alienjenn

all right Y'ALL!!! I am going to try to be back... who knows... lot's of stuff going on big update later

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Even if it IS snowing we can have the foods and the visits and the puppy snuggles Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

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I miss this place. I miss what it used to be. It's hard to be away. But I don't like the new layouts, I can't find what I want. Wah wah wah wah wah Sigh Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

Dude I haven't read the whole thing (this challenge is 8 pages long) I'm proud of you and finishing the Spartan. And so fast? And solo? That's epic level shit there. Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

I didn't realize it was a new challenge already Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

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Copy paste from one of my groups​ Hi y'all! I'm Jenn. Just wanted to pop in and introduce myself. I lost my mom in April. She'd been sick for years (she had the first brain surgery when I was 11, today I turn 40). We sometimes joked "if I had a dollar for every time the doctors said "she won't make it through the night" I'd retire a very rich woman". She had many many health problems. Ninety percent of the time, I'm grateful that she's gone. There's no more suffering and no more pain. I believe at this point she's fully healed and in a perfect body and dancing in heaven. But little things send me into a sobbing mess. Like driving to work one day I noticed how much my hands look like hers and I had a total beaches moment and had to play Bette Middler songs and cry sing at the top of my lungs. Like the other day the song we played at her celebration of life came on (funeral for a friend by Elton John) and I couldn't stop crying. Like today, I'm about to get up and celebrate my 40th birthday, and I just want my mom. I feel lost. I'm not usually super emotional about this. Most of the time I'm GLAD she's gone, because she was suffering so much. But I'm feeling wounded today. Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

So I know I've been jazzed about my teeth and brushing and whatnot. But I'm excited. 7 day streak of twice a day. And 18 days where it's been at LEAST once a day. I think this is the best I've done in years I like seeing the stickers. I can't wait till I can unpack my travelling bedroom and get my sticker charts out again. (That one Monday I DID once, I just didn't run the app) I miss stickers Also I dunno if I've shared a lot of the apartment and whatnot but we have a bunk bed and it super helps with getting out of bed when you got squat doms (It wouldn't accept the one with better definition for some reason) Made it back into the gym for the first time in a long time. Kept it light though because it's been forever It feels good to be home Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

Some of you may remember my teeth brushing escapades and trials Here's a copy paste update and book review I wanted to bring this conversation about this book over here and just start a new thread (since I was talking about it on the self esteem post but that's not EXACTLY what it's about). I'm copying something I posted, than adding new thoughts. "OMG Listening to this book and thinking I wish like hell I'd found it YEARS ago. BUT then I laughed and laughed because I wasn't ready for it. I can't imagine how my life would have been different had I found it YEARS ago. But it wouldn't have had this perfect impact on me years ago. It's happening in the perfect time. When the pupil is ready the master appears. And I'm super glad that I'm LISTENING to the book. Because I just bought the book to read again in my own time and I'm realizing that I'd have had a MUCH different reaction to the written words than I'm having to the spoken words. I had an interaction today that I immediately began inquiry on. I started laughing out loud because I heard The Work of Byron Katie in my head "but sweetheart can you absolutely KNOW that it's true?" And I knew it WASN'T true and my visceral reaction in that moment was to be mad and upset. But what I was wanting to be mad and upset about was false!!! So I laughed!! (And then I explained why I was laughing. And played some of the book for him because I heard Katie's voice loud and clear in my head!)" Also tonight I was super proud about my brushing this month. I've never (as in never ever in all my life ever) been consistent with brushing twice a day. I mean when I still lived at home my mom was still asking me at 17 if I'd brushed before bed. It's just not been something that I've been good at. (Last week I spent five hundred dollars on special cleaning (scaling with numbing) and whitening stuff and a new brush and and and. My mom's teeth were rotting in her mouth from periodontal disease because she didn't have coverage for that. And she always fused over my yellow teeth so I decided to take some money from her life insurance and get my teeth taken care of. I've had insurance since starting with my company I've just never gone.) Anyway, back to the book. I starting thinking that it was a little stupid to be proud of brushing my teeth. I'm almost 40 for ducks sake!!!! And I heard Katie's voice "sweetheart, can you really know that's true?" And started crying. I'm like no it's NOT true. Absolutely not. It's not stupid to be proud of the fact that I'm taking care of my body. I can't think of one stress free reason to keep that thought. I can't recommend this book enough. I feel so so so energized in my brain reading this book Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

