KBLynx

So totes random but I think tis ok to post this here? I have been MIA for some time because i quit crossfit and felt like a failure. I hung my head in shame and failed my second round of challenges and goals. BUT I know that I am not a failure, and am embarking on some homestyle bodyweight training Thanks and have a great week !

I look forward to reading your continuing research! I've been at a box for 3 months now and my eyes are opening to some good and some bad about what I see.

Smoking is certainly an appetite suppressant. I smoked E-Cigs and even did at work, it was like a pacifier and always in my mouth so now I'm shoving food in there instead of nicotine. Driving, working, hell even on the can...e-cig. I know I"m gaining muscle but there is no way I gained that much, that quickly. Hopefully most of this is extra water weight. That or I have a tapeworm.

I will look into it~! I know there are places around the Seattle area that do that I just don't want to pay a small fortune for it. I'm glad to hear that someone else had the same thing happen!! I've always been active, and slender, but I've never lifted heavy weights until this year. I guess the change has been a little shocking for me, but when I lift heavy and see all those fun muscles it makes me feel a little better. I just haven't been this heavy since I was 6 months pregnant so that's all my lizard brain keeps screaming at me.

Week 6: Day 1 Power snatches *shudders* it was hard but I suppose the less I like an exercise the more I need to do it! Also did 85 x 55lb lunges and the WOD of course. I can't do toe to bar yet so I did an sort of half attempt at them! I hope to make it again today but I am just so exhausted.

methinks you are too hard on yourself. PS what constitutes a super failure?

I'm sure you wouldn't be the first one! I'll send ya 50c I hope restoration is easier than you've read!

I got my BMR from an online calculator on http://www.bmi-calculator.net/bmr-calculator/ You have a BMR of 1476.35 it tells me I fear that the sleep is a big one for me too. I used to get 8-9 hours a night but with a 10-11hr workday with commute, a child and her activities and things like cleaning the toilet once a month it's so hard to find time to even sit down. Most days I literally don't even have time to watch TV or do anything other than the bare necessities. Working out cuts into my sleep time but sometimes I need to so I don't go crazy. I need that time to get sweaty and work hard! I do need to work on my stress load but exercise is about all that helps that right now.

Thanks for the input. I have heard the same thing about women and muscle growth, it's slow. I have been tracking my calories *most* days via MyFitnessPal and I while some days I do go over a bit it's not been anything extreme (maybe 100-200 calories?). Maybe my BMR is way off at 1450....and I'm estimating crossfit cal burns at around 350 for 60-90 minutes. Do you think that quitting the smokes messed with my metabolism? I used to be able to eat almost anything and not gain, not true at all now. I have certainly gained muscle. It's getting more and more visable but I still have a layer of fat sitting on top of everything that makes me look bloaty.

So I've googled this. I've seen lots of "don't worry! that's normal!" type answers but I am legit concerned. I've gained over 17lbs since starting crossfit (I'm a lady). I've always been average to slender build, 5'7" usually 125-135lbs and always been pretty active but cardio active. Fast forward 4 months and I'm up to 152lbs. I'm eating mostly clean but have had an increased appetite.I average between 1,400-2,000 calories a day of mostly protein, veggies and fruit.I do have a sourdough bread problem that I indulge in sometimes and drink 2 glasses of wine most evenings with dinner (this is not a change). I also quit smoking around the same time I started crossfit and I was a very long term nicotine junkie so I know this can be part of the problems too. I do crossfit 3 times a week, go on short walks but work a desk jockey job. The workouts are very intense and I'm so exhausted from them that I'm not sure I can add more right now. I average 6-7 hours of sleep a night ,I have a very very busy schedule between work and parenting so it's not possible to get more right now. I'm trying not to sound like a whiner but my weight has always been a huge obsessive OCD type issue for me and I feel so out of control right now. I am aware of the ladies don't get "big" from lifting heavy but I'm wondering if I"m the exception. I've got lots more muscle definition and I'm getting line backer shoulders. I love feeling strong, love it, but I hate the way my clothes don't fit anymore or how bulky I'm getting. 2 Questions: 1. Is crossfit and lifting maybe just not for my body type? Is this even a thing? 2. If I continue down this road what should I do? Cut calories more? Work out more? Workout less? Any constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated. Thank you! Oh and this because it made me laugh

How goes your week thus far Tialoredron?

Week 5: Day 2 Great = HARD crossfit day. Back squats and lots of deadlifts/pushups & box jumps in the WOD. However it was not a very good day for introverted me. They made us pair up because there were too many people in the class. Another woman was paired with me by the instructor.. She didn't look very happy about it and gave me a fake smile. It just sucks when you feel like that slow kid in dodge ball that got picked last. Another newish girl was also told to go over to the men's side and go-it alone because another girl who is a veteran there flat out refused to partner with her. Basically if you are new=shunning during partner time. yea! I get that feeling in my stomach like when i was in high school all over again when they shout "partner up!". Whatever I can deal with it. Life isn't perfect. But I have to admit that it hurts my feelings a bit. One of the ladies wanted to take a picture of "the women of crossfit" and wanted everyone in it but me and the shunned girl. Ouch. They posted pictures of everyone on the website excluding the two of us. Just high school...ugh. I deal with it by ignoring it and pretending like I don't give a shit. Deep down thats not true at all.

