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  1. Reading back on that post I see that the implication might be that I think education in Linguistics in general is bad. Let me clarify that I think the subject is awesome and important but I had realizations that I was incorrect to believe that's what I wanted to do. I hope that comment wasn't taken personally! Linguistics is fascinating, just not meaningful enough to me to pursue it as a career. Thank you for understanding. It is crucial that any interaction with me be super big-time serious business ONLY. That's a good tip. I think I will go punch some trees and a rock or two to check right now... EDIT: Welp back from urgent care, seems the fingers and wrist of my right hand are shattered beyond healing. But I can still use my mouse and keyboard so nbd.
  2. [EDIT] Just realized this thread is OOOOOLD. Oops. Well hey if it's useful to ya, read on! I get the ice cream thing. Like for real. I consider the pint or two a day for months period of my life to be mainly responsible for a huge weight gain several years ago, and a minor weight gain earlier this year. One very helpful guideline I've used recently (and successfully) for things like this is being realistic about what's involved with the process and assigning judgement to the consequences of the action rather than the action itself. Eating ice cream isn't bad, it's some of the consequences of eating ice cream that are bad. I let go of the idea of forcing myself to quit eating ice cream, this relieved the pressure which perplexingly would make me want it more! Instead I started paying close attention to how I felt, physically and emotionally before, during and after I ate. Identifying its "parts" made it less abstract and simpler to manage. I reduced the whole process to basically this: When I buy ice cream I'm losing about $6 for momentary satisfaction. After I'm done, I won't be able to taste it anymore and instead, I'll feel bloated and farty for a full day. This will make me sad because "I did it again" and I'll pile on a little more self-loathing. It will also screw with my sleep, causing me to have a crappy day. And since part of my motivation for buying ice cream is to find some kind of relief from a crappy day, eating it will continue to ensure that I will eat it again. If I keep eating it at this rate, I will get fat and uncomfortable. Keeping all that in mind, over time I just found those little moments of strength to inhibit the habit in some way. Even things like buying ice cream I don't like as much or eating most of it and dumping out the rest. Eventually, the reality of what my habit really does to me in the long-term became the pilot of my decisions. It was not cold turkey for me, and took a lot of pragmatic thinking and introspection to deal with. I use the same kind of pragmatism to work on other areas of my life and with practice, it is becoming more and more of a second-nature behavior. Your life situation is almost certainly not exactly the same as mine, but I suggest you take some pressure off yourself and use that effort to just observe yourself for a little bit. Enjoy the ice cream in the meantime but keep the goal in mind. Figure your habit out before you slowly work in some effort to fix it. Also-and very importantly- congratulate yourself when you have a success!
  3. It's been a few years or so since I was active here, I figured a re-intro was appropriate because I like the fleeting attention that new people get. I'm Blake, thirty....two? years old and have had trouble with weight and self-perception for a couple decades. However, I've got a resilient mind and a commitment to figuring my shi(r)t out. I'm in college, pursuing a B.S. (coincidentally those are also mine and Britney Spears' initials) in Computer Science after a recent change from a misguided pursuit of a Linguistics degree. I will be bothering you other CS nerds for advice and will also expect you to finish my math homework on a whim. Here's some true facts about me: Enjoys water. My first priority when interacting with a new piece of software is to learn the keyboard shortcuts. I'm re-obsessed with Minecraft and now confused about when I'm there and when I'm here. I (over?)use parentheses in my casual writing. Noticing and then rectifying slightly ajar doors/lids. Noticing and then rectifying two spaces within a block of variable-width font text. I do not like humor. Has cat. Butt seriously: I really want to get my (b)ass in gear and undo some of the damage I've done to my body over the years. I'm familiar with the struggles of facing this kind of challenge and have seen some success in the past. I am mainly here to contribute to, and benefit from the like-minded support community. Happy to give some anecdotal advice (I have learned some hard and valuable lessons) but also quite happy to receive advice. One way or another, I will overtake this nutrient-rich planet achieve my goals.
