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  • Birthday 07/11/1992

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  1. Well, I'm havin déjà vu. Exam time is over, my father predicts me that I'll be a homeless parasite if I'm going on like this, and I am fed up with this BS. By the way, I'm well in schedule, concerning university; I just don't do it in the pace his lordship wants me to; he can't cope with such an outrageously imperfect daughter, who isn't head of her class, doesn't leave all men speechless she walks by ... oh, I could go on for hours. Well, health and exercise ... oh well. My mind was too busy playing along, and mentally destroying myself. And physically. By not leaving the house, don't doing chores etc. etc. Funny enough, my sister who I almost don't know at all, gave me an important impulse: To enjoy my youth and don't let anybody spoil it. Don't be one of those 40-year-olds who fly around in discos to compensate for their lost youth ... As you may see, I have lots and lots to rebuild in my mind, self-respect being the biggest mess.
  2. Greetings, programs! ... wait, wrong occasion. Greetings to all fellow Nerds and the mods of the monk forums. I humbly ask for entrance to this holy halls again. *bows* I was off and on again on NF, well, mostly off. Life and university have been busy, and right now, I'm facing the beginning of doom exam time. And I noticed one thing: The crazier and busier it gets, the more I let everything else slack. Nutrition, chores, aw, don't even talk about exercise. The best thing of exercise I can offer is a 4-hour bicycle trip which was actually an 1-hour-trip, but ... I got lost and sun-burnt <.< >.> <.<. The more troubling thing is, that I'm slowly spiraling down to thoughts like "Why is everybody doing so much better than I am, they don't deserve it any more than me yadayadayada". So this has to stop. Obviously. Well, I know that "EVERYTHING NOW WILL BE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!" won't work. So I will stick with the highly praised small steps, which means for me, for the rest of the challenge: Begin the process of cleaning up your diet. Which mostly means: Cut down on the carbs; the ideal case is that I overcome cravings for sweets by the end of the challenge and I'm clean of grains again. I plan to go full primal again, as I once was, did very well with it, until somehow I strayed for whatever reason. So, any kicks in the rear end are much appreciated. Yours sincerely, Courier6 *bows*
  3. I think so, too. From all that painful experiences when our master in Munich felt like "Let's do some push-ups in every possible and IMpossible way." You have my sincere ... empathy ... thingy. *poke* ... *poke* .... *pokitypokepoke* ... Don't force me to come over and drag you here Just kidding, I hope your schedule isn't too messed up today after that late-night session yesterday :/
  4. Oh, I know that so well ... the resistance of doing something can be so endlessly high ... well, I read the description and it said, it was one you can put in the door frame without screws. We'll see and I'll report Totally following that Hrmph. Upper body strength for us females really is a struggle, but hey, let's blame it on the excess weight we are forced to carry around there No srsly, we may be in disadvantage if it comes to builiding strength and muscle, but is that gonna stop us? That is what I call emancipation ... (no, not a very feministic individual I am ...) Thanks for the nudge, Kishi. Sometimes my head needs a good Gibbs-slap, even if or better luckily it's just verbally. And I think that's what a community like this is also for So, let's get back to kickin butt, shall we Edit: That bar is already there and in my doorframe. ... I really have the urge to calculate if that holds. It feels sturdy enough ...