Week 4: Wrap up...well I didn't get anymore workouts in. I drove to see my parents in Eastern WA. and we did do some walking/swimming/playing in the yard but mostly I was lazy. I wasn't able to log in there because A) They have dial up and I'm not allowed to use my dad's computers (yes I'm a grown up and not a fellon so I think he's just hiding his PRon). Week 5: Day 1 Crossfit yesterday! I hit my first RX ever, I was able to do 55lb snatches and 75lb Power Cleans. It was hard going back after so many days though. I'm going to try to hit it again tomorrow. Hope everyone else is having a wonderful summer

This weekend was so full I'm still recovering from it! Week 4: Day 1 & 2 Crossfit! Cleans, Overhead presses and deadlifts amongst running, wall balls and junkyard dogs. Today is going to be a rest day. I might go look at a house if the realitor decides to call me back :/ otherwise i have family obligations. I would prefer to lay on the couch alone but there is little hope of that ! I've been super hungry today. I made Chana masala (Indian chickpea dish) which is healty and delicious. The problem was how much I ate. I need to watch my portions right now, I've just been starving after my workout days.

Anything is better than nothing and just moving sometimes is the best thing you can do. Keep up the momentum!

I agree whole heartedly. The inner critic needs to STFU and not be fed by the mumblings of the outer critics. Comparison is the thief of joy. Cheers man, my gains make me proud and happy, no one gets to take that away from me without my consent! And consent I will not give. Week 3 Days 3&4: Rest I *wanted to work out last night, but my body and mind were telling me that I just needed an addional rest day. I'm not getting all of the sleep I need (just how my schedule is) so I'm going to try to catch up on that this weekend. The last two nights were spent at the performing arts center for my daughter's dance rehersals. We have showcases on Saturday and sunday but then it's time for a break! I adore watching all of the performances though, I'm very much looking forward to it.

Moderate or low amounts of money, put towards your health, is money well spent in my my book. Don't feel guilty if you are still using the resources at the gym. However if you feel like you need to go to justify the expense, but are doing most of your workouts outside of the gym...you may want to consider quitting. For me having the memebership and feeling the pressure to go is a good thing-it keeps me accountable and it's harder to sit on the couch. Listen to your wise inner voice.

Sweet work on the PR! how are your shoulders and arms feeling?

I've always been a t-shirt and jeans kind of girl, but recently due to increased muscle mass my jeans are TIGHT in the bum and thighs and the T-Shirts are stretched to uncomfortable proportions across my shoulders and back. My favorite T's are sitting in an empty wasteland. Thanks goodness it's summer, not sure what I will do in the winter but sleevless shirts (dress shirts for work) and tanks fit me the best right now. I've also found that dresses and skirts are much more comfortable. No squeezing required. I went to the mall in hopes that just going up a size in jeans would do the trick but no luck. They all fit in a rediculous manner. I have a few pairs of jeggings that still fit but man o man the bedonk! Be careful what you wish for.

Tialoredron thank you for reminding my why I'm doing this. If the world feel to peices I would be the only one to carry one of them to safety. The lightest one. Not based on descrimination just purely physical progress The rest can fall behind as zombie speed bumps. Introversion is a funny beast when it comes to critisism isn't it? Despite considering myself very strong willed and capable-and patting myself on the back-it can be hard to hear that others don't share my feelings. It's also harder to stick up for myself-and that can lead to feelings of anger at myself for not being more expressive. That's just not me though. I don't want to always have to fight for approval that I don't even care that much about in the first place.

I'm going to be that random person that shows up at the party around 1am, when everyone is either drunk or sleeping on the lawn. O Hi! Your goals are wonderfully specific. I like how detailed your plans are. I have anxiety just reading them but I shall be around to keep you accountable. Or watch you be meticiously accountable on your own. Good job!

Mini Rant: TMI but it's shark week so this is probably why I'm so irritated. I was just having lunch with all of my coworkers for a birthday (all women today). One coworker that I'm close to was asking me about my Crossfit progress so I told her. Then it started...my boss said her husband told her she couldn't lift anything over 3lbs because he didn't want her to look manly. Then another said that women that lift look gross. Than a third chirpped in that people who lift have flat chests and look like men. Then they started comparing notes about the 3-5lb weights they use for making tonned arms. I was so embarassed. I hate to say it but I didn't even stand up for myself because I was feeling so cranky and put down. They were all knocking my body when they are (most of them) really overweight. It was just so catty and I didn't know what to say. *end rant* I feel like crying. I feel so GOOD being fit and working so hard. It's hard having everyone call you manly I've never really had boobs to begin with and my shoulders are naturally VERY square and solid.

Week 3 day 1&2: Crossfit Deadlifts are up to #105! that's a record for me, we had to do 20-15-10-5 with 1-2-3-4 laps of bear crawls in-between and then 10-20-30-40 pushups after the bear crawls. I almost died. Almost. I had to drive to the grocery store after and my arms were litteraly shaking and twitching. I had one hard lemonade with dinner last night. I've been way better about the evening drinks which I think derail my progress. It's not worth working this hard to ruin it with le wine.