  4. It has been one week since I set the goal of 185 pounds by April. Today I am at 191.9, down from 202.3. 10.4 pounds in a week Yesterday I proudly avoided overeating at a family function at which I normally would eat until there was no more food. It was a bigger challenge to my commitment than I've had throughout this past week, but repeating "185" in my head helped quite a lot, as well as the fact that I foresaw this challenge and told my dad and stepmom about my recent success and goals and let them know I wouldn't be overeating, explaining that I was telling them for the sake of accountability. Things are good :]
  5. My gym experience was quite swell yesterday. Did my usual warm-up then some core stuff and free weight stuff and stuff that I don't know the names of and was full of energy after it all. I went to the thrift store a block away from the gym, acquired some sweet items, then rode the four miles back home and scarfed down some carbs and protein. --- Today I have been experimenting with paleo(ish) baking and made some coconut flour banana chocolate (there's the 'ish') muffins for my roommates and for my cousin's birthday party tomorrow. I also invented an inventive way to create natural, fruit flavored frosting (FFF). I'll explain: 1) I dehydrated some strawberries to the point of total crispitude, then ground them up into a delicious dust in a coffee grinder. 2) I then took the solidified chunks of chilled, organic coconut milk and whisked it up into an airy cream. 3) I then dumped in the strawberry powder, some cinnamon, a little honey (for texture/flavor) and whisked it some more and it turned out PERFECT. The muffins, once cooled (necessary because the frosting melts into liquid very quickly) topped with a light smear of the frost and a sprinkle of shaved macadamia nuts/cashew/coconut flakes was quite glorious and I felt very legitimately proud of myself. +1 to psychological health! For dinner tonight I am experimenting with some new vegetables and sauces. I got a little head of butter lettuce for salad and plan on making a dressing out of gorgonzola, avocado, coconut milk (I seriously use this shit for everything) E.V.O.O./sesame oil and some undetermined spices and other things. I also got some fennel, shallot and belgian endive which I will use in some creative way with some chicken breast. I gotta say that today has been a fluffing awesome relaxation and experimentation day. My weight this morning was 192.3, I went on a walk with my friend, had a poop that was a good 2.5/3 on the DSR, shaved my face to a handsome length, ate and will eat more great food, and will finish the night with an epsom salt bath and Aphex Twin, followed by Borderlands 2 or Minecraft, ending on a high note by masturbating then sleep. 185.
  6. My history (as briefly as I can manage): I began losing weight in March, 2014. My weight then was 260 pounds (I am 6' 1"). Tentatively undertaking the paleo/primal eating/life style and riding my bike to and fro work, and eventually a little body/free weight workouts I got my weight down to 200 pounds by October. YEAH! Over the next three months (up until last week) I was hovering around 200 and making no progress and noticing myself slip back into my deplorable counter-productive tendencies. I had a particularly bad binging session last Thursday, felt like shit and realized I had to get back on top of it or I would lose my momentum completely and ruin my progress. I decided to pick a relatively arbitrary goal of 185 pounds by April, and have made that into my mantra. "185" is what I repeat in my head when I encounter those decisions that either keep you on the right path or divert you into an increasingly dense and spooky forest of shame. So far it has been working awesomely! Starting January 29th, 2015 my weight was 202.3 and this morning (after a very satisfying poo) my weight was 194.6. This might be easier than I thought. These are the two main habits I encourage to myself by thinking "185": 1) Eating (good food) only when I'm hungry, and stopping when I'm satisfied. 2) Get some form of exercise every day, and a more intense workout every two or three days. For the second, I have put together a quick and manageable workout I can do anywhere and in only about three or four minutes. A few simple static stretches, then three sets of: 8 squats, 12 pushups, 10 leg lifts and concluding with a 60-second plank. I plan to increase the intensity incrementally over the next two months. I am very willing to take some suggestions on this aspect, as well. TODAY: I am heading to the gym right after this and by the end of the day I'll have rode my bike about 20 miles, done several various core and upper-body exercises, and eaten some healthful and tasty food meals. I'll update with a new post as my journey proceeds.
