Stonie

WEEK 1 WRAP UP: whoops, so I didn’t check in at all last week! The week kinda got away from me. If I wasn’t at work I was recovering from being at work or hosting or going to somewhere for dinner. This entire week was me waiting for the week to end so I could just get some sleep. EXERCISE, DAMNIT! 0/1 👎 do it on Monday, they said. Get it over and done with they said. Monday I woke up already exhausted so there was no way I was going to make it and the rest of the week pretty much followed suit. I did go to derby training on Thursday, but that’s not what this goal is tracking. ROUTINE, DAMNIT! 2/7 welp, that was a bust. The first two days were great! The rest I either completely forgot or as just too heckin tired to want to spend any time in the freezing bathroom. WATCH WHAT YOU’RE EATING! DAMNIT 7/7 this has actually been going well, and apart from Sunday where I ate one ice cream while looking at my phone before realising, I’ve watched everything that’s gone in my face hole. I had three social dinner nights (where I historically always over eat due to the abundance of food) where I didn’t feel the need to stuff everything I saw into my body. some wins: Wednesday I had family around for roast dinner, and made dessert but made them portioned so I couldn’t eat endless Eton Mess Friday i went to my parent’s place for dinner and to help make cupcakes, I had enough dinner to fill me up and didn’t feel the need to snack endlessly on baking ingredients Saturday evening was a family friend’s 50th birthday, and there was food everywhere that I ate only a reasonable amount of! Normally with cheese and dip platters and a heckin lolly bar I would have gone nuts but I didn’t. I finished all of these evenings not overstuffed and hating myself which is a definite Improvement! DO SOME ART PRACTICE, DAMNIT! 5/7 and 1/1 Weirdly the days I didn’t do this were the ones I had off from work 😂 but I did something every other day, and even signed up to Skillshare to get access to some good classes I can go through to improve my understanding of how to art, especially on procreate. Since I was only taught the barest bones of art fundamentals I’m trying to catch up with my understanding of all that while also trying to make cool pictures. I’ll try and post some stuff that I’ve done this week in a spoiler! Bonus: FINISH A PROJECT, DAMNIT

June 22, 2020 EXERCISE, DAMNIT ❌ yes, I did say I was going to do this today, but I woke up already exhausted and could barely move, even once I made it to work. 🤷‍♀️ I’m going to reschedule this for Wednesday since I have a day off and i can sleep in as much as my body desires before then. ROUTINE, DAMNIT ✅ did it! So my secret weapon for this is... Pokémon Smile. Yes, Pokémon have app for everything now. You point the camera at yourself while brushing your teeth and it watches you do it, you wear a dumb Pokémon hat and at the end you might catch another Pokémon! I am clearly terrible at it because I haven’t yet... and it’s clearly marketed at children but whatever makes me brush my teeth without hating my life I’m going to use. EATING, DAMNIT ✅ So I’ve realised I’m snacking so much at work to combat how shitty I feel at work. Especially yesterday, I was trying to find some energy somewhere. It’s not like I was even hungry. It doesn’t help that my workplace is a very mentally And emotionally draining place To be right now? So I’ve definitely been coping with food. I read through the chapter on emotional eating last night before bed too which relay highlighted this. I just need to think of something else to do that isn’t snacking that might make me feel better at work. I also definitely need to put my foot down about picking up extra shifts. I need to stop burning out. ART, DAMNIT ✅ done. Yesterday I sketched a buffalo in a trench coat. It turned out alright. this is the other reason I need to put my foot down about work. my plan was to just do my contracted days of 8 shifts a fortnight, and use that extra free day as a day of art and side hustling, which doesn’t happen if I work 5-6 days a week. I never do only my contracted days though, I just keep waiting and expecting it to be better 😂 waiting for my workplace to sort itself out is like waiting for the sun to not rise.

