ •°*”˜ Next AM Weight: 140.2 lbs 🔽Body Fat: 26.1% 🔼BMI: 22.6. 🔽 ˜”*°• ɢᴇᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ 125 ᴘᴏᴜɴᴅꜱ •°*”˜ Daily Workout: ish. we played bolo/ladder ball several times. I'm counting it as light cardio, lol. => 1.00 ptsAdhere to Caloric Schedule: N/A => N/ALog Daily Metrics: yep. => 1.00 ptsMake Next Week's Food Plan: didn't look up recipes over the weekend. => 0.00 ptsLog Monthly Body Measurements: N/A => N/ABONUS: Caffeine: 150 mg.BONUS: 7-Day Rolling Avg: 1,883 kcal rolling average of last seven days for daily consumption. ˜”*°• ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇ ᴍʏ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ •°*”˜ Do Daily AM Prep: yes. => 1.00 ptsDo Daily PM Review: yes. => 1.00 ptsComplete Mood Form Daily: one of goal one today. => 1.00 ptsTrack Meds: yes. => 1.00 pts ˜”*°• ᴘᴜʀꜱᴜᴇ ᴍʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ •°*”˜ Follow Career Hunt Schedule: N/A => N/AMiscellaneous Shit: any additional work on this larger goal deserves acknowledgment. => N/A ˜”*°• ʀᴇꜱᴜᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ •°*”˜ Write for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/ABe Artsy for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/A ˜”*°• ꜱᴄᴏʀᴇ •°*”˜ Today: 6.00/7.00 => 85.71%This Week: 13.57/17.00 => 79.83%Total: 172.37/246.00 => 70.07%

this is great idea. the point is to make this space work for you. just bitch and moan and celebrate and rejoice! we don't have to know the whys.

I can braid three pieces of yarn or really thick string. that's about it. XD admire everything that y'all can do with braids and hair in general, though! <3

a lesson it's good to be reminded of, for many of us. so thank you. wow, really sorry to hear about the officers. I hope it wasn't related to the movement (which I support, just not all the methods). how large is your town? is one where "everybody knows everybody, / everybody calls you 'friend'"?

Ｔｕｅ ０７／１４／２０２０ [link to spreadsheet here] ˜”*°• ꜱᴛᴀᴛꜱ •°*”˜ Next AM Weight: 142.6 lbs 🔼 Body Fat: 25.2% 🔽 BMI: 23.0 🔼 ˜”*°• ɢᴇᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ 125 ᴘᴏᴜɴᴅꜱ •°*”˜ Daily Workout: bike two circuits. => 1.00 pts Adhere to Caloric Schedule: 1857 (very healthy!) kcal eaten after breaking a fast early. => 0.00 pts Log Daily Metrics: yes. => 1.00 pts Make Next Week's Food Plan: N/A => N/A Log Monthly Body Measurements: N/A => N/A BONUS: Caffeine: 161 mg. BONUS: 7-Day Rolling Avg: 1690 kcal rolling average of last seven days for daily consumption. ˜”*°• ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇ ᴍʏ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ •°*”˜ Do Daily AM Prep: nope. day started off oddly when I woke up at 3:30am (alarm for 6am) and could not go back to sleep. => 0.00 pts Do Daily PM Review: yes. => 1.00 pts Complete Mood Form Daily: none. => 0.00 pts Track Meds: yes. => 1.00 pts ˜”*°• ᴘᴜʀꜱᴜᴇ ᴍʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ •°*”˜ Follow Career Hunt Schedule: got my hours in, though a different time. purpose achieved, so a Win. => 1.00 pts Miscellaneous Shit: any additional work on this larger goal deserves acknowledgment. => N/A ˜”*°• ʀᴇꜱᴜᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ •°*”˜ Write for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/A Be Artsy for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/A ˜”*°• ꜱᴄᴏʀᴇ •°*”˜ Today: 4.00/9.00 => 44.44% This Week: 23.51/35.00 => 75.05% Total: 149.80/211.00 => 72.18%

I'll be the other end of that from you: while I had the Pool House to myself, I've been actively keeping it between a comfortable 77-80. I'm grew up in southern Louisiana (it was a normal 96-degree day yesterday, for reference) with no A/C (we were poor). I really prefer the heat, hahaha.

I adore James Clear's work. just in case you haven't read it yet, here's his post on willpower.

maybe a little more on the side of princess. you hair is not as long, though, so that flowing look shouldn't be as prominent. the cute little braids and just those are very princess-y, and that whispy look adds to it. IMO, you need to add something a little more chaotic to get a warrior bit in.

woah, it's so big!! I know the "Americans have big living spaces" convo happened already — I'm a born'n'raised American, lol. however, growing up in a trailer will taint your opinion of space for the rest of your life. it looks immaculate. I think the cleaning paid off. the house looks gorgeous!!

