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Oh man. If I were the guy behind her I'd be afraid of getting hit with those things. That was awesome though.

lol well I started The Maze Runner but I probably could've read the dictionary. Everything I've read in the last few months has been fanfiction on the interwebs and I just missed holding a book and not starting at my computer. I also got the Fluent in 3 Months book so I'll let you know how that is once I start it. Gobnait: lol yes, very true on both counts. Unless the book is Fifty Shades of Grey, which was not restful in the least and just made me want to burn everything. Jesus. Why does everything keep coming back to fire?

Welcome to the party!

Both of those videos are made of awesomeeeeee.

So I never really noticed until recently that I tend to feel sick after eating too much sugar. I do not like this feeling. I'm going to sue Ben & Jerry for my suffering. I'm not going to make my bedtime either. Combination of too much sugar + sudden desire to read a book = no sleep for Flea. I won't be up too late but I'm owning this choice. Speaking of books, there's a French library in Boston and they're having a used book sale on Saturday. Goodbye, money.

I'll echo 87 other people and suggest meditation. It's magical for sleeping. Also that planet thing is scary and you should punch it in the face.

My battle log is just a fancy decoration in my sig that I keep telling myself I'll use. Go with whatever system works for you. I post updates about my challenge in that thread. Currently I don't have any fitness goals in my challenge, but if I started running or lifting or something I'd keep track of it in my battle log. You don't have to use anything you don't want to though.

Hahaha I've mostly trained myself to avoid that site now. I've lost far too much time there. I keep telling myself I'll watch OUAT one of these days, but I don't know if I can handle yet another show that may or may not kill me. It wasn't an interview, but thanks anyway! lol It was more a "your website's been broken for weeks please answer my gd questions." It solidified that I totally want to go to this school but now I'm terrified I won't get in either. Which might be rational given that they don't accept too many people and i have zero relevant work experience (which isn't a huge part of the application but still gives other people a leg up on me) but it's mostly self-esteem issues so rawr. Time to find relevant volunteering opportunities. I think you just described my entire life. x_x There's only one major spoiler I can think of and it anyone ruins it for you they deserve to be stabbed.

Ahhhhh I'm supposed to be in bed in 27 minutes! But I still have to meditate and I'm also stressed out over having a phone call in the morning with the coordinator of the MA program I'm applying to. It's just for information and whatever, but the stupid webpage for the concentration I want has been under construction for weeks so I don't even know what to ask. And my fitbit is super dead but I can't find the charger so I'm a sad Flea. D: Also I have too many feels from tonight's episode of Supernatural. Dammit.

At least I'm not the only one! I've never heard of that, nor has Google it seems. Is that the actual name of the hotel?

I'm coming over to your house. Just sayin'. Tuesday is good! I'm trying to convince myself to clean/study for the GRE/look for more grad schools/do ANYTHING productive... but so far catching up on Castle is winning. Oops. And we discovered a library book in my grandparents' house that was checked out in November 1940 and was living under a probably sentient layer of dust. Good times. Maaaaan, 6 weeks of doing nothing at school really spoiled me. D:

Way to go everyone who's posted so far! I have to figure out what I can do this week.

Ahhh that looks like fun! Not because I'm a pyromaniac, just because bonfires are awesome.

I was commenting on my shitty luck. I haven't kept them this long on purpose, it's more like "idk what to do with you so you get to live in the back of the closet forever." lmao I'm pretty sure these paddles would suck on that front. One of them is actually a paddle-shaped cat toy (as in some kind of fabric stuffed with industrial foam with bells and mice attached) that a Little made for me. Which was clever, bc my name is Cat, but again wtf do I do with it now. And yeah, we were kind of liberal with our definition of "paddle." And a lot of other things. But I'm not bitter. Huh. Maybe I should just burn them as some kind of symbolic whatever. Fire is fun.

WOW. Send me a postcard if you make it there! That's impressive. And wow those seem like late deadlines. Which makes you all the more awesome for finishing by December.

Okay. So is everyone and their mom doing the Spartan thing at Fenway this weekend? I swear that's all I'm seeing all over NF.

The paddles are personalized so I can't really give them away. Meh, maybe I'll spend some time calling around to see what stores will take what. Or cheat and not include any of the hard stuff in the 100 things. The crutches I've had since 2001 and never needed again but I'm sure as soon as I get rid of them I'll break my ankle. That would be super fun. Ooh man, that sounds like quite the professor. How very special.

