Yasha92

Hugs for you friend! Such a grubby puppy!!! Hope you didn’t hurt your back too bad with the fall ❤️❤️❤️ hope the docs give you some good guidance about the meds. Definitely write a list of your questions/concerns to take/have with you, it really helps.

Good to see you too!!! I came off of paroxetine (a type of ssri usually for anxiety/depression). I am now on vyvance (for adhd). The vyv has definitely lessened a lot of the anxious symptoms which I now realise was actually concern about making ADHD type mistakes/forgetting stuff/getting distracted by other things then upset that the first thing was left behind etc. Just had my first med review this week. Price ouchy for a half hour appointment, but seems good- the dr wants to keep me on the same for another month and see if the appetite side effects keep lessening (they have been).

Thanks friends! Definitely adjusting to the new meds was messing with my sleep - that and overloading myself (again!!!). Have just (5min ago) submitted my final design for the Permaculture Certificate, so hopefully that will ease a little bit of the pressure.

Not doing so great at updating here, but I’m doing ok. A little bit overly busy and wanting to sleep early when I would normally spend the time updating the thread - sleep wins that coin toss a lot lately!

Thanks!!! Sat on the interview panel for some juniors for the new team today, same again tomorrow. So far everyone seems lovely

Great photos! Hope the training with Bronze goes well (even though it’s not for a while yet I can still wish luck now, right?!). Absolutely agree with whoever above said there should be dedicated limits to work time. Boundaries ~~~

No advice today, just hugs and support~

That's the ones~ It's not horrific or anything, and I'm definitely not going to starve to death by any means - but it's been interesting seeing the instant reduction in my previously constant snacking/grazing. Yesterday (Wednesday) had sign language class, came home and did a couple hours work, went for a short walk with Mx and then early to bed (like, really early... like 8.30pm)!

Thanks for checking in Sal! New meds are living up to their appetite suppressant reputation, so am still figuring that out. Put the food into MFP today because I was sure I didn't eat enough yesterday. Otherwise, So far, so good, I do feel less rage-y, but it's only 2 days in so maybe just nothing has made me mad lol. Went in to the office yesterday and today (Mon, Tues) and cleaned out my desk in prep for the shift over to the new job. Don't really feel like tracking my little bubbles tonight, so am going to head to bed early instead.

Sunday and it was overcast and hot- muggy. Had physio in the morning coz my shoulder is still being a butt, especially noticeable since I’ve been back in the office taking off blouses rather than T-shirt’s, Mx has to help me almost every time because the range of motion just isn’t right. After physio did a little groceries and pre-DnD cleaning. DnD where we got spectacularly little done, it was just too hot to focus properly. It was a pleasant enough day, but not particularly exciting to write down. Sunday week 1~ ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️⛔️✅ Teethies [yep ] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Walkies [to physio and back] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Freggies [yep] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Sleepies [in bed, keen] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Cleanies [pre DnD cleaning, none immediately before bed tho] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Boundaries [yep. ] ✅✅⛔️⬛️⬛️⛔️⛔️ Permaculture [nope, priorities elsewhere today] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅✅ Meds tracking [yes, new meds start tomorrow, extra attention to the tracking) ✅Money Monday [yep, did it Mon] ✅ Shitty task [physio] ✅ Communication [done on Wednesday]

Shortish update for today, Saturday. Had a little sleep in then went snorkelling and got fish and chips with Mx, very pleasant and a reminder that I need to schedule more rest/rejuvenation. Planning to move my gym sessions to during the day as my lunch break as I shift to more wfh to free up arvos/evenings a bit as well. Even when I try to do less I still end up trying to squeeze so much in. I went through and added a bunch of stickers to the calendar to track out what I’ve already committed to (AUSLAN, gym, boardgames, DnD, going to a couple theatre shows etc) - adding a colour coded sticker for my regular commitments and it is already looking quite busy- a good reminder to take less on unless it is really REALLY fulfilling. Anyways~~~ snorkeling then chill, did the backlog of dishes while a massive storm rolled in. Wednesday week 1~ ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️⛔️⏹️ Teethies [nope ] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Walkies [snorkelling for about 3 hours] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Freggies [yep] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Sleepies [in bed, keen] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Cleanies [big batch of dishes] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Boundaries [yep. ] ✅✅⛔️⬛️⬛️⛔️⏹️ Permaculture [nope, priorities elsewhere today] ✅✅✅⬛️⬛️✅⏹️ Meds tracking [yes, minimal weirdness, one fit of giggles] ✅Money Monday [yep, did it Mon] ⏹️ Shitty task [have physio tomorrow] ✅ Communication [class is on Wednesdays]

Huzzah! Glad to hear it went well!

