fleaball

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  1. fleaball

    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    I've written and deleted the intro part of this challenge several times because there's a lot going on behind it but I keep writing a novel for background. No one wants to read that. I don't want to write it. But I kissed the Blarney Stone when I was 11 and here we are. tl;dr for those who don't know: I have PTSD thanks to some bullshit and it makes shopping for, prepping, and cooking food incredibly difficult. I currently live with some of the people responsible for the aforementioned bullshit, which adds an extra layer of suck. And because all 3 of us have schedules that can vary wildly from week to week, it's almost impossible to come up with a reliable solution that I can fall back on. Near the end of the last challenge I went to a nutritionist hoping for ways around my issues. Got some good advice, but not the answers I really wanted. @Tanktimus the Encourager pointed out that my issues aren't really nutrition-related, they're trauma-related and not really things I can control. In hindsight, duh the nutritionist can't help with that. And then last night when I was having trouble falling asleep because it's hotter than Satan's armpit, I was thinking about what to do for this challenge and the quote "let Food be thy medicine” popped into my head. And you know what? I can do that. I know from experience that eating certain foods and eliminating others from my diet makes me feel a lot better and reduces symptoms of some of my health problems. I can baby step my way into making that happen without putting too much strain on myself or using up too many spoons. Time to fix some stuff. The Goals! Eat 1 dairy-free meal daily. Drink 1 cup of ginger tea daily. * Eat 3 servings of freggies daily. No eating after midnight. if I'm out late Lyfting and need food when I get home, eat something light soon after getting home. Bonus Goals! Move for 10 minutes: walk, yoga, GMB routines, etc. Make something in the Instant Pot. Bad Day Protocol! Eat a freggie. Take a shower. Pet a cat. If it's a day where everything is too hard and I'm just going to watch TV all day or something, watch an episode or two of Good Eats. May as well learn something while hiding from the world. Bad Day Protocol exists because a.) mental health issues and b.) the second anniversary of my mother's death is coming up on 8/12 and while I honestly can't say I'm really broken up about it, there's a lot of baggage that goes along with it and is wreaking some havoc.
  2. fleaball

    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Fucker peed in his carrier. Awesome.
  3. fleaball

    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    My stomach is killing me, I’m anxious af to the point that I want to throw up, and my brother just now bailed on helping me take Fat Kitty to his consult - 15 minutes before we’re supposed to leave. If anyone hears screaming off in the distance, it’s probably me.
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Sorry I haven't been keeping up with anyone lately. I'm in a weird spot where I'm not terribly miserable or otherwise in a bad mood, but I also have no patience whatsoever and don't want to do anything. So I keep coming here and then immediately closing the tab because meh. If anyone can figure out what my brain is doing, please let me know.
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Important detail I left out: he still to this day does not understand why my mother flipped out about it.
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Since we’re talking about how my father sucks at money, here’s an anecdote: A week before I was born he came home driving a brand new car. Yes. You read that right. Seven days before the birth of his first child he bought a brand new car. And also didn’t tell my mother about it either. #winning
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Today has been one minor inconvenience after the other and all of them together has me stressed the fuck out. How do I make my anxiety magically go away so I can be a normal person?
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Someone go to Target for me.
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Aaaand my father just got home and started slamming doors and throwing shit, so it looks like I'm going driving ASAP.
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    Thanks for this. I know I’m doing at lot better at life than he is, but sometimes it’s scary to notice the similarities between us anyway. This is a better backstory than the fact that several men in his family were cops so it was probably expected. Gotcha. I’ll see what we have in the house and try that first, then get something stronger if necessary. Welcome to the club! Established in 1988. Added!
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    In Which Flea Self-Medicates

    I haven’t been able to go out driving yet because I can’t get the stupid lock back on the door by myself and I just need another pair of hands. Luckily I only need ~2 hours of driving to finish that bonus, but still. My father is currently in charge of his station bc his boss went out on injury yesterday, so he’s stuck at work right now even though it’s 7:15. Raaaaaage. On the bright side, getting the lock changed was simple. Also the GI lady called me again and I have an appointment in September. Whee. Did she apologize for how long it took? Nope. Did she offer to squeeze me in on her own? Nope, I had to ask about it and repeat that I’ve been having these issues since the end of last year. But it worked out and so long as the new guy doesn’t suck at life as well I’ll shut up about this process.