I am Eve

That is what I call perspective!

Ok. Send me one please ;-)

I just tried a "pull up machine" for the first time at the gym today. Thought it was amazing....Anyone who has experience with those?

Beautiful last words (not last as in very last but you know what I mean)

Wednesday Rereading what I wrote yesterday I feel proud that I have the ability to listen inwards, and act in ways that benefit me. Proud and happy. FB yesterday: twice Three things I like about myself from yesterday I know how to halt the downward spiral I never give up My hipbones, strong and feminine Today Wednesday I slept at work after a night on call because there is construction work going on in my apartment building. Now it is evening and I had a good day with some shopping, paperwork, "work work" and a phonecall with a good friend. Moving back towards being on track. Trying to lovebomb myself since I am quite tired: candles, nice tea, dark chocolate, soft and warm clothes.....This is what I need right now. Facebook: twice Yoga - later tonight before sleep Three things I like about myself I am getting older and I actually enjoy that quite a lot. I laugh easily I love passionately

That is what I thought. You can do this, I believe in you!

Anticipation can be so enjoyable. Enjoy your break - you deserve it

Not a hobbit?! I thought we all were part hobbit.....

Tuesday Tough morning Reflection Some days, like today, I still wake up with my stomach knotted into a lump of anxiety. It is impossible to know what I am anxious about, or maybe it is everything. Lately I have been slipping, I have lost track of my main goal in this challenge , the goal I have realized that I need to have for quite a while, to have myself as my main focus. I realize it happens easily when one, as I, has the personality of someone prone to fatigue syndrome. When on the verge of what I can manage I take one step more just because I want to, and start on the downward slope of losing energy. When I get low on energy I lose focus, clarity of thought and judgement. There is no big danger yet tough, I haven’t been completely unaware of this but I need to take action. Yesterday after coming home from my husband I was ”good” for a while (unpacked, made dinner, prepped for the coming week). Then I wanted to reward/console myself and had some wine and started to do a bit of mindless surfing to relax. I know it doesn’t have the desired effect but rather disillusions me and drains me of energy but bad habits die hard as well. So I wake up with anxiety. What I do. I lay down on the mat to meet my thoughts. To meet with me. I feel shame because of my anxiety and need to tell myself that it’s ok. Things were SO much worse back when I was ill and now I know what to do (even though I don’t always do it anyway). I have the power to give myself the good life, but it’s not easy just because it is right. It takes awareness, stubbornness, and stamina to keep walking on the right path - the path that I am building for myself

Monday Reflection Going away from my husband is always hard but on the greyest Novemberday ever it really sucks. Something that sounds simple but really helps me feel better is lighting a lot of candles at home so that is what I did. It helps me feel warm, loved and looked after (by me) FB twice Yoga, shortly, before sleeping Three thingsI am hearing my needs betterI'm helpful to othersI can look after myself

Sunday Sunday I can still feel that I am high in stress levels and run a great risk of losing focus on days off because of anxiety. I chose to go out for an amazing run in the snow and it cooled me off in a marvellous way. After sauna and an hour of yoga things were a lot better. Realising that even though I know what to do it doesn't come automatic but I have to push a little really helps. FB twice with the same exception as yesterday Three thingsI believe that I know what is good for me.My triangular upper body.My positive attitude

I hope you feel better soon!

Daily Journal: 100 points Cleaned Something: 100 points Long Meditation Session: 1000 points! Week Two Total: 6,260 / 5400 points. Woo! Feeling pretty super about this week. Actively working on shutting down guilt before it affects me negatively helps, especially because most of the guilt is about unnecessary things that I don't need to stress about. Also having a clean house and remembering to do a quick tidy up more then once a week makes me feel productive, even if I spend all my down time playing LOTRO. Isn't it great to realize your ability to change things?! Way to go!

^^ Also: No, I just turned 47 and I can tell you for sure that I still have the "How do I adult" fun and games or worries depending on what day it is....

I KNOW. But, alas, living in the beautiful but remote Sweden it's not so easy.....

That sounds like all the kung fu you need. Sending hugs of strength your way.

Ah, cats! Great tips, I will definitely try the chair and keep focused on my shoulders. Isn't it a great feeling slipping in to clothes that fit comfortably. I am so impressed by your work!

Meaning?

Congratulations! Well done

I'd say keep the momentum! A lot of inspiration and great musings here, great job Ripple. I dislike going to the gym so much that I had my physiotherapist go through a program at specific machines so that I don't give in just because I feel so out of place. It actually works

I second number two immensely, it helps me a lot when I feel negaitive

Keeping up the good work?

Well done! I don't like spiders either but feel a bit embarrassed admitting to it....

The images I see before me....(re: cat) How was Monday?

Great start of the challenge Kiazi! Stability is a good goal