CrazyMags

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Thought I'd share something kind of important... I purposely deadlifted, off the floor, for the first time in 11+ months, and first time ever in front of people. And it was about 582 pounds. Oh... and it was with a partner... who is way stronger than me... but whose max is "only" 450#... so, that means I at LEAST lifted 130# of that... right? https://vimeo.com/189580459 Also, today is my 3 year gymiversary...which is awesome... I am so fortunate to have found such a perfect place for me... with people who love and support me... and with a coach who always goes far above and beyond the job description/pay grade to do what's best for me... ❤️ Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

If you arrange it, people will... okay, I can't guarantee that people will come, but I don't think people are ambitious enough to actually set something up.... this is the first time I've been on in 6 months? Maybe? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

So here I am... Minding my own business, trying to mentally prepare for yet another new school year, at yet another new school, and teaching yet another new grade level... And my email starts-a-buzzin'!! I look at it and see something QUITE unexpected! Someone has actually posted on a thread that I follow! And not only that, it's to deliver GREAT news! Welcome back my friend! ❤️

Indeed... I found the link above helpful though. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Just found this yesterday, right after I had a muscle spasm in my back... It was perfect timing: http://www.eattoperform.com/2016/06/04/swish-get-7-ways-keep-going-want-quit-lisbeth-darsh/ If you haven't read things by Lisbeth Darsh... She's pretty inspiring! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

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Been a while, things have been on and off with diet... Exercise is still 4-5 days a week but heavily scaled because of my hip. Went to a physical therapist that the hip doctor recommended... Full of cyclists... Not for me... So I'm looking around at another place... Chiropractor, massage therapist, and my coach have been keeping me going and feeling good! Coach was gone for Murph on Monday, and I completed the whole thing! Scaled... But I did the whole # of reps! I wish@texastoast was still around to share in my glory... His memory was what kept me going! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

1) sorry I didn't see this, tapatalk hasn't been sending me notifications... 2) Yes@machete we are talking about self loathing... If only I had the "beast mode" voice inside me! 3)Thanks for the story Tank! Yes, sometimes I can beat down that voice... Or prove it wrong... Though right now I have a hard time telling whether my hesitation to work harder or do something more risky in the hip department is honestly listening to my body, or all in my head... As for doing something different, it's something I've toyed with, except that Crossfit is the first sport that I have ever enjoyed doing... The people at my gym are why I keep going, even when I feel so discouraged... Deadlifting and squatting are my favorite things... So it sucks being unable to do them (for now). I'm physical therapist shopping, so hopefully I will find someone who can help me get back to doing what I love! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I don't need hip surgery!!!! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

So, been really good with my diet this week! Kinda proud... My planned cheats are dinner tonight - dinner Sunday night... But I've been doing pretty well... Dog had more seizures on Wednesday night/Thursday morning, which means that he's back on his crazy pills... (Crazy as in he has the exact opposite side effects he's supposed to...) Got a phone call for some job openings at a public school near my home, they haven't returned my calls yet about an interview... My coach has asked for my help tomorrow(!) helping him move stuff out of the gym for the construction stuff... I felt so honored, because he never asks for help... Bummer is that tomorrow my Brother in Law is getting married and I am booked all weekend I'm so bummed out... Not only that, but I have to cancel birthday party plans on Sunday (my birthday is next Wednesday) so that I can take my grandmother in law out to dinner I hate obligations... If people tell me things ahead of time, and ask me if I can go... I'm totally cool with it... But when it's "you're expected to attend" or "you have to go" I get pretty crabby... Sigh. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I did!! I didn't even cry! It was weird!

Interview today went well... As usual I didn't feel like I said all I wanted to say, but oh well! Workout this morning was push press with kettle bells, hanging knee raises, and riding on the air dyne bike... Dinner: For your comic enjoyment my dog with peanut butter: https://vimeo.com/162566157 Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Doctor took X-rays and has another test to do, but his preliminary diagnosis is this: If this is the case... I am going to need surgery.... I'm terrified. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Some more meals: Workout today with my coach consisted of: -Reverse hyper and bench sit-ups (laying on bench with an ab mat) -5 rounds of office chair olympics (walking forward on your heels while sitting in an office chair +10lbs for about 50 feet then turn, still using heels, and back for 100 feet total) and -military presses at 60# sets of 5 reps, then lat pull downs and hip stretches... Had a dream about my chiropractor... Why is it all the important fitness people in my life (minus my massage therapist) are handsome men? Lol Seeing an orthopedic doctor on Friday, hubby won't let me rest until I see an "actual Doctor" apparently... Sent an ultimatum to my nutritionist... Just saying I need consistency and support, not a new "plan" every week... She hasn't responded yet... Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Let me know if this link works: http://sunbasket.com/recipe/grilled-sausages-with-red-pepper-chutney-and-braised-kale

