alienjenn

Thanks... I struggle a LOT with beating myself up for failure (both real and perceived)... and I need to get over it I'm happy with my new goals... As for devo... I should probably just do them whenever we think about it and stop letting life get in the way... I will not be able to find one set time of day no matter how hard I try because there isn't one... It would make the routine easier... But then we don't have much routine (which is why it is difficult... Sigh) Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

ok... and I am also going to be easier with myself on the grading for the gym... I went 2X the first week... planning 2X this week... still deciding either 2 or 3 times next week... then 3 times after that... I start back to work again next week... and I am not sure how the foot will react to work (and being on it for 13-14 hours... since I work a 12 hour shift!) so I MAY decide to do gym 2X in week 3 and 4... and then 3X in week 5 and after... I have to EASE back into things... I haven't been to the gym in 2 months (since the week before the injury) and I have to be careful not to re-injure myself... especially since I am still dealing with considerable amounts of pain... (I will edit the post above so it is coherent...) so totals so far... log everything 4/42 walk/ride 3/15 gym 3/14 devotions 5/42 I am kinda upset with myself for the devotions goal... my kids (well my 12 year old) WANT to do it... we just get busy and forget until after it is time to go to bed... and once I get back to work this will be harder because I work nights... I have been trying to figure a time of the day that would be consistent and everything that works when I work nights... I am just not sure how to make this work!! (sigh ) I am ok (ish) with my new calorie goal... I think that just tracking for a while will be good for me... I was on some medication last month that had a side effect of psychotic depression... and I kind of got out of control because I was VERY depressed and ready to just say screw it (I had a couple of binges that were >15000 calories... just eating to eat because I thought it would make my mind feel better... funny the things that you can rationalize when you aren't being rational!) I need to know where I am to know how to get to where I am going... I like the walking/riding new goal... I have a goal (when not injured) of 100+ miles per month... but it has been impossible... in sept I wasn't able to walk... and didn't start walking until mid oct... so in sept I have ZERO miles... oct 1.7 and so far for nov 10.8... I am trying to work back up to where I was (in aug I had 167) so my 10.8 so far in nov looks nice compared to oct... but upsets me compared to aug!!! (I might offer bonus points for miles ridden greatly>3 or miles walked greatly>1.5 in one setting or for more than 15 times in the challenge... I haven't decided yet... it depends on my progression of healing... because pre-injury a 15 mile bike ride was a SHORT one... and a 4-5 mile walk/hike was a short one...) I am comfortable adjusting the grading on my gym goal... I do not want to injure myself by pushing too far too fast...

ok so I reevaluated my goals... and I have to change them... I can not continue to work on the push up program AND go to the gym... the push up program is too much like a workout and with my DOMS I can NOT work out 4 times a week!! so I am going to add a push ups set to one of my gym day (because I can currently do 4 proper pushups) and do them that way... I am going to change THAT goal to walk >1.5 miles OR ride >3 miles 3 X a week... there is still a great deal of time left so I am going to say 15 times gets me an A+... and keep this grading 12+ days, A; 11 days, B; 10 days, C; 9 days, D; 8 days, E; 7 or less days, F now my calorie goal... I would like to eventually get to 2000 cal / day... but I was too ambitious... I will START by logging EVERYTHING (with at least an estimated calorie count if it is something home made that I have to guess on... the holidays and unknown food are here!) by the end of the challenge I will have made a decision about trying paleo OR be on 2Kor< cal/day... I will keep the grading I have set up... I get credit for a day if I log the whole thing... part of my deal is that I have to know what goes into my body... and I have to track it... so no matter what I decide to do I will be tracking... so I am going to use this challenge to get into the habit of tracking so I can kick some serious @$$ next year... also I am thinking that if I work on my exercising more seriously... then my eating will fall into line... because I get to the point where I think "I just walked and burned 400 calories... is that 600 calorie item really worth it?? NO"... 1) LOG everything with a final goal of 2000 calories or less per day a. 38-42 days, A; 35-37 days, B; 28-34 days, C; 17-27 days, E; 16 days or less, F 2) walk >1.5 miles OR ride >3 miles 3 X a week (15 times) a. 12+ days, A; 11 days, B; 10 days, C; 9 days, D; 8 days, E; 7 or less days, F 3) gym 3x/week (18 times) a. 14+ days, A; 13 days, B; 11-12 days, C; 9-10 days, D; 7-8 days, E; 6 or less F 4) Devotions with my kids every day a. 38-42 days, A; 35-37 days, B; 28-34 days, C; 17-27 days, E; 16 days or less, F

I'll have to look the next time I am at walmart... I will have to wait until a couple paychecks after I get back to work to buy since it's a nonessential... this disability pay isn't cool

Interesting... I have heard a lot about foam rollers but never seen one... I watched the vid... Where would you buy one? Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

I am not certain I understand what one is to do with a foam roller...

hit this gym this morning... warm up- treadmill 10 min - 0.4 miles weight room (#*rep* sets) alternating dumbbell row 15*12*1 + 20*12*3 dumbbell side bend 20*15*1 + 25*12*3 back extensions/hyperextensions 0*10*4 assisted chinup - 240*8*2 +240 *10*2 inverted row on the smith machine (body weight @ shoulder height) 5*3 sit up (on the exercise ball) 18*4 (total of 72!!!) then I walked the greenway (1.8 miles) in 39 min!! I cut my time by 3 min... and I jogged... EVER so slowly and carefully and gently... but I jogged for about 20 seconds (in two sets) I broke my foot jogging (on that trail...) and I was VERY nervous... but I was ever so careful... and I JOGGED!!!! will do a real update tonight... but wanted to get this in here before I burst from excitement about jogging

