Hírilorn

It's been hectic. Some days I'm making it and some days I'm really not. On the not days, it's still very on my mind, so I know it's a thing. I change it when I can catch it and do something about it. Some days the priority is lacking behind the other immediate priorities and I'm just not making it to the microwave. (Seriously, I may buy a small microwave just for my tea water ... ) I'm not making my specific work outs, but I've been working my butt off so I take the compromise. At the end of the day my muscles still hurt and I still call it more strength making by doing. (fences... tearing down, redrawing, resetting, so much work for such a simple thing) As of today I'm back on my diet plan as well, which should help with 3/5ths of that list by default. So here's to that, and progress.

Yesterday was a beautiful fuck up for my goals. I ate pizza (which bombed my calories and ketosis for the next two days), didn't drink my tea, had two sodas (albeit diet sodas, because it kills me to drink calories when I can eat them), didn't get my floor mopped, and I missed my workout. In that process: I was out at 4:30am collecting an errant equine, got some work stuff done, cleaned up some house, fixed a pasture fence and took my kid to scouts for almost two hours (because it ran late). So... ... Nope!

I might be in, depending, but I'm too burned out to be able to throw ideas at the moment

It's been a very long walk to get to this side of the forest, but I can see the sunlight and feel like I can stretch my branches again. There have been so many new things that have happened that I'm in a different place (in all sorts of ways) than I was this time last year. But with that, I'm more motivated, and more determined to get things to be where I am comfortable and happy. Slow steps, baby steps, roots grow slowly. Starting Simple - Summer Solstice Goals Health Goals: > = 2 Cups of Tea / Day < = 1 Soda / Day10 XP (Preferably 0) > = 3 Workouts / Week (bodyweight workouts and cardio) Life Goals: Cooking at least one full meal a day for at least 5 of 7 days a week (I eat like crap if I don't) Stick to the house schedule (Things are not managed if I don't) It's a slow start, but it's a better start, and I need to stop changing so much stuff at once.

I don't have my list. I'm all kinds of behind. I'm not in a great space. But I'm here. That may be as much as I manage today, but it's a start. o.0 0.o >.<

Updated all the things to battle log this time! Got my life goal hit and my stay off the scale for May thing done. Which I now know that I can't deal with a total loss of validation of my efforts, since that's my main focus right now but I'm definitely good dialing it back from what it was before. I didn't do my bodyweight workouts specifically because of life and a busted shoulder, but I've been putting the focus elsewhere for that instead where I feel it is more needed right now being fluid motion and lengthening and have been able to do those for more collective time than I would have the full workouts anyway since it's less prep time which I really haven't had. The minimum 3 qts of water a day is now a non-issue and just a thing that I do which is great progress. I've had TWO small diet sodas all month and otherwise just drink coffee or water (sometimes with Mio or electrolyte tabs once a day if that). I know we still have a couple days left overall but I feel like I've got a damn good roll on the things I wanted to do this month. Also thanks to the mini challenge I finally feel back on track with my language learning and It's ingrained in my head that I need to do more cooking. I slack it off on my teenager a lot, but that boy needs to learn to cook before he moves out and has to live on ramen and boxed wine for the next 4 years (I am doing him and his future life partners a service in advance *nod*)

Finally got through May! I was really bummed that I thought I'd stalled in my weight loss for the last couple of weeks. I've decided that while that is a major part of my goal that a week or every other week is ideal for the scale thing. Just not more than once a week. I can handle that now. I didn't stall my weight loss so it was a nice surprise when I did get to the end of that and get to do a weigh in. My effort in keeping on it made me feel better about getting through it and made a nice birthday present for myself. Water intake is a win and is no longer a challenge to do. I'm back on track with my foreign language and feel like I'm making mental strides in that again. My life challenge in the current goal is to get my portfolio done which I did! It's designed anyway, which I will consider a win, since there is more I need to do before it can go into development which is entirely dependent on available "free" time to work on that which work didn't afford me this month. It also waylaid any efforts of getting in quite as much workout time as I wanted to do, but while I haven't been doing full workouts, I have at least been doing *something* in the effort as often as possible. I still feel awesomely motivated and fine tuned some of my goal ideas in terms of weight loss vs strength training. Since I'm focused on dieting at the moment, my main focus will be working on lengthening and stretching and fluid movement and once I'm at the point where I'm working on less cutting and more toning then I'll get back into the strength training. I'm still not doing cardio In terms of life organizing: I got THIS AWESOME CUSTOM PLANNER thing for myself with all the things I've been needing in it. Including places to put my training stuff.

