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Oh yes. I had at least two LoZ-themed nightmares as a child. And when I went back to play OoT as an adult... I couldn't make it past the shadow temple. I was too scared. The dead hands, man!! Nope nope nope!!!

Ack, I forgot to reply to you!! Sorry! HI!!!!! ❤️ Life update is below! HI MAMA ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ OKEY, long-winded life update below the cut!

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I will give a life update soon! ...Probably!

HI FRIEND. That sounds like an insane year, I'm really glad to hear that things are better now! Having your own house must be awesome. Do you have a specific daily-Bible-reading plan in mind? For a while, I was reading a psalm every day and writing down all the bits that stuck out to me. I kinda lost momentum though cos school got insane (when doesn't it?).

HI FRIEND. 2020 seems to be the year that a lot of us are uprooting a lot of things. I look forward to seeing what you accomplish! Good luck with the Broiler! Idk if my oven even has one... lol.

HI FRIEND. Congrats on baby! I, too, am feeling the effects of all the progress I have lost. Here's to new beginnings!

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...ahem. Life is gonna be a little insane and I'm gonna be hella busy until like the 17th of January so idk what this challenge is even gonna look like. But I love y'all so I wanna try and be here regardless, at least a little bit. I miss my rangers. ;n; I'll come back later and.... figure out what I wanna actually do lol. Who knows???????????????????????????????????????

So glad you’re feeling better, mama <3<3<3

<3<3<3<3<3 HI SHAAR You should totally make a server!!! Voice chat would be awesome!! Thank you!! WOOOT Yeah life is hard to balance right now but I love y'all so I'll do my best to come back when I can

HI GUYS I'M STILL ALIVE &C - MENTAL HEALTH IS GETTING BETTER ALL THE TIME - SCHOOL IS GOING MUCH BETTER THIS SEMESTER - I'M MARRIED NOW ALSO I SAW A MENTION OF BTS I LOVE BTS AAAH ALSO ALSO I SAW A MENTION OF DISCORD I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A DISCORD CHAT WITH YOU GUYS I'M ON DISCORD LIKE BASICALLY ALL THE TIME IF ANYONE WANTS TO CHAT W/ ME HMU WE CAN SWAP USERNAMES OR WHATEVER ALSO ALSO ALSO I LOVE YOU GUYS AND MISS YOU SO MUCH MAYBE SOMEDAY I WILL HAVE THE ENERGY TO BE MORE INVOLVED HERE LIKE I USED TO BE <3<3<3

FRIENDS HI I'M NOT DEAD just trying to find my ability to even I promise I'll come back eventually Love y'all <3<3<3

Probably, yeah. I didn’t even think of that, cos most of the planning is done and the stuff that’s left is being taken care of by other people, but it’s definitely stressing me out, worrying whether everything will be done on time. I’ve been practicing allowing myself to feel my feelings and instead of beating myself up for feeling them, I try and find out why I’m feeling them. I’m not always successful, I still beat myself up sometimes; but I’m getting a lot better at it.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 I’m so glad you get to keep your kitties. They are so cute and you all look so content~ <3 I have pretty much avoided endgame spoilers so far?? Which is kind of a miracle lol. I saw one thing but it was very briefly cos I accidentally clicked on it and I’m not even 100% sure what it was or if I read it right haha. I’m thinking I might go see it this weekend or something. The Romeo and Juliet show sounded like soooo much fun!! It’s been a hot sec since I’ve been to a live show too... I should see what there is around here.

All good and important things! My problem is remembering to do them Thank you!! You are loved too <3<3 >>>———————> WOW sorry for falling off the map again guys. Nothing much to report though tbh haha. Life has just been hard lately. I’m feeling pretty burnt out. Wouldn’t you know it, trying to handle mental health and grad school and life in general is effing exhausting. My final exam is the 17th, and then once I’m finished grading physics 1 finals, I’ll be free to rest for a little while. I have a copy of Ready Player One (the book) on loan from a friend, and a plane ticket to go see my family and my fiancé. I’m getting married in 87 days. Hdjsvdjajxks

That’s an amazing cause! Wow. Glad the baby is healthy.

Oof, vivid dreams are so weird! It’s a side effect of the first antidepressant I tried, and boy howdy they got realistic. Thank God they weren’t scary. I always woke from them thinking “well, that was oddly specific” I’ve never had a lucid dream; but I, too, have died in dreams. Twice I think? Both times from bleeding out from various nefarious persons attacking me with sharp objects... it was a very strange sensation: everything began to fade to black, and that’s when I’d wake up. One of those dreams, I was in a secret rebellion and I was killed by some invading forces I think? It was extremely dramatic, like in a movie haha. The guy even said some dramatic one-liner before he offed me. I hope going back to the gym was VERY GREAT AND GOOD

Nooooo those are Doritos and that would be crossing the line xD Fritos are the little curly corn chip strips? I’m so glad you guys were able to go get some food to tide you over till grocery day! What a blessing.

Ah, gotcha. I had a feeling I may have not picked up on exactly what you were saying, heh. What would you rather be doing instead? (Also, thank you for the compliment! That means a lot. ) Nice! I did cross stitch for about two days once, lol. I knit and crochet too! Sort of in equal amounts, I guess - depends on what I want to make. I also have dabbled in spinning, but I haven’t done it in a long time. I look forward to reading that article!

Awesome! I’m glad you made it to the gym

Ah, fair enough xD well hopefully the congestion will ease up.

Autumn is my FAVORITEST (Also I’m so glad you liked spiderverse ) Thank you! Seems to be working ok so far? I find it’s hard to remember to practice mindfulness in the moments I need to though. I ran into my prof and said “I feel a lot better about this exam than the last one” and he said ”you’ll feel even better once I hand it back” !!!!!!! Jhskgnskdh >>>——————> Hi pals! It is week one! Monday I had some anxiety of the “clearly you’re a nutcase and everyone hates you” variety, but I got through it with the help of distractions (like a colloquium about the Higgs boson!). Like I said above, it’s hard to remember to be mindful in the moments like this when I really need to. Any tips? I took the slightly longer route to walk home again and it was lovely to have the shade cos it was v hot and sunny yesterday. Ugh uhhh... I think that’s pretty much it for now xD tschau!

My Monday was hard too?? I had the kind of anxiety that’s like “clearly you’re a nutcase and everybody hates you :]” that was fun lol NOT I'M GLAD YOU’RE FEELING BETTER NOW We’re past the Monday!! DON’T HECK WITH US~ Interested to hear how the melatonin goes!

House hunting! How exciting!! I too hope you sleep better soon. Any idea why you’ve been sleeping poorly? Mmm... fajitas...