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  1. Honestly, sleep is hard. I've realized that I want to talk at bedtime, not sleep. Like, it took work to get here! I'm now ready to start unwinding and socialising. Wait, where is everyone? Guys? This is probably why all the yeti swipe left on my Tinslr profile. Wait, do you think yeti sleep in a big pile like kittens? That would be so awesome. And fluffy.
  2. This was a surprisingly productive day, both in quantity and in the nature of the projects. If I can get more sleep and replicate this, I will be very pleased. But I do need more sleep and more brain, because this was a real struggle. Still, pretty much everything came together despite that. There's one planning/timing app I've started using again, and I've decided it's not optional. It's not perfect, but nothing else is quite as useful. It's the sweet spot of letting me plan the big picture, focus only on the small picture, and rearrange plans on the fly without losing control of the schedule. Also the philosophy of "I'm just going to do ten minutes and then take a break" for annoying things. That's good. It sounds like it should be inefficient, but it's the fastest way to plow through them. I need to make sure I set aside enough time to plow through some things. I need to get an end of day wrap-up and planning for the next day into my schedule. I think that'd wipe out a major source of focus loss in the morning. I also need more fun, although I'll kinda give today a pass. It had some almost fun. And getting all those big things done was fun.
  3. I did the one thing, then rested and did some stretching. Needed the stretching, my lower back and upper pelvis were very tight. Still tired. Might take a real nap. There are two more things I want to do, and I'm running out of time, but I am a (tired) fragile flower.
  4. I am doing fairly well on my list, but I'm running out of steam and I'm bored. I do have some break stored up, and I have a "don't wanna means tired" rule, but I do want to get one of these done. Then maybe a short exercise break or something. But, ooh, it is snowing. I should go enjoy some snow.
  5. For a second, I read that as "toaster", and wondered if I had any dishes small and vertical enough.
  6. Lunch for lazy people: Let's say you're in the mood for garlic. Preferably nice roasted garlic, infusing some olive oil with its goodness. Let's say you also have the better part of a wheel of queso fresco that really needs using up. So first you whack on the oven at 375F. Then you slice the chunk of queso fresco in half the flat way and lay it in a glass dish. Chop up a fresh tomato, and slice four large cloves of garlic into large lengthwise slices. You are a peasant. Sprinkle them over the cheese. One meal's worth of garlic. Dig into the fridge, and cube up some leftover cooked chicken breast, if you have it. Sprinkle that into the dish. Find some herbs like oregano. Sprinkle that. Drizzle with some olive oil. Bake until it smells too good to let it bake any longer. Nice with fresh arugula. I need to find a more efficient alternative to running the whole damn oven for my lunch. Maybe I should get a solar cooker. Or a mini oven. Because I need that lunch again.
  7. Week 4 Day 3 Challenge tasks: Spend an hour doing something fun: Make something pretty, fun, or festive: I made a fancy lunch with lots of garlic and herbs and olive oil. I aspire to be as cool as this breakfast. Bonus making: a few rows of a bigger pepeppermint-swirl crochet project Drink 4 liters with electrolytes: 2.5/4 Exercise breaks: 1 Meditation breaks: 1 Support tasks: Make a warm nest Fix evening routine timers Bedside snack stash I'm gonna force the fun issue today. I will schedule half an hour of fun into my day. That way, I will know how long it is and everything. ENFORCED FUN. YouTube has been recommending me some podcasts, and reminding me that I'm aiming for a slow transition to therapeutic keto to give it a test. (Apart from my missing pile of forbidden chocolate, those are the basic food cravings I've been getting, so it's probably time.) One of those podcasts is going through hormonal reasons for poor sleep that are caused by not enough fat in the diet (by the liberal fat standards of this corner of dietary wisdom), and I have poor sleep and high stress levels, so I will follow their advice and put bedtime snacks out. I'm not sure what variety yet. (They probably mean, like, butter. How the hell do I keep a stash of butter?) . . . (Answer: In the form of 35% discs of white chocolate, I think. I will devise a recipe. There will be sprinkles. It will be festive. Still sounds a little melty, but the cocoa butter will help. And I have crackers at the moment, so there's that.) Enforced fun. What could possibly go wrong.
