Razzy

I think I forgot to mention I did my workout Friday. it was a busy day, going out with the fiance, and all that fancy stuff. We got chinese food. T_T And then he broke my will by giving me a slice of sam's club pizza! THE HORROR! THE HORROR!

Pfffft, LOL I should start doing that, actually! But nah, how I do it is I just count them as I eat, then immediately write it down. I have an itty bitty log book I carry around and keep on me so I can record exactly what I eat. It's very useful. My fiance has recently started feeling distraught about his weight, so I bought him a similar little pocket book. Yesterday, he said with some surprise that he had eaten a LOT of candy while at work. Apparently, one of the ladies at the office sets out a big bowl of candy for everyone and whenever he walks by, he grabs a piece. He thought he only had 3 pieces, but it turns out he had 9! So those little books are very useful, I highly recommend them. I know, right? But if you put the two together.... Thus my addiction to Raspberry Chocolate yogurt! Best part: 7 grams of sugar. The same in the Triple Zero, which has no added sugar/sweeteners, so it's basically the sugar naturally present in milk. You're welcome.

Thursday Log: Breakfast: Last of the stuffed Zucchini light and fit yogurt coffee Lunch: orange Dinner: mild italian sausage corn on the cob LOTS of ucchini, yellow squash and pepper stirfry (all from the garden!) with onion (not from the garden, they aren't ready to harvest yet.) AFTER: (nearly always have an after, because that vegetable stirfry doesn't stick to your ribs) 1/2 small avocado 4 strawberries coffee

Yes! I do! Yaaaay! *happy bounces* Okay, before I forget, lemme post: Wednesday Log: Breakfast: 2 jumbo eggs light and fit yogurt 22 raspberries (what.... don't look at me like that!) coffee Lunch: small avocado 15 green grapes Dinner: Big salad! With spinach and home lettuce! NOMS! Salad includes: 1 dolmata 6 olives (cuz I had 2 salads) feta cheese Some unstuffed pepper soup and one Lettuce BOLT (it was a little bit of everything last night, due to uneven leftovers.) My zucchini have powdery mildew REAL bad. It sucks. Badly.

So, new workout today. It's pretty good, yet I don't think the explosive pushup are as difficult as the judo ones! Dissapoint, son. Dissapoint. I went and queried the local gym today. After a bit of calculating, it would be 610 dollars - full cost - for the first year of gym membership. Yeeeeah. Moving on then. I mean, seriously. Who the heck can afford that? That was with a half off discount!

I will share. I had peanut butter and my new workout isn't as hard as I wanted. My challenge is....shaky.

Tuesday Log: Breakfast: light and fit yogurt (because I'm addicted to the flavor) maybe half a cup of unstuffed pepper soup Lunch: some stuffed zuc Dinner: BLT's! (with onion, so techinically they are BOLTs) I used lettuce for bread so really, I had 4 strips of bacon and 4 mini BOLTs. 1.5 cups of unstuffed pepper soup Michelob's light cider small orange AFTER: 22 almonds too much peanut butter My challenge is....shaky. Always in the evening I can't seem to resist peanut butter. But no more! *pounds fist on table* Today will be a day of change! You did them throughout the day? *shudders* Ye gads, you masochist. I do wish for a magic pill. I really do. Well, consider me in line for assassinhood. (Hey, do I get a super neat hood if I become an assassin? Like in AC? What about a super spiffy sweatband?) ARG, stories like yours frustrate me sometimes xD. I'd love to just forget about the fat issue and move on to strength gains, I'm just poor and basically have no money to spare, not even for PVC pipe and cement mix. My family is really struggling financially. So I scrape by with what I can do in bodyweight and work for what I CAN (hopefully) get some progress on: weight. It's frustrating. And I certainly don't feel like I'm at a calorie deficit. But I also feel I've hit a brick wall in regards to strength gain. It's super frustrating, because I have no idea where to turn. *sigh*

