Kyellan

All I can say is I'm with you, brother. God this month SUCKS.

Work is tryna kill me, that is all. I did put up a new track this week, and it was 40+ degrees today so I walked a 5k. Huzzah.

Hey, so you remember that time when you said "I hope our karmic link didn't extend to the reorg" or some such? Well... about that. 😫

Boy, work is just all kinds of fun. This is sarcasm, but I suppose that's why they call it work and not fun. Things that are fun? Kiddo time, Assassin's Creed: Odyssey, tabletop RPG time, and music making. I really like music making. I'm already halfway into next week's track and I love it. As I was working through it, a bit of inspiration hit, and so I'm tuning it toward a very specific feeling. I'm excited to share it when it's done! It's so strange. I've been playing the guitar for 20 (yes, twenty) years, and only ever dabbled in strum-my songwriting. Li

Well, here it is Monday of Week 1, and I've got my first entry for the MUSIC goal. Now to go handle the MEDITATION goal before dinner.

I like simple. Simple is good, especially when the rest of the world is complicated. Also, I like benders. Earth, air, fire, water and shiny metal!

And no, I don't mean the painter's/welder's mask I use to protect myself from the pandemic! But seriously though. Now that I'm (mostly) recovered from surgery, I need to start building up my mind and body again. I've gotten too tired, too soft, too blah. So it's time to fight back and try some new things... as if I have time for all that, on top of everything else! #1 MUSIC Last June, my in-laws bought my daughter and I an entry-level digital piano (88 weighted keys). It is not too much to say that it has actually changed my life. I've

I have thought about this. Unfortunately, I have forgotten the Taiji that I had learned from my Sifu (I just can't pull it out of my brain anymore, which is very sad) and I haven't found a good source to re-learn from. I have a video that I bought years ago and... it's not very good. YouTube hasn't turned up anything either. The search continues. On the bright side, it was 38 degrees yesterday AND I got outside. Slow for sure (I was at about 15:30 min/mi before surgery) but I made it!

I would probably feel a bit more normal if this wasn't the second day in a row of kiddo sleep regression; so, y'know, there's that. On the whole, though, I clawed back another 5% or so of my total capacity. Regular-ass movement still results in some aches and pains in the abdominal muscles that I am not a huge fan of, and the fatigue is still holding me in a death grip, but my mind is getting a bit clearer. I would go out for a walk, but it's -15F here with the wind chill, so... probably not the best plan. My best effort at regaining stamina has been pacing back and for

Thankfully, no. You're good. 😃 Work is usual. It's just really hard to think through this fog. Feels like my thinking power is halved right now... solving actual problems is damn near impossible, and that sucks.

Okay, well, another goal is off the list because I accidentally picked up my daughter during a normal routine, and everything was fine! So, that takes care of that one. I feel like after the first week I got back to 65-70%, and after another week I've crawled to 75-80%. I'm still saddled with a very deep fatigue that I can't shake, and that's driving me a bit crazy. Today, for example, I feel like I'm surrounded by a very thick fog and everything is difficult. I'm going to start walking again this week. Slowly at first, just to get the idea back. I'm not really sure w

Official follow-up appointment check-in: I am an "ideal patient" (according to my surgeon) since I didn't take any of the hard stuff post-procedure. Everything is ahead of target by his observations. I'm even more tired, but satisfied.

Today's my first day without painkillers. It's entirely self-imposed, but I felt like I needed to know where I was at. Good news: it's manageable. Less good news: I'm still very tired. Good news: how badass was that poet at the inauguration? If you didn't catch it, go back and watch the whole thing... she was amazing.

First goal completed. A slow mile indeed, but a mile nonetheless.