TheGreyJedi-Ranger

It's definitely been a rough challenge this go-round. I've only done about 8 or 9 days worth of 75 soft, and i've been struggling to stay on my feet and move forward. Hopefully, as I keep pushing and shoving I'll be able to build an actual routine. 

wow what a week. 

I had no childcare for around 7 work days, and worked through a weekend and a half trying to stay caught up. It was, frankly, a nightmare. But My in-laws are finally feeling better so my Baby Jedi is with them and I can get my work done.

I have my first exam for classes this week >_> We'll see how it goes! I'm excited and nervous. 

One words.

DOMS.

(is that four words? idk)

My legs and the backs of my arms are p i s s e d. But I'm proud of myself for working out yesterday. I'll go back tomorrow, I took a break today since there's a lot going on. I power slept too, I needed it. 

oooof, sprained ankles are no joke. Take aleve if you can!

still no childcare... my sister in law is sick and I really don't want to bring it over here. I need some kind of back up though. 

I went to the gym this morning, and I'm rather proud of it. Did an adjusted beginner bodyweight workout, and i'm already feeling it a bit. I didn't push too hard to start, but I did enough that I can feel it. 

wow what a weird weekend it's been. I've just been trying to play catch up. 

Thankfully, tomorrow will be a nice mess of normalcy. I'll do the thing I do where I prep my clothes and my gym clothes, and i'm going to meal prep for my husband and myself and my daughter tonight after I get some work done, but otherwise I'm in a good place for starting the week I think. 

Ready for shark week to be over though, frankly

My current goal is just to do my best to crank through my work today so I can do my normal Sunday things tomorrow. Like meal prepping and all that jazz. We'll see how that goes but it's worth a shot at least

2 hours ago, Pherales said:

 

I downloaded Roubit a few days ago to have a look and have officially dubbed it the cutest habit/routine tracker I've ever seen, so I need to utilise it more fully for sure.

Finch is also solid! 

Update - it did not. 

My Sister in law is sick so I was out childcare today and am out of it tomorrow. That means no work for me and - surprise surprise - I "get" to work all weekend. yay. 

As you can tell, I'm thrilled. Particularly because I'm just.... really struggling through life this week. Eating poorly, exhausted (thx shark week), lots of emotional upheaval, and having some struggle bus time with the whole Parenting Thing.  Details under spoiler.

Wow. the past couple days have been hot garbage emotionally between shark week, my cat deciding to pee on my workout clothes, and a mess of other emotional drama bits. 

Here's to hoping the week gets better

20 hours ago, shaar said:

Oooo all of your meal prep sounds amazing!! What do you use for your protein pancakes?

 

I hope you get to feeling better slowly but surely this week

Kodiak Cakes! I put blueberries in Mr. Right's and just did plain for mine. It's the easiest for me to get ahold of out here

Slept so well last night - woke up feeling mostly solid. I'm hoping to spend some time working on my sleep hygene and seeing if that helps me get up sooner

Happy Sunday, all. Yesterday was a fun day, Mr. Right, Baby Jedi, and myself drove a long drive to go to a friend's daughter's birthday party, and then we stopped and had a nice meal together on the way home. I was as kind as I could be to my body considering that literally everything I ate yesterday was fast food. 

I did bring home leftovers though! I'm working on that.  I ate them today for lunch. I've been tracking again today, and I'm hoping that my extremely long day gives me enough of a break for a short nap at some point soonish. Fingers crossed and all that.

Mr. Right meal prepped our lunches for the week (chicken alfredo with veggies and protein pasta) and I'll be making our breakfasts (protein pancakes with bacon & fruit) and Baby Jedi's breakfasts (baked oatmeal cups) as well as my snack boxes for my mid afternoon slump after I get done here. 

Exhaustion has been a whole bear this week, and I swear it's because I'm not letting myself heal from this godforsaken cold+whatever else it is (possibly bronchitis). Gonna try to be better about that this week and about getting good sleep. 

