Zeanai

Grazed my ass doing v-sits again

Had a shitty day today, second one in a row but bootcamp tonight was brilliant and I feel like I'm getting fitter. Got told I have mean thigh muscles which is cool. I noticed earlier this week that I don't fit my stripy yoga pants anymore. And I'm not upset drinking a bamboo tea at the mo nearly sorted through my tax mess which is a win

Hot sunny day here today and I spent too much inside i did the lawns at least which is hard work with the push mower, and had a few goes at the slackline passable day foodwise I suppose but I haven't eaten much and it's 7pm, dunno what I'll make for tea. Plus I found wine in the cupboard

Friday night, finally i'm looking forward to sleeping as I hardly got any this week, especially last night. The cat is driving me crazy keeping me awake had my pt this morning and got through it ok. Luckily I kind of got a second wind qfter lunch but still didn't get a lot done no training tomorrow

Claiming points today for what I ate- barely counted though, yoga, reset my possum trap (nazi- environmental duty points), and here is my nerdblog so glad tomorrow is friday, it's been one long week

I need to try make it a habit to nerdblog on my way home I think today I blogged almost everything I ate, a few bad snacks excluded. A full week of finance workshops can do that to a person last night I bootcamped which was intense and brilliant as always except I got stuck the odd one out and ended up with a kid which sucked. Went through realising I was the odd one out etc i didn't really exercise today except the walk to and from the train at both ends plus maybe three lengths of the slackline tomorrow is yoga i have done no prod/dev or nazi punchine lately- I've been super tired. I really need to get onto that though

I was so hungry all day today and all I ate was toast. heading to yoga soon

I've been eating sort of ok; few biscuits here and there but better. I've been keeping my rocket blog at least exercise- keeping up with that most days I'm kind of having thr horrors though because we had to do an exercise at fire last night, half the station against the other half starting with us recruits. It was exactly like PE and I totally panicked and got everything wrong Tonight is bootcamp though we might go out Punch a nazi has stalled but I found out how to rejoin the union at least I think the main thing at the mo is my brain is overfull with new job stuff, and my body is getting used to working again

I need a better plan to keep to my habits, especially this blogging one today I had my pt, ate coleslaw for breakfast, then a burrito bowl for lunch, and falafel & coleslaw for tea I thought a lot about wine on the way home but didn't buy any i came home a bit early as I was so tired, and actually dozed off on the train Had a bit of a go on the slackline again as well. I'm so bruised from it last time, all the way down both legs. I didn't really notice at the time. We think we have fire training tomorrow morning but no confirmation. We'll see. I'm watching rescues again tonight. Mainly I'm just looking forward to a sleep this weekend. It felt like a very long week

Omg I'm dying i got home from first day of work, starving and I ate leftover homemade curry then I got a call about bootcamp which started in 15 mins i deliberated for like 2 mins then got changed and raced off on my bike. Made it the class was a whole hour! Everything is burning and I did get a stitch by the end but I didn't puke and I'm not dying as much as I actually expected. Even though it was so hard, after we stopped I was smiling so much and I've got that buzz on going to sleep well too! i'll definitely be there next week it's especially good as it's another thing to do with my two mana wahine firefighter buddies. We're going to be so fit

I forgot to post yesterday. It was patchy weather and I didn't do much except walk to the station then help pack down at the races. Food was ok not amazing currently I'm sitting in a cafe before heading up to my first day of a new contract at my old work ...

