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About shaar

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  • Birthday 09/09/1980


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  1. shaar

    TGP makes a daring escape!

    Phew, I was outside late on Saturday when it was -26 wind chill cleaning ice off my car, and I thought of you guys... I'm glad you made the safe decision!!! It was BRUTAL out!!
  2. shaar

    Urgan Shows Up, Does the Thing

    Oh heck yeah TOOT TOOT MOTHERTRUCKER (pun intended) How long is your commute again? Reading your travel bits is starting to resonate strongly with me......
  3. shaar

    Salinger's eighteenth challenge!

    I hope you curled up into a ball and cried, got it out of your system, and went to the gym like the resilient soul you are~ <3 And if not, that's ok too!!
  4. shaar

    Cheetah prepares to suck ditch water.

    It's SO COLD OUT lately. But it's also going to be 50 here tomorrow. ??? Heat wave???
  5. shaar

    Do You Even Work Here? Tanktimus' New Year Challenge

    Oh no yeah this is the best way to eat a good ol' potat, skin and all~ I'm glad you're hanging in there with everything going on. One day at a time, and we'll get back to solid footing. ESPECIALLY you!
  6. shaar

    The Silver Archer: Imperfect

    This is ok tho', this phase won't be here forever and you're so insightful and mindful already that you can have your moment, process it, and move on with self care, exactly like you are planning to!! It's always good to vent. <3 Get those feelings out of you and move on! Little by little, you WILL get there!!! :DDD
  7. shaar

    » shaar reawakens - a prologue

    Hi guys!! I am writing this update from my NEW JOB AAAA (although I'll probably just draft it on my laptop and post it later but w/e) (shaar afternote; yes posted from home~) IT IS. SO GOOD. Like I am seriously having a great time. I won't bore you with all the specifics and nitty gritty junk but here are some big pluses: - I get to wear jeans (!!!!!!!!) - I get an hour lunch so I'm going to try and find a gym locally I can go to a few times a week - All the coffee and tea I can drink~ - My computer has TWO MONITORS WOWIE WOW WOW - We get actual holidays, like I have President's Day off, what even is this luxury - My desk is by a window and I get actual sunlight bless~ - Everyone here is super cool and I'm having a lot of fun learning the new systems and meeting everyone aaaa, I've been tackling some really tough systems today and I'm catching onto them real quick and everyone is real impressed with my CRITICAL BRAINPOWER I'm also WOW VERY TIRED like when the Full Blood Super Dog Moon happened the other night I got like 2 hours of sleep, and my start date actually for pushed to Tuesday because the weather was so bitter cold and windy (-26 degrees !!!!!) and people were losing power and the roads were junk, and I'm waking up at 6am every morning so I'm just kinda wheeeeee for now BUT it'll all settle out and I'm v v v delighted with everything ok. Man, I really am very lucky. Very very lucky. But I've also worked very very hard, so. Phew. Okokok y'all I <3 you have a great rest of your week, gonna try to check in on everyone tonight!~
  8. shaar

    » shaar reawakens - a prologue

    I've always wanted to try it out but it makes so much sense now that I live in a kind of remote area... lots of makeup/everyday stuff I used to be able to find locally, I can't anymore! ADD ON ITEMS??!!? I HAD NO IDEA!!!! Aaaa I'M HYPE NOW THANK YOU for this highly valued tip!!!!! <3 Definitely wintering here today! WINTER WHAT THE HECK?? ALL HAIL \o/ I will say the only thing I hate is when I order 6 items and they come in 5 different boxes/shipments.... urrgghh. I'll sign this petition. Alexa makes me want to put on a tinfoil hat and bury my phone in a hole in the backyard NGL............... W E E K ? I'm not sure what week it is. 3? Last night was kind of tough, I slept like junk and kept waking up anxious and stressed. I had a small pity party around 5 am complete with a little crying and the ol' "why do i have to keep doing this shit i'm so tired i want a boring life" but I guess I managed to scream most of it into the void 'cause I was able to get a few more hours of sleep until.... I had to LEAP OUT OF BED and go move my car for the plows to come through AAAA Here are some snow photos!~ I was able to take a nice quiet walk and declutter my brain a bit... I also had another fun moment today - I redesigned one of my FFXIV alternate characters to look like SHAAR! (Me!) How do you think I did?? :3 The first outfit is how I often imagine story-Shaar. Also of GREAT IMPORT is the thing I made for lunch today that I neeeeeeed to tell you guys about RIGHT NOW - grilled cheese BUT, instead of the usual cheese, use shredded mexican-style cheese... get some salsa and sour cream for dipping and??? AMAZING???? Y'ALL IF YOU'VE NEVER DONE THIS WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???? It was a m a z i n g. Anyways it's still sleeting lightly here but I have a feeling I'll have my first day tomorrow. I know anticipation of the thing is always worse than the actual thing, but I'm definitely a little anxious today about.... everything. It'll all be fine, though. I'm sure of it. Just gotta get there first... I'll do my best to keep posting regularly but I'll probably be absent more than usual for a little while, so everyone be good and keep hanging in there and I love you all~ <3
  9. shaar

    » shaar reawakens - a prologue

    *zooms in* HI GUYS We're getting a foot and a half of snow starting in *checks non-existent watch* 2 hours!!! AAAA I'm kind of hype! Things that have happened since my last update (I think): - Did 56 loads of laundry and am totally set with work clothes - Discovered the beauty of Amazon Prime and free 2 day shipping - now that I have REAL MONEY I'm actually going to utilize it a little better.... thus far I have ordered - new socks - a bluetooth earpiece for my phone with the iffy microphone issue - face masks for my terribly dry skin - and here's the best one ok ready: Thursday morning, I'm sitting on the couch, ugh Finn needs kitty litter sometime soon and I have to drive to a store like 15 minutes away, I don't wanna stop on my way home from new job next week, so, AHA Look at this I find a similar brand on Amazon for double the amount for the same price AND I ORDER IT and it arrived today, bless, BLESS THIS MESS. I'm shook over here - My new HR manager called me Friday to ... are you ready...... discuss a contingency plan for my Monday start date in case it snows too much and the roads are treacherous and she'd rather have everyone be safe than try to make the trek in snow and ice. !!!! What is this, employer kindness?!!? I was so overwhelmed in the good way, wow, wowow. So I may start Tuesday, IDK, we'll see what happens with weather. Gosh. GOSH. Will come back tomorrow with snow photos~ :3
  10. shaar

    Rinna goes hungry...........

    DANG this sounds like an awesome D&D class or something...
  11. shaar

    The Silver Archer: Imperfect

    THIS IS SO GOOD. <3 You've SO got these upcoming transitions, you're in a great mindset and yes yes, one day at a time!! (I have to remind myself of this lots too) Glad you're moving towards a more stable schedule! ^^
  12. shaar

    » shaar reawakens - a prologue

    *zooms in for a quick update* AAAAAAAAAAA Sweet baby kittens tap dancing on a tin roof-- I'd reply to everyone but right now I don't have the tiiiime, I'm running around like a looney tune getting things done! The plus side of this is that the only thing left on my list is LAUNDRY, and then I can have a relaxing weekend and actually be able to do a little lunch/snack prep and prepare for all the snow coming in on Sunday!!! LOTS. OF. SNOW. Like a foot. First day of work gonna be like This is my delighted face :] In the good news I've gotten 4 super duper snow tires jammed on my car today, there was a sale too and that was amazing but I also dropped a few hundred dollars getting them put on and purchased and UH HUH THANK LAWD I HAVE A JOB NOW OK Also I finally pulled the trigger on "ok you can spend some money" and got myself some vitamins and probiotics and GOSH IT IS SUCH A GOOD FEELING to be able to take care of myself again!!!! fdhjkhgsd phew Hope everyone is having an ok week, will check in more this weekend!! <3
  13. shaar

    Cheetah prepares to suck ditch water.

    Checking in on Cheetah of the Fancy Hats, Doer of All The Things, Refinisher of That Awesome Desk, and Drinker of Eggs! (I still can't get over that arrgbalrba *shudders* )
  14. shaar

    TGP makes a daring escape!

    Holy moly you're camping -this- Saturday??? AAAAAAAA But yes please we'd love to see pictures!! I bet it will be super pretty, also don't turn into a popsicle!! (Although it sounds like your planning, as always, is thorough!!)
  15. "You have to give it a name." The words were a gentle tug, but she couldn't bring herself to open her eyes yet. She wasn't sure where she was, how she got here, even who she was… The Voice seemed to sense this, somehow, and continued speaking. "Yours is Shaar Al-Khatabi." Ah. That sounded familiar. She mouthed the words slowly, 'al-khatabi', as if pronouncing them for the first time. But they were hers, through and through. Shaar Al-Khatabi continued taking slow metered breaths, the air brisk and cold in her lungs and equally heavy in scent, each one a little less shaky than the one prior as she slowly began to extend her senses outward to her surroundings. Fingers of one hand pressed gingerly into the ground she lay curled on; slightly damp, cold, spongy. She turned her hand, feeling leaves and pine needles against her palm, and honed in on the sensation against her skin as she brushed them aside. And one eye finally opened, slowly, gingerly, to confirm her suspicion that she was in fact, outside. She blinked slowly, trying to clear her blurry vision in vain; sunlight dodged through a heavy nest of branches above to illuminate the forest floor, autumnal hues of leaves stretching as far as the eye could see, piled aside age-worn stumps and massive tree trunks and strangely stacked rock piles. It was all too much - sensory overload - and Shaar squinted her eyes shut again quickly, curling a little tighter into her fetal position. "I feel like I've been poisoned." Exhaustion reigned and each enunciation was a struggle, and barely audible as they passed her lips. But he heard. "I know you do." The words were soft, kind, and tinged with a thread of regret. They settled around her like a warm blanket, comfortable and reassuring, and Shaar quietly relaxed her limbs and opened both eyes this time to have her gaze settle upon The Voice. He crouched at her side, unthreatening, slight in stature and in shape. His clothes were a shambles of rags and there was something about him she couldn't quite place, and perhaps it was his youth that caught her off guard; he was barely a scrap of a boy. Their gazes locked for a long few moments - hers that of a wounded animal, lost and frightened and scared, and his of nothing less than loving kindness, and Shaar felt the world around her slow as her breath hitched in her chest. "We're all so proud of you. All of us." He reached out one small hand, settling it delicately on the crown of her head as he spoke, and at the touch a single tear slid from one eye, curving slowly along her cheek. "You've done so much. Seen so much. Come so far." His intonation light and airy, like the first flakes of snow drifting from the sky on a cold winter day. Like the brief oft-lost moments of the morning where the sun glitters newly across the ocean. The pad of his thumb moved slowly across her temple as he spoke; back and forth, rhythmic. "We've been watching you for a long, long time. You are so skilled in conquering adversity in your path. It's why We chose you. But this challenge… this one…" The Voice let his words trail off as he lifted his hand from her head and moved it to his side, digging amidst the scraps to retrieve what seemed to be some sort of box. It was circular in shape, barely the size of his small palm, and as he held it out to her Shaar regarded the item with a quiet curiosity for several moments before extending her own hand in kind, gently taking the item with dirty fingers. The box had a hinge on one side, and she turned it over and over in her hands a few times before slowly flipping open the lid, steeling herself for whatever may come out or be lying in wait inside. "This one is different." There was a moment of quiet shock, and bright green eyes widened as Shaar found that she was staring right back at herself from the mirrored lid. - this one is different - Time froze for a brief few moments as the words rolled in her head, and Shaar slowly understood the task that lay before her. She let out a slow sigh, tilting her head to one side thoughtfully, watching her mirror image do the same. "This one is different," The Voice reiterated, kind but firm. "And you have to give it a name." She answered in one smooth word, voice lilting with the syllables. "Karaoghlanlar." ---- Hi my friends, and welcome (almost) to 2019! And also welcome to the story of Shaar. A while back I stumbled upon my old Nerd Fitness character I made eons ago, and it seemed to come at the right time for me, as inspiration with what to do with myself moving forward. I've always loved writing and have tried narratives a few times but they've always flamed out. This one though... we'll see, I'll do my best! It'll evolve as I do, and I think that'll be easier and more flexible on my creativity. ( The Karaoghlanlar are the nine evil sons of the Mongol deity Erlik Knah, the god of death and the underworld! ) 2018 was kind of a shit show (kind of??) and moving forward everything is going to be, and needs to be, different. Things that I thought worked for me in the past don't anymore, and I've effectively set myself back to square one to figure out what does work, and how to reawaken and move forward. This challenge will be different too, because this time none of my challenges come from outside, but instead inside. I'm still kind of in a hard place mentally and need to effectively deal with myself and learn how to take care of myself better, and all over again. My first challenge is my biggest: 1. Drink Less This is the big monkey on my back right now, and while I don't drink to excess at all, I still drink more than I would like to and I know it's not good for me. It's not a healthy way to cope and I don't want to do that anymore. It's bad for my skin, it's bad for my weight, it messes with my sleep... I KNOW all this but it's still hard to avoid "just one drink" to relax, and then it turns into two, and sometimes three. DO NOT WANT ANYMORE. My goal here is to not go cold turkey, but if I do want to drink, do it only on the weekends. That's it. Simple, huh?.. 2. Move Intentionally I've become so sedentary due to a. not working yet and b. it being winter in New England, and it's doing a number on me. I feel it in my achy body and my energy levels and this too, is not what I want. I'm not sure what I -do- want fitness-wise anymore, but that'll come in time, and right now I just need to get moving. 30 minutes of intentional movement at least 4 times a week. This can be anything from yoga to mobility work to getting outside. Just do something. 3. Find What Works This last one is less pass-or-fail but more trial-and-error - my self-care toolbox is empty and I need to find out what fits in there now. The first 3 months of a new year are always the hardest for me mentally and emotionally, and I have a feeling 2019 won't be any different... I need to keep a close eye on myself and figure out how to navigate these tricky times now that I'm in a whole new world. That's it! I'll start small, and see where it takes me. <3 ALSO HEY HI SORRY SO SERIOUS SHAAR WHERE'S THE CAPSLOCK?!!?! RIGHT HERE MY DUDES~