MichiruSedai

so here's a dumb question: can I pick something other than pushups that I really need to work on? for example, this past week was my "week one" (i started late), and I made it six days before I had a bad overeating day. So by the end of the challenge, 50% more would be making it 12 days.

How was the cliff walk? I'm going on a nice hike today. Would love to see pictures if you took any!

Week one summary, copied from my spreadsheet: Overall, I'm pretty pleased with this week. I got 100% on three goals that all are geared to help me destress (videogames, reading, outdoors time). I managed the gym 2/3 times with getting sick. I did eat over maintenance twice. Thursday I'm okay with, Saturday was kinda crappy because I did the "all or nothing" mentality. Initially I went over because I had a second bowl of grapes, then I gave in to cookies at the store, and it went downhill from there. Today is another day, though, and I will be back on track. So, yesterday was a mixture of awesome and fail, lol. I slept in - awesome! I walked to the gym (10 mins), worked out at the gym (30 mins), then walked to the store for veggies and walked home (20 mins) - awesome! I read for like five hours - awesome! I went on another 45 minute walk because my brain started to get mad - awesome! But, I was super snacky while reading - granted, I snacked on grapes and carrots and air popped popcorn, but I still ended up going over my calories even before dinner - little fail, but not end of the world. My brain, however, conflated it to "oh well you're already over calories, may as well eat more so that you fail all in one day instead of multiple days - and I picked up a few treats and ate and ate and ate - fail. Then I played some videogames - aweome - and managed to go to sleep at a reasonable hour - awesome. So, it was a mixed bag. One the one hand, I'm sad that I broke my streak. On the other hand, this is the longest streak I've had in at least two months, so I'm still calling it a win, I'm starting a new streak today, and I'm going to make this one longer! Getting ready now for an early morning hike with a friend, which should last 1.5-2 hrs, getting me lots of movement and sunshine. The rest of the day needs to include: meal planning, grocery shopping, meal prep for work breakfast/lunch, go buy some damn shorts so I don't overheat at work, read, videogame, and maybe gym. I got laundry done yesterday, so one thing off the Sunday chores list. My son will be home at 7, so I have just under 12 hours to accomplish everything - which is great, cause it means I don't have to rush.

Yeah, I had to put on a hospital gown about a week ago for a procedure, and it was just as hard to tie it now as it was when I was 100 pounds heavier. Hard to reach those darn ties, my arms don't bend that way!

I'm also happy to say that I've whooshed down 3.8lbs already in June. I figured with restarting after a few months of eating badly, I'd have a big loss at first, but it's still heartening to see! (also: ignore my weight in sig, it's sadly very very wrong, I started June at 170.4, since I averaged 4k calories a day the last 2 weeks of May. Yikes!) I've been experimenting in baby steps with intermittent fasting (IF) by cutting out "first breakfast" ( used to eat breakfast before work, then "second breakfast" on my break at work), and reducing the amount of food at "second breakfast". This week I had 4 strips of turkey bacon for second breakfast. Next week, I'm changing that to chicken breast - more protein, less sodium, around same calories - I'll just batch cook more of it. I might even make it into mini salad since spinach/tomato/cucumber are next to no calories, but I haven't decided if I'm that ambitious for a breakfast. Lunch I've been doing chicken breast, sliced cucumber (AN ENTIRE CUKE EVERY DAY ALL MINE MWAHAHA), and a fruit (usually either 150g grapes or a medium apple). It's really easy for me to not overeat at work cause I only have what I pack! I never have cash on me for the vending machines. Although last week, one day someone brought muffins, and one day someone brought donuts, so I had two days are glaring at free baked goods in the break room, but I didn't give in, so yay! Weekends are my challenge. Right now I'm sipping a cherry coke zero (too lazy to make coffee, but need a caffeine burst), then I'm going to walk to the gym (about 10 mins walk each way), get in a workout before it gets crazy crowded, walk back home, consult my lists, and walk to the grocery store where I will buy my veggies but not any cookies dammit!

Delayed reaction, but thanks for sharing your food porn, that chicken looks amazing!!

