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Tell the man to let you have some fun!

The good: My leg isn't going to fall off/I'm not dying/the weird-ass issues I've been having are just a result of being fat and lazy. (Oh god I just googled that looking for a BatB gif and one of my old challenges showed up in the results. That's awkward.) Also I finally got rid of 4 boxes of shit today. Hooray donating. The bad: I'm going to wind up eating this entire mediocre burrito because PMS + general life bullshit = lol fuck you. The ugly: The landlord emailed me again tonight to say oh surprise, there's a "strong possibility" dude is moving out this weekend and I'll be able to move in soon after. I appreciate the open communication but last week on the phone we left it at "I'll reach out when he's moving out and we can go from there." Because my parents have basically decided they're coming down now (which is annoying but means I don't have to make a separate trip to get the rest of my stuff) so we need to plan their time off and find a hotel, and uh I kinda just made plans to go to CT next week soooo yeah? Idk lighting things on fire still looks like a viable pasttime. Rather than rant at length I'm going to go write in my journal. Suck on that, challenge goals.

I just signed up for HabitRPG. I have no idea what I'm doing other than procrastinating with it, but woo.

It would solve so many problems, wouldn't it? Fuck yeah fuck yeah! I am 1000% on board. It's only 2 hours from me haaaaay.

Shithead roommate dude isn't moving til the end of August now. D< I'm probably moving in the middle of the month anyway and crashing in my friend's room while she's on vacation (bastard). But still. Good news: I have more time to pack and accomplish all the things my parents suddenly need me to do before I leave. Bad news: Literally all the rest of my plans are fucked up. (Moving/job hunt/bringing my car down/etc.) And this is where the meditation comes in, to keep me from lighting things on fire.

Sad faaaaaaaaaace. I'll start a petition to bring this into daily vocabulary.

Shit that's huge. Whoops. Also not relevant to challenge things but a rant: A friend of mine from undergrad (whom I really haven't to since i graduated save for exchanging 'happy birthday's on facebook) is also going to my school in the fall. I ran into him in April at the admitted grad student event. Have talked to my mother about him, and his partner, and also used the term boyfriend (even though I probably shouldn't if that's not what they say but that's beside the point). So it's pretty explicitly clear that he's a dude dating a dude. I also mentioned within the last week or so that I think they may have broken up bc both of their facebook photos are solo selfies instead of the cute couple-y pics they both used to have. Tonight I was pointing things out to my mother on google maps, including the city where they live now because ew traffic. And she goes "Oh right, he lives with his friend." *incoherent rage* Willful ignorance is the absolute worst. I have no plans to come out to my family in the near future, at least not until all my stuff is moved out, but still. There go a few optimism points. And just last week I'd gained a bit of optimism after my mother told me my grandmother was apparently cool with gay people, which I hadn't expected. Rawrrrrrr. This is frustrating. I don't necessarily expect to be disowned if/when I come out to them, but considering my mother told me straight up that I don't have anxiety issues, I fully expect to be told that I'm just confused/can't know that since I've never dated anyone period/it's just a phase/whatever. Her comment about my friend just kind of reinforces it. Ugh. Rage.

Kummerspeck is one of my favorites. Also Backpfeifengesicht. German has the best words.

Since I have nothing relevant to post, have a baby Flea: Apologies if it's gigantic. I'm on mobile and can't tell. >>

Not as bad as the first comment.

Yes. That was terrible. ><

Thanks! The meditation was great when I first started; now I think I'm slacking off despite doing it every day. I'll let you know if it improves I'm so maaaaad about that! I kept watching your thread thinking "please come soon, please come soon, say you're coming next week!" and nope. Sad face. I've always wanted to go to Mardi Gras though, so maybe if my schedule doesn't suck next semester I'll pop down and bug you. (I just checked and goddamn it's early next year. 2/9!) House of Cards is not a show I'd watch if I hadn't been peer pressured into it. It's not a bad show, I just don't find it interesting. This may be a sign that I'm moving to the wrong city but shhhh.

I'm torn between excitement and incoherent screaming tbh. I feel like driving 533 miles on my own will be the easiest part of all this. (Including going 92 miles out of the way to a specific diner because YOLO.) It sounds like you start a week before I do. I'm counting on you to lie to me and tell me everything will be okay. =D

Sad face!

Sounds like me!

On purpose? No. Is it working out that way for me somehow? Sadly yes. >>

Hot damn that is a lot of driving. You are a fabulous human being.

There is something intriguing about the way his brain works, but I'd find it exhausting in real life. All the plans and contingencies and making sure everyone is in your pocket. Yeesh. I am so not destined for politics. I'm wondering what he's up to wrt one person right now, and also mentally yelling at that person for being an idiot, but I suppose I'll have to keep watching to find out. Apparently when a new season comes out DC goes nuts. Bars have specials, hotels have watch parties, etc. Next year should be interesting.

I just find a lot of it hard to believe. I'm on the S2 finale right now and forcing my way through it because apparently it's required if you live in DC, but it's hard. After the thing with Zoe (not spoiling) I kinda just went "lol whut." You don't seem like a sociopath though. Maybe you're just good at hiding it over the internet.

Me yesterday afternoon: Yay I have a place to live and my car insurance is the same price bc my car is ancient and Massachusetts is already expensive anyway! Me last night: WHO THE FUCK KNOCKED THE PASSENGER SIDE MIRROR OFF MY DAMN CAR?! Not a happy flea for several reasons but sans time machine, being mad is pretty moot. I'm waiting to hear from the store whose parking lot I noticed it in to see if their cameras caught anything. If it happened before then I have no idea when/where/how. Hopefully I can get it fixed quickly and cheaply in the next ten days. In the meantime, cleaning like it's my job. I've gone through most of my stuff over the course of the summer but suddenly it seems like there's so much I haven't sorted. Bleh. Also House of Cards is a super boring show why do people like it?

Best of luck! Junk is not fun.

Tried to update my status and failed hard. Oops. But I officially have a place to live as of August 1st! Woot woot.

lmao that gif is completely ridiculous

I am a lying liar who lies. http://rebellion.nerdfitness.com/index.php?/topic/68693-flea-tries-to-stay-grounded/

So I said I was going to sit out this challenge. I'm actually, finally moving the first or second week of August, starting grad school at the end of it, and hopefully getting a job somewhere in between. I didn't want to commit to goals when basically my entire life is up in the air. But then I realized I really should do a challenge precisely because my life will be up in the air. So I'm picking 4 stupidly simple goals to gain/maintain momentum, especially because it's easy to drop even simple healthy habits and just shut down when I feel overwhelmed. So! 1) Meditate daily (I'm on a 94-day streak with Headspace as of posting and will probably cry if I lose it) 2) Drink 100 oz of water daily. (I pass this easily most days without even trying, but when I'm super busy I sometimes forget to hydrate at all.) (One possible exception: moving day. Because I'll be driving 10 hours alone and don't want to stop all the time.) 3) Write in my journal for at least 5 minutes every night. 4) Check in on NF 4 times a week, including posting in the recruits forum at least once a week. (Because community.)