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Eyeing up Rising Heroes... I find it hard to keep motivated, and tk go to different places to keep checking in. And I do respond well to a game. Might be a good fit for me.

Hmmmmmmm *exaggerated beard stroke*

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Despite Christmas, the hurting back which is much better, and some horrible sleep, I'm still here! Out for walk after work tonight. And yes there was extra food and some chocolate but that was Christmas, so back to cutting the sugar out!

I can join a gym again soon too, though I'll be extra careful of my back - nothing too heavy till I build up the support muscles again. But it'll be nice to go do again

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Hoo boy, so I overdid things a bit.

After workout the other day I had the expected doms, including in my lower back.

But after a day of rest then a long walk with fiancee, which culminated in carrying some food shopping home, I've been in a lot of pain across my lower back.

So I need to step it back again. Drop the weights and do walking and kinect games and rebuild those muscles down there!

Better stuff tho, there was pizza the other night to celebrate fiancee finishing training at new job, but otherwise I have eaten well. No other junk food, avoiding sugary drinks, no chocolate or anything. Is good

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Phew. First proper workout - bodyweight and some weights - last night since well before the top surgery.

So first of all, ow.

And second of all, getting to do that with my new chest is amazing

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Nice walk yesterday, managed to avoid the rain and everything

Fiancee made mince pies, so I have eaten a couple but otherwise no sugar as planned.

Next exercise is tomorrow!

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Well, after a week of sleeping 4hrs a night then working 9hrs shifts, today mostly involved sleep. Insomnia is dumb [emoji14]

But never mind, weather was rubbish anyway so there couldn't have been park so I did house cleaning instead. Boring, but necessary!

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Congrats on the top surgery!

Thanks! I wrote some stuff about it, and being trans etc, if it might help anyone. Over at leehulme.com. It's interspersed with stories but hit any of the tags and you can get blogs and a few vlogs. And ask any qs, I will talk about all the awkward stuff that's hard if it helps anyone, heh.

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So it's been a loooooomg while since I was here, so hi again. I'm a non-binary transmasculine guy, just getting back to exercise after some downtime due to dysphoria and other issues

Top surgery has super boosted me and I'm recovered so starting again

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Hey Goals look good and structured, I'm in to support!

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Welcome back! Very happy for you regarding surgery and it helping with the dysphoria...as the partner of someone who struggles with that I can only imagine. Following for encouragement! 

Hey, thank you I have a supportive partner and I can tell you how amazingly helpful that is, yours is a lucky one to have you!

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Feeling better today after 10hrs sleep and no more exploding face headache. Shopping done, so nice walk, half of it carrying a backpack full of heavy stuff. Yay.

Have asked fiance to stop giving me sad puppy eyes when I turn down chocolate because...super unhelpful. She is currently making Christmas decorations, and telling me all the reasons why she loves Christmas. It's very adorable but the cat is going to attack...everything. Especially when we get the tree this weekend

Anyways, work again tomorrow and then Saturday if its not raining, going to explore local parks on the hunt for a) doggy walking place cos we plan to adopt soon and stuff with which to make a Christmas wreath

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I was pretty amazed at how much better it was, doesn't live up to all the hype but enough to be very useful for games, and for Skype.

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Oooookay, 5 hours sleep, a sinus headache, and a 9 and a half hour shift says...exercise will be done tomorrow! Which is fine by me, means I can toddle off to do the food shopping when I wake up.

But first task is to get to 8.30pm without my head exploding! Nrgh...

While I'm here let's do the before photos. This is me today.

Let's work on me getting rid of some of that belly pudge, eh?

Hi darkfoxx, coming over to say...well that, pretty much Can I pet the doggy? Pleeeease?

Hey darkfoxx! I tried the EA Sports Active one with the 360 and it couldn't track me worth a damn - fortunately the Xbox One Kinect is WAAAAAAAY better at tracking than the 360 one, and it doesn't need as much space either. Even tho it wants, like, studio lights before it stops whining about that, it still works pretty damn well. Wouldn't have bought it full price tho, it's extortionte, but second hnd at £30 and I'm happy. Have tried Sports Rivals which is fun, with others or the campaign, and Shape Up which is super, super cheesy (and therefore also fun).

First night: check.Got off work at 8.30, prepped food, then amused the fiance by testing out Shape Up on the kinect...and stopping when I was strugglng to go on. I'll be very happy when my asthma improves again cos I do get blown out super easily atm, and I needed my reliever like 3 times last night.

Next exercise is due tomorrow so goal for today is just no junky/sugary snack food.

Oh boy it's been...a while. Most of this year, in fact. I lost all my momentum and didn't get it back. Between moving house twice, travelling 3 days a weke to my partner then home for work,gender dysphoria connected to y chest keeping me away from the gym when it got rea bad before surgery, and a bunch of other stuff, I got lazy and unheathy again.

Now? Well I'm engaged and living with my fiance. I've had top surgery and am all recovered. And it's time to start this again! I've fought for the right to have my body the way I need it to be, and I'm not letting that go cos I let myself get lazy! I loved being fit, and I lost it cos I couoldn't cope wth eveerything plus dyshoria,but I have no excuses left. In fact I have the opposte - I fele rubbish and my back is giving me trouble just like it used to and I want to feel better and have the body I fought to get.

So it's back to no sugar, protein shakes and almonds instead of crispy snacks at work, and exercise 3 times a week. Light stuff to start with, just to get the habit back, then we'll go from there.

Deep breath and into this month's challenge I go! Anyone wann join me and share support, link me to you thread and I'll pop in whenever I get chance

Here's mine:

It's been a while...so I'm just gonna quietly edge my way back in here.

Since I was in last, I've gotten engaged, adopted a cat, moved house twice - second time to Liverpool with fiance, and had top surgery. Also gained weight, lost the progress I made, and started feeing pretty rubbish again. Getting through the top surgery has been epic, and removed th dysphoria which makes me hide but I've gotten into the habit of being lazy and eating too much crap again. I'm alo hving back problems from being at a desk all day, which is super unhelpful and caused by a combo of my weight and lack of strength in those muscles after I fell out of my good exercise habits.

Fiance, for all her wonderful is not interested in fitness, which is fine, it doesn't cause any conflict for either of us, but it helps my lazy side take over, and she finds it hard to push me to do this stuff though she is up for lighter exercise, mixing me protein shakes while I'm at work (which we both do from home), and making me a timetable and waving it in my face as required, hehe. Also, I'm finding it hard to get a balance foodwise. She's not a fan of a lot of the healthier stuff I like to cook, so short of feeding us both the same 3 meals over and over, I need to do some thinking about how to accommodate us both.

I've been through the fire over and over just to get here, and I want the body that I dreamed of for so long. It's gonna take work, and I don't have the funds to join a gym again at the moment, but before Christmas comes and I give up for another month, let's get SOMETHING started!

Gonna go simple, for this month, just want to get back into the habit of exercise again - getting myself moving has proven in the past to be the best way to get my mind in the right place.

So here goes!

Exercise

3 times a week,20-30 minutes of ANYTHING that constitutes light exercise. Walking, Kinect games, etc. Got a couple of new fitness games to try out (cos I love 'em) and a new area to properly explore so this should be easy but need to overcome the laaaaaazy.

Eating

Right now, going for cutting out the sugar (except the 2 I have in a cup o' coffee). Exceptions allowed for chocolate-based presents, and Christmas day/Boxing day only.

Picked up my bike today (yay).

Did a ride/walk thing to get home.

I haz a tired now.

True! Tiredess= fun was had.

Still feeling fairly rubbish though, having to take extra inhalers. Attempting to get more sleep before I get properly sick but having insomnia. I wont go back to gym till I'm not risking an asthma attack, but at least it's pretty here to go for a walk when it's occasionally not raining

Walks are currently the thing. Got a bad chest atm, waking up not breathing right, so not risking asthma attacks by pushing it. S'cool, walks are good Will see about gym on Thursday, but if not there shall be more walking!

The weekend was also good! Fun time, and total exhaustion when I got home - pretty much crashed and didn't move for the rest of the day, heh. Worth it

Workout today got slightly undercut by working late followed by the ever popular bus-that-doesn't-turn-up, gym was closed by the time I got there so I did a long walk instead. S'cool, I have Monday off so I'll go wreck myself then

I always go in optimistic, expecting good people, but prepared to shield myself i necessary aginst less good ones. I'm aware that a lot of the people I'll meet (for the first time or after not havin seen for some years) will be Christians, as I am myself, and therefore a little extra aware of the good/bad I mght encounter.

But it's cool. I'll put my standard safe limit on what I'm allowed to drink, and have me some fun!

My bike has sadly been delayed as it's on backorder - and as they're about to get hit with ll the Christmas orders, I have told them to prioritise the ones that need doing by then, if I don't get mine till the end of the month that's cool. But landlord has given me permission to see if I can get one of the rusty things in the backyard running to borrow for a bit so I'll have a go at that when I get chance. Either way, I'll have a bike soon enough

I am looking forward to my new shiny bike I tend to stumble onto adventures anyway, so I'm sure a bike will help with that

That is true about the bar, I should add that on. I'll check with someone there next time, but internet suggests about 20kg which gives me 25. That's much better

I eyed the pullup machine for a week or so, and did a bit of reading online, before giving it a go. I am determined that there will be pullups!

I switched off with someone doing dips the other day - which I may also have to have a go at. Looks like fun.

For my legs, I'm sticking with cross trainer and rowing machine for now. Give that both knees click when I go downstairs at the moment, I'm erring on the side of caution. But even so, they're still getting stronger. My first go on the cross trainer and my last one - huge difference!

I'm at the gym next probably Tuesday or Wednesday, depending how my week pans out, need to work my days off around a whole bunch of other stuff, some of which depends on other people for the planning.

Next weekend should be interesting though. A good friend - the one I stay with when I go to the Gender Clinic - is turning 60 and retiring, so he's having a bday bash. It's been a good number of years since I've seen some of the people whoa re going to also be there - and a bit of a roulette as to who knows I'm trans and whether they will quietly condemn me directly to the depths of hell for it.

But I'll be all done up in my sharp suit and my electric blue dress shirt (possibly with a red skinny tie...not decided yet), so I'll be feeling good, and looking...well not good, but reasonably presentable at least - so the assholes can all sod off.

In fact the assholes can stand there uncomfortably while I be unreasonably polite to them till they give up and go away. Hahaha