Jasratt

Thank you! Its just tiring having it in the back of your mind all the time. Best wishes to you too!

Hi Everyone! I've been on and off the fitness train, I consider myself a beginner because I still don't know what i'm doing, or if what i'm doing is right. Being a girl who weighed under 110 pounds growing up, living in a house with no set breakfast/lunch/dinner time, not knowing the difference between whats healthy and whats not, and not having a active family/lifestyle... I started gaining and not knowing why or how to lose it. In December 2012 I weighed the most I've ever weighed, and to make it worse, at family gatherings they noticed and picked on me about it (which never feels good, and no one should ever have to be picked on because of how much they gained.) That's when I decided to start working out, starting weight was 155 Pounds at 19 years old. The lifestyle change I made was going for a 30 minute run everyday, and eating healthier smaller portions. In 3 months March 2013, I managed to lose a total of 10 pounds, and gave up because? I don't know, I just gave up. I started going on a health kick again in September 2013, this time I did strength training+cardio and tried doing the macro diet, everything was going good until I started losing motivation, telling myself id do it tomorrow, almost anything to get me to not work out. As of Today, I weight 136 pounds at 20 years old. I lost a total of 19 pounds. My main quest is to work on my lifestyle and to lose 10 pounds (so weigh 126) and then start strength training: I want to try doing this differently, before I use to jump into it (lets look up a fitness you tube video and hopefully I stick to it) but never had a goal or developed habits so I just gave up and didn't feel bad because I didn't have goals or habits (understand?). GOAL 1 The Gym: I hate the gym, I don't know if its me or the gym (its probably me) but I just don't feel comfortable there. But I will try going and try finding something I love and hopefully that will motivate me to keep on going. GOAL 2 Sleeping, Eating, Balance: Sleeping: I need to set a habit of having a bed time, and getting out of the habit of over sleeping which makes you over tired which makes you have to energy to work out and makes you lazy .. well that's my theory. Eating: Controlling that salty, yummy, goodness. I don't usually crave junk, and I don't usually buy it either, but when I crave it I binge and I really need to work on controlling that. Instead of going on a crazy junk food haul, I'm going to try to prep good raw snacks, and replacing my dessert with a greek yogurt with banana kinda deal. Also looking up recipes that can over power that need for crunchy and salty foods, like eating seaweed or those snap peas snacks from Costco. Balance: I need to find the balance between my priorities. Between family, school, social life, cooking and preparing food... stuff like that, i've been stuck deciding whats important for me and what can wait. GOAL 3 Exercise atleast 4x a week: I need to find that motivation that will get me to exercise, even if its taking my dog out for an extra 5 minute walk a day, making slow progress is better than no progress. My life side quest is to be happy, and not give up on myself. I want to do well in school, and finish with a 90% or higher average, which i'm on the verge of. I just wanna focus on being happy, being healthy, and not feeling sorry for being selfish for trying to make my life.