  7. I work at the Pizzicato a block up from SNAP :] By the way, born and bred in/right around Portland. Also I am quite anti-social as well. Working on it though. Kinda. Okay I'm thinking about working on it... a little bit.
  8. Wow, you have certainly been through a lot. Much of what you mentioned is pretty recognizable to me... especially the continuous attempts and failures when things get hard. That seriously damaged my opinion of myself over years and years of it happening. It made me think I was a useless wimp who gave up when things get too difficult, which is an awful thing to think. The one thing that really kept me going -which, from what you've said in your post, you have as well- is the fundamental strength to keep trying. You can't really fail at something like this until you give up. You gotta keep trying new things and even going back and trying old things until you get it. Trial and error seems to be the only effective strategy. Eventually, though (from personal experience) it leans more toward trial and success. What you said about doing things one day at a time has been my general philosophy, however cliche it is. I've been finding that a lot of cliches exist for a reason, though; because they're true. "Patience is key", "One day at a time", "Don't beat yourself up", "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger", "Don't shit where you eat" etc. Most people disregard these little chunks of wisdom because they're so annoyingly simple they couldn't possibly be relevant to real life. They totally are. If you don't mind, I'd like to point out something you said that I don't agree with. It's something I was saying to myself regularly each time I attempted to improve my life. It's something one says out of desperation and panic, a response to an impending deadline that doesn't exist. It's the last thing you said in your post: "I have to succeed this time." When you say this you're setting yourself up for a huge crash. We both know that you don't literally have to succeed at this attempt or else you'll just vanish from existence. You say it because you're reaching your threshold for failure and starting to fear that you'll be miserable forever and live a pointless, pathetic life. I've been there. I've scared myself shitless having thoughts like that. When you say that kind of thing to yourself you're putting way too much pressure on yourself. Take it easy! Seriously. Here's another cliche: "You have your whole life ahead of you." Find a way to embrace that phrase. The time limit you're burdening yourself with is not going to help. This is what I say to myself: "I will succeed eventually." It's specifically phrased to not fall into the category of being too optimistic or pessimistic, but rather to fall right in between. It's realistic. What it implies is based on logic. As long as I continue to put effort into self-betterment, and don't give up, I will see success. I'm sorry if I come off as preachy in my reply. Since I've been improving my health, my personality has changed. For the first time in EVER I am able to clearly see the possibility of happiness. The vibe I get from your post reminds me of myself before I really started transitioning. I hate to think of anyone having to deal with that kind of mentality, and I passionately believe everything I typed here can help anyone with it (yes, I am that arrogant). Just keep trying, no matter what.
  9. All puns are good in my world. Thanks to everyone who has contributed Once I finish the bags I have left I'm going to buy some legit stuff!
  10. Whoa you're like a teaxpert! Or an authoritea on tea Perhaps even a world-renowned arteast... or someteang else... This is wonderful information, thank you
  11. No it is not :{ If I could stomach the taste of coffee, I'd use it instead.
  12. I am beginning to use caffeinated tea to help ween me off of larger doses of caffeine. I leave for work around 4am and really have to minimize the amount of prep time I spend in the morning (partly so I don't wake my roommates, and partly so I can have a little more time to sleep) so I do all my prep for the following day before bed. If I brewed tea before bed (around 7pm), kept it in an insulated container and drank most of it by 8am the next day, would I be getting as much caffeine as I would if I drank it right away? I've tried looking this up and haven't gotten any answers I am satisfied with.
  13. I think I get where you're coming from there. I had unlimited patience with other people, but almost none for myself. Now it's sorta reversed, hah. I'm patient with people in various situations, but only if it's useful. Anywax... all the virtues that are needed for self-betterment are learned through the process of self-betterment (paradoxical hehe). Patience, discipline, confidence, vigilance, etc. all accrue alongside the positive changes you make, and will make those positive changes easier to achieve. Here's an appropriate analogy: you need your muscles in order to do things that burn fat, but while you're doing those things, not only are you burning fat, you're strengthening your muscles (keep in mind that there are a number of variables present in this principle but hey... it's an analogy ). I'm sure you get it. I've even taken it so far as to intentionally do things that test my patience, just for the sake of practicing patience. It helps to get over the weird delusion that many people have of feeling like there's not enough time for anything. In a world of deadlines and schedules and responsibilities it's hard to justify taking your time with some things. The urge to hurry and rush and to accept convenience over quality is a powerful force. Just take it easy maaaaan.
