Jezzebelles

Hi everyone! Figured I could share my respawn story... So my first respawn was after my second season of drum corps I was running 3+ miles every day, and super healthy. But once winter hit, I found it so difficult to get outside and running in the cold and stopped. Two retail jobs didn't help. But then I joined a gym and it was great! But then I moved to the Albany area, and got a new full-time job that took up most of my life. But a few weeks after, I started counting calories and working out at home Respawn #2! I was sure that one would stick. Until I got very ill. It was combined anxiety and depression, and I found that I could no longer eat without feeling like I was about to lose whatever I had just eaten. I ate a net 600 calories a day, simply because it was all I could keep down comfortably. I counted every little thing I ate, not because I was trying to eat under an amount, but because I was trying to eat over 1,000. I lost 10 pounds in less than two weeks and lost even more sleep. I stopped working out because I didn't want to lose any of the small amount of calories I was eating. I slowly started to work my way back into eating by stopping the calorie counts. I am mostly back to normal, but I still can't eat like I normally did. And I ate like a tank. Which in hindsight, isn't a bad thing. I started running and dancing again. I teach a colorguard in the area, so I need to be fit so the younger students won't be wondering why I'm so out of shape. I'm trying to get back into my healthy lifestyle. I hope this third respawn will stick this time.

eventhoughthat'snotofferedthroughblizzanymore Hey everyone, how are you all doing? I know most who post here have hit that one hiccup that makes you stop your fitness, putting you back to square one. Or pretty close to there. And the others are here for support. So I won't be ashamed to admit, I'm back to square 1. I was really active in the last challenge, going for two weeks strong without any issues. I was feeling better, getting happier, and really excited to finish it out strong. But then, my health started to go down. I couldn't eat normal portion sizes without feeling like dying. Maybe not literally, but I'm being dramatic. I had extreme stomach pains, nausea, and I felt like fainting. And it was EVERY food. The only thing I could consume without feeling like death was water. I drank almost an excessive amount each day to keep the hunger down. I'd eat maybe a combined 1000 calories per day, simply because that's all I physically could. I stopped working out, I stopped playing video games. I could barely dance, and I read and listened to music a lot of the time since that's all I could manage. I went to a walk-in clinic, they couldn't tell me anything. When I finally made a PCP appointment, they finally diagnosed it as appetite loss from depression and stress. I was shocked. I thought myself as a super happy person, and normally I just associated my lack of things to boredom. But it made sense. I had moved away from a home that had two dogs, my brother, and my parents. I saw my significant other almost twice every week, and I taught an amazing color guard program. When I moved to New York, I accepted an amazing new career. My first job after graduating. I was elated for weeks when I started. But I guess I got used to the position after two months. The excitement of the new job and the new apartment wasn't as big anymore. So I went to work, went home, worked out alone, and went to bed. Repeat for almost two months. That, on top of constantly counting my calories and stressing about not eating that bowl of pasta that I know I wanted to... it basically added up to my current condition. I lost 10 pounds in about 10 days. Combined with my lack of energy, I knew I needed to change. So I stopped caring about my weight loss challenge, and focused entirely on getting my appetite back. I haven't gained all of those 10 pounds back. My goal weight is still below where I am now. I guess I have to admit I'm a little afraid to start again, simply because I don't want to end up not eating again. But I have to try. So I'll use this Scroll of Resurrection, and start all over. Wish me luck.

Update. SO unfortunately, my uncomfortable eating fits have not gone away. I've been eating my smaller meals to try and combat the sick full feeling that I've been having. I also went to a walk-in clinic to see if I had something possibly wrong with me, but they didn't come up with anything and just told me to continue eating smaller meals. I have no appetite, and might not even be eating more than 1,200 calories per day. If that. I've stopped my workouts until I find out what's wrong, because I don't want to risk losing any more weight then I already have. Since Feb 5th, I've lost around 6 pounds in less than two weeks, which I'm aware isn't a healthy amount. I'll hopefully have an answer by the end of next week. I hope the challenge is going well for everyone!

Mid-week update! So, as for food and water, I've been meeting my goals every week. I plan to have my one bagel a week tomorrow morning (my office gives us free breakfast on Fridays.... so why not). I've been doing my workouts as soon as I get home, and even though today is the dreaded cardio day, I'm looking forward to it because what I'll actually be doing is 45 minutes of Just Dance as my cardio. Honestly, best idea I've ever had. For sleep, I've been on the low end, getting close to 7 hours. I hope by the start of next week, I will be sleeping at least 7.5 hours. I try to wind down every night away from my computer and by reading. I'm about a quarter of the way done with my book for the challenge. Everything else is still a work in progress. There has only been one setback, and I've been fighting against it for this week. Every time that I eat, I feel like I'm either going to be sick or like I'm going to pass out. It's quite uncomfortable, and I thought I was allergic to something until I realized it was happening with everything that I was eating. Turns out, I can't even come close to eating the amount I used to. I don't know what caused that to happen, but once I cut down on my portion sizes, it fixed it. I mean, that's not a bad thing. It was just not the ideal way to find it out by almost smashing your face into your desk at work. I hope everything is going well for everyone on the challenge! I'll pot my end of week update on Sunday night!

