Farwood

Well crap I've been gone a while. Yeah I planned to start this and keep up on it daily but suddenly(and I'm not kidding) I was called back to work 3 hours away so 3-4 days out of the week I don't have internet. By the time I get back the next day is mostly wasted because I don't get in till that morning around 4am. welp that's enough whining. So I've been keeping up with my exercises but I'm still working on the food part of it. Still days are rather dull exercising alone. I'm considering looking for someone to partner up with for when I'm back.

Morning So I just wanted to post that beginning separate before I added the rest of the information. So today started out well I’ve already done exercises. 10 crunches20 knee push-ups (girly)5 x 3 10 sec planks10 minutes of shadow boxing20 minutes of mediation Not much but better than sitting on my butt. I’m working on an actual plan but until then I’m kind of mixing and matching. I know shadow boxing will stay as will the mediation but I need to work the rest out.

“Hi I’m Xantall Farwood and I like the Backstreet Boys and wolves.†Ugh I will never live that down from high school. I hated days like that when you had a sub, a new student or just a new teacher. They always made you say your name and say two things you like. I hated talking about myself I never knew what to say that won’t be miss interrupted so I just said something stupid and simple. And then the laughs would start so I would skip my next period (or find a way out of that one) and end up in the weight/mat room (went there a lot more than that). I would spend the next hour working out (well more like 45 minutes but an hour sounds better in the story). After school I would go to practice tennis (fall), basketball (winter starting line up for three seasons), track and field (spring placed every time). I walked a mile to the bus stop in the morning, every morning! Yet despite all of this I was fat. No I didn’t have a little muffin top. I had a spare tire from a Mac Truck! I didn’t gain anymore but I couldn’t lose it. The problem? I never actually ate much but I drank sooooooooo*inhales* ooooooooo much soda. Actually there is a bigger problem that I still have. Because I’m fat I don’t like people to see me eating. It’s in my head that because I’m fat people think the way my family did/does that I shouldn’t be eating. It’s messed up and I know it’s not true but it’s so ingrained it’s hard to fight it. Anyways I went to a nutritionist for help, thinking being told how to work this (food exercise balance) by a professional would help me figure it out. She had me do a week diary of what I ate and did. I was in tennis at the so that meant two to three hour practices after school! Not to mention my gym class and my weight room time. Yeah that was a bust. She looked me dead in the eye and said “eat less exercise moreâ€. Seriously! Seriously! That is the professional opinion I paid for. I probably got more exercise than her lazy butt! So besides that and my mom trying to bribe me to lose weight but never actually helping I abandoned the idea. I knew if I did find a way it would be a long lonely walk with no help from anyone. I found myself letting that bleed into the rest of my life. “Leave me alone.†“No I said don’t come near me.†“Gods, do you people even understand english?†“You got a problem with me!†“Don’t F****** talk to me!†The words of my defense. People became my enemy and nothing was safe. I fell deeper and deeper into my own darkness, my hate because in my head no one liked me, no one really wanted to help me they just wanted something. I was an embarrassment to my family because I was fat so they wanted me thinner to fit in. The doctors only wanted money and never to actually help. My coaches didn’t say much as long as I left my snapping off the court or directed it away from my teammates. Three years of isolation later in eleventh grade I met a boy, Borellean Keayo. There was something between us instantly. Not like that he’s gayer than a three dollar bill. I was alone playing my Pokémon Silver on my original Gameboy in the back of shop. He came over and stood there right in front of me looking at me. I don’t know how long it was before I finally looked up at him glaring. He asked me “Do you wanna trade Pokémon?†while holding up his GBA. He had Gold. I swear this is no damn joke. Those were literally the first words this kid ever spoke to me. I looked at him confused for a moment. People avoided me and when one would dare to come to close I snapped but he didn’t and I didn’t. I just said “Sure.†And shoved the chair I was using for my feet out for him. I actually made a friend in high school over Pokémon. Go figure, right? So we started hanging out he didn’t care that I was fat. He said if I can do the things I like then who care what you weigh. We became best friends and still are today. The hate I had for myself and others never really went away it just became …manageable. I still keep something between me and the rest of the world. I was able to make nice and be “friends†with some people yet none were like Borellean. I was reserved and quite with the others, untrusting. I kept to my old habits. Borellean would have none of that for years he’s pushed me to do better to stop being an NPC in my own life. I needed to turn into the Hero. I shrugged it off and let my life slip. I’ve always wanted to be a writer but have been too afraid to really show it to anyone (I’m just an anonymous faceless writer on the net). I’ve tried before to make the change but my heart I guess was never in it. I was missing. About three weeks ago I was feeling really down on myself because I had come to the idea that I would have to take life alone forever so I text Borellean (he doesn’t live close any more but I visit now and again) Hey What’s up? I have a weird question. Ya don’t need to answer if ya don’t want to. What? Do you think I’m pretty? (He didn’t answer for a few minutes. I didn’t know what to think. How hard was it to say yes or no? Then my phone went off.) Yeah. You have let yourself go a bit because you don’t see it so you don’t try to maintain it but it’s definitely there. When you catch me staring at you is when I see it. I’m 28 years old now. I work a dead end job, have few friends, never had a boyfriend and I’m not doing the things I love. I’m not trying to sell you a sob story but if I’m going to write daily to you out there you need to know me. I’ve come to realize that I need to see that in me, that thing he can see. Something that helps me balance and make the world easier to deal with like it is when Borellean and I are hanging out. So three weeks ago (about an hour after his text) I delved farther in than I have before into understanding how to fix what I left to degenerate. I dove in like I was studying for school. Focusing and trying to understand the complicated mess that has become “healthâ€. Yet along with that I would need to find me. I haven’t gotten that far. I think the Farwood I has ran away when I shut down. She’s back in the recesses of my mind chasing wolves and listening to backstreet boys. I want to find my way back there.

