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MadameLucretia

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  • Birthday 03/10/1914

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  1. Where to begin? Its been rather horrible. We've been trying to pack the rest of the house and thats been rather slow in itself. My mother has almost had like another 3 strokes/heart attacks in the past two weeks because of pushing herself past her limits with packing and moving and that, plus since shes sleeping in a car shes in alot more pain than normal. I'm stressed and I've realised I dont think I could live with my current housemate for long term, since she's..I dont know how to explain it...I dont get a break from work? I'm so tired and stressed and I just want to relax, but I dont feel all that comfortable in her house, maybe because Im still trying to find a place for my mother and I or maybe because I'm hyper obvious to the fact I'm invading her space... I called in sick today to my main job because I wanted to help mum, we didnt end up doing any packing but we ran some errands and stuff and generally had a good evening. Which was nice. Since I haven't had a day off in like 3 weeks. I got one of those detangler hairbrushes and I'm really glad I did. Its pretty damn awesome. If not only for the fact it gives really good head scritches. I also got a book on doing custom tattoos and a new set of headphones and a super warm jumper. I shouldn't be spending money but in total I spent...$34 which isnt too bad. We're hoping to be out of the house by.. Wednesday...We're hiring removalists to move the rest of our stuff. I suppose my exercise level has gone up, between packing and working I'm probably not doing to bad. I've got to go put my stuff in my room as I've just dumped it in the living room and my housemate will be back from work in an hour.
  2. Where to begin? Its been rather horrible. We've been trying to pack the rest of the house and thats been rather slow in itself. My mother has almost had like another 3 strokes/heart attacks in the past two weeks because of pushing herself past her limits with packing and moving and that, plus since shes sleeping in a car shes in alot more pain than normal. I'm stressed and I've realised I dont think I could live with my current housemate for long term, since she's..I dont know how to explain it...I dont get a break from work? I'm so tired and stressed and I just want to relax, but I dont feel all that comfortable in her house, maybe because Im still trying to find a place for my mother and I or maybe because I'm hyper obvious to the fact I'm invading her space... I called in sick today to my main job because I wanted to help mum, we didnt end up doing any packing but we ran some errands and stuff and generally had a good evening. Which was nice. Since I haven't had a day off in like 3 weeks. I got one of those detangler hairbrushes and I'm really glad I did. Its pretty damn awesome. If not only for the fact it gives really good head scritches. I also got a book on doing custom tattoos and a new set of headphones and a super warm jumper. I shouldn't be spending money but in total I spent...$34 which isnt too bad. We're hoping to be out of the house by.. Wednesday...We're hiring removalists to move the rest of our stuff. I suppose my exercise level has gone up, between packing and working I'm probably not doing to bad. I've got to go put my stuff in my room as I've just dumped it in the living room and my housemate will be back from work in an hour.
  3. We were evicted on the Monday past, we've so far been allowed back on the property two days to get things. I'm still working both jobs. Im struggling to eat especially because I am sick at the moment, (4th time in 2 months, yay! Stress has weakened my immune system.) Breathing is uncomfortable, so far betting on some form of sinus/chest infection or sinus infection+pneumonia. But, It could just be the flu. If Im still unless I'll book a doctors app...Tuesday.. I got my manager in trouble today, well tomorrow. Vaguely worried about the repercussions of that one. The store manager is going to have a chat to her about her attitude. More stress I dont need. I've figured out I've reached my limit on things I can handle. Between working two jobs, trying to pack a house, find a new house, move in with a mate, my mother being homeless, being sick, exhausted, worried about my ferrets, broke and just generally super stressed and depressed, plus I suffer anxiety so thats here too....I found my limit today when my manager didn't replace my shift while I covered another ladies, because she 'forgot' so I wouldn't have anyone for breaks and there would just be two of us. Her exact words were, "I've just pulled into my driveway, what do you want me to do about it?" To which my response was "FINE. Dont worry about it. Have a good night." and proceed to try and not burst into tears. This was at 4:30p, I'd been awake since 8:15 am and was working till 12am. Gah. Sorry for the rant. But I've noticed thing, like Im struggling to form coherent sentances in RL, I cannot give locations of myself or items easily, although I've always struggled with that to some extent but I feel its gotten worse. As is my ability to just explain things, the other day I tried to tell my boss that one of our regular older customers wasn't well and needed someone to help her to her car when her husband pulled up because she could barely walk, I dont even know what I said but it was like keywords and form your own sentances. I know I just have to hang on for a couple more weeks and this should be all over. Fingers crossed. Oh, did I mention my laptop is no longer recognising its battery? Other great things have been happening but I really cant. Im going to go to bed. I have to be up in 7.2 hours. Yay.
  4. Hey! Thanks for your kind words, they're very much appreciated. We've not had much more luck with the weather, but we've not lost anything else (fingers crossed, knock on wood) so far. I suppose thats what you get for trying to move in winter. I cannot wait for this to be over!