Alright I tried to act today like I’d actually started the challenge (since it starts tomorrow) WEEK 0, DAY 7 EXERCISE, DAMNIT ❌ not today. I did walk to and from work and all around work today so there’s that. I am planning on being at the gym by 9.30am tomorrow before I start work at 11.30. ROUTINE, DAMNIT ✅ did it! I think my secret weapon for brushing my teeth is helping, Also I moved my meds into the bathroom so when I walk in there I see them and HAVE to take them. Not taking them wrecks my sleep schedule and makes me feel like shit the day i start taking them again. I also have another sneaky idea that I should be able to implement tomorrow so I’ll let you know how that goes. EATING, DAMNIT ✅ i did watch what i ate, since it was mostly pancakes. Had friends around for breakfast / DnD / hanging out before work, and we had all the trimmings you could possibly want for pancakes, I definitely did not over indulge so that was hella good of me but i probably didn’t Pay as much attention as I could have... however I was acutely aware of how shitty I felt later on at work being powered solely by sugar so I’ll take that as a win. ART, DAMNIT ✅ done. I finished a sketch of a friends doggo. This is the paid commission, which I’ll probably paint irl over again with acrylic on canvas, but it was fun to practice on procreate.

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Following! Steward of your own house sounds SO MUCH BETTER than "homemaker" or "house spouse" It's wild how much different it is trying to get yourself to do things when you don't have things like work to keep your routine in check. This is set up great, I can't wait to see how you go! and also all these craft projects you have going! am excite!

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Hi y'all, I'm Stonie, I like collecting hobbies and thinking about learning stuff. I've been around here for ages, in and out; I'm back currently to find some sort of normalcy in a new life I'm building for myself. I play DnD, video games, read... all the things. I like plants and pets and crafting.

yay! Welcome. welcome, damnit! thank you! Welcome! and then I run away and avoid all confrontation together 😂 yeah I’m not expecting this to be a short term fix (the best ones never are, boooo) but I got nothing but time! yay! We can hide from our UFOs together!

Right!? I'm not a self-motivated person for sure xD I need a deadline or someone hounding me constantly for something to get done. the things that i make just for me tend to just... loiter with intent in my craft room I've been a little MIA this week since I came back to work and straight into a 6-day work week (boooo) but I've tried to be mindful of some of the things I have planned I've decided to try for Mondays as my gym day as that was previously my other roller derby training night, but also should get it done and dusted out of the way for the week so I can focus on everything else. I definitely haven't been doing my evening routine but I think i have found a solution for that... I'll let you know what it is if it works xD I've done a few sketches throughout the week and the other day on my one day off work I sat down and learnt how to work animations in procreate. I keep bringing my iPad to work with the intent of sketching on my meal breaks but instead I'm here updating this xD Good intentions are a start I guess. Mindful eating is still going well. I'm still in the phase of allowing myself to eat whatever i want without restrictions so that I can shrug off the previous diet brainwashing my mind has been fighting. So I'm trying really super hard to not stress about what my weight is doing and how my body looks which i think is the hardest part? I did however throw my scales out today which I feel good about. I'm definitely aiming more for feeling healthy then looking buff at any cost... My negative body issues just need time to catch up. I am definitely noticing more how full i feel and have put things down or thrown food away when I'm full or just straight up not enjoying it as much as I thought. I've even stopped myself buying things a few times after thinking about how it's probably already stale and not as exciting as it looks and not worth eating if i'm not going to even enjoy it. The book keeps assuring me I'll break through the period of wanting to subsist only on delicious sugary things so we'll just have to wait and see! And I even started on of my pet painting commissions - albeit not in the original medium I had planned xD Procreate has my creative heart wrapped around it's little apple pencil at the moment so everything i do creatively is in that. I will probably definitely paint this same picture in good ol' acrylic on canvas like I planned (since that's what my friend asked for) but i am rediscovering my love of digital art - one i've not been able to indulge properly until recently.

