Teros

Yeah I needed to put my foot down and make some big changes very recently because of this. I can't deal with not being able to function.

I debated doing something like that, too. Let me know how it turns out. I get food boredom so I figured if I built a recipe binder then I can flip to random pages to have different things to vary it up.

.....Bike Gremlins? YAY

That's pretty awesome. I've seen pics but for some reason I never thought about it. It's finally taking hold for me, thank god. And congrats I've watched 4 or 5 people play the game and what I noticed is that the higher the level, the more automatic and muscle-memory checking things have to be. Once you memorize the pattern of what to check and how often, you are basically just flicking through screens for a second or two for a few frantic minutes. It was 4 questions but I emailed the ASWB and then th

Just saw this and thought of you

I tend to yomit - as in, yell-vomit. No bueno but I don't know if it sounds gollum-esk. That's about how I'm feeling right now. I'm snippy and antsy and angry when I'm trying to detox.

We have PMs back from 2014 lol

I like the ducking/rope thingy. I've seen a kickboxer I follow on twitch do something similar. How's it going?

Very true - I get into this mindset as well. I don't know how to *not* have an all-or-nothing feeling about things. When I fuck up and have some cookies, my brain goes, "why bother. just eat them all you already lost" and then it spirals further and further in that direction. I've also had many times where I've felt like there's nothing enjoyable to look forward to so I mine as well end it. Not in a, "I can't take this anymore!" kind or way but maybe in a sick sense...just being bored of being alive? I guess that's kind of how it is. Maybe because it's more of a pea

I think a lot of soul-searching is needed to find out the 'why' for wanting to do what you want to do. I can give my timeline/ perspective on becoming a therapist. -When I was a wee Teros, I was bullied and treated like shit by a teacher who had tenure. My mom was there financially but not emotionally. I always felt alone. -When I played videogames, I wanted a strong name for my game-save files. 'Teros' as a name was born. -As the years of being bullied and alone dragged on, I retreated more into my videogames and binge-eating. There was a disconnect wh

It's a catch22 for me. If I'm busting my ass and I don't see any improvement or I gain, then I feel completely deflated. However if I check and I dropped 5 pounds, I'm happy as a pig in shit. For me though, the highs don't justify the lows so I try to keep weighting in to a minimum. It's been I think 2 weeks at least for me now. Instead my focus is the weightlifting and I know my reps are going up.

That's frigging awesome btw. You get kudos for that. I forget what I graduated with and it was a pain in the ass. We've talked in private and I would like to say that absolutely you are NOT a failure. Just take a step back and look at what you have for resources and what you are dealing with. I feel like there are times that we take for granted the heap of bullshit we are taking on and assume it shouldn't be a big deal when it totally IS a big deal to have burdens like that. Glad to see you on here.

Digging the hair and the sofa. As for the home workouts, I didn't end up pushing myself until MONTHS of doing it. Just staying consistent and trying to not fall on my ass while doing some goblet squats was plenty for me to deal with. Then one day I noticed that under the pudge, my rocks were solid and then I was hooked and wanted to do more and stay even more consistent. So I mean, although you say, the minimum for a while until you start seeing results might be what happens like what happened to me.

Hey don't knock the height - you got an inch on me. 😛 Real talk - I don't even look at news anymore. I don't go on facebook. I don't have internet stories and crap tied to my phone. It's not a matter of not wanting to deal with the outside world: it's self-preservation. All I can do is be the best I can with the time/resources that I have. Would knowing there are legless children dying in a 3rd world country and sniffing glue to stop their starvation pains change my life? No. But does knowing something like that fuck with my mental health and thereby jeopardize my se