Arawyn

Ha! Don't worry. That won't happen. My breakfast was an orange and it was delicious! Crappy food makes me sick anyway. I will have no issues staying away for the next few days. I am thinking that I am tired of tacos and I might get my chicken salad salad for lunch. But that is healthy!

Um... -1 on the food. I ended up getting fat food with my brother and chomping away while watching anime... (25/126) yup...

Hey, I'm having a bit of a rough week too. We can get through this and get back at it. Great job on choosing healthier options by default. I have been trying to eat better for years and I still have a hard time saying no to the tempting bad foods. You got this!

I have learned that weight isn't everything when it comes to health, but since I don't count calories (mostly because it makes me totally obsessive and crazy) I could be eating healthy, while still overeating. So there is somewhat of a worry that I could gain fat instead of muscle or losing fat. But, yeah, I've gotten a lot better and not focusing on a specific weight and more just my overall health. I don't even have a weight that I am working towards. I know that less is better because I am over weight, but I've never been thin and healthy. I have been under weight and over weight. I have no idea what I should weigh. I know that what my BMI tell me is healthy isn't, so I don't really have a weight go. I just don't want to have rolls and jiggle...and one chin, one chin would be nice. Day 10: So I thought that work sucked yesterday, well I was wrong. Today was so craptastic that I don't even know where to begin. I am very down and stressed out. My stupid eye won't stop twitching and I just want to curl up into an antisocial ball and not interact with actual people for a week or so. The hermit life is sounding better and better, but unfortunately I have to go to work and do all that crap, so it's not an option. I am in a bit of a funk and hopefully I'll be able to get out of it by next week. I do have my AT hike coming up soon. A week and a half soon. I am ready for the break that I will be getting. It is going to be a week and a half without work and I'll get my hermit time for the 4 days that we are on the trail. So on to the day Workout: Phss...please. The fact that I wrote this today took great effort. I want to do nothing tonight. I am going to still on my ass and pin shit on pinterest, maybe read. Talking to people is too much of an exercise tonight. My goal is to just go tomorrow. I'll still get there. Plus I didn't have time to go if I wanted. I have to pick up my son by 5:30 and I didn't get out of work until 5 after 5, so by the time I got to the gym it would have been time to leave. There is always tomorrow. (6/42) Eat! I did well today. I don't think that I am going to eat anymore...there might be a small bowl of ice cream calling my name, but I don't feel like even cooking dinner, let alone eating it. I did well the rest of the day though. I had some awesome hot sauce, I need to find it. I have no idea what it is called because everything is in Spanish, but I will be looking for it. I am still going to give myself +3 because I included IF with part of my goal. No appetite, no eating. The ice cream may be for mental heath. (26/126) Random Goal: Yeah that can fuck off...I don't feel like working on anything tonight, put I need to buy more white chocolate for my molds. I'll get there. I still have a month and change. I am done a large chunk of stuff. I could probably get the rest finished in a week if I put my mind it. (6/8)

DO IT!!! Best luck on the color run. It looks like a lot of fun.

Great job!! Keep up the good work. It sounds like you are making good changes. Let me know how the cauliflower pizza crust is. I have made shepherd's pie and the buffalo wings out of them before and it was pretty good. The wings were great when I really wanted deep fried wings, but shouldn't because I also want to lose weight.

Thanks RougeWelkin! I feel like I am making good improvements. I am starting to look smaller in places and the workouts are getting a little bit easier The funniest part is that I look forward to cardio only days...I hate cardio, but the bike isn't too bad. Tomorrow weights and cardio AHHH!!! And thanks Teros! I was planning on reassessing soon to make sure that this is doable. The program that I am doing isn't too heavy, even if it is everyday. And I have missed days. It's hard to not strive for perfection, but I like the no twice system. I'll have to try that! ON TO THE DAY!!! Day 9: Great healthy day, but a horrible stress day...work was just crap today. I was so glad to get out of there and do cardio; it was unreal. I really hate my job sometimes. Workout! YEAH! I did my cardio, I had to cut it 5 minutes short because I got chatty with my friend and I couldn't be late leaving to go and pick up my kid. Tomorrow I have to get in there and move it. It's weights and cardio... +1 (6/42) FUD: I am going to turn into a taco. That is pretty much all I ate today, but a healthy taco, so it's all good. I rocked it again. I am thinking about getting a littler stricter on the diet. I might start to cut out the processed foods like cheese and I put some chocolate in my trail mix. Just little things. I feel motivated about it at the moment, so we'll see what happens. I am feeling better today and not as dizzy. Maybe I wasn't eating enough. I used to anorexic and I didn't eat anything. I was 90 pounds in high school...sometimes it is hard for me to eat enough food. I have no idea, but I feel better, so I am going to go with it! +3 (23/126) Randomness...I decided that I am going to post my goal as my update for the day. I feel like I need to state it somewhere. Today was drink more water. I didn't do as well as I could have because my work day was so crappy...blah, but I did do better than I have been and I've been sucking it down since I got home! +1 (6/7). Life Goal...Bridesmaid dress! So I tried on my dress because I got a little worried, my weight shot back up to what it was the day that I started...boo. I wanted to make sure that my dress still fit AND it is a little loose. I must be gaining muscle. I don't need to get it taken in, but it looks better on me because it isn't really clinging anywhere. I have a bit of a new short term life goal. My friend and I are going to have a girls day at the beach the first week of August. I need a swimsuit....I need to not beat myself up while getting a swimsuit. AND it doesn't help that the friend that I am going with was my size and is now super cute and skinny. I am so happy for her, but I feel even worse about my weight when I am with her. I know she doesn't care what I look like or weigh, but it kind of sucks. She busted her ass and I sat on mine...SO I need to get a swimsuit and be happy that there are some improvements going on and hopefully I'll look a little thinner and feel a little better about myself before we go. I have 2 months!

Thanks! Yes, I started at 175, so it is a 25 pound increase. Well, I can't wait until I am not so damn tired!! Hopefully by next week I'll get some of my energy back. I've had good day where I feel like I have the energy of a kid, and then other where I feel like I could sleep all day.

I've eaten primal or paleo for about a year on and off. I don't really get the carb flu anymore, so I'm confused to why I am feeling not so good. I am hoping that it's my body asking me why the hell I am actually working out...IDK. Any ideas?

*YAWN* I am so tired today. I feel like I could just sleep the rest of the day into tomorrow. *YAWN* Day 8! Workout! I went to the gym for leg day. I feel pretty good right now, but tomorrow we shall see. I am not really a fan of leg day, but I went and did my best. I am now at 200 for my leg press! IDK if that is good, but it makes me feel good. So there was a positive. Tomorrow is cardio only and strangely I am looking forward to it. +1 (5/42) EAT! I didn't stick to my primal today, but I was feeling really dizzy and nauseous, so I had some bread with breakfast. I haven't been feeling as well while eating this diet as I normally do. I asked on another forum and not eating enough protein seemed to sound correct and I upped it and started feeling better, until today. I didn't eat as much protein as I normally do, but I am not really sure that is what it is now. I am going to spend another week with the increased protein and see if I feel better or not. I won't be eating as strictly though because I am just not feeling it. Maybe I'm not eating enough. We'll see at the end of the week where my weight is and how I feel. I actually gained a few pounds last week, but I didn't take my measurements, so it could be muscle from lifting. Anyways, I am going to give myself 3 points because I did eat well. I hope to figure this out and to be feeling better soon. (20/126) Randomness: I will not be completing my random goal today. I wanted to tackle Mount Laundry but I am just so tired. I am going to read and take it easy tonight. I hope this fatigue goes away. (5/6) I don't know if its the working out or the change in diet (which really hasn't changed...) I am hoping that I'll feel better by this weekend or I'll just have to reduce the workout or change my diet. I am hoping that it is the diet. Blah...tired...

That sucks about the car. You have been doing great though. And you get a gold star for not stress eating or drinking!! I had the same thing happen with my last car and I finally had to say good bye! Now I have a little Mazda2 and it's awesome. IDK if you are going for new car or not, but if you are it's worth looking into. Best of luck

That is an awesome victory!!! Great job!

