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So often I find the Hanged Man to be reflective of exactly this "you don't know what you don't know" moment. Here's a dude who has to hang upside down and crosslegged to see things differntly / better. It's not just a transition moment to me, but a perspective shift, and not really one we can always enact for ourselves, but one that has to be imposed on us by the universe or some external source (like reading a book or seeing a movie, or hearing the garbage get picked up -- the Universe is weird and random and often makes use of mundane details because --gosh! -- there are just so many of them).    Air / Swords / Intelligence can always cut the weilder, and when taken with the (what was it, Hawthorn? I forget now, but you know which one I mean) ten card that represented burnout, I think this is indicative of a new perspective coming to you. I honestly think you've been through a seriously fertile few weeks, and that this lacuna of no-houseguest, no-Dave is exactly what will allow the perspective to percolate. Be easy with yourself. Throw away half-eaten things that were never for you inthe first place; eat good ingredients weirdly mixed; let the adulting happen in spurts and fits as it will. You are grand and the Universe loves you. ❤️ 

Maybe the Universe wants public philosphy and writing my novel to be my second job. I'm going to sit with that (while listening to Broken Boy Soldiers).    I will have ten Star Trek & Philosophy one-sheets prepped and ready to go, with a page of Notes To Self on each one for things to remember when guiding the discussion. I am pretty certain that I could put this together as a "portfolio" and write a local group and ask for $15,000 to run it monthly (which would cover the cost of renting a room at the arts center next door, advertising and printing supplies, and my TA level salary). This has merit.   I love the way the GroupThink happens here. ❤️ 

I've had a couple of days like that lately myself, where I'm just trying to make the macros fit together while still eating colorfully and getting protein. It's led to odd bedfellows: whey protein and Greek yogurt and riced cauliflower and spiced broccoli and, somehow, it fits my macros. Can't say I fully get how this happens, but, as you say, it could be worse.

#DruidApproved.

Pardon me, I'm going to sit in awe of the sheer solidarity that this statement represents.  

You are so right. I have a lot of sympathy for Spinoza who turned down the offer of being a professor and chose to remain a lens-grinder and counted that as freedom.    After I read Kim Tolley's Professors in the Gig Economy  (a collection of really great essays), I had an a-ha moment that it wasn't just me and it wasn't just this town and or that organization -- academia is in its death throes and I would be better off launching my public philosophy series and writing a grant based on its success. This is not hyperbole: A community college adjuct professor in my town earn $750/credit hour or $2,250/course (IF the class doesn't get canceled, in which cse the lion's share of prep work and time commitment has already happened, but the professor gets paid nothing). A Teaching Assistant at my University makes $12,000 a year (and also gets tuition forgiven, but I don't really care about that since I'm nearly in a post-tuition moment). I could easily write a grant for the public philosophy series that is more in line with a TA income than an adjunct professor, and that's the moment that I knew that I would likely never join the academia circus.   My long term plans were never about being "an academic," thank goodness. The only reason I'm a grad student now is becuase I have a sense of real urgency about the timeliness and importance of what I'm researching. I am looking forward to going back to having my intellectual investigations be a hobby amongst friends.   You know how I love the Raconteurs, especially this album. Have you heard the live version of "Level?" It just blows me away, every time.  

I'm picturing you sipping at your tea while everyone's doing shots and that's classy as heck. Rock on! You do you!    Oh I saw a cool insta reel I wanted to try for meatless donair/gyro using brown lentils. It seemed easy enough. https://www.instagram.com/reel/C3dFd_BuCzq/?igsh=cm5neGdlNGs3ZWgw   Apparently you can do the same with red lentils for a tofu without soy.   

Well done fitting in all that exercise.  No wonder you didn't have time to read 

How did the consultation go?    This is not medical advice. I am not a doctor. Definitely talk to your physio.  But here's my two cents (do you say two pence?).  You can investigate potential muscle involvement. How does it feel to massage or foam roll around your knee? For example: How's your soleus, your gastroc, everything that attaches on the inside of your knee (the adductors, inner hamstrings, etc?) How's your quads, especially your vastus medialis and rectus femoris? How does it feel to trace the gastroc down or the adductors, hamstrings, and quads up?  If you don't know what they're supposed to feel like, you can compare to your left leg.  That may give you more precise information about where the problem is  (and where to focus your efforts.)  However, remember that having a muscle problem does not guarentee that that's the only problem.    Also, how does it feel to jump in place?  That may help you differentiate between high impact (shared with running and walking up inclines) versus particular movements or angles.    Good luck! 

Lm squats 3x8 bar+27.5kg ar push-ups 6,5,5 rows 50kg 6x3 curls 2x8 / laterals / 2x20 lm press 120 degrees 3x8  bar+13kg / rear  delts 2x20 Band high pulls 2x20   Added 2.5kg on legs Added a rep on assisted ring push ups Added 1 set on rows Added 0.5kg on lm press but only did 2 sets