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This would be the first week I'd consider even a partial success. I have finally gotten into a good rhythm with my work and sleep schedule. It hasn't been easy readjusting to working until 11pm or 12am six nights a week but I have climbed that mountain. Now comes the workout that has been staring me right in the face for these past weeks. I can't lie about feeling like a failure. I have gone through six weeks AGAIN without accomplishing anything. I'll push through those feelings and get this done. I can;t give myself a choice anymore. Like I began explaining earlier almost everything else in my life is falling into place. My new job is amazing and I still couldn't be happier. Chef Jer, the Sous Chef that runs the kitchen I work in told my mom who also happens to be a Food and Beverage Lead Supervisor that I am doing terrific and he couldn't be happier to have me as part of the team. My love life is still in a state of shell shock but that too is fading with every day. While some days are worse than others I have been able to find friends and other loved ones to rely on. I had to reschedule my appointment with Behavioral Health due to an error on my part. I forgot to reschedule my appointment. I made this appointment before I started working. I had no way of knowing my schedule. But I will be calling them in the morning to make a new appointment. As always I thank you for your time and concern. Have am amazing morning.

Main Quest- Move beyond the recommended routine found on /r/bodyweightfitness. Complete the recommended routine found on /r/bodyweightfitess three times a week. Complete the recommended routine every other day Monday, Wednesday, Friday.. Limit sweets intake. (Pastrys, soda, candy.) Cardio three to four times a week. (Running, jump rope, boxing.) Life Side Quest- Write a story. Try to submit a page a week. Get my ADHD under control. While I am working on this challenge I will be writing a narrative day by day to go along with with my posts here. Something to try and grab your attention and keep your attention over this six week challenge. Having been stricken with writers block I have decided to alter my LSQ to getting re-diagnosed for ADHD and managing my symptoms. Links: Recommended routine - http://www.reddit.com/r/bodyweightfitness/wiki/kb/recommended_routine Story - http://rebellion.nerdfitness.com/index.php?/topic/62939-port-idles-an-assassins-birth-book-one-chapter-one/

I have finished the week with more growth, and learning. I have been reading a lot more than usual and have been processing as much as possible. My eyes have truly been opened. I will be adjusting accordingly. Work continues to be one joy after another. I truly am blessed to find a place that has rekindled a lost love I once had. Cooking. Preparing food for others and myself was something I loved at a young age. Sadly the joy was torn away from me by terrible kitchens and terrible employers. Working in a subpar environment crushes your spirit no matter how much you love what you are doing. Not getting paid on time was bad but when you get paid late under the table you can't do anything about it. Like I said earlier though I am starting to love what I do again. It's nice to walk into work and have a smile on your face. Being away from someone you love very much is a hard experience to go through. I have been pushing though as best I know how. I am learning a lot about myself to better keep heartache from being a part of my life. What I have been putting my main focus on is me. What I need and what I want. I am lonely and my heart feels missing but everyday I'm moving further on. I made some very rash decisions this past week with my money. Some things that I spent money on were pretty unnecessary and I will need to start working on budgeting. I wanted to have some fun and spoil myself a little. I rationalized it to myself because I made all my bill payments it was okay to go crazy. Plus I haven't done anything for my mom for Mother's Day in a couple years so I spent some on her as well. When all is said and done I will be tightening my belt so that I can start saving for a car. Exercise has still continued to allude me but once I have gotten my sleep schedule back under control I plan to begin my exercise routine once again. I have high hopes as to being able to get this started before the end of the week. I will try my very hardest. I will be posting an updated set of goals for my thread. I hope that isn't breaking any rules. Hopefully this will help my focus even harder on improving my life. Thank you all once again for the encouragement and attention. It is nice to have a place where I can keep my actions accounted for. Have a beautiful day.

I will keep you posted Elastigirl no worries there. I am actually having a fantastic day the first in awhile to be honest. But it feels so good to finally let some things out and go. I'm usually not one for sunny days but man I can't shake how beautiful it is out there. 80 degrees with a nice breeze. You can't beat that in Northern Michigan. I've been doing some reading again as well. Trying to find answers so to speak. It has given me a couple epiphanies that I continue to mull over and develop. Stuff about the nature of human evolution and the why's and how's of the human condition. I tend to believe that the reason people are the way they are is directly dependent on who we as animals are. Reasons why people are drawn to certain people, the reasons why people react in such dramatically different ways. We'll see where this all goes. I am very optimistic about finding things about myself and a little about everyone else. Today was also payday. It is honestly the largest check I've ever received. I almost asked if they made a mistake. But I work at a casino and they tend not to make mistakes with money. If they did they know where I work. I went and dropped nearly all of it on some of my debt. It feels really good to have these receipts here in front of me. Just knowing that I am finally getting these things taken care of is amazing. As always thank you all for the continuing support. I look forward to big things in the future. I just have to keep pushing forward.

I dint go to the clinic until later this month.

I finally sat down to write a page today and only got about half way through. I tried using the pain and discomfort I've been feeling lately to create my story. But it forces me to dwell on things I'd rather not think about. It all hurts so much to think about. So getting as far as I did is a type of miracle I suppose. But I will continue trying to flesh my story out and make my journey a little less unbearable to you all. As always thank you for all the attention and encouragement.

We didn't get a miracle that day. Not one damn miracle. Was that too much to ask for? Must've been. Have you ever baked in the midday sun, face full of sand and salt? Not a cloud in the sky. That particular sunburn never really goes away. It leaches into you. Dries you out, and the only thing that will quench that thirst is bringing all of this pain and discomfort right back their front door. Not a hope in the world. That never stopped me before. Then you hear the surf and for some reason that stampede of water brings it all tumbling back. The sounds, smells, and sights of the islands and the sea. It used to be beautiful. Now all I see is red. "Sha... Shaaan.." I can't talk. So thirsty, but maybe he made it."Shaaa.." Damn. Nothing. I need to find water. That's my first step. Just one step and I;m on my way. Gods I'm thirsty! One step, that's all it takes.