So I've been a little MIA this week since i returned to work and hopped straight into a 6-day work week (booo) but I've tried to be somewhat mindful of what I'm planning to do from next week. CHAPTER II: Resolute 1.EXERCISE, DAMNIT Do a full body exercise routine At the gym 1x weekly Push, Pull, Press, Squat, Deadlift, Core, Cardio. I go back to Derby training this week so I’m excited for that, and I figure since my gym is open again and I am paying for it I can go once a week without feeling like I’m overwhelming myself. That’s two days of serious exercise. I can hopefully stick to being somewhat active by just existing the other days. I'm going to try for Mondays as a gym day - get it out of the way early and that used to me my other derby day so that spread my two big exercise days out in a way I'm used to. 2. STICK TO A ROUTINE, DAMNIT Do your evening routine at least 5 nights a week. Last challenge I found that if my evening routine fell down the next morning was much rougher. The problem I have with this is my evening routine was mostly things I greatly dislike. Like doing the dishes and brushing my teeth. I have also struggled with Finding a suitable trigger to begin my routine. So I’m going to work on that. I’m going to drop doing the dishes from my routine and trust myself to do them at other times of the day. For now all I want to do is; take meds brush teeth do skincare Go to bed at a reasonable time that’s literally it. 3. WATCH WHAT YOU’RE EATING, DAMNIT Continue eating mindfully, continue working on intuitive eating. This has been working well for me so I’m going to continue doing it. For now I’m working on eating without distraction and honouring my hunger cues. Due to a side effect ofmy anti-anxiety meds my stomach doesn’t gurgle and I don’t feel hungry but I do get light headed and stop thinking straight. So I just need to be more aware of when I need food and when I no longer need to keep eating. Previously I had been eating mindlessly and not stopping until I was overfull. But when I pay attention to eating I find I don’t need to eat as much. 4. DO SOME ART PRACTICE, DAMNIT A. 30 minute sketch or painting 5/7 days a week B. 1 x weekly learning a new art techniques. my long term life plan involves being a full time artist and paying my bills like that... which doesn’t happen if I don’t practice said art. I have always been one of those “naturally talented” people but that is nothing compared to people who have studied and practiced and have the knowledge of basics of art. I also picked up Procreate recently for my iPad and I’m having a great time playing with that. [Bonus] FINISH A PROJECT, DAMNIT’ work through this list of half finished craft projects that you would like to do. Get as many done as you can. Half finished knitted sweater half finished crochet mittens 1x paid pet painting commission 1x free pet painting commission 1x painting with a set colour scheme 1x crochet wombat macrame coasters I collect half finished projects apparently. I’d like to get some of them done.

Challenge #2 is up!

FINAL CHALLENGE WRAP UP So overall i feel positive about this challenge. For the days I had to work I found having routines in the morning and afternoon really super useful, and when I wasn’t at work I found i didn’t need them as much. I also decided intermittent fasting wasn’t for me and Tank wonderfully suggested Intuitive Eating Instead and turns out, that is exactly what I was looking for, even comes with it’s own instructions for how to re-learn how to eat according to what your body wants. Amazing. It also turns out that I have zero interest in any exercise when no one is telling me to do it so that was interesting. I do go back to derby training next week so I’ll be glad of that, and my gym is back open so I’m wondering if maybe I go there again once a week too? I’ll have I think about that. And, unsurprisingly, doing a little bit of self care every actually does make you a little happier. Who’d have thought? I won’t do this as a challenge again but I’ll definitely keep trying to do it Since my therapist literally said I need to. Onto the Scoring! 1. STICK TO A ROUTINE. A. Morning 25.5 /30 I’ve counted my zero week scores as well cos fuck it, why not. this fell down when I stopped working for a week and a half since I had nothing pressing to go to or do except for the things I wanted to get done around the house. I do enjoy a good cold shower after a workout so that’s a thing I learnt. Will I be continuing to do them every day? No. Definitely not over winter that’s for sure. But I learnt that so that’s good. I also learnt that no amount of preparation can make getting up at 4:30am easy for my night owl chronotype. I actually started hating my early shifts more when I got up too early so that didn’t really work how I planned but again! I learnt something about myself. B. Evening 18/30 This I’m definitely going to work on again! It quickly became apparent that the next day didn’t go as smoothly if my evening routine was messed up. Especially if I didn’t get enough sleep. I also just hate the dishes and brushing my teeth. 2. EAT A VEGETABLE. STOP EATING CONSTANTLY. A. Meal Prep 6/6 This was easy and I won’t need to track it again next challenge, since it’s my preferred method of feeding myself now that I’m living on my own and ca do whatever I want. B. Intermittent Fasting Eating Mindfully 34.5 /42 As I said above I replaced Intermittent Fasting for Eating Mindfully - focussing on what I eat instead of mindlessly throwing food into my face And expecting it to do something (I.e. intuitive eating is a thing apparently) part way through the challenge and I’ve made some good progress getting back in tune with how my body wants to eat and paying attention to when I’m full, instead of eating until I’m uncomfortable. I will be revisiting this next challenge since I’m only partway through the book anyway and paying attention to the food I put in my body is not a habit yet. 3. MOVE YOUR BODY 25/21 Nice! For the past few weeks I did less actual workouts and more moving my body while living my life but I’m going to pat myself on the back for that since I used to think I was just a lazy little shit. I think I’ll attempt once a week at the gym for next challenge since they are back open now and I go back to derby training next week too so that’s fun. 4. LOOK AFTER YOUR DAMN SELF 40/42 turns out this probably actually helps my mood somewhat! Amazing, who’d have thought. I won’t be doing this as a quest next challenge but obviously I’ll be continuing to care for myself. These challenges are a part of that too. Looking at those numbers I’d say this challenge was a heckin success. I definitely learnt some things about how I like to function so hopefully next challenge I can get the basics dialled in and then... do something... amazing from there?

So Last challenge went surprisingly well? I did set the bar very low but I still exceeded my expectations. I am going to do much the same this time around with The main focus being on my day to day routines to set the framework for an awesome life. I also want to work in a teensy bit more exercise and art this time around to work towards some long term goals. 1.EXERCISE, DAMNIT Do a full body exercise routine At the gym 1x weekly Push, Pull, Press, Squat, Deadlift, Core, Cardio. I go back to Derby training this week so I’m excited for that, and I figure since my gym is open again and I am paying for it I can go once a week without feeling like I’m overwhelming myself. That’s two days of serious exercise. I can hopefully stick to being somewhat active by just existing the other days. 2. STICK TO A ROUTINE, DAMNIT Do your evening routine at least 5 nights a week. Last challenge I found that if my evening routine fell down the next morning was much rougher. The problem I have with this is my evening routine was mostly things I greatly dislike. Like doing the dishes and brushing my teeth. I have also struggled with Finding a suitable trigger to begin my routine. So I’m going to work on that. I’m going to drop doing the dishes from my routine and trust myself to do them at other times of the day. For now all I want to do is; take meds brush teeth do skincare Go to bed at a reasonable time that’s literally it. 3. WATCH WHAT YOU’RE EATING, DAMNIT Continue eating mindfully, continue working on intuitive eating. this has been working well for me so I’m going to continue doing it. For now I’m working on eating without distraction and honouring my hunger cues. Due to a side effect if my anti-anxiety meds my stomach doesn’t gurgle and I don’t feel hungry but I do get light headed and stop thinking straight. So I just need to be more aware if when I need food and when I no longer need to keep eating. Previously I had been eating mindlessly and not stopping until I was overfull. But when I pay attention to eating I find I don’t need to eat as much. 4. DO SOME ART PRACTICE, DAMNIT A. 30 minute sketch or painting 5/7 days a week B. 1 x weekly learning a new art techniques. my long term life plan involves being a full time artist and paying my bills like that... which doesn’t happen if I don’t practice said art. I have always been one of those “naturally talented” people but that is nothing compared to people who have studied and practiced and have the knowledge of basics of art. I also picked up Procreate recently for my iPad and I’m having a great time playing with that. [Bonus] FINISH A PROJECT, DAMNIT’ work through this list of half finished craft projects that you would like to do. Get as many done as you can. Half finished knitted sweater half finished crochet mittens 1x paid pet painting commission 1x free pet painting commission 1x painting with a set colour scheme 1x crochet wombat macrame coasters I collect half finished projects apparently. I’d like to get some of them done.

FINAL CHALLENGE WRAP UP So overall i feel positive about this challenge. For the days I had to work I found having routines in the morning and afternoon really super useful, and when I wasn’t at work I found i didn’t need them as much. I also decided intermittent fasting wasn’t for me and @Tanktimus the Encourager wonderfully suggested Intuitive Eating Instead and turns out, that is exactly what I was looking for, even comes with it’s own instructions for how to re-learn how to eat according to what your body wants. Amazing. It also turns out that I have zero interest in any exercise when no one is telling me to do it so that was interesting. I do go back to derby training next week so I’ll be glad of that, and my gym is back open so I’m wondering if maybe I go there again once a week too? I’ll have I think about that. And, unsurprisingly, doing a little bit of self care every actually does make you a little happier. Who’d have thought? I won’t do this as a challenge again but I’ll definitely keep trying to do it Since my therapist literally said I need to. Onto the Scoring! 1. STICK TO A ROUTINE. A. Morning 25.5 /30 I’ve counted my zero week scores as well cos fuck it, why not. this fell down when I stopped working for a week and a half since I had nothing pressing to go to or do except for the things I wanted to get done around the house. I do enjoy a good cold shower after a workout so that’s a thing I learnt. Will I be continuing to do them every day? No. Definitely not over winter that’s for sure. But I learnt that so that’s good. I also learnt that no amount of preparation can make getting up at 4:30am easy for my night owl chronotype. I actually started hating my early shifts more when I got up too early so that didn’t really work how I planned but again! I learnt something about myself. B. Evening 18/30 This I’m definitely going to work on again! It quickly became apparent that the next day didn’t go as smoothly if my evening routine was messed up. Especially if I didn’t get enough sleep. I also just hate the dishes and brushing my teeth. 2. EAT A VEGETABLE. STOP EATING CONSTANTLY. A. Meal Prep 6/6 This was easy and I won’t need to track it again next challenge, since it’s my preferred method of feeding myself now that I’m living on my own and ca do whatever I want. B. Intermittent Fasting Eating Mindfully 34.5 /42 As I said above I replaced Intermittent Fasting for Eating Mindfully - focussing on what I eat instead of mindlessly throwing food into my face And expecting it to do something (I.e. intuitive eating is a thing apparently) part way through the challenge and I’ve made some good progress getting back in tune with how my body wants to eat and paying attention to when I’m full, instead of eating until I’m uncomfortable. I will be revisiting this next challenge since I’m only partway through the book anyway and paying attention to the food I put in my body is not a habit yet. 3. MOVE YOUR BODY 25/21 Nice! For the past few weeks I did less actual workouts and more moving my body while living my life but I’m going to pat myself on the back for that since I used to think I was just a lazy little shit. I think I’ll attempt once a week at the gym for next challenge since they are back open now and I go back to derby training next week too so that’s fun. 4. LOOK AFTER YOUR DAMN SELF 40/42 turns out this probably actually helps my mood somewhat! Amazing, who’d have thought. I won’t be doing this as a quest next challenge but obviously I’ll be continuing to care for myself. These challenges are a part of that too. Looking at those numbers I’d say this challenge was a heckin success. I definitely learnt some things about how I like to function so hopefully next challenge I can get the basics dialled in and then... do something... amazing from there?

WEEK 5 WRAP UP Morning routine: 1.5/7 Yeah I’m not surprised this fell apart while I wasn’t at work. It is much less necessary while I’m not working though so I’m not too upset. I will however be revisiting this for the next challenge since I’m back at work and I would like some sort of routine that helps me instead of hinders me. Evening Routine: 1/7 this definitely stops my morning from going smoothly ( again, not that that’s a problem when I’m not working) but I will also be revisiting this one next challenge. Getting a good nights sleep is one of the main things I need to do to have a good day every day. Eating Mindfully: 7/7 This week as real good. I didn’t gorge myself on endless sweet foods ( my ultimate nemesis) and listened to my body when it said it was hungry and full. eating without distraction is still hard but it’s making a huge difference so this will also be in next challengeS list of goals. I have in fact got the intuitive eating book now so while I’m still reading that I’m definitely still working on that. Meal Prep:1/1 I prepped stuff to make crunchwraps or burritos at a moments notice. So good. Workouts: 4/3 so I did no real workouts but I was surprisingly mobile while off work so again, props to me for doing that, turns out I have exactly 0 interest in doing any exercise if I’m not prompted by something else ( going to training, friends etc) I am however much more active in my general daily life when I’m not chained to a desk at work so that’s good to know. I’ll probably chuck this goal out for next challenge to focus on other things, but I’ll be going back to derby training next week too so I will be forced to exercise a little bit. Self Care: 7/7 this is super easy to do when you are at home all day every day. I’m definitely much, much happier when I can live my own life free of the shackles of work ... but for now I need it to pay off my mortgage so I can’t just abandon my job. As much as it hurts my soul to be there some days. I’ll do a final tally up of the challenge in a hot minute.

Damn, I’ve been terrible at updating this week. I go back to work today so I’ll probably be better at updating as an escape from work! June 12 - 14, 2020 morning routine: no / no / no not going to work has completely thrown my motivation for a routine out the door. I get up and drink coffee and draw or write or update here, but no planned exercise. Tsk. I have been doing things that move my body. Friday i spent an hour shoveling trailer loads of dirt into raised garden beds for my first vegetable patch. Saturday I did very little except for some housework, Sunday I took the dog for a walk my Fitbit has registered me as doing at least 3 day’s of workouts so I’ll take that but my goal for this challenge was to do at home workouts. That’s okay. Workouts: no / no / no 🤷‍♀️ eating mindfully: yes / yes / yes so I’ve actually been doing great at this. I‘ve been trying to pay attention to if I’m even hungry before stuffing something in my face, and being more aware of when i actually feel full and don’t need to eat any more while I’m eating. I’ve even managed to stop myself from grabbing snacky foods and asking myself if I even want it. I had groups of people around both afternoons on the weekend; usually I end up gorging myself on The various snack foods that people bring or I supply and end the day feeling never stuffed and sick but this time I didn’t. I made an amazing fruit and dessert platter for everyone with strawberries, kiwis, biscuits, Lamington, pretzels, chocolate sauce, chocolate and nuts... and usually I’d go ham on it and make myself sick but for a change I was actually aware of how much I did not want any more sweet foods. It seems like such an obvious thing but I was 100% missing that awareness and re-tuning into It is gonna take some time. I’ve also been reading the Intuitive Eating book still which is Super insightful. self care: yes / yes / yes easy to do when you have all day to yourself. I finally finished one of the many video games I’ve been meaning to finish, I bought some vegetables for my new vegetable garden, and hung out with some fun people. Evening routine: no / no / no im definitely going to revisit this routine specifically in the next challenge. Not that I’ve had anything pressing to get up for but it’s just better for future me if I actually do this. I’ll wrap up the end of this challenge and report back with how I did.

it’s a beautiful wood! It’s more the expensive Option here too now but they used to build everything with them since it’s native to the area... before someone realised cutting down the native forests was probably a bad idea. My house will never fall down but I can only imagine the pain of having to build it 50 years ago! 😂

June 10 & 11, 2020. morning routine: 50% done / not done Wednesday i got out of the house for my morning coffee and went and sat at the beach and sketched the scenery and some people walking past as practice. Also one seagull. It was really nice and something i plan on doing more. Workout: not done / not done Wednesday I spent the day mounting a TV in my lounge room. It shouldn’t have taken all day but well, it did. I worked up a sweat just trying to screw the mounting bolts into the jarrah studs in my walls. I got sick of not being able to read the words on the screen of the games i have been playing. Thursday I did stuff all. Did some painting, some gaming. Eating mindfully: done / done If nothing else, this goal has stopped me mindlessly snacking on things instead of just eating every time i walk through the kitchen. It will be interesting to see how this goes when I return to work next week. Self-care: done / done Wednesday: spent the evening playing video games on a TV i could actually see. Thursday: spent the evening drawing Evening routine: no / no i think i short circuited the routine by already being in my pyjamas before eating dinner.

June 09, 2020 morning routine: 50% done no workout or shower. workout: none, took a rest day meal prep: done so I planned to gather the stuff for making vegan crunchwraps Through the week... and forgot the crunchy part of crunchwraps 🤷‍♀️ So for lunch I had burritos with leftover bbq lentils, homemade cashew cheese sauce, avocado, lettuce and tomato. It was still pretty good despite lacking a certain... crunch. I also used the 4 bananas in my freezer and made two batches of banana bread; froze one batch. mindful eating: done i bought the Intuitive Eating book today and started reading that in preparation for the next challenge, it’s good reading and giving me lots to think about. I discovered that I am definitely an Unconscious Eater. I definitely eat while doing other things - because it’s more efficient that way! Which means I don’t really realise what I’m eating or how much I’m eating or if I’m even enjoying it? Which totally tracks. Which means I’m also not paying attention to my hunger cues so I just eat until my body hurts 😂. So It‘s good that I chose to eat mindfully for the rest of this challenge because I am definitely starting to tune back into my fullness cues and how I feel when I get hungry. Spoilers: my brain stops working and I can’t think straight. That’s a big one. So anyway Part of today was letting myself buy literally whatever I wanted from the shops when I went. Chocolate biscuits? Check. Lolly bananas? Check. Pineapple fritters? Also check. I can eat whatever I want as long as I pay attention to it. Am I even enjoying the thing I’m eating? That is really insightful to think about because if I’m not even enjoying it then there’s no point me buying it again. I did also buy lots of healthy things! Like salad, and frozen fruit, and granola, and yoghurt. self-care: done let myself have a downtime day. I did some cooking yes, but then just spent the rest of the day drawing and playing a Journey to the Strange Planet. evening routine: done. i nearly balked on the dishes since there were heaps from baking but I couldn’t leave them there since, well, there were heaps 😂

June 08, 2020 Morning routine: 50% done Workout: 50% done No actual workout one but I moved vegetable gardens and a few wheel barrows of mulch and I’m knocked after that. eating mindfully: done self care: done had a long shower and shaved and moisturised and face masked. ‘Twas good Evening routine: done I nearly forgot to be honest. I had dinner really early. However I did not forget. Woo!

WEEK 4 WRAP UP Morning routine: 4/7 Since I’m off work for half of the Week just gone and all of next week I have definitely been more non compliant... but my evening routine has also been cactus and I know from experience that that doesn’t help. I do have my timer light set to go off at the same time every morning so that I work on getting up at the same time every day even though I’m not going to work... I have a list of things I would like to get done and I need to not sleep the days away. I just need to remember to get up and not sleep in just because I can... Evening Routine: 2/7 Again, I had to change what I used to trigger this process since I am off work on break but I think this will work better since it applies all the time if I am home, Regardless of whether I worked that day or not... which is the goal with these routines, do the thing no matter what the rest of your life is doing. I’ve really spelt out the trigger: habit: reward loop here so I should know why I’ve decided to do things like this. New and Improved Post-dinner Routine When I finish dinner and out my dishes in the sink I WILL: (1) do the dishes. reward: get into your cozy af pyjamas. (2) get changed into cozy AF pyjamas (3) brush your teeth. Reward: your teeth don’t fall out. Also, smooth bby skin care. (4) do your skin care routine. Reward: thats it for the day. You are responsible for nothing else tonight. Read a damn book or something. so we’ll see how that goes THIS WEEK. Also, if anyone has suggestions for “rewards” that I can use on myself to manipulate myself into doing the things consistently let me know. Something that doesn’t involve food or spending money would be super. 😂 Eating Mindfully: 5/7 I’m finding eating without distractions easier and I think I’m also less attached to my phone in other areas of life too? I will probably buy and read the Intuitive Eating book in between challenges So I can make a plan for the next one. Meal Prep: 1/1 (yess) Done. I made a delicious vegan pulled pork that I will be eating for the rest of my goddamn life. It’s so filling and I made so much. I’m not mad about that. Workouts: 5/3 (perfect-o) So I was super active this week even though they weren’t all actual planned workouts so I’m gonna praise myself for that. I did do a workout, also walked the dog twice (that’s twice more than any other week) did some intense playground fun with a friend, and marched in a protest. Turns out being chained to a desk is not what I want to do when given free will so that’s nice to know. Self Care: 7/7 (noice) My therapist reiterated that this is a thing I need to be doing when I mentioned I had time off from work for 11 days (she knows my workplace and it’s values and what it’s like so when I rant about my work sucking she knows I’m not blowing things out of proportion) since I’m away from work I’m definitely much happier 😂 but I’m hoping that it carries over to when I return to work long enough for me to implement some more things into my life that make grinding for money slightly less painful. For this final week I’m going to attempt to hella emphasise my morning and evening routines. If I do nothing else all day but do those I win that day. Or whatever. If all I do is stretch instead of doing a whole ass workout every day: perfect. Getting my routines sorted is the literal fucking foundation to the rest of my life going well so I will be working on these for a while I think. New habits take forever to stick in my brain. I can only keep trying.

So i realised today that the challenges are 5 weeks and not 4 weeks... which is good since I thought today was the last day of the challenge. Thankfully no. June 07, 2020 Morning routine: 50% done Instead of doing a at home workout I took the dog for a walk, but didn’t have a cold shower afterwards. workout: done walked the dog. She had a great time, and it was a lovely day so I did too. Eating mindfully: done Self care: done sat and listened to the neighbours band practice in the sun in my backyard. That was nice. Evening routine: done! So a big part of this not happening for me is that there is no trigger for me to start the routine and also no immediately obvious reward for doing it. the trigger for the habit I have fixed I think? When I put my dishes in the sink after dinner then I have to start my routine by washing the damn dishes. I guess the immediate reward for that is my kitchen is shiny and clean for me tomorrow. hopefully I can reward myself For the good job on the dishes by getting into my pyjamas for the evening and doing my skincare and routine. skin care is the easiest part of this because I immediately feel silky smooth by doing it. Brushing my teeth is obviously rewarding long term by my teeth not falling out of my head but the immediate discomfort of toothpaste tasting like shit and making me feel slightly ill puts me off making it a solid habit. Tsk. I am working on getting some toothpaste tablets that you chew up and use instead and they are different! But I also don’t wa t to throw out a perfectly good tube of toothpaste? now I’m just rambling about teeth. that’s enough. I’ll go tally up my successes for the week over in my challenge log.

my half drunken typing posted this comment before I was even done writing so let me find a sweet gif to put here instead.

Whops. Updating has not been My strong suit this week. hopefully I can remember what I’ve been doing. I’ve throw my whole routine out of whack by not going to work! Which I’m not surprised about. I’m going to reuse most of these goals next challenge anyway since I’m one of those people that takes months to build new habits instead of the fabled 21 days. Ugh if only. JUNE 05-06, 2020 morning routine: 50% / 50% Ive not done any planned workouts and no cold showers. eating mindfully: done / done I found that i was able to say no to many pieces of pizza since I’d already eaten and have realised that the vegan pulled pork that i made is super filling and I only need to eat Half as much as I thought. I probably wouldn’t have realised that if I had just mindlessly scarfed two buns filled with it fin to my belly then wonder why i felt sick. meal prep: done So this vegan pulled pork is comprised of lentils and shredded carrots and bbq sauce basically. And it’s delicious. I’ve been eating it with fresh bread rolls from the bakery down the road and coleslaw. Amazing. Workouts: 50% / 50% done No planned workouts done but i walked the dog on Thursday, a friend and i played in a playground on Friday, and i walked around in a BLM protest yesterday so ive not been sitting still, which is good. Also shows me just how much my workplace traps me into sitting down all the time. evening routing: no / no This has completely fallen apart. I need to put the focus back on this next week some how. I’ll have a think about that one.

Look after yourself! I think that’s kinda the #1 Point to all of this.