  14. Hi! #1 tip: Patience. Seems obvious but having only just come from where you are and finally having a clear vision of my healthy future, I would assure anyone that constantly reminding yourself to be patient is essential. The problem I have had- and many others, I gather- is that they suddenly get overzealous and pile on a huge list of goals for themselves all at once. Unless you have an infinite supply of motivation, I don't believe this will work. The only reason I can honestly say that what I'm doing is working is because I stopped making goals and started making changes. One relevant example: I work at a place that gives me access to all the free soda I want, any time, which I took full advantage of for a while. The way I got off of that is by filling the cup only half-way each time I filled it and drank it in sips rather than gulps, then I started drinking a soda that I didn't like as much, then I focused on the times I usually drank soda. I used to fill my cup for the road when I clocked off, so I stopped doing that. I waited at least an hour into my shift before filling my cup. I would fill my cup half way for my break, then dump whatever was left out when the break was over, even if it was just a tiny sip. And so on... This is all over the duration of several weeks, which is where the patience comes in. It's hard to choose just one seemingly inconsequential change that feels like something you should be able to make in a day, then drag it out over weeks. You'll feel the urge to think that a goal that takes so long should be much bigger, but it's not true. As you've probably heard continuously in your life, EVERY little bit counts. Our minds get comfortable with vices to the point where a sudden removal of them causes too much stress, usually ending up in a more powerful vice. You can't just stop feeding a baby milk and expect it to start eating solid foods without a problem. You've got to ween it. So treat yourself like a baby :] Using your new environments is super helpful, too. We unconsciously make associations between our environment and our habits, and they only get stronger the more you do them. Be extra aware of the choices you make while in your new home and job and try not to let your old environmental habits infect your new habitats. The coolest part about eating healthily is that eventually you start to crave it, the same way you crave eating unhealthily. I used to crave soda and pizza, but as I transitioned away from it I started feeling the same kind of craving but for tea and salad. Just witnessing this change in myself boosted the shit out of my motivation and confidence and made it way easier to make other changes. Don't expect yourself to never have cravings for bad stuff, though. What I do when I get those cravings is... I indulge them! I don't rationalize doing it by saying it's a "reward" for doing so well or by assuring myself "just one time" won't hurt. I simply think, "I want this, and so I will have it." The more you rationalize the better you get at it, just like anything else. Indulge consciously and be mindful of the fact that it's not a great thing to do. And when you're done, pay really close attention to how you feel, physically and mentally. Here's another example! I make brownies for work every day, and sometimes one or two of them aren't up to standards so they can't be sold. For a while, I would always keep them for myself for later then pig out while re-watching Seinfeld. I have since trained myself to just throw the defect brownies in the compost or offer them to other employees, but a little bit ago I suddenly felt like eating one. And this is after weeks or months of not. So I ate it! I didn't feel any shame or regret, I enjoyed the flavor and texture and went about my day. Shortly afterwards I felt uncomfortable in my stomach and got a very slight, but sharp headache. This only lasted about twenty minutes, but I was grateful for it. My body was like, "WHOA HEY what the hedge are you doing?!" which created a useful association in my mind. Like an animal that eats a delicious berry it's never had before and gets sick right after, every time it sees the berry from that point on it will know instinctively not to eat it again. As for workouts, I'm much less experienced in that field. I've begun basic strength training and have been riding my bike for commuting purposes which has shown obvious results. I say keep reading Nerd Fitness articles, they've been pretty inspiring for me. Also get yourself some basic workout equipment. I just recently got some 5lb dumbbells and a resistance band that I'm making the most out of. And keep using counter-intuitiveness to your advantage There's a lot of that in fitness, I have noticed.
