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Tuesday January 1 Breakfast: 2 cups coffee Snack: dried vegetables so as not to puke over my workout Dinner: fat fest leftovers, which is indeed the curse of fat fest (along with the fat). I had two plates of nachos (Tostido chips, shredded cheddar, shredded chicken, salsa, FF sour cream) (which makes me think I might have had 2 yesterday?), 2 mozzerella sticks /no sauce, and pizza rolls... maybe 6-8. Pedometer: 4622 steps. Workout: Xtreme cardio kickbox. My new pretty girl obsession is Blair Walfdorf (character): Edit: Don't worry, I am of COURSE still in love with Nina Dobrev, I'm just overloaded on Vampire Diaries right now following the winter finale. You should see my YT Watch Later list.

Monday December 31 NEW YEARS EVE Breakfast: 2 cups coffee, 1 with creamer 1 black Dinner: fat fest*. A plate of nachos (Tostido chips, shredded cheddar, shredded chicken, salsa, FF sour cream), 6 pizza rolls, 3 mozzerella sticks with sauce, 4 or 5 shrimps with sauce, 3 or 4 more pizza rolls Pedometer: 1688 steps. Workout: Xtreme core, which felt sickening since I had no food in my stomach. *Fat fest is eating horrible foods on New Year's Eve. It wasn't a problem in the day, but now that I'm away from home, winter break is when we all eat the worst because I'm home and cooking, so fat fest is really unnecessary.

Woop - new forum plus I'm way behind. Thursday December 27 Dinner was a Cooking Light slow cooker meal, chicken and vegetables over rice a roni. Pedometer: 1748 steps. Workout: Xtreme core. Desserts: chocolate brownie with candy cane pieces. Friday December 28 Dinner was leftovers. Pedometer: 5100 steps. Workout: Xtreme cardio kickbox. Saturday December 29 Dinner was Chinese takeout. White rice, a spring roll, and ate from Bourbon Chicken, Chicken with Brocolli, Sesame Chicken, and Sweet and Sour Chicken. Pedometer: 607 steps. Workout: none. Dad: "I'm not going to work out today, are you?" Me: "I guess not." Dad: "No, don't make me feel double guilty, I'm not working out and I'm making you not work out." Me: "Okay, then I will." Dad: "No, you can't work out if I'm not!" Sunday December 30 Dinner was a plate with spaghetti, a piece of chicken and bread, then a second plate with the rest of the Sesame Chicken and white rice. Dessert was orange and vanilla ice cream. Pedometer: 1530 steps. Workout: Xtreme total body. Funny from the tumblr:

Thursday December 20 Breakfast: 2 cups coffee with milk and just a hit of creamer Lunch: 4 shrimp with cocktail sauce, 2 clementines, a cheese stick, 17 pretzels, 2 cookies Dinner: 2 tacos (white flour burrito shell, turkey/onions/green pepper, guacamole, refried beans, FF sour cream, and mango salsa), a plate with mango salsa and chips, 6 shrimp with cocktail sauce Pedometer: 2008 steps. Workout: Xtreme core! Oooooh man. Obviously I have been terrible at this. Friday December 21 Dinner was takeout from Outback, I had 1/3 Bloomin Onion, bread, and the shrimp Caesar salad. Pedometer: 5059 steps. Workout: Xtreme cardio kickbox Saturday December 22 We had leftovers and salad. Pedometer: 3255 steps. Workout: none. Sunday December 23 It was a travel day. I ate a clementine and 17 pretzels in the car, then dinner at Beef O'Brady's was 1/3 chicken nachos and 1/2 a buffalo chicken wrap with fries. Then back at the hotel I finished a box of Sundried Tomato Wheat Thins. Pedometer: 3889 steps. Workout: none. Monday December 24 Christmas Party! The leftover wrap was lunch, dinner was all the Christmas food: meatballs, ravioli, a pepper dip, a poblano chile dip, Wheat Thins, jalepeno cheese squares, stuffed mushrooms, fritatta. My aunt brought salad, shrimp, and bread. Pedometer: 1859 steps. Workout: none. Tuesday December 25 Another travel day. I had a donut for breakfast, leftovers for dinner. Pedometer: 3691 steps. Workout: none. Wednesday December 26 Breakfast was cantalope and dried fruit, I was pretty hungry. Dinner was leftovers. Pedometer: 1468 steps. Workout: Xtreme total body. Desserts made/eaten over this period: some alcoholic cookie that didn't work out, chocolate chips, peanut butter brownies, mini apple pies, gingerbread men, an apple pie at Christmas, ice cream, chocolate orange.

