Bekah

At least I never have to worry about you. You destroy goals like they are chocolate cake at a birthday party

wow looks like you jumped back in with a vengeance And I dont think I can make camp this year anyhow, so no worries about the tutu

Swing Dancing and applying to Nerd Fitness...fabulous Good luck with both!

Thank you I dont even remember what my goals were...and its like week 6 almost anyhow isnt it? Geez. I have been okay for the last couple of weeks, mentally and physically, but have been doing nothing outside of Weight Watchers and Yoga teacher training...and even that not I'm not really doing much with, in terms of studying and practice and whatnot. I HAVE been watching lots of NCIS...lol I DID finally hear back from the job coach about finding me a potential job...nothing yet but we are looking at work from home opportunities, because that will eliminate a lot of my work struggles and for now the new med dose is working and I am okay mentally, so it if stays that way, I can probably handle work part time. Im sure nothing will happen until after the holidays but at least its in the works in a real way now. Now I will go check on all of you....because its how this works

hi y'all sorry I have been MIA I have just been wanting to do nothing but binge watch NCIS and eat and sleep. I'm feeling more stable but also more withdrawn. I'm not even loving the Secret Santa thing this year, and thats just shitty I started Weight Watchers a few weeks ago and lost 2.8 lbs this week though. So thats something positive.

it should be all settled now

omg! I'm glad you caught it! Does everyone have something on the wishlist to buy for their person now?

what?? geez this thing is wacky! Did you buy for them already? If so PM me and I will figure something out

shit, i have no idea how to redraw if people already sent gifts!

hahaha ok I emailed everyone on the list. I know one person already sent their gift to their Santee, If you havent sent one, hold off till the end of the week in case I have to do a redraw.

They are all NF people, just some from the Camp crowd who arent forum people. I will message everyone (if I can) and tell them to update their lists or they will be dropped.

not everyone on the list this year is from the forum, but im surprised at how many arent listing wish list items. My person hasnt either. Amazon gift cards for all!!!!

Today is yhe last day to sign up for anyone who has been on the fence

my goal for week 2 was...don't go into the hospital or die. I succeeded. this week is shaping up to be similar, but I'm winning.

both

not me! lol Hopefully someone can though! Nerds are smart folks

omg you guys are the best!!!! Things started to shift for the better on Friday sometime and have been stable over the weekend. Yesterday I had a pressure headache and had to lay flat on my back literally for the entire day (boo brain fluids!!!) bc every time i sat up my head felt like it was going to explode! By midnight the pressure was back to normal and today was fine I cleaned a corner of my room. I read something today that said "clutter is energy constipation and who needs that?" Not me! lolololol Hopefully this will be an excellent week for us all

YESSSSSSS!!!!!! I am soooo excited! Make sure you add things to your elfster lists and likes/dislikes for homemade gifts too

funny gifs are great

well...shit happened and I am very not okay. I'm past the point of where logic is changing my thought patterns, so Im basically existing and putting nothing but happy fun things in my face as much as possible until it passes.

oh no! I hope tomorrow is better and you dont have to use all your spoons at work!

the weekend didnt go well. I'm trying to make today a win though. I am still planning to go to yoga this afternoon and I moved my dresser into my closet and made room for a chair in my bedroom so thats a nice addition to my room and gives me a place to be that isnt laying in my bed. I went to BJs Saturday and spent too much money and it kinda started a downward spiral of emotions. I don't know how to reconcile buying things I need, but cant actually afford. Although I went to Aldi's yesterday and can save a lot on groceries going there and they have lots of stuff with no artificials and gluten free. I'm really upset about gaining so much weight since Camp too...but I know there is only one way to get rid of it. I was talking to my friend yesterday and we realized that at the core of everything in life is boundaries. Boundaries with ourselves, with others, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual boundaries...it all boils down to that. Which reminded me of what Tank said about not treating myself like a spoiled child, but I realized that that is SOOOOOOOO HARD!!! I have to have things in my life that are fun and happy and good, because most things arent. I know I'm hypersensitive to everything around me and feel the bad things more than most, even when it doesnt have anything to do with me (like violent tv) so maybe I need to start with boundaries around that, not letting the bad from the outside in to my life. I'm not sure how to do that though. Any ideas?

I saw this and thought of you

You will be missed over the weekend I'm sure it will be a blast though!!! WTG on finishing up everything by Friday in preparation, thats awful smart