No no noooooo, not at all. I wouldn't mind, since I technically signed up with the assassins right now so I'd be on the winning side. Not that there's actually gonna be a war or anything. I weirdly like those pushups too, but I can only do about 8 in an single go. Since I couldn't seem to do more than that, I figured I'd switch to Explosive pushups and see if I couldn't get more strength out of it. Not sure what else to do. Doing tons of those in a PVP makes me want to cry just thinking about it. By the last circuit, I'm verbally flogging myself on to finish the set! As to calories, um.... I think so? I'm not losing any weight, at least. (even though I want to get stronger, I know, I know, still I'm terribly self-conscious.) The only reason i can see is food being the cause. I don't know what else would be causing that. LEL, I suppose my workouts are not beginner friendly, but when you look at how far I have to go to doing flags and the like, I'm a laughing fit away from getting that done. Those are what I really want to do. That and effortless handstands, but I need to find a wall to balance on that doesn't meet a plushy carpet. But hey, if you say I'm in the clear for the Assassins, sign me up!

Future assassin here, and I got a quick answer to your question! What assassin would I want to be? *looks significantly at avatar* The one and only, most badass assassin in the galaxy, of course! Thane Krios! Why? There are several reasons I admire this dude. To whit: Super stealthy. I love being stealthy. (I always end up playing a stealthy rogue in D&D. Because I'm the best at it.) Super sniper. I love sniping. (Reach out and touch somebody. If more media feature snipers, half the plots wouldn't work. They are super broken.) Deeply intelligent and knows his philosophy (And hey, I only got a 3.98GPA, and I debate about Aristotle, we share a lot in common.) Master in hand-to-hand Always wins a staring contest Attack of choice: Neck Snap. Cold blooded, clean, methodical and thorough. (If you get this quote, I give you ALL the cookies.) Well spoken. He can make killing you seem pretty reasonable. Absolute control of himself The definition of "Be polite, be professional, but have a plan to kill everybody you meet." Can toss people about with the POWER OF HIS MINDI would love to be a total badass living weapon. Total control of my body is my dream come true. Don't speak unless you have something to say, be a representative of your nation (like the Assassins) and be nigh-uncatchable is pretty much everything I desire. And the ability to win all the staring contests is also great, but I'll have to practice on that the hard way. I tried to toss a guinea pig with my mind, but then it peed in my lap, so I won't be doing that anymore. Basically, it's all a really nifty pipe dream, but it's a goal to shoot for. Other than Thane, I'd have to choose HK-47, the assassin robot from Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic. Because body issues are for meatbags.

First thing's first! Workout yesterday was fairly good. It was harder but.... well, not as hard as I wanted it to be. I'll take another look at my books and see what I can come up with. Sigh, I just want to level up and it's proving far harder than I'd like. Monday Consumption Log: Breakfast: 2 jumbo eggs Lite and Fit yogurt lots'o strawberries coffee Lunch: banana Dinner: stuffed zuchinni salad (with homegrown lettuce) and 2 peperoncini, 2 olives and feta AFTER: Lite and Fit yogurt (had a craving and it really hit the spot, I think it was a protein hunger) 2 Lil Dutch Maid ginger snaps sandwhiching 1tsp of peanut butter My fiance was making a snack and he practically shoved it in my mouth. The handsome sneaker. Mixed nuts, about 1/2 cup. Agan, protein craving I think. So far I can see, I gotta cut down on calories. I think I'm consuming too much. :\ Joshing is allowed, along with some leg pulling, but a combination of sarcasm and condescending remarks are right out! You'll know the limit is being reached when I stop posting funny pictures. Break the rules and my attack ostrich will FIND YOU. Awww shucks, you smoother talker you! I've always wanted to be an assassin! My guild of choice, right there. I mean, check out my avatar, it's Thane for a reason. I think I shall join right now! I mean, heck, if a recruiter approached me, I gotta be doing something right! .... unless this is all a horrible, horrible lie to get more people to join your ranks for the eventual conquest of all the other guilds, in which case I feel heinously abused. But I'll get over it. I look good in black. Here's a picture of Judo Pushups: Then you reverse the motion back up and do it again. Basically, it's 2 pushups in 1 motion. Trust me, they suck, I recommend them. They're also called Dive Bombers or sometimes Hindu Pushups. I feel ya on the hard cider thing, but the Michelob's has only 10 carbs, 6 of which is the sugar found in apples. So it's a darn good deal to me! Nothing quite like a cold cider after a hot day in the garden. And it has that crisp apple taste. Yeah, the other ciders, even Strongbow, has a metric lolton of sugar in it. That's why when I saw the Michelob, I jumped on it! Not that expensive either, at Kroger it was something like 7.56

Yup. It was pretty good but not as hard as I wanted. Explosive pushup are good tho. Sigh. Anyway, my only dietary breach was some peanuts ... got a big protein craving... and 2 ginger snaps sandwiching some peanut butter. The fiance made it and practically put it in my mouth. The handsome stinker.

*dies from kitten and horsey cutness* SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SO DARN CUTE Little whit fluffballs! I WANT ONE! *ahem* Anyway.... I feel ya on the heavy work and fewer calories thing. I've been there. My basic rule "Eat if you're hungry, don't if you're not." Works out pretty well so far, so just keeping chanting that to yourself and it should help. THANK YOU, for the thread! xD

Also, just to keep my battle and challenge threads on even keel, here's my old workout: Workout: 15 jump squats (10lbs) x 38 Judo Pushups x 320 single leg straight-leg deadlifts (25lbs) x 3 10 per leg5 flat-foot pullups x 315 shove-offs (ledge is 32in high) x 315 Hip-Ups x 315 Reverse Crunch (5lbs) x 37 hanging leg raise x 3BIKE TIME: 15 MIN And here's my new: Workout: 15lb Jump Squats x 3Explosive OR Judo puhsups x3 30lb single straight leg deadlift x 36 Pullups10lb Single Arm Extension (Don't know an official name... my fiance show it to me. Basically, holding a weight in hand, pushing it away from your chest while rotating your hand, like throwing a proper punch. It SERIOUSLY hits the triceps. I couldn't even do it with a 15lb weight, so I'll start with 10's and move up.)10lb Reverse Crunch/Air PlungeT-StabilizationStraight-leg Hanging leg raise I'm not sure at all if it'll be enough, but I'm poor and can't afford equipment or gyms (at least, not the ones I've found so far.) If you guys got any ideas, give a shout.

Thanks, sugar! Glad to be here, I can't believe it took me so long to find this. o_0 Questions are very good, I like them. They make faith stronger. ....I had just written out this whole thing about questions and faith and decided it'd be best if I delete it. I'm new to the thread and I don't want to be shot right out the door. xD

Workout: 15lb Jump Squats x 3Explosive OR Judo puhsups x3 30lb single straight leg deadlift x 36 Pullups10lb Single Arm Extension (Don't know an official name... my fiance show it to me. Basically, holding a weight in hand, pushing it away from your chest while rotating your hand, like throwing a proper punch. It SERIOUSLY hits the triceps. I couldn't even do it with a 15lb weight, so I'll start with 10's and move up.)10lb Reverse Crunch/Air PlungeT-StabilizationStraight-leg Hanging leg raiseOkay, there you have it. I'll try this out today and see how well it kicks me ass. I'll keep ya posted!

Thank you! *hugs* *Raises a bottle to both of you* I love my battle sisters, yes I truly do. We will fight and we will win, nothing beats us, yes it's true! ....And I'll stop myself from any further spontaneous poetry right there. PFFFFT 'girl drink' only qualifies if it's pink. And even then, you'd see guys drinking it just for giggles. Try one, they are crisp and refreshing and don't make you feel all hazy and weighed down the way a beer does. (For me, at least.) These are Siberia? It figures I'd be drawn to that place of the forum that gets the least amount of attention. I shall make a challenge log. LMAO, love that gif! *saved* Here's my challenge thread! http://rebellion.nerdfitness.com/index.php?/topic/69618-razzy-fights-dietary-temptations/ Stick around for 10 minuts and I'll have a new workout to post too

Basically, as of 3 days ago, I'm focusing on eating purely as clean as can be. The exceptions: Coffee and the 8 squares of 72% cacao chocolate I have, the latter of which will be reserved for emergency situations and the former which is necessary to not murder-knife everyone in the morning. (Though halfway through I may try to resort back to tea.) I'm going pretty much Paleo, with the exceptions for dairy. So, I'll do this by posting my foodly struggles and posting consumption logs! Anything I SHOULDN'T eat will be underlined. Also expect food pics and recipes as I find them. I will probably be posting workout updates as well, in an attempt to keep my workout challenging with pretty much zero equipment. Here we go! Saturday's Log: Breakfast: 2 jumbo eggs Triple Zero yogurt 4 strawberries coffee (with milk and 3 tsp of creamer) Lunch: Banana Dinner: chicken teriyaki from an excellent Japanese resturant run by Koreans. Breathe in the irony. Chicken is set on a bed of shredded brassica. less than 1 cup of white rice miso soup 8 DELICOUS sushi noms. I could live off of sushi. And spinach pie. During D&D Small avocado 1 clementine 1 tsp of peanut butter Sunday's Log: Breakfast: 1/2 pink grapefruit (yeck! ick! ptoo!) coffee Lunch: small avocado (I eat them raw with a sprinkle of salt.) leftover chicken teri Dinner: Okay, so, I have a huge garden this year. Due to some events I'd rather not get into, I was unable to attend to it for about a week. In that time, my zucchini plants produced some genuine monster-sized squash. I whipped up a stuffing to put in 2 of them and baked them. About 2/5 of a giant stuffed zuc. I was hungry. Here's a picture! small corn on the cob Michelob's Ultra Lite Hard Cider (highly recommended) After: DQ lite pina colada smoothie -- tasty, but it IS 98% ice. Got this because family drama drove me out of the house for several hours. 20 almonds 4 brazil nuts a few stray peanuts Lemme tell ya, I love my veggies but they really don't stick with you. Now I understand the 6 meals a day thing. You get hungry again in a few hours! Okay, so you get the general idea. Stick around for daily updates and occasional nuttiness. This thread is subject to terminate without warning if heckling reaches discomfiting levels.

Why hallo thar. For my two cents of the day, I'll say this: Sometimes, faith is a struggle. You have to engage in it and keep it alive and sometimes, when you're elbows-deep in chores and drowning in to-do lists, it can be difficult. So sometimes I just sit down and take a moment to myself and look out the window. I look at the world and feel almost giddy -- it's an amazing world out there, beautiful and treacherous and sometimes both at once. It's incredible and makes me thankful every day.

Okay, 2 days into the challenge and I'm doing good! So long as I have avocado, I feel I can succeed. Did my workout today (won't bother listing it since you know it by now) and I did 1 hour biking yesterday. ....I got caught up in Fringe okay? I'm catching up on the seasons I missed because it conflicted with Supernatural. Don't judge! Anywhoozzle, Consumption Log: Breakfast: 2 jumbo eggs Light and Fit yogurt (chocolate raspberry is my addiction) coffee Lunch: 1 small avocado Dinner: Big salad with homegrown cherry tomatoes, apple, craisins and homegrown loose leaf lettuce 3 olives 1 dolmata (that's rice and nom nom goodness stuffed into a rolled up grape leaf) Bowl of unstuffed pepper soup... with, you guessed it, homegrown peppers. LOVE MY GARDEN!) And I just did my workout and now I'm trying real hard to not go for that hard cider in the fridge. I vants it. But tomorrow I go clay shooting with the 20 guage my sweety got my for christmas, so it'll be a good day to have it then. Oh! And on that note, I found an excellent hard cider that doesn't have any added sugar (only 6 grams). It's called Michelob's ultra light cider and it is most good. Not as much flavor as Strongbow, but it's light and crisp and refreshing and.... dammit. Now I want one.