I was going to post some awesome stuff, like I deadlifted from pins to 205, my current 1RM and felt great... I thought I had reasonably healthy breakfast and lunch today... And yesterday... And my lunches and breakfasts last week seemed pretty great... I was going to say that I thought maybe I was getting the hang of this food thing... Then I met with my nutritionist... Who berated me about all of the processed foods.... And I was incredulous... Until I looked at my food log.... Almost every dinner I ate out... I could give you excuses for every night... But the truth is the excuses are just that... Excuses trying to point the blame at something that isn't the fact I made a conscious choice.... I honestly burst into tears.... My confidence shattered... And I'm left wishing I could just stop eating altogether... It all seems so impossible... And I order dinners already planned for me! I could give excuses about how I'm simply PMSing, and how my nutritionist is inconsistent with her message to me about what I should be doing... But they are still excuses... I'm so tired of feeling this deflated.... I hate everything right now... Which makes me think this is the PMS talking... But I honestly don't know how I can be consistent with my meals when I get so tired of the same things all the time I stop eating... My nutritionist says that as soon as I'm consistent, I will feel better and my workouts will get better... Which made me cry again because how can my workouts get better if I can't even work out... I'm feeling so depressed right now I could just give up on all of it... [emoji20] Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Tonight's dinner: hubby's is on the left mine is on the right because peppers and tomatoes make me feel awful... Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

So, Monday's workout was supposed to be back squats, I did good mornings... It was a 5 rep max... I got 10# less than my old 1-rep Max.. Which made me feel good! Today was Diane 21-15-9 deadlifts and handstand push-ups... I did lighter weight and from the pins instead of the ground... But it felt good to deadlift again! Last night's dinner: Almond crusted trout with a cucumber olive salad... My lunches for the week, cooked on Sunday, chicken with a Dijon sauce, broccoli, sweet potato... Last week's meal, the green rabe was bad... Too bitter... But the rest was great and I hate radishes! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I never sandbag a workout, because if I did I'd never finish the WOD in time for the class to end... I'm the most out of shape of everyone in my class... Even though I've been at it for almost 3 years now... And others have just started... So when I finish first, in my mind I didn't earn it because I didn't work hard enough... If I finish last, my mind tells me that I'm fat and lazy etc etc etc. I've been tired and sore for almost 3 years now... But now I'm actually injured and can't do anything fun, which makes the beast beat me down even more.... Maybe I am the only one that has this monologue in their heads? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I figure that there will possibly be more traffic with the open just finishing up... I need some help... I will summarize: I noticed pain in my hip when I was squatting, so I stopped. My coach has been awesome, he's honestly the best person out there to scale shit for broken people like me... The problem is that that was over 2 months ago... I'm seeing a chiropractor and physical therapist, and they are both crossfitters and seem very knowledgable... They are working on my squat from the "ground up" by starting with my fucked up ankles (broke both of them as a kid, screws in one = shit for flexibility...) Coach, Chiro, PT all agree: no squatting, no lifting from the ground, and take it easy on overdoing stuff using my hip or ankles... That means... Basically do nothing fun except arms and abs... (Squats and deads are my favs ) I (like lots of people I'm sure...) always struggle with having to scale, feeling fat and weak and "like a leper" (coach's terminology...) the beast in my head is strong... Lately, with all the extreme scaling, it's a damn Hercules in my head... I'm either a) angry when the workout is hard and I'm last or angry when the scaling is easy and I'm first... How do you get over it? My box is going through some tough issues, I'm always that happy/cheerful one that says hello to everyone, gives all the fist bumps, tells all the jokes... And that's at 5am! My coach even mentioned, when I asked what I could do to help, that my positive attitude is the most valuable help I could give, and I'm already doing it... But I'm finding it hard to stay that positive, happy/cheerful member when I feel like a broken loser all the time... Help me NerdFitters! Before the beast consumes me! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Editing old double post: been sore as shit, grumpy and tired of feeling sore as shit... Plus conference week has me running on empty... Tired. Another meal: That was Monday, no cooking yesterday, as I didn't get home until after 7:30....eating out again tonight because it's 7:21 and I don't have the mental space to cook something...

Tonight: Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Last Thursday I deadlifted for the first time in months... Off blocks, but sill did a 5x5 of 155# which made me happy. I also had less to complain about to my chiropractor which is good... They put some Rock Tape on my ankle... I was impressed by how much stronger it felt! I'm currently working on squat form starting with my feet and ankles, though my old form LOOKS right... The muscles aren't firing properly, so I'm doing frustratingly simple movements trying to get them to work appropriately... Recent photos: Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I believe you are referencing last year's meet up... Lol unless there's another that I don't know about! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk