Windranger

Geez! That sounds awful. Hope the workload gets reduced soon!

I wish there was a simple, working solution..

Woot!! Awesome, Emmi!! Well done, girl Yep, you definitely rocked this challenge, go ahead and take the attributes for it, you highly deserve them!! In our computer rooms at university we use water bottles (made of plastic or glass). So you unscrew the bottle top, take a sip and screw the top on it again. Take care that no one is bumping into you while drinking and everything is fine. Is it such a long way to go back to drink something? There are many people that smoke and e.g. make a 10 minute break every two hours for smoking a cigarette. I guess you are allowed to make such a break also and use it to get something to drink?

So. Why Feng Shui? I looked for ideas how to arrange the workplace the right way and by doing this I came across the Feng Shui arrangement. I took a closer look and it says it's not good to sit in front of a wall --> I am sitting in front of a wallthe entrance door shouldn't be behind your back --> it isafter that Gua-Number stuff I am element earth, means the colors green and blue have an inhibiting effect on me; plus a room shouldn't contain black furniture --> my room is green (walls), black (furniture, 'posters'), light brown (furniture and floor) and white (walls)further this means looking into southeast direction is the worst for me --> guess in which direction I always look for studying.. yep southeast..disorder has a massive negative effect:"Disorder or damages in the center, southwest or southeast can hinder professional progress plus disturb the physical and emotional well-being. Additionally disorder in the area of life 'knowledge' refers to studying problems or lack of inner tranquility." by this page Actually I am not like that.. like believing in such things.. the energetic man that was trying to help me some months ago I was internally laughing at because I think he just pulls people's leg. Maybe I am right. At this point of my life right now I nevertheless start doubting my theory. After all, I am now also trying this stuff. I love the intense green wall and the black bed in front of it but I want to try this Feng Shui thing and that's why I am going to paint the wall ocher yellow. Further the desk now got moved so that I am looking in northwest direction, with a view to the door and a strengthening wall a bit behind me, not to close, not too far away. Then some fitting plants and finish. Even if it's not helping me for my studies, it's a rather new environment and therefore probably supporting me to get out of the vicious cycle I mentioned in the previous post. Plus, I love rearranging rooms so it will be a good encouragement.

I am as always. Messing up, messing up, messing up. The main reason probably is that I am completely unhappy with my studies. I am angry that I didn't realize and accept way earlier that this is not manageable for me. The idea of doing this was burnt into my mind way to strong. Would be great if I stopped this study right after beginning. Now I am struggling with it for over three years and things are only getting worse. I learned much, very much and I am happy that I got all this knowledge and made all this experience. Unfortunately for that what's standing on the paper these things don't count.. there's just: attended university that would take 3 years for 3.5 years and didn't make it. (You can only repeat one year.) I am trying, I really am. Falling back into old patterns all the time. I probably am thinking way too much about how to live my life.. Getting a rather different haircut this month, am going to arrange my room after Feng Shui rules (gua-number) after Christmas and do the Yoga workouts (10 to 30 minutes) in the morning. The most difficult thing is to see only the upcoming tasks and not all things altogether. There are some subjects / exams that are 'causing stomachache' and rob all my motivation and will to fight. In addition I am constantly sick, because of being sick living an unhealthy lifestyle and because of this I am sick again, it's a vicious cycle. For the next huge chapter in my life I now know the importance of balance in life, how important it is to think about the present and weigh whether it's better to let go of something or continue with it, instead of hurling oneself into disaster.

Yeah there will be setback's every now and then but as long as you keep fighting and stand up again everything is fine What I realized by now is that the more you concenctrate on changing something the more difficult it becomes for me. I now want change my environment - arrange my room after feng shui rules (gua-number), start the day with 10 to 30 minutes Yoga and change my look. I have tried many, many things by now, somewhen something will help, I am sure. Wish you the power to not let yourself drag into guilt feelings because not accomplishing something you had planned to. We are human, we are allowed to make mistakes. Really make sure you enjoy your life and keep in balance work, health, social life a.s.o. We are going to make it

Alright. NOPE. Recall!! Save the challenge. Going another way to achieve my goal. Until December 31: Do three two Yoga workouts a day.Neither have chocolate nor coffee.Sleep during workdays: from 00.30 AM to 05.00 AM and from 07.30 PM to 09.00 PMDo NOT study on weekend or holiday

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I also think that reducing the stress can have a very positive effect on ones life Probably it comes from the fact that we are constantly worrying about things which we would master way better if we weren't running ourselves ragged about it all the time, because than our mind wouldn't be continually filled with negative thoughts against it? Wishing you much success at getting rid of the stress and becoming able to handle the nutrition topic easier, mate! That's rather cool and sounds like a damn great experience B-) Wouldn't be something for me though but the idea to leave everything I am used to behind for quite a while is wandering through my mind every now and then. Even thought about really doing this, but the longer I thought about it the more it became clear to me that I would miss my friends here way too much.. So I am on the horns of the dilemma in this topic also ;D I haven't been around much where I live yet, so I will take this advice and simply go on voyage of discovery where I live =] The yoga thing will be very difficult for me. I normally cannot stand doing things like meditation and so on. Have been visiting a energetic guy once and the pressure in me was nearly unbearable. I was so happy to get away from there again. Yep he said that there was something badly wrong with my psyche and we should work on that, but I didn't want to do it. Probably I simply were scared. Am going to get a autogenic training CD and book also. Time to tackle the main causes of the problem.

