Hey everyone. My experience with Brazilian Jiu Jitsu is somewhat long and sordid, so please do bear with me. A few years ago, after several years of training in traditional Jiu Jitsu at a family oriented dojo, I decided it was time for a change. Brazilian Jiu Jitsu was being hailed as the king of martial arts at the time, and since my Jiu Jitsu training had included some groundfighting, I really wanted to switch to BJJ, so I signed up at a local BJJ gym. I had been very good in the Jiu Jitsu class, one of the top students. So I figured I'd have a natural knack for this sort of thing, right? I was horrible. Totally lost. Everything groundfighting related I had learned previously was all but useless to me. I hung in there for a while, but I rarely went and when I did I just spent an hour getting whooped. Everybody in the place was way better than I was, even the beginners. I was super frustrated and super demotivated. I was sure I was never going to be any good at this. So, I did what any individual with a strong sense of self preservation would do. I quit. A few years went by and I had decided to get in shape - I had just begun my weight loss journey from 308 pounds and had lost about 20 - and I figured Jiu Jitsu would be pretty good exercise to help out with that. This time I went to an MMA place that does BJJ and kickboxing. I'm still not sure what I was doing there. It was the same experience all over again, only this time I was heavy, out of shape and even more out of practice. That was about a year ago. So, what did I do? I quit again. Now, time, money and an injury were all factors in that decision, but the frustration outweighed them all. Well, since I'm still apparently a glutton for punishment, I decided that at 232 pounds I might have a better chance of pulling this off. This is the lightest I've been since high school. (For reference, I'm 6'3".) Anyway, my enthusiasm and my love of martial arts must have once again got in the way of my better judgment, because here I am, trying BJJ again for the third time... and I'm horrible. I'm totally lost. I just get beaten up for an hour by guys who barely know the basics themselves. I'm just hopeless. I feel like I know what I have to do, I just can't seem to ever make it happen. Whether it's bumping and rolling to escape mount or stacking out of a triangle, I'm just missing some basic fundamental knowledge that makes it all fall apart. I know the techniques, I just can't apply them to save my life. I don't know what to do from here apart from to just keep chugging along and hope I get better, but I don't know if I'll be able to take the frustration of the constant reinforcement of how badly I suck at this. How much can you just fail extremely hard at something before you don't have any fight left in you anymore? I guess what I'm looking for here is some motivation, some reason NOT to quit again, some reassurance that I will get it in time... I don't know, some hope. Maybe someone out there has a similar story that turned out better, or can just give me some pointers on how to improve my fundamentals. I've asked my instructors, and they're going to go over the basics with me so that's a start - but it won't change the fact that I am going to have to deal with constant demotivation that's going to make it really hard for me to stay with it. Any help is appreciated. Thanks.