All is well and I’m still kicking- just a little busy to update the last couple days. Back soon!

and of course

Wednesday ~ caught the train to Auslan, caught the train home, took a walk with Mx, went to the gym. Sounds pretty uneventful 😅 next section is combo day summary and some meds withdrawal/ effect acknowledgment. I made an effort to get to the train station early, because I was feeling a bit distracted/spacey and didn’t want to miss the train coz I stopped to look at a flower or something. The train was mega late, and then while I was on it the announcements were different to what I am used to and I convinced myself I was on the wrong train. At one point I got off the train then jumped back on, because the sign on the platform said it was going to the station I needed, while the sign on the inside of the train didn’t. It took some frantic texting with Mx for them to go on the website and tell me exactly which platform to go to and the name that would be on the front of the train so I got off that train (which totally would have stopped at my stop, I’m sure) and hopped on the next one. In total, instead of getting to class 15min early I was half an hour /45min late. I also had to take two phone calls during class #awkward! Luckily the two phone calls were organising the start date of the new role (huzzah! I got it!), and i have now put in my three week notice for my current job ready to start the new job on the 9th March. Tried to catch the train home but similar confusion, I got on A train because it was at the right platform at the right time, but it wasn’t my train… it’s like the brain connections just weren’t there. Thankfully I was suspicious after this mornings drama and I was able to get off at a different station, find a sign and find the right train to make my way home. Walked with Mx once I got home, a lap of the river, then I went to the gym for deadlifts (8/8/8/8/5 at 40/50/60/70/80kg) Wednesday week 1~ ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Teethies [yeh thanks Jarric for reminding me! ] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Walkies [yep - big lost in the morning, river walk, gym- 13,723, probs approx 2,000 of that was from me forgetting to take off my Fitbit while I was signing] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Freggies [yep] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Sleepies [nodding off as I wrote this] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Cleanies [5 min folding. Didn’t finish, but made an improvement.] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Boundaries [yep. ] ✅✅⛔️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Permaculture [nope, priorities elsewhere today] ✅✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Meds tracking [yes, another minimal weirdness day thank goodness] ✅Money Monday [yep, did it yesterday] ⏹️ Shitty task ⏹️ Communication [class is on Tomorrow (Wednesday),

Gosh, I hope so! Really providing an insight to how much my current (almost “previous”) medication was doing/taking the edge off. Thank you! Keeping the goals small and specific worked well last challenge, so keeping on in that direction This comment got me out of bed to go and do todays. I thank.

Hope you're (both, all) doing ok- thinking of you. Echoing the others saying to drive safe and hydrate ❤️

Tuesday ~ worked from the office, did a short walk/errands in lunch, then home time. Bought myself an umbrella while I was out on my errands walk because it started BUCKETING down. Likely some blow-over from the cyclone hitting NZ currently. No segue. Borderline marking off my 'shitty task' because this is now the 4th trip I've made to the hardware store trying to install a bidet - first the install kit didn't have a hose and a connector, then the connector I bought won't fit in the space available, then the hose I bought is female-to-female when I needed a female-to-male. Tell you what, there better be an angelic choir the first time I use this stupid thing, one more trip for either a m-2-f hose, or a converter. Tuesday week 1~ ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Teethies [yeh ] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Walkies [yep - errands in the rain, 8,545] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Freggies [yep] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Sleepies [on a technicality, yes, I was in bed watching my Auslan lecture by bedtime, posting this then going to sleep.] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Cleanies [I did some pre-bed dishes - didn't put the timer on but it was minimum 5mins] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Boundaries [yep. trying real hard to not let every problem be my problem] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Permaculture [yep, 10min putting scientific names to the plants in my design] ✅✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Meds tracking [yes, another minimal weirdness day thank goodness] ✅Money Monday [yep, did it yesterday] ⏹️ Shitty task [what might it beeeeee??? haven't chosen yet] ⏹️ Communication [class is on Tomorrow (Wednesday), I did my revision and most of my pre-lecture]

Thanks! Y'know, I thought I liked them... but I've been way more relaxed since I modified them... they still jingle occassionally, but it's just when the pipes bump against each other, without the big glass bead in the middle.