A. Aye, you might be on ta somethin' thar. B. Maybe so, but thar be some I be willin to get rid of, arrrrr C. Avast! Hugs for ev'rybody! Arrrrrr! *takes of pirate hat* Vain as it may be, it's one way I measure my progress. Now, I know that fat depends upon FOOD. Which means I'm going to buckle down on food realllllly hard. RAZZY'S CHALLENGE: EAT CLEAN AND GOOD FOR THE WHOLE 6 WEEKS. (with dark chocolate an exception, but I only have 8 squares, so I must make it last.) It's 72% cacao, so it's legal! The hottest days of summer are upon us. It's time to wear halter tops and shorts and I'm gonna wear them without shame! ...Also, today I'm going over my workout with the fiance. He said he'd help me come up with something and since he is the solid rock of my life, he will keep me from getting too confused. I love him. ....Also, he WILL be exercising before our wedding! (Whenever that may be... sometime in June.) It isn't just a day for the bride, in my book. It's a day for us. And those dresses are heavy. If he wants to carry me anywhere he'll have to train for it. *evil laugh*

Ah! Well then, thank you milady! *sweeping bow* Now you've put me on the spot and I can't think of something hilarious to say. Um...Oh look a distraction! Gah! Stop following me!

Good point. The real question is, Can I afford antidepressants? I know how my family would react -- "GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER, STOP THIS NONSENSE." And you know, I guess they're right.I think I'd be less fat if I could just get rid of stress. I can actually feel that stress hormone flooding my system sometimes. Wherever it touches, and ache pops up. I can feel wave after wave flowing down my arms and chest sometimes. It's curious. And it makes me tired. I can't seem to progress in any direction of life. God, I hate Michigan. It's the worst state to live in, you know. Our insurance is highest in the nation and our house values are second to one state only -- California. Did you know you need -- NEED -- a degree to get hired? And then you get hired for a full time job and you're salary in a management position is a whopping 40k. Before taxes. Government takes about half, so you're looking at what? 23k of money you actually make? That's the working poor for you right there. It isn't just the burger flippers and the walmart greeters, it's the college graduates that get a degree and a student debt and get hired full time, high level position just to struggle to keep the lights on. What's the point of that degree? I mean really. Bragging rights? In desperation, I decided to look up the NF Academy again. It seems promising. It seems to have everything I need; resources, basic plans to build off of, even recipes (and you know I'm all about getting new and awesome recipes). So I went onto the chatroom and asked, hey.... is anyone here a member of the Academy and how helpful was it to you? I honestly don't know what I did to piss everyone off on the chat. I don't know why the hate my guts; they wouldn't piss on me if I were on fire. The answer I got was "Not helpful to me. It's good for someone that needs their hand held. That needs all the thinking done for them. What's that, Razzy? Oh you should start with the BBWW. It's a good place for beginners." The condescension and snideness of these remarks cannot be understated. I don't know what I did to piss them off. But I guess I'll be judged and punished for it anyway. So I guess that rules out the NF Academy. After all, it's just for beginners. If you really need to have your hand held the whole time, I suppose it's good for you, but for us serious exercisers, it's worthless. I don't know what to do. I keep plugging along and get absolute shit to show for it. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. And that's all I seem to be doing -- the wrong thing. Every attempt at exercise, every attempt at eating better, I just seem to be getting nowhere and I don't know why. It isn't fair. Why do so many people have such great benefits and great lives and great progress without a problem? What are they doing that I'm not?

Hmmm, good question. I think the last time I had blood work was over a year ago? It's $100 every time I go to the doctor, and that's just for regular prescription check ups. Living in America really does just cost too much for most to even afford. It's ridiculous. I mean, heh, my fiance has a 45,000 dollar student loan debt and he's still not finished with college yet. His dad was openly wondering why he even proposed to me because neither of us have a life in order. So..... Anyway, I dunno. I think I've just been having a bad month. Unless you're detecting a pattern I'm not? How long have I been down and dreary? If I have to go on anti-depressants, then I'm doubly screwed. Not even out of my 20's!