Today is my day off. I worked from the 14th to the 29th straight through at my new job. My diet has suffered immensely due to adjusting to a new work schedule. A pitfall I run into while working in a restaurant setting is the unlimited free soda. I'm not complaining, it has become my escape fro life at this point. Earlier this week my fiance and I split up. I will not trouble you with the gory details but as you can imagine it hasn't been at all fun. So as you can see in an earlier post my life has been pretty crazy lately. I haven't been able to exercise due to having to move back in with my mom into a one bedroom trailer. I'm so grateful that I have a parent that I can count on. I know not everyone is so lucky. I have been keeping a planner so that I don't forget appointments or to pay my bills. I am notorious for reckless spending. Hopefully I can grow past these short comings. Only the next couple of months will tell. I will be going into a mental health clinic on the 19th for an intake evaluation. I'm just trying to get to the point where I can get some sort of diagnosis for ADHD. I was diagnosed as a child in elementary school. My mom chose not to seek treatment for me back then and it has had serious negative repercussions in my adult life. Including but no limited to failing out of college, two stints in rehab, and numerous other self destructive behaviors. I will be getting the help I have needed for a long time. It's the first step in a very long journey. Thank you so much for taking time out of your lives to check up on me. I couldn't be more thankful to you all. My grandfather is doing better and is in the nursing home now. He isn't adjusting well and has gotten angry with a few nurses. But they tell me that it comes right along with his Alzheimers. I have been trying to sit down and write in my off time. But nothing s coming to me. I've never had writers block before. Oh well. Again thanks everyone. I'll try and keep you all posted if anything new develops or I get this challenge under control.

I have been looking into making my own parallets. Anything offered on the internet is simply too expensive. What diff you use to make them?

My first week has been a whirlwind. So many things have happened in my personal life that I am afraid I have fallen behind yet again in a challenge. I have not worked out. Not once this week. I haven't sat down to write my narrative for this challenge yet either. My sure date for another entry was the 14th. I am honestly feeling very discouraged about this challenge. My week started with a court date for noon payment if court ordered fines. The charge that I have has caused many problems in my life. I went to court on the morning of the 13th expecting to be put on jail. I owe 1300 dollars that I haven't paid on foot the past couple of years. The judge took mercy on me because he saw that I was to start a very good job the next day. I have to pay the entirety of the balance before June 20th. Otherwise I will be in jail for non payment. The next day was the first day of my new job, at Little River Casino Resort. I am a Cook 1 in The Herron on the River. A steakhouse/bistro that serves normal entrees and burgers. I have cooked several times professionally before but this kitchen is different. On top of reporting to an actual sous chef, this is the most well maintained and well stocked kitchen I've ever personally seen. My first day at work also happened to be my birthday. That morning I was also informed that my grandfather Larry Burmeister suffered several strokes. While undergoing testing my family wad informed that his Alzheimer's was in the final stages. Something we thought wasn't going to happen anytime soon. I have since heard that he's been doing well and they are going to transfer him to a nursing home when he's stable. He well never fully recover. The morning of the next day I had another court appearance. This time for child support. I am 5000 dollars behind and they told me that to avoid jail I will need to come up with a written plan to avoid non payment of child support and pay 450 dollars in 45 days. I've worked every night since and well continue to work every night until the Wednesday after next. I love my new job, my grandfather will be okay for now, and I'm glad things in court went the way they did. But all of these things combined has thrown me off of my goals. I have stayed away from sugar mostly because I haven't been eating much at all. Other than that I can say this week's portion of the challenge is a wash. I hope I can come back and pull through next week. Thank you all for your support and guidance I look forward to more of the same.

I'm trying to look at the bright side. I have tried several challenges in the past and was not aware that I needed to be part of the Recruits. I must've glanced over that section while reading. I have already met some cool and interesting people because of it. My goals have changed some just because my interests have refocused as I've done research. I still have the same interests but I've put them into a different order now. My largest "stumble stone" is my severe ADHD. I don't like telling people this because most people don't look at ADHD as anything debilitating. But I assure you it is. I am not on medication because I don't have insurance yet. I start a new job that provides insurance in two days. I'm going to leave a couple links here for you to check out if you're curious about ADHD. index - ADHD - https://pay.reddit.com/r/ADHD/wiki/index Video explaining the disease - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LyDliT0GZpE (29 min.) Thanks for the encouragement. I'm trying my hardest to get it right this time.

I've always had so much admiration for Batman and his ilk. Hence the Green Arrow profile picture. I have always wanted to become a super hero. If only I we're a billionaire playboy. You create your own gear? Would you be able to help me make my own gear as I am on a very tight budget and can't afford anything online or in a store.

You have so much expertise I'd love to train under you. Though I am an aspiring Assassin we have similar outlooks on what we want out of this site. Good luck my friend, I'll be checking back to see how you're doing. Good luck!

April 9/10/11, 2015 Main Quest - Move beyond the recommended routine found on /r/bodyweightfitness. (In progress) Complete recommended routine every other day (9th=Complete/10th=Rest Day/11th=Complete) Limit sweets intake. (9th=Too much soda/10th=Too much soda/11th=Too much soda) Cardio three to four times a week. (Haven't chosen or started cardio routine.) Life Side Quest - Write a story. Try to submit a page a week. (In progress. April 14th, 2015 Due date.) Notes - Still at the same place I was in last time I checked in. I'll keep this thread updated.

I was not aware of that. Thank you for the assistance.