  8. I think I must be really tired, cuz I'm cranky and I don't wanna, and I'm having start-of-challenge levels of existential despair.
  9. Week 4 Day 2 I'm still stalled on fun. I am not making time for fun. Also, I am cold. Ish. I need to wrap up. Challenge tasks: Spend an hour doing something fun: Make something pretty, fun, or festive: MANY HOT COCOA (I shared) Bonus making: a few rows of a bigger pepeppermint-swirl crochet project Drink 4 liters with electrolytes: 2/4 Exercise breaks: 0 Meditation breaks: 0 Support tasks: Make a warm nest Wear extra warm clothes Fix evening routine timers Winter goals: Hibernate (in progress) Break out the coziest clothes (in progress) Sled with a yeti On the subject of yeti, does one hook up with Russian Ukrainian Santas by posting on Tinslr?
  10. Okay, I think it's hitting. I did pretty good, I got through the bulk of my morning schedule with only an extra ten minutes uses of rest. It was a pretty serious morning schedule, too. But I've just had to go back and redo a section three times, so I officially don't have enough focus to keep going. I'll have to use my lunch break for some actual rest. I'm still not eating a pile of chocolate.
  11. Week 4 Day 1 I'm still stalled on fun. But I am not stalled on work, so that is good. I did not sleep enough last night. (Despite some really good hibernation skills, guys.) That will hit me later. I didn't eat enough yesterday. That's hitting me now. But I don't have time for food yet. I have learned that time spent wrapped in warm things pays off in both mental health and productivity. So I will try to do more of that. Challenge tasks: Spend an hour doing something fun: I had hot cocoa Make something pretty, fun, or festive: made it snow Bonus making: a few rows of a bigger pepeppermint-swirl crochet project Drink 4 liters with electrolytes: 2/4 Exercise breaks: 1 Meditation breaks: 1 Support tasks: Make a warm nest Wear extra warm clothes Fix evening routine timers Winter goals: Hibernate (in progress) Break out the coziest clothes (in progress) Sled with a yeti I don't know how to accomplish sledding with a yeti.
  12. We are about to test how close to sleep meditation is. I have just spent six hours lying awake in bed doing all the right things to sleep. My alarm is in 1.5 hours. I have a full day. This will not be fun. My fitness tracker does think I've been sleeping, and that that good. It means I've genuinely been still enough to sleep. However, judging by how much audiobook I've heard and how many pillows I've swapped onto my bed to change my head elevation and so on, it is extremely wrong. One cumulative hour of microsleeps, tops.
  13. This, I think, is the peak time to read it. The thing that started tipping me off to the idea that I was code-switching was that it reminded me of late night conversations I'd have when I was 20, in a mostly male college, which I only years later started realizing was partly code-switching to a male POV to fit in better culturally. I can't name why, but I can identify the feeling. Yes, I think that would add a lot to the resonance it'd have, because you're not a generalist - you're embedded in a profession where those discussions of church structure and power and belief are very relevant to your daily concerns. I suspect it's sort of a timeless allegory, because people are the same, and it likely happens over and over. I can definitely see it saying a lot more about the responsibilities of the clergy that it doesn't say as clearly to the layperson. I think Brutha would be a much more poignant figure for a member of the clergy. Not that he isn't in general, but it's much more personal and relevant. I never saw it before, either. It's partly obscured by the fact that you don't realize till the end that the book is written so that everyone is a minor character in Wozzer's big epic Joan of Arc quest; she's the main character as far as the world is concerned, but we're following the side characters much more closely, and they have sort of a different story, while the big epic things are elsewhere. She's mostly busy being the counterpart to Brutha offscreen. But it's also that their struggle against a twisted religion looks different, and it's easy to miss how many elements are similar. I think she is, definitely in Reaper Man. It's in how she treats her daughter. I think she evolves by the time Angua moves to the city; she's practically a social justice warrior for the (undead) counter culture by then, and much more likeable. She definitely starts out that type. (When it comes to daughters in law, and only there, so is Nanny Ogg, and she knows better, I suspect.)