  15. I went ahead and did it. I decided I wanted to use Nidoking in my journey this time around so I'm not wasting any time. However badass Horn Drill is, I never use it just because of its low accuracy :/
  16. This is all helpful, thank you! This was merely a curiosity-based question that came up from my recent interest in nutrition. It was one of those things where you're like, "Oh... wait a minute..." I'm definitely not one to be fastidious about 'counting' or 'tracking', my casual approach has been working quite well so far.
  17. I don't respond to THREATS! Take your best shot, but know that I am highly trained in the art of running away really fast. Also, if you'll take notice of the end of paragraph 4 of my post, I realized I was getting too serious and decided to balance it out with my 'spew' metaphor. Yeah! I'm beginning to see that a lot of people share a similar story. Just furthers the proof that we're all human-beings (except me) and we are prone to the same challenges of life. I'm not much of a social creature, but it is nice to know I'm not totally alone in my plight.
  18. That's super helpful! I've just begun reading about O3:O6 ratios so what you said almost makes sense Learning is amazing! If I were to begin soaking and dry-roasting them, would that eliminate any positive benefits of them as well? Are "activated" nuts the same as the ones in the bulk dispenser that say they're dry-roasted? Is the Omega/anti-nutrients as big a deal with seeds? Should I just go ahead and evolve my level 20 Nidorino with a moonstone and use TMs to give it abilities later? Any answers are supremely appreciated :}
  19. Everything you've said in your post is shockingly familiar to me, especially the backlash from attempting tedious tracking and scheduling. I'm new to the forums, too, and pretty new to bettering my health, but so far I've been learning quite a lot just from reading other people's experiences here and reading helpful links people give. I've lost over 50 pounds since March just by loosely following the fundamental principles of Paleo-eating, plus some very basic strength training and general cardio. I mention this because I've only just emerged out of the 'trying to suddenly be puritanical about health leading to a junk food binge leading to beating myself up for it then starting it all over' phase. Been there- done that. Never again. Different things work for different people, but if there's one underlying convention that has helped me get passed the psychological aspects of getting fit, it's to keep it simple and be patient. Which you seem to be aware of now. Man I'm talking like I'm a seasoned fitness expert! Truthfully, my new life has only just started in the past few months but I feel so overwhelmed by the abundance of knowledge I've accumulated I just gotta spew it out all over the place. I suggest to really pay attention to what works and what feels right and let yourself transition naturally. Then, in a few months you can post in the introduction thread of a new member of a health forum and pretend you're the authority on fitness! Have fun :]
  20. My staple snack mix is this: pecans, almonds, cashews, sunflower seeds (all raw and unsalted) with coconut shavings and 88%+ cocoa organic chocolate pieces. In my quest to adopt certain principles of the Paleo-style eating I have been carrying this mixture around with me everywhere I go. I have read that all these things are just fine in moderation, but what is 'in moderation' for these ingredients? I don't eat handfuls of it all day, but maybe a 1/2 to 1 cup of it per day. Is this too much?
  21. For example, say a food product says it has 250mg of sodium. How much of that is actually absorbed and used by our body? I vaguely understand that every body is different and some people will use more, some less- and some things in combination with others affect how or if they're used and a million other variables- but is there an average statistic for this? How useful is this information without knowing how much of it will actually be used?
  22. I think it depends on why you want to break. When you say 'for certain things' what do you mean? When I break, it's either to satisfy a random craving (to avoid causing mental stress which usually results in a binge-athon, for me) or I do it for other people. I have a semi-regular lunch with my dad and our tradition is usually Thai or Indian food.