This year my main mindset focus is motivation and discipline. This week I've started using a habit tracker app to track five habits for at least 66 days 1. got active today 2. eat to fight fires 3. do a thing (productive/dev) 4. nerdblog 5. punch a nazi today I decided to change one of them to 4. nerdblog. I want to keep a diary primarily here + occasionally in the facebook group to cover what I did or learned that day. This morning I had a couple of coffees (one black at home, one soy bought), walked into town, visited a market and bought a crystal pendant, then helped my fire colleagues set up for the races which we do to fundraise for our social club. When I got home I had the second half of a burger I couldnt finish yesterday and then (after mucking round on the net for a bit) set up my slackline and practiced on that for maybe half an hour. I took 6 steps on my best go, mostly managed 2-3. I could barely stand when I started. I bought the line last summer but haven't used it all year. I'll leave it up until tomorrow then take it down as I think the weather is going to pack in again and I have to go back to work. I want to give it a go at least every second weekend or so while it is summer though I can feel my thighs and abs a bit after the time I spent. I started off clinging to two brooms as the line shook so bad but then I read some hints online and with that technique it was easier on my own. I'm going to have another go this afternoon as well. My other focus for this year - the first half anyway - is my fire training. At the end of last year I signed up as a recruit volunteer fire fighter. The course we're aiming at is probably july, so all my fitness and training is aiming at that. My arm strength is slowly improving as is my general cardio. Training has been a little sporadic this summer but I'm about to launch back into my routine as I start work again so I'll find it easier from then. My fitness plan is: Monday night - fire training Tuesday night - I think I'm going to go to a bootcamp type class, not sure yet Wednesday - gym day Thursday night - yoga Friday - gym day Weekend - bike ride, run, or a hike or something Haven't locked in my pt schedule yet as I want to see what my work week is like but will be wednesday or friday. If I go to the bootcamp I'll make it friday I decided to clarify my food goal as 'eat to fight fires' rather than any specific requirements. What I mean by this is, have I eaten enough of the right food so I'm good to respond to a call at any time? A lot of what I want to cut from my life, or reduce, is food that makes me feel sluggish or just isn't nutritious, and I want to increase my vegetables and whole foods. It's mostly just laziness and poor planning. Like right now we have no veges in the house and we're running low on staples because I haven't done a shop in so long. My biggest nemesis is bread. Not exactly because I love it but just because it's easy and always around. If I can sort my snack game this is half the battle As I go back to work I'll start making breakfast smoothies again. Usually berries or mango, oats, chia, green powder, protein powder, and apple or whatever fruit I have, plus spinach when I have it. And punch a nazi reminds me to do something good for the world every day - something to actively build the world I want to live in

Very tasty dinner: the roast potatoes, I think I had 3 1/2 smallish ones Steamed broccoli, and I had maybe 2/3c (all) of the luau as well which is so unhealthy and so so good. Lucky I can't cook it! And I had a berocca as well The shopping should be arriving pretty soon! Didn't get any treats really, except peaches!

just put in some potatoes to roast for tonight - I've just pricked them and put them on the pizza stone in there. Will see how it goes, they're all pretty little. We almost never have potatoes then j will have his chicken and i'll have the luau both left form yesterday Will have some kind of salady thing as well

About an hour after I posted that I went for a run. I ran 3.38km in 24.16mins. First 2km were non-stop, and average 6.20pace. I had to walk/jog/walk after that; average pace 7.10 overall. Right now I'm eating porridge which is about 1/4c oats, 1/4c blueberries, a shake of bran and LSA, 1/2c almond milk, and water, big scoop of peanut butter, and a tsp of raw sugar. Guessing at that because I'm only eating about half the mix and the rest will go to my chickens. Additives are in my bowl only - sugar is not good for chickens. Or me for that matter and I don't actually think it needs it. Looking forward to the shopping arriving tonight, I've been without chia seeds for way too long I feel really good after my run. My mood is lifted and I feel energised. Yay

It's all been pretty chaotic, and just, lazy. Anyway today I have started the 100 day burpee challenge. 1 today (done), 2 tomorrow etc. i can chunk them up however I need to. I'm also attaching myself to a 'biggest loser' comp my partner & his brothers are doing. I shouldn't really lose more than 10kg I would think, and I can't imagine I will in 12 weeks but we'll see. Fit is my main goal but I can't pretend I don't feel selfconscious at this size. Particularly my belly, which looks like 3 month pot if I'm not paying attention. Last night I weighed 65.7 which I think is the biggest I've ever been. I'm about to go do our grocery shop with a focus on what food prep we can do for lunches and such