  5. Did that long walk yesterday, ate clean. Today was kinda lazy, but at least I kept away from sweets and grains. Yay Me does think that since I've got rid of the pill that cravings got lots better. ... darn stuff -.- So I hope my bar will come tomorrow so that I can start through
  6. So yeah, as M already noticed, that didn't work quite well. It's always the same: Put me in a stressful situation, and all goes down the river. Well, last week wasn't healthy. But now that those flippin exams are over (one oral exam on Friday left, but that's ok), I have no more excuses to let it slack again. As by now, I am ordering a pull-up bar (for doing inverted rows, since I know although the playground isn't far, I will be too lazy to walk there). And I will get ready for a long walk while my laptop is receiving tons of mail pigeons with data for Fallout:New Vegas which will hopefully work now on my Linux computer. .... really don't want to disappoint again
  7. Just a short message, since I've got not much time on my hand. Well, last challenge started well, but ended in Antinirvana. And the main problem is: I actively make the worst possible choices. Because it's the path of lessest ... least ... minimum resistance, because moodswings, because mice. So I try to tackle that problem by being aware of what I am doing, despite all goes frenzy because exams or other stuff. Mainly it is again about eating and exercising. Throw out grains and sugar and cut down on the carbs in whole. It worked so well last summer T_T As for exercising ... well, CC again. It is so embarrassing that I just can't bring myself to choose the longterm success for the sake of laziness. Maybe it would be best to lock me up in a dark cell with no electricity. For this week with four exams breathing in my neck (do you say that like this or does it sound pervy?) I will mostly just deliver short notes each evening. Oh, but one good message: Now it is 90% sure that I can work as a tutor for Engineering Materials next semester, which is pretty awesome
  8. As you are now also an expert if it comes to shooting blue and orange ellipses into white walls (i.e. Portal game-franchise) I have to say this: The cake is a lie Well, as it would be a bad sign, I hope I don't get a cake from you (but you could bake your granny a cake whether you've been a bad boy or not ) And count me in for the sleeping goal and building a proper daily rhythm. You have my full support. (So part of the mail I sent you this evening is kinda ignorable.) And until you have the software, I will be glad to be of help and to send you to bed. Now, let's go and kick some butts. Or, as in one of my favourite movies: "Come back with your shield. Or on it." And I'm so sorry to hear about the rejected application. Exploded in my face, too, since it really seemed going well. So, now your job search will also cover industry jobs?
  9. Unfortunately, I don't have MA classes. For the reason you just stated. And yes, I will. Believe me, I am sick and tired about my health status as it is. And Larry Winget's Video "You're not a millionaire yet and it is your fault" says it: "If you're doing nought about it, you are obviously satisfied with the status quo."
  10. Yup, it's the notorious "Schweinehund", the correct idiom is as far as I know "den inneren Schweinehund überwinden" (I am Franconian, and we are notorious for our funny dialect, so no warranty for correct Duden-approved expressions^^) How comes that you are that interested in the German language? German heritage? (which isn't so uncommon among Americans) Yeah, long time no see. But I was quite busy moving to another town YET AGAIN. But it was worth it, now I live in a comfortable 3-room-flat in vicinity to university for almost nothing. "I have been met with a wonderful fate for a change" ^^ And now I will stay here. Since 2011, I have changed towns every year. I plan to break this unpleasant tradition. Well, as far as my goals are concerned ... ugh. That didn't quite work out as I hoped. But now my fridge only contains vegetables, meat and dairy products, the only grain product are original Italian hand-made pasta my new landlady gave me as a present. Paleo-Reset, here I come ... and I will give intermittent fasting a try: Which means, that I will either eat just breakfast or just dinner. It's not about starving myself, don't worry, since the meals will be generous, but I did that before and my stomach liked that. In April, after the exams, I will restart TKD again, hopefully here since the school is about 200 metres from here, but that depends on the trainer ... well, and the fee ; For now, since my "strategy" with no particular exercise plan didn't work out, I will give CC another try, with the training schedule for ultimate full-time-noobies. As sad as it is T_T But hey, giving up is no option. Convict Conditioning Noobieew Blood Workout Plan Monday: 2-3 worksets push-ups and leg raises Friday : 2-3 worksets pull-ups and squats I think that is even feasible for an undisciplined sloth like me. These days also will be the IF-days.
  11. So far so good. Sugar-withdrawal works, although I am a bit binging on berries and dairy. But better this than falling back, was the same last time. It'll get better. Well, exercise ... yeah, ... "it's not a bug, it's a feature!" Still fighting against the lazy ... in German, we say "pig-dog". But to another nerdy topic: I am currently playing TLoZ: Majora's Mask and got the shock of my life. Anybody here knows the creepypasta "Haunted Majora's Mask" ? I love it, it's creepy and eerie as hell, and I like a good scary story from time to time. What I didn't know: Those statues that haunt the player in the story are "real", so they appear on a normal basis in the game. So, I almost broke mentally down after I bet the King of Ikana (that biaach ...) and one of these eerie statues appeared ... actually, I almost cried because I was so frightened. After looking up the Zelda Wiki that those horrible things (I really hate that statues, especially the human and the Zora form, they give me the creeps and nightmares...) belong in the game, I calmed down, but still ... *shiver* ... Yeah, trivia from a Courier's life
  12. ... The penguin is strong in this thread. Like this? Sorry. Too tempting to pass on. *hides under the couch* He did. And his roommates remained as poor as they were.