Dentist today Got my face half numbed and scaled. It was no where near as bad as I feared. Although I went to lunch after and needed a nap. Life without coffee is no bueno. (didn't drink before appointment because I prefer not to puke on the people) (Ok I dunno if I like this with Tapatalk because it doesn't look like the pics are going where I want them) Anyway they did this thing where they doctor a picture of me to show me with white teeth. Lumineers I think they're called. I cried. I don't know the last time I had WHITE teeth. I hate teeth. Sigh Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

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hey Karina!!! I have been so super frustrated... In that picture I posted earlier... just up there.. I am actually 4# heavier than I was in the first picture... like wtf... also my dentist appointment yesterday wasn't as bad as I was fearing it would be. I have 8 cavities. 1 fractured tooth from grinding my teeth at night. I need to go back today to have my teeth scaled and then later to have the cavities filled. I was worried though that I would have very bad periodontal disease because my gums bleed so bad, she said it isn't very bad. They score things 1+ 1-3 is GOOD and 4+ is bad. I have a lot of 1-3 teeth and a lot of 4 teeth and some 5s. She said that she's seen a 10, so she didn't think my teeth were THAT bad. Sent from my QTAIR7 using Tapatalk

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I've been in an internet wasteland. I'm leaving here Thursday ish. I'll be in Cincinnati this weekend and home next. More to come. But first..... On the left? 21 March. On the right? Last night Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

I've been in an internet wasteland. I'm leaving here Thursday ish. I'll be in Cincinnati this weekend and home next. More to come. But first..... On the left? 21 March. On the right? Last night Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

OMG I hadn't realized how long it's been since I've been in here!!! Sent from my XT1650 using Tapatalk

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She was amazing. I don't know what I'd have done without her This week I'm going back to basics 1. "Am" routine 2. "PM" routine 3. Exercise - step goal OR 10 minutes 4. WATER - "6" cups (I got the big cups) 6. Post in my battle log every day Goal for today? Write out my three step a.m. And p.m. routines Sent from my VS985 4G using Tapatalk

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Her service went much better than I expected I'm home. We got to the funeral home at about 1230 to sign papers and whatnot. The service was supposed to start at like one. (that's what I understood at least) people started filtering in and the place was packed by about 115. When I got there my amazing friend Marion was there. She was like my fricken ROCK. She was like you think of me as your island and you come to me when you need a breather. I walked the circuit. She helped me get stuff set up and taken down and whatnot. Anyway I thought we were starting at 1. Apparently the funeral home guy thought two. So everyone just kinda mingled. My cousin Jason said a few words and then I said a few words. A couple others said some things. My favorite was when my nephew Zander said his favorite memory of Oma was when they went to Chinese dinner and his dad (his mom's second husband not my brother) asked him if he was going to have ice cream or noodles and Oma said why not both? And her said "Oma did so much for other people so we should do so much for other people for Oma". That's how I want her remembered. Anyway I talked again after people and told everyone the food was at the dav and whatnot. Apparently brother was on the phone drunk trying to get aunt b to come get him. She refused Then we go to the dav, Jeff and uncle s had set stuff up before the service. Aunt Debbie and uncle Dewayne stopped and got chicken so I didn't have to. Everything was awesome. Marion helped set EVERYTHING up and made food look pretty and whatnot. About an hour into it brother came. Apparently outside he threatened uncle Steve and Jeff (because he hates my ex. Ok well don't we all? Ok maybe not ALL but you know) and aunt b was am amazing diplomat. She calmed Alex down and kept him away from uncle. He was so drunk. I've never seen anyone that drunk before. He gave me a hug and was slobbering on my shoulder and snoring. Like scared me drunk. He promised not to make a scene and someone brought him food and he sat so I went back to sit with my friends. He didn't REALLY make a scene. At one point he was kinda loud to my friend about how half these people couldn't even look her in the eye and whatnot but Marion was awesome about THAT too. He say down by me and was just crying and like I'm sorry I'm sorry I just don't know what to do anymore. I asked if he'd called his sponsor. He started ranting about that and I told him "I understand that you're hurting. I feel though that you're got ineffective coping skills and you need to develop some new ones." he looked for a minute like he was going to come across the table at me but then he got up and left. After that I just hang out and eat and told a million stories about mom. Chatted with cousins and friends Marion helped clean everything up and was such a blessing. I don't know how I'd have made it through the day without her. Marion took that during my eulogy. And posted this in my heroes group Look how damn brave and beautiful our leader is. Eulogizing your mother is probably the hardest thing any of us will ever do, and she did it with class and sass. I wore bright orange in protest of it being a "funeral" mom never wanted any of that. I joked that if Ezra popped during the service that mom would be laughing her ass off. Like "that's what I think about THAT" [emoji14] I wrote this for the papers Sherrie Wiegel, 57, of Michigan City passed away suddenly on Tuesday, April 18, 2017, at her home in Michigan City. Cremation services have been selected by the family. A time of remembrance to celebrate her life will be held on Sunday, April 30, 2017, from 1 - 2:30 p.m. at the Root Funeral Home. A short memorial service will be held at 2:30 and a time for gathering and celebrating her life will be after services at a place to be announced at the services. Sherrie was born July 8, 1959, in Michigan City to the late Vincent and Judith (Brewer) Hogan. She didn't really want an obituary (who does?), so let this be a brief biography with unfortunate placement. Sherrie was born in Michigan City, but she was born a ramblin (wo)man. She travelled extensively through the United States and even made it to Africa twice! She loved everyone the only way she knew how, fiercely and with all of her being. No one ever left her house hungry, and she was a darn fine cook. The number of people who considered her Oma is uncountable. Sherrie is joining her sisters (Patti Zimpfer and Debbie Beaman) at that great party in the sky, and is survived by her amazing children, Jenn Frye and Alex Wiegel. She also leaves behind her honorable grandchildren, Jeffery Frye, Caitlynn Frye, Christian Frye and Alexzander Wiegel Jr.. Additionally her big brothers, Steve (Brenda) Lenchke and Dwayne (Debbie) Hogan are sticking around here on earth for a while. She has a half-sister, Christa (Gerald) Cooper; half-brother, Jim (Linette) Swiger and step-mother, Barbara Hogan, and many nieces and nephews and friends. Sherrie was a prolific writer and had received her bachelors degree and masters degree in Psychology from Purdue University and Indiana University South Bend. She was working on getting her Phd. In lieu of flowers, the family requests that donations may be made to one of Sherries favorite charities: Disabled American Veterans, SPCA, or March of Dimes. I'm glad THAT part is done. Today we finish cleaning out the house and send home oldest boy Sent from my VS985 4G using Tapatalk

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I was here two welds and she was hospitalized again. Then about two weeks she was sick and I was here every day off. I've got an assignment about ninety minutes from here. Today is the service. The family issues are the main reason I've been back less than a dozen times since I left seventeen years ago. Everyone is bickering and my brother is drunk again. There's a lot more than I want to type on my phone. I'll come back later in the week and do a big update. I've been trying to keep the anxiety monster at bay. Not one person in my family over 45 hasn't had a heart attack. Mom was 57. I'll be 40 in June. I need to ramp things up again and get on this shit and get in shape before I have a heart attack Sent from my VS985 4G using Tapatalk

Mom died on the 18th. Still family issues I feel lost Sent from my VS985 4G using Tapatalk