  14. Week 3 Day 6 I wish to point out that I am not eating a stack of chocolate. That's really all I want in life, and I'm not doing it. However, I did have hot cocoa yesterday and it was great, so I may do that again today. I will do something fun. Fun is required. Challenge tasks: Spend an hour doing something fun: Make something pretty, fun, or festive: Bonus making: a few rows of a bigger pepeppermint-swirl crochet project Drink 4 liters with electrolytes: 1/4 Exercise breaks: 0 Meditation breaks: 0 Support tasks: Make a warm nest Wear extra warm clothes Fix evening routine timers Winter goals: Hibernate (in progress) Break out the coziest clothes (in progress) Sled with a yeti
  15. Sadly, crochet is sort of 85% chore, and needs more light than is available in bed. It is a challenging balance to hit. Positive peer pressure would be useful, but, well, going to bed at a sensible hour is not a group activity. I liked it, but did not love it as deeply as I know it is loved. When reading it, I got the odd sense that I was codeswitching to take part in a very male sort of conversation about (a)theism and belief. I can't really explain why that is, but it sort of kept my enjoyment on a very intellectual level rather than a visceral level. Now that I think about it, I think perhaps it really was a fundamentally very male story about religion being misused and being set right again, and didn't speak much to the female experience of religion or grappling with belief. And I see this now because when I thought about what women's historic relationship with religion is, I realized Monstrous Regiment is a very similar story regarding the impact of a religion being misused in the wake of a fading god and needing reform, but told from the female point of view. Most of the situations in which religion is explored in Small Gods are situations that historically, and even today, women are excluded from - prophets wandering in deserts, powerful bishops influencing nations, that sort of thing. It can be a good and insightful story, but not a story that a female reader is included in, not the experiences that shaped women's relationship with belief or were shaped by them. Monstrous Regiment, on the other hand, is made up of those experiences - Magdalene laundries for fallen girls, restrictions over how you dress and what you can inherit, the Joan of Arc archetype, the controversial popular semi-deification of Mother Mary counter to orthodoxy, the knowledge that power is closing ranks to exclude you and protect its own interests, the pious elderly women who enforce the rules that hurt women because it gives them a little power in the system that's deprived them of it. Brutha's experience of being a lowly, humble monastic who will never have a voice or seat at the table is fundamentally different to Wozzer's experience, because she would never be allowed into as respected a position in the religious structure as Brutha was in at the start of Small Gods - it's a very different sort of not having a seat at the table or a voice that she experiences. When the voice of the god she believes in speaks to her and tells her that the church is tainted and the geopolitical ship needs to be turned around before it's too late, she has a very different set of obstacles to being heard. Brutha's sort of powerlessness and Wozzer's don't really compare. It's also the case that Brutha's reforms, while earth-shaking in many respects, are unlikely to significantly reform a lot for women in Omnia, because the book doesn't recognise what Monstrous Regiment does: how different the misuse of religion looks to women, and how much of it is experienced in small daily perversions of power and covered up, rather than happening in big, open power moves. Brutha's reformation isn't the sort that ends residential reform schools for bad girls or their hidden abuse, or changes inheritance laws, or customs about head scarfs. A church organization that is not corrupt is always better than a church that is, and everyone is safer for it. Authoritarian power is always a danger, and to everyone. But those reforms are not going to trickle down equally. Monstrous Regiment takes the similar message of "the church should not throw the country's young men into the geopolitical meat grinder and power struggles", but it does that in the context of seeing the broader implications of what kind of society does that, and what that does to a society, including how the power struggles and exertion of control and influence needed to do that trickle down into people's daily lives. So I guess I think that it's a clever satire on the political history of various theocratic moments. But it's not a book that's trying to address the relationship women have with religion and religious authority, and that's the sort of oversight that's sort of at the heart of women's relationship with religion, so it's hard for the book to feel personal or deep to me. But I recognize that it is for other people. I hope I'm not harshing your buzz! It is a good book, and you've just raised some very interesting thoughts for me, in comparing two books telling thematically similar stories from very different points of view. I never saw that similarity before, but Wozzer and Brutha are having a very similar sort of experience, played out through different archetypes.