Thanks Onyx... for a LONG time I had a problem with comparing myself to ... well myself... but "high school me"... and finally one day I asked someone who knew me in high school... could I do this (140 mile bike ride in 4 days) or this (10 mile mountain climb with 1.5 miles of rock scramble) or this (lifting at the gym and going regular) or this (going hiking for three days and doing thirty miles in the AT) and he was like... honey NO you couldn't! I was 150# lighter... but in MUCH worse shape... so I got over that... by realizing that I wasn't really comparing anything worth comparing... apples to oranges... and I am trying to realize that comparing pre and post injury me is very much like apples and oranges

Did devotionals with the kids this morning (we have a podcast called keys for kids that we listen to) and my 12 year old ran out the door... Stuck his head back in and said "I like when we have devotional in the morning mom it helps me to have even just a little part of my day that I devote to God can we do this more often?" I about melted )))) Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

You're welcome Yes... Me too... I need to grow my no muscles.... Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

I've been looking into foam rollers... I might try one... I'm definitely going to start paying more attention to my protein.... Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

Woot! I'm proud of you... Can't wait till I get there too Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

It's after any kind of workout that's strenuous... Hiking something hard... Weights... A giant bike ride... Those have gotten less heinous... Used to be a two mile level hike or a three ish mile bike ride... Now (well pre_injury) I can go about thirty miles on the bike or about four miles moderate or two miles strenuous hiking to get the doms... It has ALWAYS been at the gym no matter how much I warm up or stretch after... I have never tracked protein in association with doms... I might have to see of increasing out helps... Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

Not sure how the push up program is going to work with also going to the gym... Forgot how much pain I get from doms... Very intense... Especially since I'm going back to work next week may have to totally rethink the push up goal... Also considering rethinking my calorie goal... Maybe make it to log... I haven't logged the last three days because I knew I didn't make it... I think if I start logging everything no matter what I can make gradual adjustments downwards.... Sigh... I'm feeling very loser like tonight Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

if you were closer... I would make you soup... it wouldn't mail well

AND... I will be going back to work on wednesday I am ever so excited about that!!!

week 2 update 2/3 sunday - Calories nope push ups nope Gym nope Devo yup monday Calories nope push ups nope Gym nope - although I am going to give myself credit for it. I did go and walk 1.8 miles and cut my time by 20 minutes. Since I am recovering from the broken foot I didn't feel up to making it to the weight room. But I did walk. Also, last week was my first week back at the gym since being broken and I went twice, so I am planning twice this week and then either two or three times next week and definitly 3 times the week after that to ease my way into not overdoing it and causing injury. Because injury=bad. Devo yup totals so far calories - 2/42 pushups - 1/19 gym - 3/18 devo - 2/42 I am feeling rather hard on myself... but we had out thanksgiving on saturday... and I have had leftovers... and my check was short so basically the only food I have is leftovers... sigh... I am so frustrated... also I decided today I need to try much harder to not beat myself up... pre-injury my time on that trail (1.8 miles) was 28 min... two weeks ago I did it in 61 min and today I was mentally kicking myself and telling myself how horrible that time was... but I got towards the end and realized that I am basically starting at ZERO again because I haven't worked out or exercised in two months (since 27 aug... so almost three) and I need to not compare myself to pre-injury me... but I should compare myself to square zero me... (if I compare at all!) I can't beat myself up for not being as good as I was before the injury when this is only the second time I am out walking (really) since then!!!

like I said... I am looking into paleo... it seems interesting and worth trying... I am just trying to figure out how to fit it into our lives...

I am researching it... I have a lot of health issues... and have to balance things or I end up bedridden... I tried atkins once (about 10 years ago) and ended up in first stage liver failure... liver enzymes through the roof... STILL have an enlarged liver ... so... have to be very careful when changing things... thanks for the welcome!

researching DOMS.... let's say I work out monday... and I work out hard... and I feel good leaving the gym... then tuesday evening I start to get sore... and wednesday I wake up and I can hardly move... this is why I can't do total body work outs and have to separate and isolate my body parts so that I can go to the gym three days a week... I hate feeling so sore most of the time when I go to the gym... I LOVE going... and I LOVE feeling strong... but sore doesn't feel strong!!!

Could be... I stood legs together beside the bench and sat then stood... not sure I never realized how much I like going to the gym until I couldn't! I was so frustrated to have to be on my couch for six weeks because of my foot I'm still not 100% but I'm getting there Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

Week 2 1/3 Thursday Calories yep (1995) push ups nope Gym nope Devo nope Friday Calories yep (1699) push ups nope Gym nope Devo nope Saturday Calories nope push ups nope Gym yup Devo nope Gym (#*rep* sets) Front two dumbbell raise 15*10*4 dumbbell one arm shoulder press 15*10*3 + 20*10*1 Alternate hammer curl 15*10*3 +20*10*1 Wide grip lat put pull down 70*10*4 Chin ups assisted 230*8*1 + 240*8 *3 Bench squat 20*10*3 I'm trying to figure out why my legs hurt so much... Before the broken foot I did squats on the smith machine... With 40 # on the bar... And I could walk afterwards... Today my legs feel like jello and I can barely walk... Sigh Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

I've tried the low carb thing... And I find that I can indeed eat 4000 calories of just veggies I'm good (or bad?) Like that... :banghead: Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2

crabtree falls is beautiful lots of up I much prefer doing it in cooler weather Sent from my DROID X2 using Tapatalk 2