Nope there's not a fridge but I sometimes have a microwave. I did forgot about tuna fish. I'll have to order my favorite from off line. Waterless Tuna with thai chilies. Also ew eggs. I can get awaywith hard boiling them but the rest of the time they need to be covered in something. Thanks!

I have a cooler but it'll only work for a day also I love cold meals but the thing I'm worried about is stuff being out in the sweltering heat of my car and going bad like meats. I don't go home for three days I work. I can deal with warm veggiesand warm water by the second and third day. So I guess what I should be asking is what type of proteins will last in the heat that won't go bad for three days?

I work about 3 hours from home 3 days a week doing a 2 12 hour shifts and a 16. I've been following Paleo for a few weeks now and it has been easy with the cold I can keep the items in my car and just heat them up (mostly it's stir-fried chicken and a lot of veggies) Yet with the warm wraether I'm wondering what to do since I have no colling system. I don't have any way to keep my perishables for going bad on me. I was, years ago a vegetarian but I was completely tired out and moody all the time. So I world prefer to stay away from that route. Anybody got some ideas on what to do?

I work about 3 hours from home 3 days a week doind a 2 12 hour shifts and a 16. I've been following Paleo for a few weeks now and it has been easy with the cold I can keep the items in my car and just heat them up (mostly it's stir-fried chicken and a lot of veggies) Yet with the warm wraether I'm wondering what to do. I don't have any way to keep my perishables for going bad on me. I was years ago a vegetarian but my diet but I was completely tired out and moody all the time. So I world prefer to stay away from that route. Anybody got some ideas on what to do?

So just doing some updates on my rest time. Since I didn't make it to the Island the other day I thought I might build a training grounds in my woods out back. I'm working up plans in my free time. Mostly it would be a trail with simple obstacles, something to just get going when I don’t feel like driving out. There used to be one there before but I cleaned it up a couple years back. Because I work the way I do I have a lot of free time so I have added a rule to my list of improvements. If I have completed my normal work out for the day I earn an hour of screw off time. This means I can sit on my butt and watch television or surf the web or play video games. The time working on my book or updates for here don’t count as screw off time. Yet if I want more screw off time I have to earn 2000 sweat points on a Just Dance game. So 2000 points equals 30 minutes down time. That is how I’m going to be able to play Skyrim later guilt free. I’ve already done 3000 and done my actual work out so I hope to get a little more so I can play a bit longer. Going back to Just Dance! See you in Tamriel.

I've kicked it once before and ran back to it when I was working two 16's and an 8 for my one job with an hour drive either way. Also I never thought I about how cool that actually sounds. As for the tea I actally did well with a raspberry Earl Gray. That thing snapped me awake like a slap to the face.

I know but it's a little sad I fell off this early.

I am back! Hey guys! well I have gotten to do my walking and been to the island once but the soda I kinda shot myself in the foot with that one today. I needed something or I was gonna drop from lack of sleep. I have been to the ER with several people and working my shifts so I wasn't too heart broken when I drank a couple of sodas today. I fell off the wagon. *sigh* Now I have to go catch it; excuse me. Report: Q1: X / X / - / - / - / - / - Q2: Total failure this week Q3: O / X / - / - / - / - / - LQ: working on it (I have writer's group this week! *excited gasp*) Weight: 360 (boo)

Thanks! The avatar is actually from an artist on Deviantart called k-atrina. Andthanks for the tags.

Introductions: Full name Xantall of the Farwood but you can just call me Farwood. This is actually the third time I’ve tried the 6 week challenge. I’m disappointed in myself about those failures. Yet they will not be forgotten. Those failures have given me an understanding of what I actually have trouble with and how to work around them. In truth it sound simple but I want to run. I have been overweight my whole life and have never been able to achieve more than a long steady jog on the basketball court or a quick sprint across the tennis court. So out of everything I will feel great to be in better shape and healthier but it will mean nothing to me if I can’t run. I’ve put running on a pedestal and I’m just tired of being a little kid staring up at it. I’m gonna get a ladder. Main Quest: Lose weight and inches to fit into a size 20 jean. Quest 1: Go on a 30 min walk at least 4 times a week Grade: A = 4 or more times a week, B = 3 times a week C = 2 time a week Reward: A = +3 STA B = +2 STA C = +1 STA Quest 2: Drink less than 2 sodas a week Grade: A = 2 or less times a week, B = 3 times a week, C = Fail Reward: A = +3 CON B = +2 CON Quest 3: Train at Island Park 4 days a week (A mix of agility and endurance exercises) Grade: A = 4 or more times a week, B = 3 times a week, C = 2 times a week Reward: A = +3 DEX, B = +2 DEX, C = +1 DEX Life Quest: Get a chapter done a week for my book Grade: A = 6 chapters, B = 5 chapters , C = 4 chapters Reward: A = +3 WIS, B = +2 WIS, C = +1 WIS

Hey sorry for the long wait to get back. I added another cup and half of veggies, my leg/back pain work out, and I have been trying to get to bed earlier so I can hopefully fall asleep. I wanted to thank everyone for their ideas and help. I'm still a little sluggish but it is wearing off. Thanks again guys.

Well the morning s I'm looking at are the ones where I work a 16 hour shift so I don't exactly have time to do exercise before work. I drink a mint tea during the day with a touch of honey as for sleep I get the best I can but I've never really slept much anyways. Yes I have increased my water intake. My diet looks normally like this. A peice of red meat 4-6 oz in the morning, two apples, 2-3 cups of raw veggies, a 4 oz peice of chicken breast, and a cup of milk. Plus about 3 cups of mint tea with a teaspoon each of honey. And you may be right and I will try! Thanks