  16. Asking for a birthday gift of "four annual cleaning service visits" might be useful here. It's hard for working adults to do even maintenance cleaning, let alone deep cleans, but you guys are managing that, even if slowly. Having someone top it off every three or four months as a treat might make a huge difference. If it's getting concerning, my recommendation is finding a discreet way of doing nerd outreach. Martial arts are always in style with nerds, and a nonviolent style has a lot of appeal to, say, Jedi fans, and so on. There's a group in Avatar: The Last Airbender that essentially do aikido. There are communities that want what you've got, but don't know you've got it.
  17. That is deeply Ankh-Morpork. Let me know when you move on to sausages inna bun or endless ways of preparing cabbage. Congratulations! You have time traveled (the slow way). I suggest you kaizen this fucker, and sneak up on it with a subtle attack it doesn't see: for the rest of this challenge, which is only a couple of weeks I think, vegging out is permitted, provided you do it on the floor. You'll end up with a ton of hamstring and hip-related stretches just from sitting. (Partly cuz the secret is, stretch positions are more comfortable than sitting positions on the floor, and you can't sit in one position indefinitely on a hard surface.) Get that change lined up for next challenge, and then it's pretty easy to add some light core work, some guided yoga cooldowns, other stuff that likes the floor. Nothing that'll shock your sleep patterns while you're struggling to steady them, nothing that's too experimental at discovering load bearing stress relief the hard way, just shifting what you're doing a step closer to your goals. And if your mobility work is happening in front of episodes of Picard, that's your business. The TV selection at the gym would be worse.
  18. I make the curry. I eat the curry. I make the soup. I take the soup to bed.** I pour the water. I drink the water. I go to bed. I refuse to be getting sick. **Not in a weird sexy way.
  19. Week 3 Day 3 I need to do something fun. I'm low on fun ideas. Fun is cancelled. I also need some way to absolutely make sure I'm in bed before my brain get tired. Tired brain goes off the rails. I'm not okay with open-ended projects today, which is like all the projects. I'm not really okay with well-defined projects, either. Or people. I'm not okay with anything today. Maybe this is a heavy hibernation day, and I should prioritise hibernation over productivity. That might lead to better productivity outcomes. Also, I should probably eat something, and thus hate the world less. Challenge tasks: Spend an hour doing something fun: ? Make something pretty, fun, or festive: ? Bonus making: a few rows of a bigger pepeppermint-swirl crochet project Drink 4 liters with electrolytes: 1/4 Exercise breaks: 0 Meditation breaks: 0 Support tasks: Wear extra warm clothes Fix evening routine timers Winter goals: Hibernate (in progress) Break out the coziest clothes (in progress) Sled with a yeti
  20. Both of those, plus some meal-sharing and pantry-space-sharing constraints. How are you measuring your ketones, finger prick?
  21. Your nephew appears to be a cat. This is educational as to the correct care and feeding.
  22. It used to be the folk wisdom that coffee (any caffeine, really) was dehydrating and didn't count towards your daily hydration, maybe even needed more, though that's been walked back a bit. (The current version is that it is a bit, but much less than the liquid in the mug, so people can count some of it to their water total.) I'm okay with calling tea and coffee "water" for my purposes. But I also react less to caffeine than most, so people who react more to caffeine than average likely have a very different experience, and it may be very dehydrating for them. The soup was tasty, but the experiment was a bit biased, because it was salty and because I had soup before noon, then ate all the rest of my food at 9pm as mostly carbs, and carbs need extra water. (It's something to do with storing glycogen, and it's why people lose a chunk of water weight when they go low carb.) So I had a lowish hydration day, mixed with an increased need for hydration to replace what I usually don't store glycogen with. You're very welcome! I'm glad it's falling on people who appreciate it as I do.
  23. You are braver than me. I struggle with that high a fat content, even though I think it'd be a good macro choice. (I want to experiment with therapeutic keto for ADHD, but I just don't know how to get that much fat in my diet.) And I struggle with this, too. (Some days, I'm only arguably wearing clothes, because leggings are not pants, and that means my bottom half is technically unclothed. So flourishes might take me some time. And I didn't have this problem working in an office. Sure, it was always scarves and only rarely layers, but I could use a few more scarves and layers. At home, it just feels like all it's accomplishing is increasing the clothing maintenance requirements.)
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