MichiruSedai

I just remembered that since it's Mother's Day weekend, tomorrow the daycare will have coffee and muffins for all the moms. FUCK. I guess I can see how good they look? If they are just the ones from the grocery store, passing up shouldn't be too hard. If they are super nice looking though, I foresee a failure in the "no baked goods" goal >_<

Wow, sounds like a full day! I hope it was a good one.

You are doing so great! Yay you!

TIL that a tbsp of honey mixed into a cup of greek yogurt makes an excellent snack when I'm out of good fruit to mix in! Protein, creamy, almost like a dessert! That's all, nerds. Back to your nerding. *nods*

Eating healthy and walking? Sounds like a win to me.

I miss reading your thread for two days and BOOM 100 more pages That's awesome that your husband has started running too! Yay! Kid free weekend, woot woot! I know I look forward to my kid free weekends because social life with adults! But I also feel bad because I feel like I shouldn't be so excited, and I also do miss him. But dude... having kid free time is super important! I hope you guys have a great weekend!!

Oh, I don't always rely on recipes! But I will admit I'm a recipe junkie. I like seeing how they turn out. Also part of me likes the control aspect. I do exactly what the directions say and boom, delicious food. I do like your omelet idea though. Did you know, I've never made an omelet? I'm pretty much a scrambled egg person. I'm going to take inspiration from your omelet idea for my dinner tonight, which is not an omelet. We're having burgers (mine will be chopped in a salad), and I have some baking potatoes, so I'm thinking I'm gonna make a crazy potato. I have diced tomatoes to use up, greek yogurt to sub for sour cream, shredded cheddar. I think I'll even chop the burger on to it and make a giant plate of loaded potato that includes the salad, hmm. I do know that it helps me to be busy. Even walking in circles around my house (as I did last night, since it was raining) helps. The binging is a combination of boredom+depression, which makes sense as when I am bored/lonely is when my depression tends to be worse. Allspice is a great suggestion! I'm also gonna increase the cinnamon last time. It's been reheating really well, so this one is a keeper for me. I like the protein powder idea. I've never used protein powder but I'm starting to debate it so that I can specifically add to things like my beloved oatmeal. I do add peanut butter powder to oatmeal which gives it a little protein, but you can always use more, right? I do love my charts. Right?? And, I mean.. I can choose to not associate with people using drugs (if that was a temptation for me). If I was an alcoholic I'd have no problem asking family/friends to not drink around me. But I can't ask people to not eat. I do, however, ask for/suggest healthy choices when possible for group eating situations. And I do ask people not to bring junk food into my house (or if they do, i.e. my mom who lives with me... I ask her to keep it in a drawer in her room so I don't have to stare at it). It was super good! And my dad was so pleased with having something "different" for our cookout (we cookout once a month) that he told me I can find other recipes and he will happily be the grill operator if I do the shopping and prepping. Woot! I have made it three nights in a row with no binges. Yay! I have let myself snack, but I have tracked it all, and it's been snacks, not "Oh I'm going to eat all six string cheese because eating". I'm going to try and scale back my evening snacking, but I am calling this progress. I decided not to go to the social event tonight. I've been extremely tired this week, and my depression/anxiety has been bad. It's not a good time to "put myself out there". The good news is this event repeats every two weeks, and I am planning to go in two weeks. I have that Friday off, so I won't have to wake up as early for work, which makes it even more doable. I have a "date" Friday night. I put date in quotation marks because it's the first date off an online dating site, and I tend to view that more as a "let's make sure we both represented ourselves accurately" than an actual date. But I am getting Japanese food out of it, so it's a win. I also have a date Saturday. We're going to cook together, she's making us margaritas (the entire evening was inspired by our conversation on cinco de mayo about margaritas). This would be our fourth date. I'm never entirely sure if we're dating or just hanging out, but I asked two dates ago and we decided it was dates, lol. I get so confused dating women. Earlier on Saturday, I'm seeing Guardians of the Galaxy with a friend that I tend to feel I'm nonsexually dating, because we go out together a lot, and we are affectionate with each other, but we aren't at all romantic or sexual. I'm cool with not defining it though, I just enjoy her company. Sunday is Mother's Day, so my son will be home at 9am instead of 7pm. Our plans for the day are mostly cooking and relaxing (surprise surprise, since Sunday I plan to cook). I wanted to do a meal for my mom and whenever I offer she pretty much says "Oh you don't have to cook" or "lets just get Subway" so I decided to make home made pizza since she loves pizza. I had caffeine early this morning, so you can thank that for the long rambly post.

Grilled Pineapple Teriyaki Pork Chops Recipe recommended by @Sylvaa My review: OM NOM NOM NOM NOM Will get around to replying to your thoughtful comments later, now it's kiddo bedtime routine <3

Thanks for your kind words, Wolfen - I needed to hear that today. <3 I've been spending the evening trying not to beat myself up over the binging, while occasionally having to squash impulses to go buy more/order delivery/etc. I'm starting to track binge days on my whiteboard I use to track daily weight/steps/etc, maybe I'll find a pattern? I don't know. I have this lofty idea that this week I will have no Halo Top, no popcorn, no going out to buy binge foods, no binging on household staples, and just generally eat well.... We will see how it goes. I have plans to try two new dinner recipes this week, so maybe the creative cooking will help? I then have social plans involving food Thursday/Friday/Saturday/Sunday. The plans on Thurs/Friday/Saturday are the type where I'll be nervous to eat much during, so I'll have to watch for post-plans driving home and stopping for binge foods. Sunday, the food plan is to make home made pizza, so I can control what goes in it and on it at least. I just... I wish I had a good relationship with food. I do recognize it could be worse. I could be binge drinking. I could be doing drugs. But this isn't exactly healthy either. Onward and upward.

