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The Shogun

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  • Birthday September 6

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    Caracas, Venezuela.
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    monk
  1. Man, I read your challenge and I feel like you're the Thomas Raith of my Harry Dresden. I've also been dealing with anxiety (who hasn't this year?) taking meds for the first time, I need PT (which I'm guessing it's Physical Therapist but if it's something kinkier, lemme know) because the stress and anxiety devolved into a intercostal neuralgia which is making extra hard to train without feeling like I'm about to die, and I seriously need therapy (understatement of my life) but I've been postponing it so much, all this to tell you that even if we're experiencing similar situations, you're handling this so much better than I am, man. I hate you. I bet you don't even moisturize. That being said, I have been journaling and writing regularly. What's work for me as journaling prompts is the daily stoic book (I can hook you up, if you don't have it, arrr * pirate roar?* ). But I think The Art of Manliness also has a series of Journaling Prompts that could help you out. Anyways, I hate your stupid, grumpy, face that doesn't even make sense. It's a brother thing.
  2. Ok, this is more of a rant than an update on my goals, because I'm failing big time. These past days have been exasperating, frustrasting, and a reminder of why I struggle so much keeping up with my habits consistently. I'm not saying I quit all together. I still fast, I still train, I still make healthier choices when I can, I reduced my trash meals to once a week, and only because I use that moment to have the entire family sitting together having dinner, sharing, etc, which is something really important to me... But it's not the consisten work that I'd like to. I'm not saying perfect, but regular that I can see results. I went from chest pains (which have subdue, again, probably should have that checked but I'd really hate if they say something like "meh, it's probably anxiety" which is what most doctors say when I tell them I suffer from it. Like Joker said, "The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't") to a week-long blackout from Tuesday, in which the monkeys in charge decided to ration power 5 hours on and off, that led to a serious conversation with my boss about my availability online. Unfortunately, all my work is online and I'm at a level in the company that they need me online regularly and we can't afford pushing deadlines in this quarter, since y'all go to holidays next month and is really hard to get something done with other people those months. It's hard to not get carried away when this sort of things happen, but they usually are a reminder too that the habits I've worked on so hard have helped me deal with those situations and that I shouldn't abandone them. Training, meditation, reading, eating healthy, fasting, writing. Those are my pillars and I should always come back to them. Meh, today I felt like talking to someone, but didn't want to bother anyone, and I had this mental note that I needed to update my challenge. Unless something post-apocalyptic 2020-ish happens tomorrow (which would be normal by now) I promise to post something more related to my goals.
  3. I'm sorry to hear about your grandma. Mine is struggling, too. She lives alone thanks to... her life decisions. Of 8 children, only 2-3 are looking after her and she's practically alone in her house with only a TV and a dog. She's of course experiencing some depression and anxiety, too. At least she's compliant, but only because she's almost blind. It's really tough. They were talking about going out again to some party... it didn't happen, but if it does, I need to be ready to make some significant changes in my life. which, funny enough, would mean going back to my life before quarantine, distancing myself from my family and going back to my bachelor apartment, which must be dusty AF after 7 months of quarantine.
  4. Thank you for your kinds words. I wouldn't really care that much about them getting sick, because they're young and healthy, if treatment most likely wouldn't have to come out of my pocket and that some of them are new parents taking care of a newborn, and of course the risk that the spread the disease to other high risk people, like my parents. They claim I should trust them and trust the people they hang out, but that's the thing... It's not about trusting people, because half the people that are sick don't know they're sick for the first days, the other halft don't care. In this regard, I feel US and my country are very similar, granted, a lot of people are forced to go out here to make a living, but eveveryday I see people playing on the streets, hanging around, gatheting... I get not many people feel confident inside but... hey, read a book or something, right? * sigh *
  5. Guys, sorry I was absent last week (and today). I've been dealing with a lot. I started feeling bad again, same issue as before, chest pain and inflammation, sticking to same treatmeant as before for a few days to see if it stops before I check with my doctor. I've also been having a hard time with my family, one half of my family (living with me) just decided that quarantine is over for them, they already had COVID, or that being locked in is worse than getting sick. I'm worried not because of them or me, but because my parents are old, and my mom is a diabetic, how do you fight with your family to protect your family? (seriously, any advice? any suggestions?) This really gets me because I'm doing everything I can to protect my family, I've even come to the point that even in the worst case scenario that I get sick and die from it, I'll be okay knowing that I did everything in my power to protect and provide my family, and THAT is what's helping me get up every morning. But when my own family threatens something that even defines me as a man.... I pulled the other half of my family together and discussed it with them, but I'm not sure it'll stop. Last resort, I'll go back to my apartment, see if my parents would agree to go with me. I'm slowly getting back to my usual routine, but these two things really brought me down this week.
  6. I noticed the opposite when I travelled to Europe, peaches were HUGE but they tasted horrible, mangoes too... I was told that they use preservatives to keep them fresh on the trip, but that ruins the flavor. The local tomatoes were good, tho. I got to the point that I could which tomates were harvested there and which ones were bought from somewhere else. Also, again, don't come to Venezuela.
  7. How am I able to see this? Did I wake up my sharingan!?
  8. Ugh, a couple of nights ago I woke up with heart pumping and that escalated quickly into a panic attack, didn't have one in a while. Since then, I've been feling sick again, chest hurts and inhaling hurts, feels like an echo of my inflammation issues. Maybe it was triggered because my neighbor started smoking cigars or something and the smell gets ALL OVER my room. Gave myself the weekend to relax and rest, and today I started again. Grunt 1: Stay Hydrated Felt short today. Water shortages here, Main problem is again work, I focus so much on work that I constantly ignore the reminders. Grunt 2: Increase duration of training Started 20 minutes today, taking it slow because my chest hurt still. Grunt 3: Eat Fruit Fruit is almost over but spend the weekend and today drinking some passion fruit juice. Grunt 4: No Work After 9PM Really hard I had to leave a couple things left to do and I'll worry about them all day, but I promised myself that I'll stay off work to spend more time with my family. Really missing being part-time.
  9. Ugh, no, I hate pickles You should the size of some fruit here, avocados and mangoes the size of your head!
  10. I'd pay attention to those patterns, I usually see them as opportunities to play on my strenghts. Way to be consistent this week!
  11. I love days like these. I'm glad you got to experience such a moments. I got to see the pics on Facebook, they looked amazing.
  12. Cilantro is one of those things that are absurd cheap here.You know what's a truly epic quest? telling cilantro apart from parsley. can't never seem to get it right.
  13. Did you enjoy cleaning the fridge or am I the only one crazy?
  14. See? You're already failing at the don't be Kishi part.
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