Ciara

I eat it for the protein. I need to buy milk tonight so I might go to the frozen fish section and see what's there. I like tilapia a lot believe it or not. And it's MUCH cheaper than salmon.

It's the start of day 3 and I'm off to class in a moment. Just wanted to pop on here to say thanks again everyone. It means a lot to know there are people out there that care about me even though I've never met you guys! It's a really, really nice feeling. Class and then home. Gonna get right back on the meal plan train today although I'm already tired of salmon after just 2 days. Might need to come up with an alternative soon. I really wasn't expecting that, salmon is sooo delicious.

It looks like a circuit board...are you an engineer? -gasp SO SMART AND SO STRONG YOU'RE FABULOUS

I like it. I also like Disney. Yes, this is good.

Woot way to run that mile!

Have fun but be safe driving!

Hmm....probably the ability to produce delicious cooked food just by imagining it. No more food prep!

Ok. Ok. So you are all the best. Thanks. Today was hard on my diet again. I was in the hospital all day with mom (she's fine! She'd coming home tomorrow. She just has ulcers in her stomach) and I got a salad at the hospital. Gross. But better than anything else I could have gotten. Then I got coffee because coffee. I ate chocolate in the morning too and hot chocolate. I skipped dinner because I'm not hungry now. It was just a weird food day. I didn't exercise because hospital. I'll do some high knees later tonight. I'll make them cardio style so I can still get my cardio in for the day. I'm aiming to do 40 at least but I'll probably do more since that's ALL I'll be able to do today. 40 is just the minimum... Journaling, not yet. Will do before bed. I ran out of medicine and I'm scared D: I hope it's ready by tomorrow... Talked to a friend about Will. He gave me tough love. I don't agree with everything he said but it was good to get a different opinion. OK I AM NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT WILL ANYMORE. No more self pity. I wallow too much. I gotta stop that nonsense.

Yeah. This is the second time we broke up in a year. It's emotionally tiring to be with him. I'll always love him, but he's also kinda manipulative and sneaky. I don't think he realizes it which is worse. I need someone who is stable and can support me when I'm not. Will just isn't that guy, at least not right now. He wants to be, I know he does, but I don't think he has the capacity to be there for me when I'm at my lowest point. He runs away from me when I get depressed or irritable instead of staying to let me lean on him. Our relationship has gotten toxic and I need to make him understand that. Thanks for strengthening my resolve everyone. It's hard when he's still trying to contact me every day. He's just immature still. He's only 19.

Thanks for the support guys. It's hard because my mom has had 2 strokes in the past year and a half and now she's in the hospital again....my dad is disabled and my mom is now joining him whether she accepts it or not. Aging is hard.....I'm still in college and my parents are falling apart. On top of that, Will is now saying he regrets our breakup and wants me to commit to him forever and marry him. WTF. He makes no sense at all.

Today is going badly as far as diet goes. I ate chocolate and hot chocolate. I also had hospital food for lunch. I think this week is a fail. Hopefully I can pull through with my other challenges and also not let the rest of the days fall into the abyss. When I go home to my apartment things will be back to normal and I'll be back on track.

I didn't do the mini challenge, I didn't see it till nearly midnight. But it looks like you did enough for both of us, ha! Nah, I'm joking I'll try to get it done today.

Embedding is annoying because it's not automatic. Took me forever to figure it out. [video ] link [/ video] but without the spaces

but but you have a wife and you're part of the cutlasses! LESBIAN PIRATE. you're even writing a story about pirates!

If I become a lesbian pirate I become like you and I wanna be like you because you are incredible.

Ok....day one is over. What a day, wow. I'll talk about my challenge first then complain about life. Exercise: Yes! I got it done after my 8am class because I had plans this afternoon and knew I wouldn't have time otherwise. Cardio, ugh. Someone please tell me how to make cardio interesting because it is soooo boring. Rowing isn't bad, but the elliptical is just awful. Diet: Here's what I ate today. The stuff highlighted in green is what I ate, and the red I didn't eat. The purple is all extra stuff that I shouldn't have eaten but I did. Wow, I did HORRIBLY today. I need to really step it up for the rest of the week. There's a reason why my diet slipped so bad, which I will get into later, but it still doesn't excuse it...dang. Journaling: I filled out my journal. I'm keeping it private for now. Maybe I will let you read it later but for now, it's kinda too personal. There's not much there to read anyway... Ok....time to complain about life. I was supposed to go out west to visit my friend's horse, but she started bleeding when she went to the bathroom and ended up in the ER. So that didn't happen. (She's fine but needs a colonoscopy. I have no doubt she will be okay.) Then I got a text from my mom that concerned me, so I called her after class and it turns out she's also in the hospital for internal stomach bleeding. She's incredibly anemic and is staying overnight. So, I got on the train and went to the hospital. I didn't see her because her friend was there with my mom's car and anyway that part isn't important. The important thing is, from 1-7 I didn't eat anything because emergencies happened. So, dinner time, I just ate utter crap because I was so hungry. I'm spending the night with my dad and my parents stock a lot of junk food- cookies, chips, crackers, chocolate, soda....it's really terrible. And I ate all of it. I didn't eat much of any one thing, i just kinda grazed. But I feel so gross now and mad at myself. I almost wish I'd gotten something at Whole Foods on the way home instead, but student budgets, agh. Sigh, so that was my day. I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow I will see my mom in the hospital and hopefully she'll be discharged, or at least we will get some definite answers. Also I broke up with Will. Or rather, he broke up with me. We wanted different things out of the relationship, but now he's trying to get me back. It's the second time we broke up and I honestly am over it. I love him, but the distance and all the problems we were having just took so much energy and I felt like I was getting nothing out of the relationship anymore. It's really sad, I wish it had worked out, but I need to take care of me. That means telling him that no, we can't get back together right now, maybe in a few years when you grow up a bit and we live in the same city and the timing is right. I just can't give him any more of me....now I just need to stick to that decision. I'm really tempted to fly back into his arms but that would be disrespectful to me. Guys, how do I relationships? I feel like the stress that was troubling me at the end of the last challenge is still with me. I'm exhausted...

I have a mini crush on Alistair and if he will be loyal to me forever then I totally choose him. I'll go with Zev the next time around...unless I play as a man. Then I might choose Morrigan just to see what it's like... O_O Or...I could play as a man and choose Zevran....omg I have so many games to play I need to calm down and focus on the darkspawn ahhhh

Of course I remember you! And I remember you work on a farm. I got into UMass Amherst so that's a thing Welcome to my humble challenge! Let's keep each other on track ^^

I'm late, I'm sorry. I'm so proud of you for finishing your 5k! You look amazing in your blue tights, where can I get me pair?

Yay! Pacha you're here! I followed you back hehe. I promise I won't poke you in the eye. I'm an assassin, true, but I haven't been hired to kill you. So you're safe!

Are you paleo? If so, these snacks probably won't work for you. If you aren't, watch this video. She even makes ice cream in the middle!

I'm glad you went with the burpees. They suck but they're sooooo good for you. Well done getting up this morning! When the bed monster strikes it's all anyone can do to roll out from under the covers...

Well it's only 1:15 in the afternoon here so I still have a while to go before I can say I'm done. But I've been doing great so far! Got my cardio in early before breakfast (but after a test which I ACED! Grades are up already, got a 90, whattaboss) and have been sticking solidly to my meal plan. Almost bought a caramel latte but remembered nope, it's day one, you know better, so I made unsweetened peppermint tea at home instead. Very success. I have a question. I'm going about 2 hours west tonight to visit my friend's horse (yes she has a horse and I am insanely jealous). I'm supposed to eat salmon and steamed veggies for dinner tonight...but I will be leaving right around dinner time and won't get back till late. Would it be rude to pack dinner with me and eat it on the train/in her car? Should I wait to eat till I get home? I'm conflicted...I don't want to make her car smell like salmon. But I also don't want to be hungry enough to give in to buying food on the way home if that ends up happening...aghh.

mmmmm Asian food.....avocados.....now I'm rethinking my soup and chicken idea although it's already kinda late on Sunday. dang it guys! haha

Soup and chicken are lifesavers when it comes to meal prep. I boil chicken thighs (cheaper and more delicious) and shred them, then plunk them in a huge batch of soup for the week. Dinner every night! I think the theme is, it's good to get used to the idea of eating the same or mostly the same thing every day. I tried alternating between days so I'd have a beans and rice and soup day and a chicken and salmon day but it got way too confusing and I kept forgetting what day it was and just eating whatever I felt like (of the food I'd prepared, of course!). I also never prepare my breakfast ahead of time because I like to eat oatmeal then. But there are some great recipes out there for things like low carb muffins and stuff like that. The most important thing is as Brekketechie said, take the time to think about what you want to eat, and plan it out. Brekketechie, will you share your quiche recipe? I love quiche!