Now officially cutting of this challenge. Thank you so much for your encouragement and pushing, fellows!!! I guess I should have listened to that weird energetic guy telling me that something is badly wrong with my psyche and I have to do work in this area. Time to finally do this now.

Thank you for your support, fellow To read some piece of advice from someone who's also been dealing with this is doing me good. So I am definitely going to try Yoga now. I guess I even gonna exaggerate it by paying more attention to the "health", "social", "spiritual" and "relationship" areas of life than to studying. Not that I won't study anymore at all, but there must be some way to get out of that pit of desperation over myself and maybe this is the right way. Going on like I did so far won't take me to the Bachelor Degree at all.

That sounds like a perfect way to deal with it!! You sound so positive and determined, that's touching - I'm burned out. Don't let that happen to you. Stay to your plan at making time for destressing and enjoying life, I highly underestimated its importance!

There are only about 6 months left in which I have to study like crazy in order to make it. Unfortunately I respawned so often now that at at the moment I got the feeling every little piece of willpower is used up. Falling back on the very beginning of the university already, just passing through, becoming sick because of all that stress, only concentrating on university, having no balance in life, hiding - complete burnout, repeat a year. Again falling back, unfortunately still not giving up and still not getting my life in order. Sometimes I think "why study all that, you are not going to make it anyway". Completely wrong attitude I know nevertheless it's there, stuck in my head. But on the other hand i am too stubborn to give up, especially now that I already attended that university for over three years. New plan is to try out the "Everyman" sleep pattern, Yoga and have three hours a day freetime without any guilty conscience. Motivation isn't there yet again. I am very pessimistic at the moment. Anyway, i am so stubborn that I am going to try, but when I try I have to do it with full power, otherwise the next weeks will really be completely useless wasted time.

This is the song the nurse let blast from the speakers right after my birth. When do I finally live after it? Messed up my challenge again.. and messing up university stuff. Things could be so easy, why do I complicate everything?

Didn't know Cry Little Sister yet but like the version you posted Also listened to the original now, it's nice also but as you said a bit creepy xD Hurt by Johnny Cash ♥ listened to that very very many times That's the point!!

I don't know if I ever listened to Killswitch Engage before but anyways I just listened to their cover.. The little Dio fan in me is painfully screaming

So, which song was picked? Or is this a secret?

Oh My Gosh! Amberdisa, you are AWESOME!! So much work and so much success, amazing *_*

Thanks guys! From Friday afternoon to Sunday evening I've been painting our dining room and kitchen walls. That was a lot of work. Put away what is possible to be dragged away, cover everything else, paint and clean again and again, uncover everything and place all the decorations and furniture like it was before. The reason was that my mother's birthday was on Friday and her boyfriend had invited her to a trip to Prague plus she had spoken about painting those walls for months, so I took the opportunity and did this. Was exhausting (my hands are sore xD) but also really much fun. It was a whole new ballgame than all the desk work and I loved it My 9 year old brother was with his father the whole weekend and my 17 year old brother cannot walk at the moment because he had a rather huge leg operation so I was working all alone. Besides the fact that I really liked the painting all the work for covering and cleaning up paid off when my mum entered the room. She had no clue what I'd done the time she'd been away. Electrical light was off, candles lighted on and Wonderful Dream by Melanie Thornton blasting from the speakers. She was soooo baffled and bursted into tears. "This is so beautiful! You [my brothers and I] are so awesome!!" she said over and over again. Best moment of the whole year for me ♥ Didn't eat much this weekend and slept so extremely well But now - back to the desk work.

Hey Emmi! Congrats on the new job! When they are in such desperate need of people that the recruiting of new staff isn't going fast enough for them and it's before Christmas it probably will be hectic. Don't let you put under stress too much How were the first days going? So are you now attending lessons plus go working? =/

Hey kzacher! Great to see that you are still kickin' ass! Plus provide us with great music Is that song from Cradle of Filth the one you want to cover?

Work work work.. RESPAWN

Thank you for the explanation! Happy to hear that you got some visible results showing up. Keep up the good work, shield-sister!

The Perchtenlauf was awesome Thought about trying to eat 80% Paleo again. While trying to get started with it I finally remembered why I chose my quests the way I set them.. because I am fucking lazy! Living the daily routine I had set at the beginning of this challenge would make everything so much easier, but no, let's play little miss stupid. So angry with me. new start