WeldingMommy

Missed yesterday's squat challenge,so double today..145 squats...wishing I had better things to eat. I should probably eat more since at dinner time I'm starving and overindulge like I did last night on the pasta I've forgotten the craving for smoking and have not had one since I quit, nor have I wanted one. My son begins daycare soon and I am super excited! He is soo ready for it. I got his room together some, but it's not how I want it. I seem to have misplaced my identification somewhere in the house and still cannot find it after demolishing and reorganizing my house. Anywho, Fell off my sleep pattern for an NCIS marathon...

Hello All!! Sorry I haven't been updating lately. Hit another frustrating rough patch in my life. Then I realized I was making a big deal out of nothing. I had to step back from the situation and reevaluate my emotional approach to things. 1. Finding a job is a necessity Reaction: OMG I NEED TO FIND A JOB! stop harassing me about finding a job I'm looking ugh! Why is no one willing to hire me?!?! Response: I am going to continue my job search and inform you as things unfold for myself. 2. Weight loss journey Reaction: *tears* perfect form, perfect diet, perfect workout routine, no money for gym membership, I can't even do a pushup! gahhhhhh! Response: Make a daily goal and follow through, no excuses, even after you start school in march. 3. School Reaction: *fan girl scream* I'M STARING SCHOOL!!! when is orientation? am I going to do well? will the scrubs even fit me? I hope I do well Response: I begin school in March. That's almost 2months from now, in the mean time, take care of all your paperwork and if you get a job, work as many hours as possible, if not continue on current response path. I find that making a plan that is semi-specific is better than making a broad anything goes plan or a plan that is sooo detailed I freak out over them. I am very hard on myself and have to realize that the universe deals the cards,I have to play the hand I have and do the best I can. 30 day Squat Challenge(30DSC) GO!!! Day 1: 55 squats Have to minimize to 2-3 posts a week Day 1: Cold Turkey quitting the tar sticks (inspired by SilverRapier) Sleep issue resolved: Found some sleep music and downloaded it to my phone so I can sleep at night

So you have inspired me Silver..I just finished my last cigarette ever and I am going to quit smoking ^___^. It's becoming a really expensive habit -__-'

I would not have been so kind to either...I would have pushed her off the machine or taken the book away and the dude I would have plain told to kiss my A$$

The sleep comes from anxiety which I've had since I was 11 when my parents divorced and then it became a bigger problem when I married and he was an abusive ass. I just got out of it in 2012 and now I am finally getting 1 foot out of the grave. Hopefully things will get better,and at this point I don't care how they get better as long as they do. I want to begin running again, but I have to wait for my money to come in to do that....so it's minimal workouts again.

I finally have my son on a decent sleep schedule. I have a job interview tomorrow and school starts March 17th. So maybe I'll get my sleep like I need to and not be all bleh all the time. Anyways, I fell off the wagon this weekend after weighing myself I haven't lost any weight but rather I gained. Short of starving myself I'm kind of getting screwed in the diet department. All the food I bought for myself and my diet menu, has been used and eaten by others and when I go to make food for my self I end up having to make food for 5 people including me and then yea.... Admittedly I haven't done much in the workout department because I haven't felt like it. I've had plenty of time and opportunity, I just didn't feel like it. so meh... Sorry for my nonchalance and those actually trying to make a difference in their lives, but I've almost given up completely.

At the moment it's Let it Go by Idinia Mendzel...from Disney's Frozen And Gansta by Kat Dahlia And Booty Wurk by Tpain And Bad Company in the style of Five Finger Death Punch And Now You're Gone by Basshunter And Crystallize by Lindsay Sterling And Candy Apple by Uce Deuce And Out of My Way by Seether

my grandparents reprimand me for it. I can't get to sleep at night no matter how hard I try