Checking in on our junk food pvp! I started tracking for it June 1st. June 2nd I binged. June 3rd I ate birthday cake at party. But I'm happy to say the rest of the month (so far hahah) I have resisted my impulses to buy chips, fritters, and cookies. how are you doing? (in general, not just on pvp, <3)

*hugs*

So I totally derped off of NF for the week. Oops. I've been tracking, as always, on MFP/Fitbit and also on my google spreadsheet (link in first post). I've done pretty well on my goals for the week. So far, I've stayed in my maintenance calories 4 out of 5 days... I'm not counting today yet cause while currently I'm in, there's still 6 hrs of the day left I'm a bit low on gym time because I got sick. I did go to the gym one day, and I'm planning to go tomorrow, so I will at least get 2 of my 3. I've 100% my "no junk food PVP" this week so far, so I'm happy about that. Good news: Oreos are no longer on sale, which makes them way less tempting. Something about things going on sale makes me be all like "ITS ON SALE AND ITS AMAZING MUST BUY THEM ALL NOWWWWW"! In fact, that's why I went over my calories yesterday. The protein bars I like were on sale, and then I ate a bunch of them instead of one! I had some plans this weekend, and I cancelled all of them! Except for my Sunday morning hike. And, you know, I still have to do laundry/meal plan/grocery shop/meal prep. Other than that? Books, video games, tv, and jammies. Well, and gym, but that's a couple minutes from my house. the last few weekends have been great and very fun, but holy cow I am tired and just need some time to relax! Bonus would be if I could kick mom out and have house to myself... maybe I can make up some errands, or at least encourage her to go to church, library, etc. (yes, I'm horrible. I love my mother, honest. I just love having house to myself and it so rarely happens)

Your thread inspires me to go outside and soak in nature more often. I'm going to have to make that a priority. Looks like you are doing great with your challenge!

Yay for house to yourself! Woot woot! I think that CSA sounds amazing, and I agree with you that you may be more likely to use it up since you'd already have it paid for. That's why I signed up for the whole year at my gym - I'm super aware that last month for example, with going zero times, I basically wasted 30ish dollars! It also sounds like it would be worth the cost just in meat and eggs, even if you didn't use all of the produce every week.

I made it through. We'll leave it at that. The blood work all came back normal, so now I wait, and follow up with my doctor in a month to make sure everything is okay. I was talking with a friend on Friday (I think?) and decided with all the medical scary stuff going on, last week was my second week zero. I wasn't exactly worried about challenge goals. Yesterday was a birthday party for my brother-in-law and cake happened, so I'm not going to 100% the junk food PVP, but I'm going to do my best to 100% it starting today, my "week one" start day. I've done pretty well today, considering the three hours of sleep after the birthday party karaoke! I meal planned for the week, got grocery shopping done, batch cooked my chicken for the week, made a random huge pot of veggie soup that I batched up into the freezer, except enough for dinner one night this week. I changed my bedding, cleaned my room, and have laundry going. I read 40 minutes towards my reading goal, and got a 20 minutes walk towards my sunshine goal. My sister and brother-in-law stayed until a little after lunch, but since we all are good at entertaining ourselves, they didn't mind me doing prep stuff while we chatted, heh. The rest of today will be reading/tv/games/playing with son - relaxing stuff, basically, since my chores are done (aside from the laundry in the dryer). Tonight I will get to bed at a reasonable hour, and be ready for work tomorrow, hopefully well rested. I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend.

Pal(lie)s for LIFE! heh heh heh So, the ultrasound results were "on the cusp". Which means today, I got to go get blood drawn for more tests. I'll get those results tomorrow. If they are all fine, I got see my dr in a month for a follow up (or sooner if I notice any other symptoms). They they are not fine, I go get a CT. I won't lie, I am freaking out. I know it's still likely fine, but I was expecting to hear back from the ultrasound that everything is fine and nothing to worry about. Not get sent for more tests. I want SO MUCH FOOD because clearly that will help. My mom, beloved enabler that she is, told me all about the stress eating she did today and offered to go buy me any treats I want because "you get a pass with this stuff going on". Maybe I do? I don't know. I'm torn between my desire to not fail my challenge on day one, and my desire to feel better even for a little bit by eating. I don't have anything inspiring or informative today, just anxiety and a desire to binge.

Ooh, little PVP battle. Typically I'm PVE but I'll give it a go! I want to see us both go all 30 days!

Taddea - thank you for sharing, I'm glad it's not just me who does that. And that's a very good point - the work won't stop at maintenance. The work will have to continue forever if I don't want to let everything go and regain what I've lost. Wolfen - thanks for your continued encouragement. I love all you awesome nerds. <3 Today is... better than yesterday? insofar as I didn't buy donuts and cookies and eat them all instead of eating supper. I had the test the doctor ordered but I didn't get the results call. Part of me is saying that's good because surely if it was bad they would've called right away. But damn it I just want to know. I'm over my calories for the day, but not over if I count my activity calories so yay? I really want more food though. There is NO way I can be actually hungry at this point, so it's totally a stress thing. My mom has also decided to stop buying junk June 1st, and my son is super excited to be the food police, lol.

Yay weight bench!

Hey, shouldn't your thread title be Leigh is too leigh-zy? Hehehehehe....

