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My brother and I wanted to do this together, but I'm seriously terrified of the hanging wires part and isn't there fire involved in some part of the course?? hahaha I'm trying to find a shorter, maybe less brutal obstacle run, but I think it would be so cool to do this.

So I weighed in today and my weight is the same, measured my waist and I think I went down 1.5in BUT I WOULDN'T KNOW BECAUSE MY PHONE KEEPS DELETING MY NOTES. HAHAHHA. So I've lost ALL my previous measurements for this challenge plus the two weeks before this challenge when I had picked things up again. I'm pissed. Anyways, it doesn't really matter because I ate pretty poorly this week. Like...really...poorly. I've been having seriously bad cravings and my mind hasn't been in the right place. Like I complained about in the last challenge I live with my Nana and while that's awesome financially it really is NOT health wise. It's funny, she watches Dr. Oz like every freaking day and preaches on and on about health and stuff and yet for SOME REASON is incredibly unsupportive and destructive towards me trying to get healthier. She's constantly throwing out my food without talking to me first, if I try to prepare food the night before she gets mad at me for cooking so late, if I eat throughout the day like I'm supposed to she thinks I'm being a fatty, etc. The list goes on. She's very cruel when it comes to this stuff and doesn't seem to really understand that I'm not naturally thin like her. I had a good deal of weight on my body and I've been trying to lose it, I've had a good deal of success, but I'm at a point now where I'm very fragile and confused. My weight is much higher than it was a few months ago, but I still look somewhat lean and all my clothes still fit just about the same. I used to have to wear M/L at this weight and now it's S/M...because it's muscle? It's just REALLY hard for me to accept that I've gained muscle weight. whatever. rant over.

Thanks thunderneath! That sounds like an awesome race, where is it located? I could just google it, but honestly my arms are so tired from today's workout that typing is really hard. hahaha anything other than this post will have to be put on hold until tomorrow. So far for the day I am...not entirely sure how I'm doing food wise? I know I'm definitely not over my cals. I have been working since 8am with NO breaks and only some snacks to hold me over. I squeezed in a VERY quick arm workout, but I figured that it's alright since I upped the weight on everything. I did 4 sets. So. I did DO stuff, I just did it very quick. hahah I only have about 45 minutes to workout, eat, and get dressed for work. WELL, I went over my carbs by like 34g. Or....I'm going to. haha the only food I have to eat with me is some organic Pad Thai. If I had known that I was pushing it then I wouldn't have eaten the grilled chicken wrap I made. But oh well. It's not that bad! It could be much, much worse. Still trying to get some more water in though, I've only had about half a gallon. :/

HELL TO THE YEAH ON TODAY. Completed day one of week three of Couch25k even though with every jog my butt muscles screaaaamed "noooo, we did legs yesterday y u so meannnn?" But still did the full thing! WOOHOO. Food wise I believe I did pretty well. I probably had more cheese than I should have, but it was artisan and organic and full of healthy fats that I do not get enough on the reg. Had lunch with the family and nothing was very healthy, so I ordered a turkey burger with no bun, aioli on the side, and sweet potato fries. Drank a big glass of water. GOT IN A GALLON OF WATER. Dinner was whole grain bread, chicken sausage, and cheeeeese. Breakfast was the last of my healthy chicken homemade stir fry and some chocolate hazlenut butter. So yeah, I'd call day one a success. I know I'm not grading yet, I will try to figure that out.