I feel like cleaning out a garage is always a workout no matter what. High five for you. When are your application deadlines? Do they fall within the challenge or are you just trying to motivate yourself to get them done?

Boo, that's shitty. I'm sorry it's like that. I love that you chose knitting, of all the things you could have suggested. One of the administrators I met with before withdrawing happened to be teaching our class later that week and told my friend and me, "It's so boring. Bring your knitting so you'll have something to do." So thanks for the laugh. As far as clutter goes, it's not that I have a hard time getting rid of things per se, but more that I just don't know what else to do with it. Stuff that doesn't need to be thrown away but Goodwill doesn't necessarily take and no one else probably needs. Like a stuffed dog my 8th grade class signed when we graduated, paddles made for me by people in my fraternity that I'm not longer involved with, and an old pair of crutches. (To be fair I could probably find a home for those if I tried.) So i just wind up keeping these random things for no reason other than I don't know how to get rid of them.

Ick, school applications. You can do eeeeeet!

Partaaaaaaay

Ick. I can kind of understand it because your son will be home, but that doesn't make it any better. :\ Getting away early is good though! Silver lining, huzzah!

Oh god don't even mention holidays. One of the most exciting things about being overseas was that I wasn't coming home for Christmas. (I'm a giant scrooge and hate Christmas anyway so whatever.) Boo to having the same family because ugh. No one should be subjected to this.

I has a thread. Sig/etc to be updated later bc I'm being dragged food shopping now whee. (Almond butter, I'm coming for yoooooou!)

Previously on "What the fuck am I doing?!" - Our hero's world was crumbling down around her. The long-awaited escape to graduate school in a far-off land, where she would find freedom and knowledge and personal growth, turned out to be a trap of the most evil (and expensive) variety. Despite their valiant effort, Flea and her newfound allies realized there was no way past the trolls blocking their access to the Hall of Knowledge. Defeated, she faced only two options: stay on and waste valuable energy and resources fighting the trolls in a battle she could never win, or return to the land from whence she came, where inner and outer turmoil reigned and enemies lurked around every corner... *fade to black while super rad music plays* SO! Grad school, the thing I spent literally all of this year looking forward to, was a disaster. None of which was my fault, which is a plus. But it means that instead of gallivanting across Europe learning things and drinking beer and discovering myself while being far away from anyone who knew the "before" Flea, I'm back in the US sans job, sans solid goals, and living with my family who drive me up a goddamn wall on the best of days. On to the actual challenge stuff: My aim this round is to keep my stress levels low and channel that energy into positive things. I've noticed I do better with self-care type goals than diet/exercise ones, so this round we're shooting for "happy Flea wants to eat yummy vegetables just because" instead of "uber bitch Flea ate a day's worth of calories in one sitting yay for eating your feelings!" Main Challenge Goal: Stress-Free Flea! Goal 1: Meditate 10 15 minutes every day using the Headspace app (hey, I leveled up!) Grading: A= 40+ days, B= 38-39, C = 36-37Goal 2: Get out of the house at least once a week! As in go somewhere where other humans exist: join Meetup groups, find free exercise classes, etc.Errands totally do not count. Reading a book at Starbucks might because at least I'm not in my room.Grading: A = 6, B = 5, C = 4Goal 3: Keep a regular sleep schedule and get at least 7.5 hours a night. Go to bed no later than 11 any given night unless some kind of social event gets in the way. Seriously I don't even remember what a good night's sleep is anymore.Grading: half a point each every night for bedtime and 7.5 hoursGrading: A = 72-84, B = 60-71, C = 48-59Life Goal: Get rid of 100 posessions. Before/after pics of my room will be taken once I clean up the aftermath of unpacking.I'll take pics of things I get rid of too, why not?I seriously have too much useless crap and I hate it yay. Grading: A = 92-100, B = 84-91, C = 76-83 As far as the thread title goes: when I get overwhelmed I shut down and blame everyone/everything for my problems. I've spent a lot of my life being the helpless victim in my own personal narrative, but fuck that. I know I can't change 26 years' worth of crap in a 6-week challenge, but by learning how to effectively deal with the shit that arises this sad little Flea will start becoming a more rational and healthy, mostly-functional adult. (ETA: No stat points this challenge because I can't bring myself to care enough about assigning them.)