So here are some things I've been thinking I am someone who eats real food - food that I grew I am someone who spends more of my day outside than in I am someone who has my own opinions instead of just reading everyone else's I am someone who is functionally fit - I can run and lift stuff, bend, clinb, get on and up from the floor, balance I am someone who can take control of what's going on in my life instead of letting it pass me by or feeling trapped I am someone who does what I set out to without listening to my own excuses I am someone who enjoys cooking I am someone who does what needs to be done even when it's boring or shouldn't be my job (...cleaning) I am someone who goes to music festivals and concerts and things that are happening I am someone who reads books I am someone who goes for adventures - and makes life an adventure I am someone who only buys what I really need, and can't make or find, or do without I am someone who takes a breath before biting back I am someone who cares for the environment, and is building my life to leave the lightest steps, make positive impacts I am someone who is mindful and grateful for the things that happen I am someone who shares what I have and supports others with or without them knowing/recognition I am someone who listens to good feedback from others and accepts it instead of brushing it away or finding motives I am someone who applies and builds on feedback I am someone who has dreams then makes a plan and takes action to get there I am someone who plans to enable us to do stuff I am someone who does not do negative self-talk. Ever again I don't sit on my computer all day I don't wait in my kitchen -> waiting for the jug to boil = stack the dishes etc. I don't get on my computer until I've achieved something I don't eat rubbish because I don't know what I want or I'm bored I don't blame others when I'm mad or anything I don't let more than two days go by without any cleaning

Just here to tell myself not to be a fucking idiot. It's 2pm and today i've eaten a lemon honey drink, 2 coffees before 10, then after 1 I had a scone and an iced coffee. What the fucking fuck was I thinking?! I feel awful and I'm not going to be able to sleep

need to add some kind of 'less internet' clause to my list and alterations as well ...

ok I'm starting my batcave work I'm going through a phase of wicked junk cravings, especially chocolate. It's just that I'm home all the time - excuse anyway And I'm probably more bored than anything else So I'm looking up smoothie recipes and will make sure that we have everything on hand so I've no excuse 1. Ingredients1 avocado2 frozen bananas½ cup frozen raspberries (or fresh raspberries or other berries)1-2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder2 cups almond or coconut milkInstructionsIf you have unpeeled frozen bananas, then take the frozen bananas from the freezer and leave to thaw for 10 minutes before peeling (or cut the skin off with a paring knife). Place all the ingredients into a blender and blend well. 2. 1 cup milk of choice (I have used unsweetened vanilla almond milk and coconut almond milk)1 chai tea bag (I used decaf)1 very-ripe frozen banana¼ tsp pure vanilla extract 3. Ingredients1 small bunch parsley½ med avocado1 nashi pear (aka Asian pear or apple pear)1 pear1 Royal Gala apple1 Granny Smith apple2 med plums6 med bananas1 cup water1 cup ice (200g)MethodRemove seed from plum, skin & seed from avocado, skin from bananas and stalks from pears and apples. Chop fruit roughly. Add ingredients to blender in order listed. Blend until smooth and creamy4. Ingredients3/4 cup frozen blueberries 1 frozen banana 1 Tbsp flax seed meal 1 Tbsp natural nut butter (the kind without hydrogenated oils, preservatives, or sugar, etc.) 1 cup water MethodBlend. If the blender doesn’t cooperate, add more water by the Tbsp. 5. something something cherries, almond milk, cocoa ... Ok so for my next shop I"ll make sure we have these things. Between this and the small mountain of edamame in my freezer, and how quick I've discovered it is to make both porridge and hot and sour soup I've no further excuses

Hm well it's been a reasonably hedonistic week really. I'm here posting because I set the academy as my homepage = 1st batcave action Went to a big concert on saturday night which was amazing, and also 7 hours on my feet including mosh dancing so I was pretty wrecked the next day. Didn't drink though! Oh but that's cos I drank too much the night before playing cards against humanity Since then, no 'exercise' as such. i've cooked a couple of good vege heavy meals We finally picked up three chickens from the rescue place after months of planning and waiting. They're so great. Today it's raining so I think they're a bit miserable huddling under the coop.

also I just realised and wanted to drop by to add- status: motorhead shorts and spiderman singlet FTW cleaning is underway and dinner prep is done My plan for maybe tomorrow or the week coming is to finalise my 5 measurable actions including batcave improvements, and also sort out a proper food diary. Might be on paper (probably - wish I could find the new gym diary I bought just before I got injured and still have somewhere) or might be on here

I spent about 40 minutes in the garden clearing tradescantia while working on squat technique and stretching my hamstrings, and now I'm just sitting down for a bit before I need to start cleaning. Actually I need to prep dinner first

giving myself epic points for wearing sunscreen today oh edited to add: and I applied for some jobs

it's 10am and this morning I've been out in the garden planting the new cuttings I brought home yesterday, and also put some washing on. Sounds like it might have finished. I've also nearly finished my coffee Plan for the day is to clean and apply for jobs