It was protein! I haven't really ever lifted weights before and I am guessing that I need a higher amount of protein to be able to do that. I increased the protein I was eating and last night I didn't and this morning I feel awful. Thanks everyone! I am still going to tweak it a bit and make sure everything else is good.

Thanks! Today was a great day and I hope to have more of them. I'll have to check out the tavern.

AND I am tired, so please ignore my horrible spelling and grammar....it's awful.

So while I was on vacation I took a little break from the internet too. I feel the need to do that sometimes and it is awesome! I have to play a little catch up now... Day 4 Gym/Workout: Nope I didn't have time. We had to drive to my dad's house after I got off of work, working out isn't going to look so great this weekend... Food: I can't remember what I ate for each meal, but I did well until we grabbed dinner so I get +2 (10/126) Extra Stuff: I actually really like this goal...it was to relax and just get to my dad's house and take the rest of the day slow +1 (2/2) Day 5: Workout! I walked...and was at the beach, it's a little bit of a stretch, but what the hell, for being on vacation it was more than a lot of people do +1 (3/42) Food: I ate better than I thought I would. A lot of that came from the accommodations of my dad and step mother. I was really thankful that they made some chicken salad a long with the burgers and hot dogs. They eat heathy too so it was good for them as well. We did drink...so I won't give myself full points, but I did better than I could have. It's vacation so what the hell +2 (12/126) Random Goal: There was a lot of things that I wanted to squeeze into our short weekend vacation and I did all of it!!! YEA! We had a lot of fun. +1 (3/3) Day 6: Workout: Nope! I drove for 4 hours and then had to go to my in-laws house and then to my mom's for dinner....blah. I was so tired by the time I got home, it just wasn't happening today. Always tomorrow!! Food: Again I ate well until got food on the drive home. Wendy's, it was nasty bad. I don't eat fast food much and now I am sure that I will eat it less. Still, I ate great the rest of the day, so +2 (14/126) Random Goal: I have a Stephen King book that I am borrowing from a friend and then another book called Pillars of the Earth from a different friend, I have had them way to long. I need to finish reading them. The goal at the moment is to get them done. I am finally sucked into the Talisman! It's great. Sad part... But it's great...until I get to a section that I am sure Peter Straub wrote...not a fan. ANYWAYS, I got a good dent in The Talisman. +1 (4/4) Day 7 TODAY (finally...) Today was a great day. I rocked everything today and I feel super awesome. I even talked to a muscle dude at the gym and asked a question and he was nice and helped me, YEA! Workout: I work out!! I did my bodybuilding workout today and I am still weak, but I am trying. Like I said I actually asked for help and the guy was so nice and then waved to me when I left. I am a loser....LOL, but it made me feel better. +1 (4/42) FUD! HELL YES! I ate like a boss today and I feel great! The best part was the fresh Alaska salmon, expensive as hell, but worth every penny. I'll even have some left over for lunch tomorrow. +3 (17/126) Random Goal: More than half way done my book. It's great. +1 (5/5) Sorry for the long post today. I was a little behind because of the vacation. Thanks for the positive posts! I know that every day is a lot but it isn't lifting every day and if I miss some days it isn't the end of the world; I am also including just taking a walk as working out. This is the first time that I have actually worked for long term results instead of something right away. If trying to go every day becomes too much I will revaluate and change what I am doing. So far I haven't gone every day. Thanks!

Day 3! Feeling pretty good today. Slow day at work, but very busy once I left. I hate sitting at work all day bored with not much to do, waiting until I can leave, so that I can get stuff done! We are leaving for my dad's house for the weekend, and lucky us, he lives by the beach!! So we'll get a nice father's day at the ocean without paying for a hotel room, oh and I'll see my dad too. LOL JK!! It should be good. I am a little worried about my eating, more so my drinking really. It is vacation, so I feel like I should join in and enjoy myself, I'll just take it a little slower this year I guess. We like to take him out drinking and we can walk to the two bars in town so it's great! Plus we eat a lot of food...oh well, I'll do my best to make healthy choices, that is the best that I can do. Also, since it is a vacation town I am going to look into a gym that I can go to on Saturday. We will also be going up there other times this summer, so it would be good to find somewhere to go, especially for when we are there longer. And on to points 1. Workout! YUP. Today was only cardio, so I used the stationary bike at the gym. Damn, was it hot in there!!! I didn't feel like I was going to be able to make it the whole time, but my friend was there and she got on the bike next to mine. It was a lot better once we started talking. I was trying to jam out to AFI, but it was just killing me. Luckily she came over and talked to me, it was great! +1 (2/42) Plus I cleaned...really power cleaned. I got half my house cleaned (plus most laundry) done in an hour and a half AMAZING!!!! Taking a little break now and then I'll finish and pack YEA! 2. FUD: I ate well again today. I had a little bit of bread at lunch, but there isn't anything to eat at my house until after work when I got paid...I didn't want to grab something so I ate half that bagel, and I feel fine. Breakfast: Carrots and hummus Lunch: Egg, Canadian Bacon, cheese slice and half a bagel. Dinner: Chicken salad with red onion, avocado, and blue cheese crumbles yum-o! Later snack...some fruit is calling my name and maybe I'll have a little ice cream. I know that I burned a ton of calories (8/126) 4. Such-n-such... So I have been thinking about this one a lot and getting up at 6 is a bust and it isn't going to happen. I was thinking about another behavior that I need to change and came to the realization that I am perfect! Ha! NO! I don't have any other behaviors that need to change at the moment because I feel that I am making large changes now. I did actually realize that there are little things that I want to do every day I just don't get to them. I am thinking that I could come up with a mini goal for the day and if I do it I'll get the point. It could be anything from cleaning the kitchen to painting my nails, or just relaxing. So, Today's Goal: Clean up the house before vacation and start packing! I'll keep track by how many goals I come up with so today would be 1 of 1. I'll have to change to skills that I get points added to though. I'll come up with that later. AND I get my point for today. I am not done yet, but I am itching to get off of here and finish!! I won't finish packing, but at least the house will be clean and I won't come home to a mess on Sunday. Hooray random goals!!!!

Yeah, getting 3,000 calories in is a lot. Make sure you aren't eating to much. Good luck!

Hello! Best of luck! I'll be cheering you on!

Sounds great! Good luck with finding a job. Are you looking for anything in particular? Also have you picked a work out and diet program? Best of luck!

Day 2! 1. Go to the gym/work out every day. +1 (1/42) I WENT, and it was good. I feel like I did awesome on the 30 minutes of cardio, but not so much on the weight lifting. I can't lift anything heavy. Doing what I can is better than not, and I will get better over time, but damn am I weak! It's funny because I am embarrassed when I sweat or struggle with lifting a weight. I don't get it. The whole point is to work up a sweat and push yourself out of your comfort zone. If I looked pretty doing it I wouldn't be getting my workout....so why can't I get over that?! I do feel good that I went and did my workout, even though I really didn't want to go. 2. Eat my primal diet. I did great all day until dinner... Breakfast: Homemade paleo trail mix Snack: Orange Lunch: Lunch meat and cheese slice Snack: almonds Dinner: BWW Buffalo chicken wrap and fries...with a beer! And I love every second of that beer! So, I get +2 for (5/126) 4. Get out of bed by 6:00 on workdays. So I've thought about this one and it's got to go. I only have to get up this early until the end of the week and then my son isn't going to need to get on the bus, so getting up at the time I have been will work out starting Monday. I haven't decided what I am going to replace it with yet. There is a chance that I might just dump it all together. We'll see. I'll think about it over the weekend. Life Goal: I started to look into some of the local flora and fauna in my area and there is a lot...big surprise, I know...I am thinking about which one I want to focus on and going from there. I think that I am leaning towards plants for the moment and going with the big flowers and trees. It should be easy to start with those. I would also like to learn mushrooms. Not that I am going to pick them but it would be cool to know what they are. Start with the big ones first because just butterflies were a little over whelming...Also, I think that I will get +5 Wisdom if I have learn an adequate amount of flora and fauna by the end of 6 weeks....I don't know what adequate is yet, I'm still getting there.

Great job cutting back on the soda!!