Quotes from today's group outing to the Indian buffet for lunch: My friend K, who I hadn't seen in 3 years: "You look amazing! You look unrecognizable!" (kinda nice to be reminded that yeah, losing 120 (before binges over the last week... now more like 115) lbs makes a big difference My friend L: "You're the only person I know who actually cooks the recipes they post on Facebook." My son, about 30 mins after we were done eating, and while we were all just chatting: "Why are we all still sitting here when there's no food?" It was a good time.

Black beans, my go to is very lazy. I drain and cook 1 can black beans, make 4 servings rice, make whatever veg I have on hand (frozen mixed veggie, or frozen peas and carrots, or whatever), mix it all together and divide into 4 servings! New recipe today for batch cook breakfast for the week! Carrot Cake Baked Oatmeal A little blander than I expected, but I didn't have an entire 1/3 cup of maple syrup, only 1/4 cup. It has a really nice flavor, though, and cooking it made the house smell amazing!

Hi PinkNinja! It's nice to see you! I hope you are doing well!

I approve of a ST meme answering my SW one! TGIF!

Wow! I'm so excited for you!!

Check in when you are able to, and we will be here.

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough week. *hugs* Please try to find some time to relax!

Ask me any questions you have! I'm far from an expert but I've learned a few things! I have a spreadsheet with recipes, too! I'm a bit fan of super easy recipes that require little effort except a little chopping, stirring, and heating, lol!

Really getting into cooking over the last few years has been a huge game changer for me! I love being able to throw together an easy - or when I have time, a bit more difficult - meal and have leftovers, and know I'm saving money compared to ordering out! The pineapple fried rice was a recipe I found because I was sick of the sodium bloat and expense of ordering my beloved chicken fried rice. I also love about cooking that you know exactly every single thing that is going into that recipe. You can make whatever substitutions you want. And I love delicious food, so.. yeah! sorry, I tend to get spazzy about cooking, because I loves it <3

I totally would be jealous of my dinner too, it was amazing! Leftovers will be tomorrow's dinner while my kid is with his dad. Honestly if I was surrounded by, and having to bake, cookies all day... I'd fail so hard. Dude if you can make it through a day without eating cookies when you're surrounded like that, I admire you greatly! Today I: -avoided break room cookies -opted to eat my healthy lunch instead of the "taco salad potluck" since I didn't take my food scale -avoided buying the freshly baked blueberry donut holes I'm calling it a win, even if I am a little snack happy this evening. I'm not over my calories, so, why not, right? TGIFE!

Back to work today! After my "nap" for most of yesterday, and sleeping all night, I felt a lot better today. Work actually went pretty well once I got past some anxiety issues. After work was rough, because my son is dealing with bullying at school and daycare, and also got in trouble with the teacher for something that I agree with him on, was not an issue, but the issue was the attitude he took with the teacher. Got home later than expected due to meeting with the teacher there, and then cooked. But cooking is good - cooking got me pineapple fried rice! Last night I had a mini-binge of raisins of all things, because I was eating my anxiety. Today has been better in that not only have I followed my goals (so far), I avoided all the yummy cookies that were on the break room table. This "no baked goods" goal has been crazy difficult for me! Seriously if I can make it 5 of 7 days in a week I'm happy, though I'd like to make 7 of 7 days of course. My brain is full of many different things tonight, and my goal is going to be to read/game/movie to deal with them, instead of mindlessly eating.

My son is dealing with an ongoing bullying situation as well (though not via snapchat, and very different since he's only 7), so I have zero advice. I hate doing it, but I've been telling him to ignore it when he can, because when the bully doesn't get the big reaction it's not fun anymore so they'll stop. I've also told him he should ask "why did you say that? it's not nice" but I 100% guarantee he won't be calm enough to do that, and the kids wouldn't care. I've also told him to tell the teachers, and then he gets branded a tattletale. I'm actually setting up a meeting with his teacher to talk about it because it's getting bad. The school year is almost over, but he'll be in class with almost all the same kids next year (yay small town). So... yeah.. No good advice, sorry. My heart is breaking for your daughter dealing with that. I totally understand her not wanting to report it if she'd take additional heat for reporting, but that sucks, because that would be the best option. Can she block them on snapchat? I don't have snapchat, so I don't know how it works.

I still love the popcorn I make at home, but the last two times I ordered popcorn at the movies I was disappointed and ended up throwing most of it out. I'm totally calling that a win! Been smuggling raw veggies in my purse if I want a crunchy movie snack, lol

Sorry to hear about your workshop getting cancelled, boo!

Woohoo!!!!!!