Wednesday December 19 HOME Breakfast: 2 cups coffee with milk, clementine Lunch: 17 pretzels, a banana with too much PB, 8 secret shrimp (the best kind of shrimp!) with cocktail sauce, 2 secret cookies (the best kind of cookies!) Dinner: I made a baby chicken (stick of butter + spices for whole chicken), a squash casserole (Rice A Roni, yellow squash, onion, spices, parm cheese, breadcrumbs). 1 plate of chicken, casserole, and leftover rice. 2nd plate just chicken and casserole. Pedometer: 1941 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: Xtreme total body!

Tuesday December 18 HOME Breakfast: 1 cup coffee with milk, 1 with fatty creamer. Vanilla yogurt, a clementine Snack: clementine Dinner: 2 plates of homemade guacamole, mango salsa, a dip I made (cream cheese, sour cream, onion, pepper) with 2 kinds of crackers (this is a test run for Christmas party food) and salsa chips. Dinner was a white flour burrito shell, turkey/onions/green pepper, FF sour cream, and mango salsa. Some shrimp and cocktail sauce. It was DEFINITELY a situation of eating WAY after I was hungry, but it was just soooo goooooood. Dessert: I ate 1 chocolate cookie, and licked the spoon/my fingers Pedometer: 2949 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Monday December 17 Lunch: a batch of sweet potato and butternut squash fries, the very last of the milk Snack: cheese stick Dinner: Morningstar burger with tomato, the end of the sweet potato and butternut squash fries Snack: mom brought me coffee on drive home Pedometer: 3383 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Various candy/cookies. And I have finished it all. IT. ALL! There is nothing left in my refrigerator, only an onion, which I think will survive break. My kitchen is almost empty you guys, it's amazing. I did it, you guys, I did it. I didn't even buy milk or eggs or butter. It's amazing.

Sunday December 16 Breakfast (at 1PM): 2 cups coffee with milk and SCM Lunch: 1/2 Morningstar burger + 1/2 Steamfresh zucc/carrot/green bean mix + peas + white rice Dinner: a batch of sweet potato and butternut squash fries Snack: gin/tonic/fizz flavor and ate the HELL out of another batch of sweet potato and butternut squash fries (and it's for the greater good too) Lots of cookies/candy today. Tomorrow's my last day in the apartment before break and I am determined to eat EVERYTHING, which includes the rest of this cookies/candy and a sweet potato and a butternut squash. Pedometer: 867 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Saturday December 15 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, egg with tomato Snack: cream donut (my professor brought so many to the final, and very few people took them because of people suck) Lunch: 1/2 Morningstar burger + 1/2 Steamfresh zucc/carrot/green bean mix + peas + white rice. I also had 2 cookies Dinner: at babysitting. I had lettuce with oil/vinegar, corn/peas, and grapes. Then I had the remaining pizza from yesterday (can't even put into words my happiness that it was still there) and a forkful of pasta with red sauce, some grapes. And I had 2 cookies. Pedometer: 3068 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Friday December 14 Breakfast: Nutrigrain bar, 3 cups coffee with milk, SCM, and cinnamon Dinner: at babysitting. There was a plate of some kind of Asian-y salad. I don't even know what was in it, it was quite literally a plate full of things I don't understand. It tasted like the insides of the spring rolls she made once and he made me a pizza. It was about the size of a personal pan, with mozzarella and pepperoni, and I hate half because I assume that's what's socially acceptable, even though I wanted the whole thing. Snack: they gave me a plate of cookies from their cookie exchange (how nice are these people?!), so I ate a chocolate cookie. Also a piece of my chocolate bar. Then another cookie and another (can't really describe them, tasted like lots of things?) Pedometer: 1985 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. WTF at this, from the tumblr: Poor pretty Jennifer Lawrence, why do they put you through this?

Thursday December 12 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, egg with tomato Lunch: recipe broccoli with hummus, chocolate square (different chocolate bar - from Halloween!) Oops... some of this was deleted. I also had the rest of the white rice, red and yellow peppers, taco mix and the rest of my red JELLO Snack: energy drink Dinner: at babysitting. Pasta with red sauce (reasonable amount) and a small piece of chicken (to encourage girls, failed) Pedometer: 3458 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Wednesday December 11 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, egg with mushrooms Lunch: out at TGI Friday's, ate half. California Club (435 cal, 23g protein, 26g fat) and fries (145 cal, 1g protein, 11g fat) (if lunch portions = normal portions) Snack: instant coffee, 2 chocolate squares (marking the last of the chocolate bar I got five days ago) Dinner: the other 1/2 of lunch. California Club (435 cal, 23g protein, 26g fat) and fries (145 cal, 1g protein, 11g fat) Snack: raisins Pedometer: 4377 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. *I could have eaten my whole lunch, but saw my friend slowing on hers and made myself pack up the rest. I was DELIGHTED to get my little box and think "I'm going to eat this the second I get home - then you'll all see!" Actually ate it 5 hours later but it's the principle.