Lindt chocolates are just oo delicious

Following up on yesterday... I woke up this morning feeling awful. So I decided to listen to my body and sleep a little more. I'm giving myself a fairly lazy/relaxing day outside of my usual work things. I did go to bed at a reasonable hour last night though!

I decided that for now, I'm going to let go of my goal to finish draft 1 of my book by the end of March and just... take some time away from my writing goals. I hate it, but my health is a high priority to me, as is my family. After that is work and then my master's degree, then learning japanese

38 minutes ago, shaar said:

Quick update!

 

Doctors visit went well, I am having some bloodwork done and will schedule an ultrasound shortly as well to make sure nothing internally is going wonky before we explore options. I have the sinking feeling she's going to deny my request to have my tubes tied - because I'm 43 and married with no children, of course there is a CHANCE I might still want children before menopause - good grief, so I may have to look for someone else that will do it for me if that happens. The Fun of Having Ovaries~

 

I also got my covid booster and my flu shot AND my tetanus booster and am covered in bandaids between that and the blood draw and have a BIG FEELING I'm going to feel like warmed over dog shit tomorrow!!!! NETFLIX BINGE TIMEEEEEE BOYYYYYY~~~

Lord have mercy, I've never understood that perspective. If a patient requests something like that then give it to them. What's the worst thing that happens? they end up adopting or something? Jesus. Just because I want kids (kid? unsure if i'm having more than one but that's not now's decision) doesn't mean everyone else wants to

Also, I just did a bit of digging for you, I hope this helps: https://www.reddit.com/r/childfree/wiki/doctors/

Hi friends, thanks to a random comment from my mom I'm starting to wonder if I have acquired bronchitis after my Christmas cold. Because I never got over it, I'm less congested in my nose and just really congested in my throat and chest and constantly coughing. 

I'm still working out, but I'm being KIND to my body and also I'm going to be going out of my way to use my inhaler more. It helps so much, I need to quit forgetting the poor thing.

Got a workout in this morning, but I'm exhausted.

Amusingly enough, my chapter in Metabolism Makeover (book I'm reading) was about sleep this morning. Hmmmm.... I sense a callout >_> I think I need to back off on a few of my goals for now and resync my life. I need better places for certain things and it's just straight up not working right now. I don't sleep enough and I'm always exhausted. And I know that's awful for my body. 

14 hours ago, Pherales said:

 

Yay vague place escape!

 

3-4 days is better than 1-2days is better than 0 days!

 

I finally caved and bought a Stanley cup dupe.  No way was I paying crazy money for one but kmart had dupes for $15 and the handle really helps me with carrying it around.  I think my water intake tripled purely from getting a cup I like.  I've heard good things about Zone Cup system as well, so buying multiple cups for specific zones of your house/work etc rather than carrying a cup around if you have a tendency to put it down and forget it.

So right! That's what I keep telling myself.

I have a dupe as well! I also have a silicone only straw because one of my sensory seeking behaviors is chewing. I chew on straws so badly... plastic ones just don't cut it. But I got a cup with a handle and covered it with stickers, which helps. The big issue is that I also drink a couple cups of coffee a day. I may need to just play the 'alternating' game where I alternate every sip of coffee with a sip of water. 

15 hours ago, Rookie said:

I did reach out to them a couple months ago and they do have career counselors. I'm not sure if they do interview prep though. I can ask. Technically Mr.R could help because he hires for this sort of thing and was a developer originally. And I have another friend who does too though she's less technologically inclined I think. 

 

I'm on linkedin. I check job postings there. I did apply to 2 jobs from a recruiter and I thought they'd reach out even if the positions were filled but they haven't. 

 

I'll take a look thanks. 

I hope the resources help ❤️ 

FINALLY got my brain out of garbage brain vague place. 

Thanks to the storms and mess around here last night, I elected not to go to the gym this am. I'm going to go tomorrow. I think... I think there's a good chance that I'll end up doing 3-4 days a week at the gym rather than 5. We'll see - small steps are still steps. I'm adjusting slowly. 

I really need to get my water consumption back on board, it's getting rough. I need to drink ALL the water!

12 hours ago, Pherales said:

This is the first time I've held a new, physical book in so long.  The excitement just opening the box was palpable. I'm trying to pace myself reading it rather than devouring the entire book in the space of four hours and then the dopamine is gone

A whole mood though....

13 hours ago, Rookie said:

A full stack developer position at a company that does GPS stuff for commercial vehicles. It sounds like it's mostly remote but the office is only a 40min to 1hr commute one way 🥲 opposed to 1.5-2hrs one way. There seems to be lots of jobs but there seems to be even more applicants 👀 I thought getting a new job would be easy. Which to be fair if I was a stronger interviewee maybe I would have got the one I did 1 interview for with someone I knew. 

Hey that's something that can be trained ❤️ I feel like I remember you saying you went to a college/university - do they have career help for alums? Some schools here in the states will help even graduated students with their resumes and interview skills and such.

Otherwise, check linkedin. they have a lot of good resources, and a lot of job listings/recruiters too.

And try https://www.workingnomads.com/jobs for remote work if that's your preference!

2 hours ago, Rhovaniel said:

 

I really, really hate that feature. In the past, I have had real issues with eating past the last 200 calories or so, because of that stupid red. But I also need the target to aim for so setting it super high won't work either 😕 

 

Okay but I've been using Lifesum and it doesn't have that feature at all. It doesn't change whether you hit the calorie target or not. MFP gives me Spicy Brain™ and I can't do that without issues but Lifesum (and fatsecret, but Lifesum is prettier tbh) are super easy for me to use without guilt of any kind in any direction! 

12 hours ago, SkyGirl said:

Hey frens! Super quick update before bedtime! I can still kinda fit my laptop on my lap but I can barely reach the keyboard around my enormous belly ... 🤣🤣🤣 The last few days have been pretty busy; this weekend we had a baby shower at church, then went and got our TDAP boosters and both felt like poop for 36 hours afterward ... today I told my department at work that I'm quitting at the end of the month, which was bittersweet, but everyone was very sweet and positive and encouraging ... today I was super uncomfortable and may have had my first real contractions, so once they subsided and I was feeling a little better, I used my tiny burst of energy to finish cleaning off the big bookshelf in our room that we have to dismantle to make room for a crib.    So it's been productive, tiring, and good. 

 

It's really sinking in this week that we're just one month away from meeting Little Bean, and I think the baby shower this weekend was the first time I've felt really and wholly excited about that.    I hate how easy it is to get stuck in the fear part and miss out on the excitement part. But it was very exciting to show people his ultrasound pictures and talk about who he looks like, what I think his temperament will be, what I'm most excited about as he grows up, etc. And it was nice to spend time with other mothers who have been here and beyond, and share my fears and hopes and have them warmly validated.  ❤️  One of the moms there has a little boy with the same name as Bean, and seeing her face light up when I shared his name and discussing how we each chose that name was so sweet. I'm obviously still terrified, but it's amazing to be lifted above the scary what-if's and reminded of the happy just-wait-until's.  ❤️ 

 

This week I'm trying to make small progress daily on the cleaning and packing tasks, figure out what else we need to buy (Eamon is trying to do things in a logical order, while I would love to panic and do All The Things All At Once), and hopefully get a car seat bought by the end of the week. We've been taking short walks and staying connected with church family, but I'm also reminding myself to ask Eamon if there's anything babymoon-ish that he'd like to do in the next couple of weeks.  ❤️  It will be a really long time before it's just the two of us around here again, and I want to soak up these last few days as much as I can.

 

Time to try to treat these horrific allergies and head for bed!    Love you guys and will try to check in again later this week!

the personality growth is so great.  

I'm so proud of you and excited for you guys!! If you need ANYTHING whatsoever please don't hesitate to reach out

slowly pulling myself out of the garbage hole of brain vague, though I'll probably be paying for it for the next week or more unfortunately. I hate when I get the brain vague, I end up behind