So far so good! I'm trying to make progress on all of them even if it's minimal but success being the goal is working out well. I'm using Duolingo for basics right now, I also watch a couple of French speaking TV shows on Netflix which I love. (The Returned & Spiral) You get a good view of the formal vs informal speech patterns between the two as well. I had ordered a LOT of books, including some advanced grammar books and reading novels from a second hand book store (and ones for my kids too) and I listen to youtube videos that are French spoken. I grew up on Spanglish, so it's been really interesting being aware of my secondary default language in my thoughts fighting for dominance. lol lol and this is why I'm happy NOT taking a formal course I love Eddie Izzards skit on it. "Le singe est sur la branche... ciao" I do agree that I love the way it sounds and feels. We moved further up north and closer to Canada (French radio stations!) and was so happy to have a good excuse to really get to learn it. I really like it more than Spanish and I think that's because it's something that I'm choosing to learn rather than a product of where I grew up.

You really keep up on the posting! I'll have to work on this as I now feel like a slacker We have 6 people in our house, a thing that works for us is 1) Mom gets a customized "all-the-stuff-I-need-in-a-personal-tracker" book. (Calendar with spaces for foods & workouts, notes, etc) and 2) at least 1 big whiteboard that gets setup for house systems (we have weird hours so we don't "schedule" per say but have a general order of things) that the kids can follow that has room for notes, activities coming up, or where they can put things we need to get or ran out of. I realize your kids aren't that big yet, but even my husband and I use digital versions to keep up with work related items.

I hate No Weigh May I'll see it through because I said I would, but it's very discouraging not being able to see if I'm making any progress since my primary goal is weight loss and my secondary is movement. I do think after this I will stick to once a week checks instead of twice a week like I had been when it's over. I've been keeping up with my water intake and tracking all the things so that's still good. The current Mini Challenge that I'm on has gotten me back on track in my alternate language learning which is good. I needed that kick in the pants to pick it back up again with everything going on so that's happy news for me.

I really like it! I think they did a great job with the scaling. Things that I thought weren't going to be hard really are by the time you've done the warm-up and get into doing sets. I'm using my beginner one as my flexibility point right now. I can DO them, but doing them with maximum form is my pressing point because I was catching the little movements that were more difficult that I thought they would be. Also, they have a FANTASTIC facebook group, a very supporting and encouraging lot. I have a smart-ass 18 year old who occasionally needs to be physically removed from my path because he's funny and knows he's solid as a boulder. I want to be able to keep up with my youngest two as they hit all of their running around and doing things milestones with activities. I used to be athletic and I miss it. I want to be able to go minimal-crap-camping and hiking and I'm learning to ride which takes a lot of out of you if you aren't in shape for it and it's a lot harder to bounce back from a fall or pulled muscle. Good luck and feel free to PM me!

Ça va bien! Je suis nouveau français. Ma grammaire est toujours mauvaise. vous? et

I've always had my superhero/royalty sub story - and it wobbled with my life's challenges and head space locations. For me, now, is that I've been pregnant or had a tiny child in arms for the last 18 years. I'm at the point in my life where I'm done having kids and they're old enough to be them which means I'm finally able to be me enough to be me. I'm still *insanely* busy, but I'm taking small steps and little victories to fit them in where I can to work on getting to where I want to be with myself physically, mentally and intellectually.

Last week was brutal for work - BUT I've decided to do a No Weigh May challenge to stay off the scale, I've stuck this onto a couple of other challenges that I'm in to keep that on track (because I really want to see if the numbers are moving). I think that the best way to go about it though is to give it a month, check my numbers, make adjustments, try again for another month to really get a good idea of if something is working or not. Because water weight hates women on scales. I joined up habitica to keep on my personal dailies and things I need to know that I'm getting done. I'm doing the mini challenge for the 4 wk challenge as well which is going to be a struggle with my schedule, but it's all things that need to happen.

I may as well jump in and say hi too. So, "Hello!" to my fellow assassins! I've been on the site for at least a couple years, but this is my first challenge since my "respawn all the way back at the beginning".