Hey if it's one thing I learned from LoZ, it's that extra bottles are super important. Also, don't f*ck with chickens.

Definitely not perfect today (good thing I'm "officially" starting June 1st I guess haha). I'm waaaaaaaay over my calories thanks to some gluttonous emotional eating. So glad I have that test tomorrow, hopefully the dr gives me an answer the same day, the answer is good, and I can stop being afraid that I am dying (not being melodramatic - summary: I'm waiting on a test to see if my cancer is back. it's probably not, but due to a symptom my doctor noticed at my physical, I have to get more tests, so I've been in RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA brain ever since the appt.) I had a thought today I wanted to share. The last time I seriously tried to lose weight was 2012. I remember I went from 269 down to 202. I'm not sure what clicked in my brain but then I stalled out at 202, and over the next few years ate my way back up to 272. Now this time around, I was doing pretty well other than a slow down (but no stop or gain) over the holidays, until I got down to 152. Then I stalled out and have spent the last two months packing on roughly 10 pounds back. The correlation I'm seeing is that in both cases, I was close to an enormous milestone. 202 = almost under 200 for the first time as an adult. 152 = almost to 149, which moves me from overweight to healthy BMI. I wonder if I'm sabotaging myself accidentally-on-purpose right when I get close to goals for a reason. I know I've been super upset about my continued failed attempts at dating - and I know I thought it would be much easier to date this time around because of being over 100 pounds thinner, and it just hasn't been. To be fair, part of that is because I'm being pickier - I'm not as willing to date a massively obese person as I used to be, because I want to find a partner who has a compatible lifestyle. But, still. I feel like something flipped in my brain. I know a big part of it is my increased depression. I've been jumping on every excuse to over eat or to eat junk food - I had a bad day at work, I had a bad date, I feel lonely, I got overwhelmed in a group setting, I got scary news at the dr, etc. I really need to flip that back. I know I'm not "officially" starting my challenge until June 1st but I think I need to pretend tomorrow is June 1st because today is already in the toilet. On the positive side, I've tracked all of my horrible eating and drinking decisions since last Friday - so even though I way over indulged the past four days, it wasn't mindless to the point of not tracking. Now I just need to flip that switch back in my brain. I think getting this test done tomorrow will help. Either I'll get good news and then I can tell myself "ok, you're safe, it's all good, no more excuses to eat a bunch of crap because you were scared waiting to find out" or, it will be bad news and then I can tell myself "ok, you're sick again, you're going to kick it again, but that means taking care of yourself, no more endless junk food parade". I don't know. Anyway, like I said, I was thinking it over today and found it interesting that my backslide came by a huge milestone this time, just like did it five years ago. This might just be me really stretching to explain why I've done such a shitty job the last two months, I don't know. All I know is I have to stop making excuses and get back on track. I'll be totally honest, I love junk food, I love yummy drinks, I hate having to watch what I eat. I do. But, I did it successfully for all of last year, and wasn't doing too badly the beginning of this year. I know I need to do it if I want to stop my re-gain at the 10-ish pounds I've re-gained, and not re-gain all 120 I had lost. So it's going to suck, I'm not going to enjoy it lol, but it needs to be done.

Looks like you're off to a great start!

Things I am also going to strive for this challenge, but didn't want to give myself too many trackable goals: -follow the same hygiene requirements I give my son - when depression is bad suddenly I take 1 shower a week, skip my teeth, etc. I require my son to brush his teeth twice a day, wash his face twice a day, and shower 3x a week (more if he gets filthy). If I'm making him do it... I should do it too. -Limit Halo Top to once a week - to be honest this is largely financial, because the calories aren't bad - but depending on where I shop it's 5.99 or 6.99 per pint, and I've eaten four in a week sometimes -Limit air popped popcorn to three times a week - not too concerned about this since it's air popped and low calorie etc, but I've eaten it almost every day the last two-three weeks, and I'd like to get back to also snacking on raw veggie when I want a crunchy treat, instead of always going for popcorn -Watch new things on netflix instead of rewatching things I've already seen a ton of times - the exception is if it's a bad sleep night and I need something on to distract my brain, then it needs to be a repeat so I don't get the "oh no can't sleep or I'll miss it" thing going on. I just started watching the newest season of Switched at Birth and instead of starting over at S1:E1 I started at where I had left off in the middle of S3. Progress. I may add more to this post if I think of more

You've got this!!

Late but here! *gives you some empty bottles* good luck kicking Water Temple ass!!

This thread made me laugh a little too much. Also, your garden looks amazing! And you are growing RUTEBAGAS! how cool!

Grats on the new job! That is awesome!!