Alright, so first off I have a feeling that no one read the rules for this challenge? Haha or at least skimming through a few posts this morning I see everyone posting goals and NOT main quest + subsidary goals to reach that. But whatever. MAIN QUEST: My main quest for the course of the rest of 2013 is to get into good enough shape to compete in an obstacle 5k...or possibly a mini-triathalon. I'll have to adjust this once more organizations post dates for races in the new year. As of right now I just see a lot of stuff for August/September and realistically that is just NOT gonna happen. BUT I know that I do want to do a swim/run/bike mini-triathalon or an obstacle 5k. Goal 1: Continue C25k. I figure what better way to get into the groove of running than to continue doing C25k which I've been slowly working on (I'm on week 3) and trying to stay consistent with. I want to be finished with week 9 at the end of this challenge. Goal 2: 1/2 a gallon to 1 gallon of water every day. This one is especially hard for me, but I think it is imperative that I get in this amount of water each day to continue healthy weight loss and muscle gain. REALLY hoping that halfway through this challenge I'll be consistently at 1 gallon and pushing 1.5 Goal 3: Do 5 sit ups. Anyone reading this is probably laughing, but I seriously can't do a single sit up without something holding my feet down or me having my legs straight out. It's really funny, but also really pathetic. I've been doing a lot of ab work over the last couple of weeks, but I am too afraid to even try doing sit ups still. HAH. LIFE QUEST: Just like in my last challenge I'm going to spend two hours a week working with my German program. I have INSTALLED the program which is a step further than what I did during the last challenge (which was buying the program lol) and I have signed up for my class at UTA. German 1. WOO.FITNESS QUEST: I have NOT successfully completed two challenges so I will not be doing one of these. Motivation Declaration (of independence!): About a week before this challenge ends I will be going back to Nashville to see friends and possibly doing a boudoir photoshoot...needless to say I want to be entirely confident while strutting around half naked for some stranger.

Alright, so I finally freaking measured myself. I decided to sort of start over with all this- meaning erasing all my previous information dating back to 178lbs, because I feel like I've been using that as a crutch. Anyways, while I weighed myself and the number was WAY higher than I thought it would be (must be water weight) I looked back at the measurments I had taken in March (with a much lower weight than this morning) and I've lost like 2-3inches since then soooOoooOOoooooo the scale is stupid and I'm going to just do this new thang that I'm doing ya hurr.

It's not really designed to focus on calories but rather all the othe information on the label; fats, carbs, dietary fiber, etc. I mean, you're still supposed to stay within a certain calorie budget but from what I've heard from fitness gurus I know that do it it's very easy to stay within your budget simply because you're in a healthy range for your other macros. So, I don't know. I've kind of gone off the deepend this last week because I was sick and out of town all weekend, but with the increase in calories I'm much much less light headed which leads me to believe that I SHOULD be eating more at the very least. I'm just gonna say that this challenge was a test round to get used to using this site and getting some kind of platform under me for keeping myself accountable this way instead of just using programs on my phone. Next challenge will be by far better. ALSO, I got some pre-workout which I think will really help me in my workouts! yay!

WELL IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE SOME KIND OF ILLNESS so I will NOT be going to the water park Also, I weighed this morning just for the heck of it and while I'm still just sitting at 136...I don't understand why...? I think, for the most part, I've been doing incredibly well with my carb cycling, working out, and water in take. :/ I mean, I guess it could just be gained muscle mass? I got some measuring tape, but I'm still afraid to use it. Since I never really measured myself before I don't have much to compare it to. I have some measurments from a year ago...but I think my mom threw them away because HER measurments were on there too. :/ I don't know. The only other measurments I have are from march when I did a virtual bootcamp and I haven't really changed weight wise at ALL from that point...I think. I think I look slimmer than in those pictures, but I'm not really certain. I'm so confused. Has anyone every used the IIFYM.com macro calculator? Some girls on instagram kept suggesting it so I put all my info in and it says I should be eating closer to 1700cal a day!! THATS INSANE. TO ME. AT LEAST. I don't know if I should stop carb cycling and just focus on what this calculator is telling me or WHAAAT I HATE THIS SO MUCH.

Well, I guess I could just make it part of my bicep curl goal. Once I can start curling 15lbs pretty comfortably and start curling 20lbs at all I will have reached my goal and will get my tattoo! I just hate feeling like I'm getting them all willy nilly, so I like to set goals. I'm so so so tired and kind of fighting a migraine right now, but I'm hoping to make it to the gym either way. I figure I can just die in bed afterwards. The question now is, do I do abs or arms? Tomorrow I'm recording the rest of my EP with my band...so I'm thinking I'll have time after work to do a little bit of exercise before I head over there. Thursday is my anniversary with my boyfriend so I'm not sure if I'll have time to workout. We're going to a water park which means SOME exercise! haha right?

