Reluctant Amazon

Sucks its the only person I literally can't live without. I think she's due for a breakthrough. Sent from my MotoE2(4G-LTE) using Tapatalk

A very very disturbing truth is revealed. Everyone who knows about my trans issues accepts it real and who I am, even some people who would really prefer I be a guy. One really, really important person seems to believe it intellectually, but not really accept that I am a woman. Sent from my MotoE2(4G-LTE) using Tapatalk

I don't want to be trans,and I don't want to be selfish within my marriage marriage. I won't fix anything. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

The second, sorta. I should just wipe the posts. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Sorry, I'm just not doing well and kind of explodey.Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

I'm suffering from disabling mental illness that I can't get anyone to help me with. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

I was just asking to tone it down as I was in a weird sensitive place. I've just barely got a hold on what I've been searching for for 2 years. The idea that it's okay for me to like being a woman, and that its okay to let people see it, and the actual danger for my situation is minimal. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

So yeah. I need some exercises that can help me build a more feminine appearing musculature. Other than the three most obvious, any suggestions? Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Being a woman is a every weird thing for me. I built my personality around the education of "you are a boy, no one can suspect you are a girl" while rejecting guy stuff. If had a way to happily survive as a guy, with no knowledge of being trans, id take it. That doesn't exist. But just making the leap of it being okay to be a woman is so good. Now I just have to work on being a hot babe. :-D Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Can we tone down the debate over the scientific validity of my very real experience? The inexplicable feeling, divorced from my personality, that I'm supposed to be female? It's kinda disconcerting. I'm a big fat ugly male bodied person. I've spent 40 years trying to alter and suppress the feeling, separate and opposed to my personality that I'm supposed to be female. I'm dealing with trying to get healthy physically and mentally while rebuilding every relationship I have. It's hard. I have so much shame,fear and guilt over this. Just can we move on? Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

I gotta get my fat down. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

I realized today that I actually have a plan that leads to transition by summer. I get to be a girl for reals. :-)

Sorry. I've just had like this awesome awesome mental breakthrough. So much of my stress was caused by my unresolved self hate, and I put a lot of that in the trash. Things in a practical sense are creeping forward. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Ummm stuff Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Well, yes, its amazing the states that have the most restrictions on welfare have the highest proportion of people in poverty. It's like they can't worry about improving their conditions cause they are too busy surviving

*mildly insensitive remark removed* Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Defaulting on student loans is better than trapping your identity under a bully. And student loan are easy to work out payment arrangements with. Just my opinion. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Also picked stuff up and put it down. Was unable to complete a set of five deadlifts at 135. I'm like superweak. The good part is I should have a good fat to muscle turnover. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Down to 370 lbs.... Wow Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

My mom will always love me and wants me to be happy. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

And im coming out to my mom on Sunday. Gah. Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Also my favorite, "I stay fat cause it makes me feel less masculine..." Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

Oh definitely awesome. But also, complete anxiety panic. I've had 40 years of barely making it by learning to fake being a guy. Now I have to let people see me for real, while I learn how to be authentic and female in the outside. Money, family, everything. Aaaah. Plus now, I'm removing my great excuse. "Oh, I'm depressed cause I'm a guy. Oh I'm socially awkward from concealing my femininity..., bla blah blah"

So, down to 375. Starting to fix some health issues. Starting to gain a lot more confidence in going out as me. And my wife is no longer asking me to avoid hormones. It's kinda scary now. [emoji1] Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk

That's transgender day of rememberance Sent from my LG-D321 using Tapatalk