  5. We were supposed to be out today. Hahaha. Not happening. We've got an extension till Monday. I'm all about ready to quit my second job as I messaged my boss and theyve just been really frustrating. It started to thunderstorm as I came to work so my mattress and everything outside is now soaked/ruined. Frustrated beyond belief.
  6. I'm so tired. And stressed. So very stressed. We're supposed to be out tomorrow, but we've still got heaps to pack and move. I've made the ill advised purchase of a 6 pack of energy drinks but there's so much to do and I'm already exhausted. I just have to make it through the next 36 hours and everything should be fine. In theory. Don't even bother with food. Today I've had 2 up and go's, 3 chocolate bars and half a pack of biscuits and all I want to do it cry until I cannot any more and go to sleep.
  7. Today I've eaten quite a bit. I've had an up and go, a spring roll, some rice and chicken, more chicken, corn flakes, a bagel. I've biked to work and home twice today so about 20m. Im feeling kinda weird but good. I feel like someone's for lack of better words, ripped my heart out of my chest. I don't hurt but there's a strange empty/numb feeling. It's probably the stress. Move is in 5 days. Lots of packaging to go. Just breathe.
  8. Phew. So its been a 6 months or so since I posted, I remember the last time I posted I had a massive social anxiety attack which is why I haven't been back. Its silly because your all so nice, but it delves into the whole too many people focused on me expecting stuff off me. Anywho onto the good things. I managed three meals today, I had a bagel and coffee for breakfast, lunch was half a kebab, dinner some carrots and greens beans with garlic sauce. I'm really proud that I've been managing to have breakfast over the past week or so! I'm planning for this week to focus on getting up at the same time everyday, and also having breakfast. I'm not going to underpants or take on too much. I'm fighting the urge to do everything at once but I'm already burnt out. Small steps. Small. So I'm going to watch the youtube vid I'm trying to load, going to meditate for a while before I go to bed. Night!
  9. Despite it being 6 months late, thank you so much for your response! I appreciate it so much.
  10. Lets start with Today. I had an omelette for lunch, egg and onion. It was delicious.I emptied my email inbox (over 900!!).I replied to an email that I've been meaning to do for 3 months.I downloaded all of the stuff that I will need for the rest of my course, assuming I havent failed.I posted on here.I soaked my new piercings.I was on time to work.I had a pretty good day. Small steps. Just keep swimming and breathing and we'll be fine.
  11. Alright, Where to begin? I work 50 hours a week, at two jobs, an Asian Restaurant and a Deli. I'm supposed to be studying game design but I may have just failed because I didn't submit any work in the last month because I've had an increase in migraines and was told two weeks ago that we have to move by Jan 16th. I suffer Severe Depression, and am on Meds for it. I also suffer Anxiety. I've been going through a rough spot of late due to all the stress and am struggling to not shut down. I could sleep all day, quite literally. I am a nerd, I love books, video games, art and alternative culture. I am a goth. I have bodys mods and want to get more. I am determined to slowly (because I honestly cant handle much more.) change my routines, to eat healthier and exercise. I am going to be positive and happier. I am going to meditate and control my thoughts. I am going to be more productive, and not let myself drown.
  12. Hi! So, I am back (from outer space..or not) atleast hopefully. Moving onwards right? I have gotten my doctor to put me on antidepressants because I couldn't deal with my depression any more. Which is a big step for me. I am attempting to make my UNI work a priority and possibly throw in some exercise. Positive thinking a go! I am so over respawing.
  13. Thank you for the vote of confidence Hodor! That is exactly my plan! Although I have to admit that I haven't been very successful, I have been ill for the past week or so. Also! I got a tattoo the day before yesterday! I'm so in love with it. I have entered a competition to win a 12 week transformation thing. I can't decide if I want win or not. XD
  14. Hey. I am ashamed to say, I didn't just fall off the bandwagon ((to be completely honest, I never managed to catch it anyway.)) I fell off, procceeded to knock it over, spilling everythings everywhere, kick it in rage, hurt my foot and storm off into the wilderness for several long long hard months. But NO MORE. Today, I return to my Bandwagon of Scattered Things. I am going to do better this time. I am going to go to the gym. I am going to get up at a reasonable hour. I am going to see my friends. I am not going to let either of my 2 jobs gets to me, instead I am going to improve myself at them. I am going to eat healthier, no more drowning myself in chocolate because I have had a horrid night at work. I am going to catch up on my UNI work. No more procrastinating. More work and more planning. Think SMARTER nor HARDER. I am going to keep up on my housework. I am going to read more books, play more video games. I am going to catch up on my BETAing. I will one day get my clothes off the line on the same day I put them on. I will be more positive and focused. I will draw more. I will take progress shots. IT IS WORTH IT! RAWR! ONWARDS!
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