  23. For grocery shopping, I have all my staples on my list, but every week or two I will pick some random ingredient I never or rarely try (usually a vegetable or spice of some kind) then get home and look up how to cook it. That or I just pick a few random things I already have and mix them together in kooky ways. Yesterday for dinner I had this: A stir fry of Kale, spinach, zucchini, chicken, tuna and mustard. It's one of the most delicious combos I've ever created, and it was because of the tuna and mustard which I've never used for cooking before. The day before I made this: Salmon with lemon juice and chopped garlic baked along with heavily peppered asparagus and mussels with avocado slices. I seriously felt like a gourmet chef with this one. Each of those meals took about 25 minutes, including prep time. My general suggestion is to start with stir fry. It's pretty easy and quick and almost always yields delicious results. Plus, like a sandwich or salad, it allows for experimentation. Be impulsive and throw something weird in there (as long as it's edible- don't use rocks or chimpanzee fur or something) and you will probably be pleased. I'm not a professional cook, but I have been thoroughly enjoying cooking with experimentation. The only thing I have made that I could not eat was an attempt at Paleo-style ranch :/ I also use www.supercook.com sometimes. You type in stuff you have and it searches several websites for recipes that use some or all of what you listed.
  24. For a while, I was using the number on my scale as an incentive. It's been one of the most motivating parts of this whole experience, actually. To see it continuously go down and stay down really validated my efforts. I'm also at the point where weight has become less important and where being able to see what's changed is what really keeps me striving forward. Taking a picture every month is incredibly awesome as well. It's hard to agree that I look like Mr. Kamb, but only cause I'm so much more familiar with my face I can see the similarities from my icon, though. I think so too! A good start is a good way to start things YEAH! Focusing on your achievements is super helpful. Every little thing matters. It's also important to be able to identify things as achievements, I've noticed. Sometimes you don't even realize that you've just done something you have struggled with in the past :] As for the ducks... I'm trying to understand what is causing the duck to behave that way. My current theories are 1) because it wasn't able to track where the treat landed it became easily frustrated and threw a small fit, or 2) it prefers its snacks to be mushed into dirt before eating.
  25. I am definitely feeling some serious prideage. It's pretty great to be able to look in a mirror at my naked pink body and not scowl in disappointment. And not to just see the change, but feel it. I can tell that I'm becoming a stronger, more disciplined person. It's pretty great! What I'm looking to do is acquire some informational ingredients and spices that I can stew together with my own recipe and serve it to anyone who wants some. I would love the chance to help anyone who is going through a similar transition with my own steaming bowl of info-goulash. I'm not big on sports ('cept table tennis) so biking, for me, is just a casual and practical utility. I sometimes do it for fun too I suppose, but I don't see myself taking it much further. Paleo/Primal-related stuff, on the other hand, has been very fascinating to me. I know I'm an animal, and I love doing things that make me feel like one. Vigorously gnawing on a big chunk of meat in the middle of a forest after a nude swim in the river sounds like the perfect day to me. Goals: I spent most of my adult life meticulously choosing long- and short-term goals, some realistic, some totally absurd. I've created countless lists and small "goal-reaching programs" for myself, very few of which worked, and almost none of which lasted. One of the biggest reasons I'm finally seeing some success this year is because I just let go. I began noticing that the positive achievements I made happened automatically and without scrupulous tracking. It seemed like the more I focused on the end-result, the more likely the evil part of my mind would interfere and sabotage my progress. Vagueness has saved me from this irony. This summer I have simply been taking it a day at a time and being more impulsive instead of compulsive. A lot of information I've read advises against that kind of behavior because it leads to fleeting changes that eventually fade away into a painful failure. I can't say I fully understand why it's working for me, but having failed enough goals and become so used to failure that I stopped being surprised when it happened, I can tell that this is different. That being said, my long-term goal is to develop a lifestyle that I'm proud of (I'll figure out what that means along the way) and a short-term goal is to drop that last nine pounds to get to an even 200, then I'll see what I want to do next. Regardless of what this (excessively long?) paragraph might imply, I'm not doing this totally aimlessly; I have a direction, but it isn't one I think should, or could describe. It feels natural and instinctual, like the migratory behavior of your earth-birds. They're headed in that direction because it feels right and they just know to. Holy smokes. I can't seem to post in forums without really wordy paragraphs :/ Sorry if the strain of reading my replies is causing you ocular trauma. Thank you for your cheery friendliness! It's a nice welcome :] P.S. I missed your pun at first, but that's a good sign. I think it's important to make jokes that no one acknowledges so that you can feel sneaky and make this face: >:}
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