Monday~ I worked from home today so I could have a little sleep in and do my work without worrying about all the little extras that come from being in the office (like wearing office appropriate attire instead of shorts and a T-shirt). If I had to have gone in I am certain it would have been a mental health day- too hard to be fit for public consumption. So, I worked, I did a load of laundry, went for a lunch walk with Mx (saw a cool wasp!) and did some groceries/chemist errands. After work I watched the auslan lecture I forgot to watch last week, and cooked up a bit of a storm in the kitchen. Made breakfast egg 'muffins'/mini frittatas. One batch turned out pretty good, the other one feels a bit...wet... I'll see if it comes good after refrigeration and re-heating, it's not awful, just not lovely. With the lunch walk and my trip to the shops/chemist I ended up a bit over 12,000 steps. Nothing new to report on the meds front, a little less angry today that I've been feeling lately, still definitely not patient enough to tolerate it when Mayhem tried to use me as a ladder to get up high. I was able to just remove her and set her outside the office door without having a mega meltdown so that's a win. Monday week 1~ ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Teethies [yeh ] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Walkies [yarp, river walk + errands sees me at 12,354] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Freggies [yep] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Sleepies [in bed at 9.30 lol] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Cleanies [I did dedicated 5 min pre-bed, dishes] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Boundaries [yep] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Permaculture [yep] ✅⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️⏹️ Meds tracking [yes, minimal weirdness today] ✅Money Monday [yep] ⏹️ Shitty task [] ⏹️ Communication [class is on Wednesday, but I did my revision]

Thanks! Decided to work from home today and it was the correct choice - not having to commute in, nor put on my 'people face' was very welcome today. Plus, it meant Mx and I could go for a walk in lunch and I was able to do some groceries/errands.

No words, only sympathies, it's tough and your feelings are valid ❤️ hope the AirBnB this week is lovely too~

Sunday: very over active brain, tried real hard to keep it from being too much of an overactive body. Medium success. I wrote a list of all the things my brain said I needed to do, forced myself to cross some things off as not priority/not important, showed the list to Mx and they crossed some additional things off for me so the list was reduced by about a third. I did mostly ok sticking somewhat to the list, more things added to it as I was doing things on the list (like I had “bring in laundry” and then later added “fold it” coz I needed the basket). Otherwise had DnD, puddled through a little homework for each Auslan and Permaculture. Sold some bamboo fencing stuff on marketplace, rebooked an anirtasker etc. Emotional damage/ meds tracking behind the spoilers: Sun 0 week~ ⬛️✅✅✅⛔⬛️️✅ Teethies [ it still counts if I eat more food after I brushed, right? ] ⬛️✅✅✅✅✅✅ Walkies [fitbit was dead so don’t have stats, but FEELS like I did it] ⬛️✅✅✅✅⛔️✅ Freggies [I think so] ⬛️✅✅✅✅✅✅ Sleepies [in bed] ⬛️✅✅✅✅⛔️✅ Cleanies [I did dedicated 5 min pre-bed, dishes] ⬛️✅✅✅✅✅✅ Boundaries [yep] ⬛️✅✅⛔✅⛔️✅Permaculture [yep] ⬛️✅✅✅✅✅✅ Meds tracking [yes, details in the spoiler] 🦋Money Monday [it’s Saturday, but I did start this] ✅ Shitty task [couples coaching was on Monday, additionally Mx and I had a good (uncomfortable) conversation] ✅Communication [yep, Wedday]

Thanks friendo! I did try to relax, definitely doesn’t come naturally to me, gosh! I did find that I was able to sit outside in the garden chair for 20mins just resting, so that’s a win.