Tuesday December 11 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, SCM, and cinnamon; baby apple with natural PB Lunch: recipe broccoli with hummus Snack: instant coffee, a mystery hard candy, a chocolate square Dinner: made more of last night's: white rice, red and yellow peppers, taco mix, tomatoes, avocado Snack: low-cal ice cream sandwich Pedometer: 860 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Describes me exactly: Mindy Kaling ‏@mindykaling I'm not socially awkward, I just have no interests so I'm unbearable to make conversation with. Oh, and also stumbled on a song about me: (Drew Holcomb)Ella's at the bar drinkin' beer with all her post-modern friends There's a boy in the corner on guitar, singin' songs and breakin' hearts again He smiles and lights a cigarette He says Ella I don't think I've met you yet She laughs and says she's not interested in boys like him She's a complicated, educated late night drama queen She just wants someone who can understand She's crazy and loves caffeine She's tired of school and tired of boys with nothing left to say She's tired of feeling this way Afternoons of MTV, vintage jeans and fashion news Evenings of reality, lookin' out for new hairdo's She talks to her friends about her feelings Heartbreaks, backstabs and dishonest healings Another midnight comes without a clue She's a complicated, educated late night drama queen She just wants someone who can understand She's crazy and loves caffeine She's tired of school and tired of boys with nothing left to say She's tired of feeling this way She's so cool She's so cool She's been playing a fool Ella's still at the bar with the same old friends Another day, another night has come and gone again She's a complicated, educated late night drama queen She just wants someone who can understand She's crazy and loves caffeine She's tired of all the empty lies she wants to be free Oh where's the love of the loving kind She's got nothing left to say She's tired of feeling this way Oh, nothing left to say She's tired of feeling this way

Thank you lainisos! So sweet. But I looked at your page and you're kicking ass. LOL, there's nothing for you to get BACK at. You're at it!

Monday December 10 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, egg with mushrooms Lunch: out. Applebee's lunch. Apparently it doesn't exist online yet, but it was a 1/2 Chicken Enchilada soup, a 1/2 Chicken Guacamole sandwich, and a side of fries Dinner: the rest of the white rice/peppers/onions/Morningstar meat, which was a lot more than one serving Drinks: gin/tonic/fizz flavor Pedometer: 3552 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Not a good day. A very bad day. I do not feel confident about my BA final, and it's really the only class that matters this semester, and I don't even know what to do. I'm so worried. I hate this a lot. Been awhile since I saw Bridget Jones and I don't think I got it when I did:

Sunday December 9 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk and sweetened condensed milk Lunch: last 3 of 7 tuna mini-burgers (spices, trial pack miracle whip, breadcrumbs, 1 can tuna), and last of the stuffing Snack: 5 pumpkin cookies, 2 chocolate squares Dinner: white rice, Morningstar ground non-meat, onion, red and yellow peppers, taco mix, tomatoes, avocado And Then Nervous "What if I actually fail this exam?" Eating: PB from the jar, the last bag of honey Teddy Graham-ripoffs, 1 Andes Candy, a Nutrigrain bar, a chocolate square Pedometer: 1597 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Saturday December 8 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, a half serving of oatmeal with water, about 2 tbsp sweetened condensed milk, cinnamon, and many raisins Snack: 1 chocolate square Lunch: salad (spinach, tomato, avocado, onions and mushrooms, FF dressing) Snack: 3 chocolate squares Snack: red jello, about 1 1/2 tbsp of PB on a spoon, 3 chocolate squares Snack: one of the pumpkin cookies from a few weeks ago (froze the dough) Dinner: some more tuna mini-burgers (spices, trial pack miracle whip, breadcrumbs, 1 can tuna), I had 4 of 7, and stuffing Snack: hot chocolate - and I broke my cup my boiling water in it, then pouring it out, then putting normal-temperature water in it. Damn. RIP friend. Pedometer: 730 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Amy Poehler: There are a lot of girls who look at you as a role model. Maybe they're really smart and funny but aren't quite getting a lot of boy attention, and they're stressed out about it. What would you say to them? Tina Fey: You know what? Let the boys practice on other girls. Let them treat other girls like crud, let them learn how to French kiss for, like, 10 years, let them give some other girl a bunch of crappy Valentine's Day gifts, and then you just move in when they're fully formed. My loneliness agrees completely, but my bitterness says, what about the girl who did the fully forming of that boy? Who took his cruddy treatment and his bad French kissing and his crappy Valentine's Day gifts, and turned him into a boy who treats girls well and kisses awesomely and gives good gifts? Now some other girl gets that, the result of all this poor first girl's work? As Ann said on Parks and Rec: "I loved Andy. Loved him. Loved Andy. He was a totally helpless baby when we met. I dated him for three years. Now he’s an adult with a job. And some other girl is going to reap the rewards of my hard work? That’s [bleep]."

Friday December 7 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, a serving of oatmeal with water, about 4 tbsp sweetened condensed milk, cinnamon, and yesterday's half raisins Lunch: salad (spinach, tomato, avocado, onions and mushrooms, FF dressing) Snack: 3 chocolate squares from the bar my babysitting family gave me, a muffin, 2 cups coffee with milk (one with sweetened condensed milk) Snack: baby apple with PB, cheese stick, 2 chocolate squares Snack: bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios and milk (too busy to make dinner? Can it be? Or is it the old standby, too lazy?) Pedometer: 3496 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. “When someone broke up with you, you became very unattractive, and it confirmed all the doubts that person had ever had about you to begin with.” –Lorrie Moore, Like Life Dad: So you spent your whole day babysitting and studying, is that what you're telling me? Me: Yes. Dad: And do you find that fulfilling? Me: Indeed I do not.

Thursday December 6 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk, a serving of oatmeal with water, about 4 tbsp sweetened condensed milk, cinnamon, and too many raisins (saved half for tomorrow) Lunch: salad (spinach, tomato, avocado, onions and mushrooms, FF dressing) Snack: bowl of grapes Dinner: the other 4 tuna mini-burgers, two servings of last night's stuffing Snack: muffin. Still hungry. Snack: low-cal ice cream sandwich Pedometer: 1103 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. I don't remember reading this in Atonement (and I fell out of love with that book fast), but I saw it on the tagged/Mindy-Kaling tumblr: “Cecilia wondered, as she sometimes did when she met a man for the first time, if this was the one she was going to marry, and whether it was this particular moment she would remember for the rest of her life - with gratitude, or profound and particular regret.” ― Ian McEwan, Atonement Actually an amazing recount of last season's TVD finale, which was a car accident / drowning: here.

Wednesday December 5 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk. Egg with tomato Lunch: Sesame Chicken leftovers Snack: the rest of the sweet potato fries with ketchup, a muffin Snack: a fun size 3 Musketeers, hot chocolate Dinner: I made tuna mini-burgers (spices, egg, breadcrumbs, 1 can tuna), ate 3 of 7 and box stuffing (no butter) Pedometer: 666 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. I'm going to try not to go to the store (except for milk, eggs, or butter) and just eat up what I have in the house, but I almost never succeed on this quest and I've tried several times.

Tuesday December 4 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk. Egg with tomato Lunch: Sesame Chicken leftovers Snack: muffin. The remaining chicken and peppers from last Friday (so probably about 1/3 or 1/4 a chicken breast). I made sweet potato fries and ate about 2/3 of a small one. Drinks: so-much-gin and tonic with fizz flavor Pedometer: 4051 steps, 1151 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Turned in my paper. Watched Horrible Bosses, it was okay.

Monday December 3 Breakfast: 3 cups coffee with milk. Egg with tomato Lunch: Sesame Chicken leftovers Snack: bowl of grapes, muffin Dinner: leftovers of noodles and tomato sauce with mushrooms, onions, tomatoes, oil/garlic/spices and grated cheese Snack: muffin Snack: a bottle of root beer jelly beans (ick) and a cheese stick. Was I hungry? I was not. How can people study without the compulsion to eat? Pedometer: 4353 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Kate Middleton is pregnant!

Sunday December 2 Breakfast: 2 cups coffee black, 1 cup coffee with 1 spoon hot chocolate mixed in, the 1/2 muffin from yesterday and another muffin Lunch: noodles and tomato sauce from yesterday (there's still half of this left) with mushrooms, onions, tomatoes, oil/garlic/spices Snack: another muffin Dinner: some Sesame Chicken. Not great, I've got to say, not like the best Sesame Chickens, but not bad, especially if I don't concentrate on what I wish it was. Snack: glass of milk Pedometer: 950 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none.

Saturday December 1 Breakfast: big bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios and milk, the last 2 Tootsie candies, the batter from these pumpkin chocolate muffins (subbed with chocolate powder, if that matters), and then 1/2 muffin Snack: the other 1/2 muffin, 2 cups coffee black, another muffin Dinner: the last of the bag of Steamfresh sauced zucchini/carrot/pepper mix, some Morningstar crumbles, some cherry tomatoes, and pasta noodles Snack: another 1/2 muffin Pedometer: 268 steps (didn't wear it all day) Workout: none.

Friday November 30 Breakfast: 1 or 1 1/2 cups coffee with milk. Egg with tomato Snack: vanilla latte Snack: a baby apple with brand-new ALL PEANUT PB, bowl of grapes, 2/3 chicken breast (spray, garlic) and peppers Snack: last of the dried fruit mix Pedometer: 5587 steps, 0 aerobic steps. Workout: none. Long day. Out at 815, in at 6.