Well. It's Saturday. I actually have a moment to sit and breathe.
I've been seeing a massage therapist for awhile now, and I've just recently started going back to the chiropractor. Pain is still there, and I am about 95% certain I have tendonitis in my right shoulder. It is extremely frustrating because I have the massive desire to start strengthening my upper body, but moving my shoulder is so painful that I wanna throw up when I move it. I cannot take anti-inflammatory drugs because of my autoimmune disease. If anyone out there knows of an anti-inflammatory I can take that isn't an NSAID, please, oh please let me know and I will give it a shot.
Work is super stressful right now. I work for the largest school district in our state in the Facilities Services office. I used to be in the Insurance and Benefits office, but there were massive cuts made because of our budget crisis, so they downsized our office and I was transferred to a different position. I've been in the new position for about 3 months. They cut a position in my new office as well. SOOOOOOOO...there used to be three full-time secretarial positions in our office, but now we are down to two PLUS we are dealing with all the COVID stuff for the entire district which, in itself, is a full-time job. We have two of us doing the work of four, and I am so stressed on any given day that I have to excuse myself occasionally to go sob in the bathroom. They did hire a temporary position to help us out for the school year while COVID is in full swing, so I am grateful for that, but training a new person has me nervous since I, myself, am still very new.
When I'm not working, I'm at the theatre. I directed my very first show this summer, and now I am assistant directing "Murder on the Orient Express". I am also taking an Adult Tap class which started two weeks ago mostly because I love tap and I want to audition for a musical next year that has a lot of tap in it and I'd like to improve my dance skills.
Diet is okay. I'm very nutritionally educated and know what I need to change, but am struggling to find the time and energy to do just that. At this point in time, I am not terribly concerned with it because my weight is the best it's been in years (probably stress related, I'm sure). I know I'm not eating as nutritionally sound as I could be, so I've just been eating a bit less than normal and keeping an eye on the scale (even though I know that the number on it is a very small indicator of the bigger picture).
So a typical day for me looks like this:
- Wake up at 5:30 am
- Work from 7:00 am - 4:00 pm
- Do miscellaneous errands, then help make dinner and quickly eat
- Theater from 7:00 pm - 10:00 pm
- Drive home and get ready for bed
- Crash hard around 11:00 pm
All that being said...this challenge won't be a very "traditional" challenge for me. I usually like to make diet and fitness goals, but for the time being, I am more focused on my mental health and pain levels. So here are my goals:
Frequent Body Checks
Are my shoulders down and away from my ears? Is my jaw unclenched? Is my tongue relaxed and not pushing up against the roof of my mouth?
Meditation via apps like Calm, Headspace, or an ASMR video
Try to do this for about 10 minutes 3 times per week
Every. Single. Day. Some kind of mindful stretching and breathing
I may not be able to be on the threads everyday, but I will make sure I am doing these three simple tasks and maybe I'll start to feel less like this each and every second of the day: