Windranger

Was a good day again. Banana Pancakes with BlueberriesYogaAutogenic TrainingFruit SaladGreek Salad1.5 L waterstudying microelectronics and hydraulics+pneumatic for seven hoursdrank (1/2 + 1/3) beer with former colleagueshad a bit of a noodles + chicken + tomatoes + spinach meal Yesterday evening I said to my boyfriend "I guess I just aim for too high goals at once and I am thinking way too negative all the time." "Well then do the exact opposite.", he said smiling at me, completely motivated though working 13.5 hours three days in a row. "How do I do that?" I asked him. So he answered: "Go to university tomorrow and be happy about that achievement!" I cannot tell you how encouraging this was And when I left in the morning: "And you will go to university today, right? I know you can do this!" ♥ Bad side of the day: Problems with dad.. lead to stress eating, luckily just a bowl of chocolate cereals. Looking forward to starting off with Pancakes, Yoga and Autogenic Training into a new day

Alright. Started off well today. Banana pancakes + coffee Yoga Cultivating Autogenic TrainingToday I am going to do the AVR tutorial and the grocery shopping, tomorrow is a dentist appointment plus I study for hydraulics and pneumatics, on wednesday studying for actuator engineering and writing bachelor thesis, on thursday microelectronics + bachelor thesis + actuators laboratory, on friday actuators laboratory + drive system. Everything will be fine. Thinking positive, calm and determined. Have to find my BentoBox. Am going to make fruit salad (forenoon) and greek salad (afternoon) for university days each morning.

Alright. Set alarms for morning and evening routine. Let's see if it helps

Have done nothing from my challenge so far. This is bad news yep. But there are good news also. Had my first day of my new side job as a dishwasher. It's awesome!! The people are so great, the working stations itself are excellently constructed and it was much fun today. It's a bit exhausting, to do this for five hours in a row, especially because I am not so used to much physical labor but only housework anymore. Now there's money to continue studying. I really have no idea how I should be able to manage all of the workload but there must be a way and I am going to find it. So my official challenge start: Monday, 12th January

There's the software "Hot Alarm Clock" where you can set many alarms with actions your PC should perform when the alarm goes off. I used it and after the 30 days trial you can easily uninstall it and install it again in order to continue using it. I was so fascinated by the idea I thought of buying it already. (The developer has done a good job, and it could be useful for me so this would just be fair.) But well. Still short on money and it didn't help me really much yet.. but using it for the workout plan or establishing new habits in general sounds like a really good plan so maybe I'll give it another chance

Now I feel really, really bad for overwriting what I had written before. Damn, Talvi, I THANK YOU SO MUCH It's so nice of you that you take time and create such an awesome post just to encourage me again hugs for you I am satisfied with my application letters, had my mum and best friend reading over it and giving advice Thanks for the offer anyway You are so right about all that open opportunities.. I tend to see everything so massively negative all the time I completely forget that even if it was my dream it's not the only possible way to go Good that you listed up so much possibilities YOU ARE AWESOME!

okay. let's say I lost 3 ♥ today. but I cried out all fears, all worrying, .. everyone needs to shed some tear every now and then I guess..? I got back on my feet again and now it's time to act. Stop crying around, seeing everything negative. Well here you finally see my hair style change: pictures not available anymore And I just posted this on Facebook and that I am going to do 30 Days 80% Paleo & daily Yoga. Let's see if that helps if everyone knows ;D Will try to update daily with a picture

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lost lives..

Toothless ♥ Cat + Dragon = Cutest thing ever "The reason why Toothless is so cute is that he is half a cat." - The Internet

Snow is something nice indeed. The dull days are predominate I guess but there are some pretty awesome days with warm sunlight and a beautiful bright snow-covered landscape also ♥ My favorite time of the year is mid and late summer but I also appreciate such wonderful snow scenery.

Go for it! I had a hair-do just before Christmas. A had told some hairdressers before that I wanted to try out a completely other hairstyle but they were never brave enough and the color stayed the same (blonde) it always only got cut, thoroughly layered and some streaks in different blonde tones. Then my brother suggested a friend of him and she was super excited when I told her that I want a type change. She said she got thousand ideas and would have been even more happy if I would have let her do a short hairstyle. I got copper hair with dark-brown streaks (which look black) and I now have a side-swept bangs - what I never had before - and my boyfriend continues to tell me how much he loves the new hairstyle and that it looks so metal. It also makes me look kinda cute I had told the hairdresser that I want red and black, so she suggested this. She said it's better to start with trying out brighter colors and then go darker, this way you don't or hardly need to do bleaching. That's why we did dark-brown streaks, so we can make the whole hairstyle in this dark-brown later on and get some blond streaks in when I want to try out something new again. My self-confidence grew into infinity through this haircut and I am so happy about all the positive reactions. Even if the hairstyle you try out doesn't fit and you don't like it you can always try another haircut (there seem to be so many different short hairstyles?), another hairdresser, another color. The hair will grow again. My boyfriend (metal guy with longer hair than mine) used to wear a beanie when he started to let his hair grow.

Yeah! another challenge by both badass and cute, soon fluent spanish speaking enchantress Awesome set of goals. They couldn't be chosen more S.M.A.R.T. I guess But.. what is "a lap" for you?

Hey kzacher! What's up and how are you? How are you awarding this completed challenge? Really just a C or D? Am frantically looking forward to your next challenge *_* missing news about badass workouts and that you broaden my horizon of music ♫ ♥

Hi LittleTurtle (your name and picture are so cute!! *_*) Reading that you smiled on my post put another smile on my face. Is this a smileception? Thank You for your kind words! I found some jobs which would be perfect for me. But so extremely perfect that I am dying to send my application to the companies. I love making plans, love organizing, arranging, writing documentations - so project management would be something great for me (we also had such courses at university) - I have a huge interest in technical stuff like programming, electronics, mechanics, control engineering and so on (studied automation engineering) and there are jobs that fit those things really, really well and are near to where I live. Guys.. there is no way I could describe how amazing I am feeling. ♥ That's such a huge burden that has fallen off my shoulders.

At the moment at clearing out like crazy ♥ Getting rid of things I will never need again anyways, rearranging all the documents and being super happy

Dir auch ein frohes neues Jahr Thank you for the welcome I like the book very much. I am going to give it to my dad the next time we meet because he is in a way more problematic situation than me and I had to think of what he is complaining about all the time while reading the book, it described his life way too well. Started reading it one evening, fell asleep, continued reading as soon as I was awake again and read it out. Felt so understood by reading and so many things were coming clear to me. And I just lost one life ♥ luckily the challenge hasn't started yet EDIT: But due to trying to avoid the negative thought I worked out a plan to get rid of it. I stop studying. I am destroying myself with this and I simply have to accept that I am not made for this, that this is not what I want to do. I am looking forward to working: to programming, planning, learning new things which I can actually use I made that decision and this time I need to abide by it.

The Grading Autogenic Training: With every exercise completed I earn one point. A = 40+, B = 35+, C = 30+, D = 25+. Attributes: +1 CON, +2 WIS, +2 CHA Yoga: With every exercise completed I earn one point. A = 40+, B = 35+, C = 30+, D = 25+. Attributes: +3 STR, +2 CHA Positive Thinking: With every negative thought which I don't convert into a positive thought I lose one life ♥. I got 21. Why 21? It's my lucky number. A = 20+, B = 17+, C = 14+, D = 11+. Attributes: +3 CON, +1 WIS, +1 CHA

Self-Love Last week I read a book called "Wie's weitergeht, wenn nichts mehr geht" by Jens Baum. The title can be translated as: "How things are going on when nothing's going on anymore". One chapter of this book is about self-love. Jens Baum says: "Self-love is a mindful, caring, respectful, responsible and loving relationship with oneself." He sees two positive aspects in having self-love: You don't burden your friends and family with responsibility for your well-being anymore. You are feeling better, because you can take care of yourself most effective.Jens says self-love has nothing to do with egoism, moreover a person with self-love cannot be egoistical at all. In his book he explains why. This challenge will be about my way to loving myself for what I am. Main Quest: Love myself 1st Mission: Autogenic Training I got a book and CD for Autogenic Training and already started exercising. It's wonderful, I enjoy the exercising very much. After every training I am feeling fresh and free. The task is to do the Autogenic Training at least once per day. 2nd Mission: Yoga I have done the following Yoga Workout two times now and it's beneficent. The task is to do this Yoga Workout once per day. 3rd Mission: Positive Thinking It's typical for me that I see everything negative. If there's something slightly wrong it becomes a huge failure inside my head. The task is to stop derogatory thoughts, accept what has happened and come up with a good plan for moving on. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YN72QsiaIM

Thank you very much for your kind words. They're wise and touching. Signed up for the 30 days yoga challenge two days ago and should really get started with it.

It depends on the number of posts you've made so far

You've been doing so amazingly well I don't even know how to describe your awesomeness. I take my hat off to you, shield-maiden! And now let's celebrate you! I guess you are the woman with the stool after not getting enough sleep once again?

Just deleted my facebook account. Am concentrating on the project now, it's the only thing that I can get done right now. I hardly get on with it but at least I can work a bit on it without being a complete blockhead. It's embarrassing for me. The things I want to reach VS what I can manage at the moment .. I am a picture of misery dragging myself from task to task, from day to day, from effort to effort. One high coming, I am fine for a while, then again crashing deep under the floor, as it seems each time deeper because crawling out of it gets more difficult every time. What upsets me the most is that there wouldn't be much left in comparison to what I have mastered already. Unfortunately it seems like I reached the end of the game.. another end, the bad ending, that one I feared so much and now it's so close. Am going to use my holidays to regenerate and get up on my feet again. As described above I get a new haircut, I am painting my room's walls and do Yoga. Further I do autogenic training and read the book "Wie's weiter geht, wenn nichts mehr weiter geht: Strategien in schwierigen Zeiten" ("What happens next when nothing goes on: strategies for difficult times"). There must be a way out of this predicament and I am going to find it.