It’s time for a respawn! I used to be fairly active in these boards and challenges, but it’s been at least two years since I’ve done one. I don’t really remember why I stopped, but I’m going to assume either I had too many goals at once and burned out, or I finished a couple challenges and then couldn’t figure out where to go next. Both of those sound like me. Also, and this is a theme that will come up a lot in my thread, I’ve struggled with depression off and on for years, since I was a teenager (I’m 29 now) which makes pretty much everything really hard (for the record, I’m in a pretty good place right now but I feel like a depressive episode is just around the corner). I’m finally starting therapy (first actual appointment other than my intake evaluation will be in about three weeks) and I’m hoping to learn some coping skills. The possible diagnosis the doctor who did my intake put in the notes she gave me was Major Depressive Disorder - Episodic, which is always what I’ve felt is the case, and I’m just glad to hear a professional feels the same way.
Wow, my post got dark right off the bat. On to more positive things, aka goals! I love running. I specifically love long distance running, it’s my favorite form of exercise, but it’s also not terribly convenient, and it’s pretty easy to come up with excuses not to do it. There is way too much traffic in my neighborhood, it wouldn’t be all that safe and I’d spend half my run just waiting at intersections until I can go, lol. There’s a park near me that I like to run in but it closes at sundown so at this time of year I don’t have time to go after work, and it opens too late for me to go in the mornings. And I (finally!) left my retail job and started an office job this past spring, but that means I’ve gone from being on my feet for eight hours a day to sitting at a desk for eight hours a day. It’s surprising how much sitting all day can really drain your energy! But I also know I’m just making up excuses. I have weekends to go running, and in fact I work a schedule where I get every other Friday off, so I actually have a three-day weekend every other week. And doing body weight exercises at home during the week will still benefit my running, plus I’ve been taking the stairs at work and I work on the sixth floor so that’s quite a workout right there! I ran a marathon back in 2013 and I’d really like to do another one. So that’s my fitness-based main quest right now: run a marathon. Probably the LA Marathon because I live in Los Angeles, so... duh.
Oh, did I mention in live in LA? What a great segue into my personal goal. I moved out here because I write and I want to be a screenwriter. I’ve been out here for about three and a half years and have taken exactly zero steps to pursue that goal. See above re: Major Depressive Disorder. Plus, I’m just not a very disciplined person and need specific deadlines and consequences to get myself to actually do anything, but when you’re just writing on your own you don’t really have those. I do have a short screenplay I finished the first draft of a little while ago that I feel pretty good about and would like to enter into a competition coming up in May. That gives me plenty of time to edit it into something great. I hope. I’m also working on a full-length script that I think has strong potential. I just have to actually write it. That’s the key.
So, to stop blathering on and get to the point, here are my goals for this quest:
Cook one new fruit/vegetable/healthy ingredient each week. I didn’t really talk about this above, but I’ve only recently developed a love of cooking and I want to expand my skills and improve my diet.
Work out at least three times per week. On weekdays, do a bodyweight workout at home, on weekends go for a run. This will also help with another side quest I’m not actually including this time around, keeping my apartment clean. I live in a small studio, so to work out at home I have to keep things tidy so I have the space to do so!
Set aside (at least) 30 minutes to write and 30 minutes to edit every day. 30 minutes is not a long time, but it’s short enough that on days where I’m not really feeling inspired I’ll be able to slog through it, and long enough that on days when I am feeling it I’ll be able to get into a groove and go even longer. And for the editing, I like my job but I have a lot of downtime. Like, a LOT of downtime (I’m at work right now, don’t tell my boss!). There’s no reason I can’t bring in a couple pages of a draft and subtly work on them while I’m here. In fact, it’ll probably help me to look busy, lol.
So, that’s it. Cook more, exercise more, write more. And I promise not all my posts will be this long! Also I typed this on my phone so blame any mistakes on autocorrect.