  13. Ugh, again not quite sticking to my challenge. M, maybe that might be a start - but to be honest, a treat here and there won't kill us, my problem's just, if I have something, it's gone in no time, and since I am "cursed" with a good metabolic efficiency, well, ... And yes, it's been a long time since we did that ... tee hee. But at the moment, it wouldn't be a good idea. Phoenix, well, it's pathetic, but I still just have some ideas, not a real plan. But since my stomach is trolling me today so no university for me, I have some time to think. Concerning my uncertainty: It was mainly caused by the issue of finding a new home, which is quite done now, in fact, I will pretty surely move to a nice three-room flat for almost no rent, so that's out of the way. But there are still other things, of course. The Courier's brain never stops to produce fears and anxiety, M could tell you all about that ;_;. Well, (unfortunately) there is no switch to turn it off, and I think it's the best trying not to focus on it, at least for the moment. Because there are other things I can change, which might solve a few of these problems in the process. And the first thing that has to be done is to clean up my diet for starters. Primal diet was the best thing I ever did to me, not just because of the weight loss, but for the whole package. And funny enough, a friend that I introduced to primal now "lost" 4 pant sizes, which is quite amazing, and I am intrigued by her discipline. I'll just go cold turkey with grains and sugar, which are the worst enemies. And at least 15 min exercise a day ... no matter what. I know that I won't stick to a particular exercise plan at the moment, but getting my butt out of the chair for more than traveling to university will be a start. It's more about getting back the proper mindset than actually messing up those muscles. Did I mention I really miss martial art classes? ;_; *Edit* : Well, I didn't remember how bad the cold turkey sucks ~_~ but I am too stubborn to let that darn bird win. And there are still 5 mins to do. As soon as that friggin' cat stops practising for the next skiing slalom abusing my legs as poles.
  14. Well, hi folks. It's been quite a while since I stalked the NF rebellion. Well, let me give you a short overview of my glorious deeds ... It's really short: None. Maybe some of you guys remember that I had to restart my engineering studies ... well, that restart was a disaster. I only passed three of 10 exams - I'm still in, I can continue, but it's pathetic. That totally dismantled me ... well, I spare you the details. I had to stop my TKD classes, and of course the workload is so immense that it's THE perfect excuse for skipping exercise and drowning in misery. Well, good news is: I pulled myself together, I even found friends at college [sic!] and studying is finally as natural as it was in High School. The bad news: Sedentary lifestyle, bad nutrition, BC pill (I will stop taking that crap very soon, switching to a hormone-free method), so I put on about 10 kg. Which sucks. But not as much as the loss of the little strength and endurance I crammed together so painfully. And now also my mind starts messing around with me again. Freaking out over everything, making an elephant out of a fly ... My soul too isn't in best shape, therefore the tag uncertainty. Now, what to do: I'll be honest: I don't have the slightest idea. I don't think I have the willpower to reset now, but I hate my life as it is now - I could make so much more of it than just being reactive and being afraid and anxious about everyrhing all the time. It's not that I have biiig problems or feeling like shit all the time, don't get me wrong, all in all, I'm fine. I ... just kinda hit a dead end and don't know how to get past it. So forgive me that I don't have a good plan for this challenge, maybe I just need a place to share my thoughts to get them in order - to kick some butts again.
  15. Although I've read it before, it still is a funny thought, you doing push-ups next to a delivery room, luckily no one seemed to feel like giving birth that day (I know I definitely would have fled if that had happened). But now I definitely know what to do while waiting for my medical appointment on Friday ... Anyways, I hope Sir is spared by the pain in the future. So, this was the first workout. I hope many will follow. Not only in waiting rooms P.S.: Yes, thread still has to be written, I know, kyosa-nim (or however you write this. Me not sprech Korean.)
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