First week actually went pretty well, not perfect but there were some things that I completely aced! As for fitness, I ran 30 minutes one day and did a bod weight circuit and ran for 15 minutes on another. I did start the challenge on Friday (oops), so although it wasn't the weekly goal, it was something! I went to a colorguard competition this weekend with the school that I teach, so I got some dancing and spinning in while teaching them. As for food, I wasn't the best since I was traveling across states and forgot to pre-pack before I left. Not saying I was awful, but probs not as good as I could have been. I did hit my water intake every day though, and have not broken my promise to stop drinking my coffee with so much creamer in it. That has made my mornings a lot better, and I'm actually getting more of a caffeine kick from it. I hope this upcoming week I hit every goal...and finally decide on a sewing machine! I'll look into the workouts on the site! And I've heard of Zombies, Run! Can it be done on a treadmill?? It's so chilly outside still and running in the cold isn't my favorite thing in the world :l

I've actually found that I love Shirataki tofu noodles. A little weird on the texture front if you're not used to it, but not bad with sauce! I've been afraid to tackle spaghetti squash... But I hope to get to it eventually! And I've never though of doing peaches in water. I've done the usual (lemons, cucumbers, etc) but that combo sounds delicious. I'll have to try it! Thank you!!!

That rabbit is actually me when someone says Cardio. Thank you for the good luck!

Hello! This is my first every NF challenge, and in my personal typical fashion, I'm getting in late. I've been a lurker for quite a while, but I figured it is not time to stop lurking and start participating in the challenges. My goals can be fit into four different topics: food, fitness, life, and cosplay. So... without further ado, let's get into those. FOOD Make own meals, logging recipes and intake on MyFitnessPal.This is really important to me in making sure I don't binge whenever I have to go to lunch during work or when I'm bored at home. I'm not to the point of buying a scale, but I need to use those measuring cups more often. Drink at least 2L of water PER DAY and cut down on the coffee filled with creamer.I have a water bottle that contains 750 mL of water that I keep on my person almost constantly, so I know I will need to drink at least 2.5 of this bottle per day. I'm also obsessed with coffee, with probably a little too much creamer. It's time to cut out the creamer, and bring in the skim milk. I'll say, with each daily coffee, only 2 tbs of creamer allowed, so I have a quantifiable amount. Break up with my one true love: bread and pasta.It's in my blood: I am absolutely obsessed with pasta and bread. I need to cut it down, so I will be measure this goal by only one pasta dish per week allowed for dinner. And only one bagel per week allowed. One "Treat Yourself" meal per week.I don't like the idea of "cheat" meals because after I eat them, i feel like I've done just that: cheated. I'm thinking of it more like a reward yourself for good behavior for getting through the week and being a better you. FITNESS Run for 45 minutes once a week, and 15 minutes twice a week.I hate cardio. I'd rather dance then sit on a treadmill, staring at a bad television show for hours. However, it's something I need to start doing. To get my end goal of weight loss, it's something that I need to learn to love to hate, and get over it. stillwontbehappy Perform a body weight circuit four times per weekThis will help mediate my hate for cardio. I just moved to a new state, and lost my usual gym. So I figured now would be an amazing time to start working on body weight exercises. My rest days will be Sunday, from both running and weight training. Do one yoga lesson per week.I love yoga. I've found some sort of inner peace and acceptance in it, even though I've been told otherwise. (Once at a studio, someone told me I was "too fat" for yoga....) Hopefully to be done on Sunday nights, or whenever I find the time. Spin my flag more oftenI know some people may read this, and ask "What the hell?" I've been in colorguard for almost half my life at this point, starting when I was only 14. Since then I've marched in 8 different groups, performed with 2 drum corps, and won three medals with my winter groups. I still teach, even though my body has retired itself. This is more of a happiness reset: when I'm feeling down, go out and spin. Fight the wind. Reset. LIFE Get 7-8 hours of sleep per day.I am a huge offender of sleeping enough. I usually will get around 5 hours of sleep, and wonder why I need 3 cups of coffee to get through the day. This is an attempt to fix this. Read a bookI love to read, so as a wind down to each day, I hope to get through a book by the end of the month. I'm currently reading Ready Player One. I highly recommend it. Clean the apartmentThis is a month-long project. I've moved in, and gotten a little too comfortable in my state of constant disarray. Time to fix this. COSPLAY Get a sewing machine.This is a pretty simple goal, and I just need to figure out what to get. I'm starting to get into the idea of stitching up my own costumes in an attempt to get away from my normal: horror cosplays. I recently did Ashley from Until Dawn and got huge reviews on my blood splatter technique. Finish a piece of my Hanzo cosplayI am looking to do a fem-Hanzo from the upcoming game Overwatch, and I know my issue will be starting the cosplay. So whether is be his pants, his robe, or his bow, I need to commit myself to making one of the pieces this month. Good luck to EVERYONE!

Hello everyone! Well, my name is Maggie. I've been lurking the posts of NF for almost over a year now, but I've never been that self-motivated to really do anything with them. I would just read for information and not do anything about it. I'd much rather go and play video games or sit on Warcraft for hours on end rather then walk ten minutes to my school's gym and work out. With my chemical engineering degree, I've really had the choice between school, play, or working out. Working out was the last on my list, especially after grueling Organic Chemistry homework or something of the sort. I've always been in good shape. Not amazing, but at least acceptable. I have been a colorguard girl all my life, and it's my main source of exercise even in college. Heck, I have done colorguard since 8th grade, and now I'm a senior in college. This summer, I got to march with a drum corps known as the Bluecoats. I did 83 straight days of colorguard throughout this past summer. I ran around a football field and spun a flag till I felt like my arms were going to fall off. And my god, when I came back from the summer tour, I was amazed at how much better my body looked. That's a before and after summer tour photo. I'm so happy with myself that I'm determined to make this keep and stay. Here's where me scouring the NF website comes in handy! I'm so ready to work to keep this new body, and all the new self-confidence that comes with it. Thanks for reading this guys c: I'm so excited to finally take part in the NF community.