I don't think so. she's a tiny old lady herself. but more importantly, she has legit never cared about her appearance, and only just barely so her health. (when she got on Social Security, she went to the doc for the first time in over a decade.) and I think that makes it worse, because I can't find a reason for her shitty beheaviour. thanks. it was difficult. so I appreciate the support.

due to my physical therapy, my workout routine will change. I had my first PT session on Friday, and I was useless until Sunday afternoon. knowing my body will eventually get accustomed to it, I want to have a routine ready to fall back into. feedback is totally encouraged!! so here's a quick look at what I was doing (or at least trying to do, lol): Ｐｒｅｖｉｏｕｓ Ｒｏｕｔｉｎｅ MTWRFA — Warm-Up & Cool-Down Warm-Up Walk/Jog in Place: 3/2 mins High Knees: 12 reps Leg Swing: 12 reps Jump Rope: 1:30 mins Cool-Down Stretching: 5-7 mins MR — Upper Strength Training Push-Up: max reps x 3 sets Zottman Curl: max reps x 3 sets Bent-Over Row: max reps x 3 sets Bicycle 2 circuits (5.09 miles for about 30 minutes) TF — Lower Strength Training Squat: max reps x 3 sets Straight-Leg Deadlift: max reps x 3 sets Calf Raise: max reps x 3 sets Bicycle 1 circuit (2.5 miles for about 15 minutes) WA — Core+ Strength Training Mountain Climber: max reps x 3 sets Tensor Curl: max reps x 3 sets Flexor Curl: max reps x 3 sets Donkey Kick: max reps x 3 sets Bicycle 2 circuits (5.09 miles for about 30 minutes) U — Rest Bicycle 1 circuit (2.5 miles for about 15 minutes) my partner (who took a weightlifting class in college and is a little bit of a gym rat) advised my looking into "cardio stretching or something". wut? so I might do that on days wherein I have PT. so I will have to figure out what the hell he's talking about. but maybe this? Ｐｒｏｐｏｓｅｄ Ｒｏｕｔｉｎｅ MTWRFA — Warm-Up & Cool-Down Warm-Up Jog in Place: 3:00 mins High Knees: 20 reps Leg Swing: 20 reps Jump Rope: 2:00 mins Cool-Down Stretching: 5-7 mins MWF — Physical Therapypy Stretches dynamic stretches, maybe??a Bicycle 1 circuit (2.5 miles for about 15 minutes) Physical Therapy 60-minutes session MF @ AM; W @ PM (?) Tue — Lower Strength Training Squat: max reps x 2 sets Straight-Leg Deadlift: max reps x 2 sets Calf Raise: max reps x 2 sets Bicycle 1 circuit (2.5 miles for about 15 minutes) Thu — Upper Strength Training Push-Up: max reps x 2 sets Zottman Curl: max reps x 2 sets Bent-Over Row: max reps x 2 sets Bicycle 2 circuits (5.09 miles for about 30 minutes) Sat — Core+ Strength Training Mountain Climber: max reps x 2 sets Tensor Curl: max reps x 2 sets Flexor Curl: max reps x 2 sets Donkey Kick: max reps x 2 sets Bicycle 2 circuits (5.09 miles for about 30 minutes) Sun — Rest Bicycle 3 circuits (7.57 miles for about 45 minutes)

Ｓｕｎ ０７／１２／２０２０ [link to spreadsheet here] ˜”*°• ᴅɪᴀʀʏ/ɴᴏᴛᴇꜱ •°*”˜ moving the notes section to the top, as that's mroe of what people are here to read, right? lol. made a bunch of keto-friendly meals with my friend. we'll see how they turn out. and how well I can manage portion control. ˜”*°• ꜱᴛᴀᴛꜱ •°*”˜ Next AM Weight: 143.8 lbs 🔽Body Fat: 27.2% 🔽BMI: 23.2 🔽 ˜”*°• ɢᴇᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ 125 ᴘᴏᴜɴᴅꜱ •°*”˜ Daily Workout: not a full workout. but a stoll w Raptor was better than nothing. => 0.75 ptsAdhere to Caloric Schedule: 1,608 kcal eaten against 1,500 kcal allotted. => 0.93 ptsLog Daily Metrics: yes. => 0.00 ptsMake Next Week's Food Plan: N/A => N/ALog Monthly Body Measurements: N/A => N/ABONUS: 7-Day Rolling Avg: 2,198 kcal rolling average of last seven days for daily consumption. ick.BONUS: Water: did not track. ˜”*°• ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇ ᴍʏ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ •°*”˜ Do Daily AM Prep: yes. => 1.00 ptsDo Daily PM Review: yes. => 1.00 ptsComplete Mood Form Daily: one. => 1.00 ptsTrack Meds: yes. => 1.00 pts ˜”*°• ᴘᴜʀꜱᴜᴇ ᴍʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ •°*”˜ Follow Career Work Schedule: N/A => N/AMiscellaneous Shit: any additional work on this larger goal deserves acknowledgment. => N/A ˜”*°• ʀᴇꜱᴜᴍᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ •°*”˜ Write for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/ABe Artsy for One Hour per Week: did not today, but this is a weekly goal. => N/A ˜”*°• ꜱᴄᴏʀᴇ •°*”˜ Today: 8.18/10.00 => 81.83%This Week: 13.26/18.00 => 73.68%Total: 139.55/194.00 => 71.93%

yeah, I get what you mean though. <3333 and thanks. it's just bizarre. she was always constant thing in my life that made sense. but when the counter-comparison is my father, a fucking hurricane would seem sturdy and dependable.

oh, y'all. I saw my mom again today. she once again interrupted my sentence unrelatedly, this time to ask me how much I weigh. I said, "147 lbs, as of this morning." she goes, "you don't look it. if you keep losing weight, you really will look like one of those <does gagging action and sounds effects again>." enraged at this point, I was like, "so that's not really cool to say that to me." "oh? why not?" "because I have friends who are bulimic. and it's he way you're communicating it, instead of just saying that I'd look like someone who struggles with eating issues." (btw, "struggling with eating issues" is the exact terminology I've used to describe myself in her presence before.) right then, my dad and Brian start walking up, so she changes the subject. I just don't even know what to do. she pulls that shit a third time, I'll fucking Out my ED to her clear as day, no matter who may be around this time. because I can't handle this again.