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Ooft. He's got 1kg for every cm of height now!

Has he gained even more weight? I thought he was in the high 180s?

Basically talking to myself again. Took a day off work and dossed about a bit. Slept in Went into town and went to a Pilates class Met @TeeCam for lunch (which stretched to two and a half hours) Deadlifted a lot Went to a networking event and ate lots of buffet goodness Way off the reservation on calories (despite tracking estimates) but well under what would be maintenance... Weight will be up tomorrow but I'm hoping it'll come off in time.

Most people LOSE kg under comp conditions!

When you feel like shit but your quads are on point...

No, but I have a new favourite.

If this doesn't make your day a little brighter, PM me and I'll explain a hilarious mistake in the 50 Shades movie which almost made me we myself laughing... http://www.boredpanda.com/50-shades-of-grey-parody-tweets-50-nerds-of-grey/?page_numb=1

That looks much more accessible.

Removing unfunny joke.

I'm going to be really honest and say I'd struggle with the beginner level. How were the levels set? Because 18 reps at 105kg in five minutes is pretty brutal for someone with a 1RM around 140kg so how is someone with a 1RM of 100kg expected to have any hope of completing that?

#crossfit

She did but was initially nominated at 52 for Euros.

I tend towards a similar approach. Carb-fat balance is a pretty personal preference thing, really.

So skating was fun today. Got to do a lot of technique work on my crossovers. Still look a bit Bambi-like when crossing left over right but getting there. Tried some 3 turns but kept wussing and putting my second foot down as went around. Got a very blurry video of me working on spirals (balancing on one leg with the other extended with the raised skate above hip level). Still not quite there but getting better.

Highest of fives! I hadn't realised Joy had passed her Ref's exam. That's kinda cool. I saw she's gone up to the 57s for Euros.

Maybe one day I'll get over it!

I also realised that I've been very bitter and angry and I'm only making life harder for myself. I try really hard with people and then lash out when I feel that they've let me down or given up on me and then beat myself up for not being worth their time. It's a vicious cycle and it happens over and over. I don't think I'm a horrible person but I'm very socially awkward and don't really pick up on social cues that I sometimes should.

So I've totally failed to do accessories for a couple of weeks and I'm kind of paying for it. Upper back is kinda fried (lower back too, but that was expected). Taking the weekend off lifting and went to a reformer Pilates class. I was shocked at how easy it was, after years of being told it was the hardest of hard-core. Had some awesome pancakes this morning, though!

Okay, so I'm feeling a lot more positive today. I didn't have to face the person who sent me the horrible email yesterday last night, although I will at some point. I need to move on from the mess that was last year's training. I'm doing things now that I genuinely didn't think I could and I'm feeling a lot more confident in the gym so I really need to stop stewing over what happened and my perception of events. I went into training last night feeling AWFUL. Like properly want to curl up and cry and not lift anything awful. I think the relief of not having to deal with things I didn't want to helped, but (despite a ropey warm-up) the "heavy" deadlift single at 130kg was pretty easy and the main challenge of the 6x6 at 107.5kg was that my ribs were still feeling really bruised from the night before. Oh yeah, in all my misery yesterday I forgot to cover that! I realised that my blue and pink belt is now too big on what used to be the "competition day" holes (i.e. as small as I'd wear it) so I took it in to the next holes down... and it absolutely killed me. It's the right size-ish but feels kind of brutal (possibly because I now have less padding between the belt and my ribs than I used to). So yeah, feeling black and blue hence using my gold belt last night (probably about 0.5" bigger on the holes I was using and a bit more rounded). Double pause bench was... okay. My shoulders were slipping everywhere because the bench sucks and I forgot to chalk the bench as well as my shoulders until the last set or two. Skipped accessories so planning to go and do them after work before I go to the yin yoga class (unless husband does decide he'd rather I didn't do it). Did upload the full session to YouTube for once but it's boring so here's the deadlift. And yes, I'm doing total full kit wanker!

I love that so much!

Far too tall to qualify for Gibbs bonus. You must be under 5'2"!

TDEE done online is purely an estimate. If you're estimating your body fat percentage to be 30-35% then even a reasonably sizeable deficit combined with strength training isn't likely to cause "metabolic damage". An interesting suggested rule of thumb that I got from Layne Norton yesterday was if you're not losing weight at 10kcal per lb of LEAN body mass then start considering a reverse diet before losing more weight. At the moment, even with the leaner estimate of 30%, you're still 500-700 calories per day over that point (plus the re-feed calories so probably more like 700-900). Basically, if you're maintaining your weight then you're eating at what is currently your maintenance calories. You can either try to find a way to increase your caloric output or you can eat a little less. If you get to 2000 calories a day and you're not losing weight then look into reverse dieting to increase metabolic rate.

There are lots of things that impact your TDEE. I know that when I'm cutting, I'll be a lot more sluggish regardless of how hard I try not to be. Do you track your 4000-5000 calorie refeeds or is that an estimate? Have you tried taking a break from those refeeds to see what happens?

Thank you.

So as anyone reading may have been able to tell, I've been having a bad day. Had a fairly decent training session last night. Went to a smaller, totally powerlifting-focused, gym last night where I'm considering training regularly going forward. Sumo (3ct to knee, 2ct pause, 3ct eccentric): 70kg x3x6 Squats: (20kg x5) (50kg x5) (80kg x3) (100kg x2) (115kg x1) (122.5kg x1) 127.5kg x1 RPE 8.5/9 105kg x6x6 Had a bit of a faff around with my belts because I realised I was getting precisely nothing from my lever because it was too loose but the next hole in is too tight. Bench: (20kg x5) (40kg x5) (60kg x3) (70kg x1) (75kg x1) 80kg x1 RPE 8.5 (because I'm an idiot) The good bench is packed away for competitions at the moment so benching on a narrower one and got my set-up totally wrong so arse was flying and everything felt hard. I'll go back soon when the comp bench is back and that will be better. I really want to get used to benching on the right bench because change of bench seems to make a big difference to me. Didn't do accessories because it was already 15 minutes past closing by the time I was done and the owner had been nice enough to stay late