So yesterday was a high carb day. I did well to keep within my calorie budget and I also got a pretty decent leg workout in. Feeling good about that. Today I will be doing arms and working towards my strength goals. I can still only barely lift 15lbs of free weights. bleh. But I'm working on it! Today is a looooowwww caaarrrrbbbb daaayyyy and WHATEVER. I had a bunch of chicken, grilled, with some mustard on it for breakfast and I have no idea what I'm gonna do for the rest of the day. I have like 35g of carbs left but I'm going to try to not eat any carbs after 4pm. Anyways, I have a question. I used to give myself rewards for reaching certain weight loss goals, the current being that once I get to 130lbs I will get a new tattoo...but...I'm not weighing myself anymore? I've been gaining a considerable amount of muscle and my hormones have been crazy so I've stopped doing that to keep myself from getting discouraged. Anyone have an idea for what I could use as a new thing? Or maybe I should just go ahead and get it for the progress I've made thus far? I HAVE NO IDEA.

She's just kind of a control freak. I mean, I lived with her for 4 years and never bought groceries because I was in high school and didn't need to. Then I moved out for two years for school and I'm just back for the summer, so I guess like unless I go shopping with her it just irks her for me to bring stuff into her kitchen? I don't really understand it. Maybe it starts to get too full in her opinion? She'll yell at me to stop buying groceries and to just eat what she has already bought even thouuuughhhh I keeeeep explaaaaining that I can't eaaaaat a ton of breaaaaaad. lol

Hahah thank you! I've definitely been keeping it in check for the most part, but I did it again last night. :/ I talked to her about it, asked if she could hide the breads and stuff to maybe help prevent me. She then told me it might be the melatonin I've been taking, so I'm not gonna take it tonight! Hopefully that'll keep my cravings in check. Anyways, drank over a gallon of water the past two days! yay! Also, not only did I workout, but I worked and wore my monitor to get an idea of how much I expend at my standing only job and it was about 1500 net cal! I do, however, think I was way under my calorie goal for the day. :/ It's like the third time this week, I need to find more low carb foods that aren't just MEAT. Well, really, I need more vegetables. But my nana gets annoyed when I buy groceries. :| ugh

Hopefully (not) someone will see this, but does anybody ever have problems with sleep eating? Idk it only happens every once in a while, but this morning I definitely ate a scone...due to obvious evidence...I'm not too worried about it since I'll be doing well the rest of the day and today is a high carb day. But it was a lot of sugar. Either way, I'll be working out and I'll just discount part of what I burn off as the amount of the scone. lol One of the major downfalls of living with my Nana is that she has SO MANY baked goods. They are very tempting. :/ I keep asking her to stop buying them or at least hide them, but it is of no good use. We have a second fridge downstairs and I think I might just start only using that one...and just not allowing myself to look inside the one in the kitchen.

I have been taking iron supplements! I probably just need to increase the dosage, since I am anemic already. This happens all the time. If I wasn't on the pill (3 month kind) I would literally never stop having my period. haha My "normal" cycle is never ending. When I stopped taking my medicine for a little while it lasted for about 3 months until I was like, "Well, the waiting it out idea is clearly not working."

Don't feel too bad about the pizza! I started to feel bad about eating some chocolate covered pretzles last night and then I reminded myself that it's ok. It's ok! That's only 1 bad day out of 7. Plus, nutritionists have discovered that it's good to surprise your body with "cheat meals" every once in a while because it will help with your glycemic index and metabolism which are both very important factors in weight loss. People who workout a lot are typically suggested to do it once a week, at least this is coming from my old roommate that is a state ranked body builder. I figure she kind of knows what she's talking about because she lost like 50lbs of almost purely fat and put on a ton of muscle. SO MY POINT IS don't feel guilty. First bad meal in two weeks? That's AWESOME. You've got dis in da bag, yo.