jody

I am in the middle of moving. It's not a move by choice, it's an eviction. So it's even more stressful than "just moving". I have no idea where I am going to go, since I have no income and am disabled and can't work. I am doing my best to pack my belongings, and stay on track with my medications/sanity and sobriety. And to still take care of myself. My move-out date is April 30, so this challenge is the perfect length. Diet Eat my three meals a day. Hopefully 3 squares. But just remembering to eat will be good! Eat at least 3 servings of vegetables a day, and at least 1 good piece of protein. The primary hope is to not live on carbs alone. Do not purchase "snack cakes" and sugary cereals this month. Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place. Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week, if I can get a ride there. Try to fit in some full body stretching exercises every day. Level Up Your Life Don't isolate! Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation, via text at the very least. Remember to take my medications every day. Practice mindfulness for 15 minutes every day.

Another update, just for myself. Trying to check in weekly, challenge or not! I know there is a new one starting up, so I will likely go there and begin a new one, tweaking this one to fit my goals. So, how am I doing so far? Let's see . . . Diet Drop the iced coffee for more water. I already quit soda 3 months ago, and am still going strong! I have sucked at this. I went and had a three day binge! Bad bad bad! Eat a vegetable with one meal every day, even if it's only canned. Canned veggies are better than no veggies! Right? I got food stamps approval, yay! So I bought some fresh veggies! Woot! And fruit, too! It's so nice to have real food! Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place. I have been more physically active the past week out of necessity. I am being evicted and have to pack my things in a hurry and also figure out where to go. Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week, if I can get a ride there. I took Rowdy to the dog park and played fetch, and also walked the perimeter of the park, which is about 0.6 miles, which is a TON of walking for me. Level Up Your Life Reach out to a friend every day, even if it is only via text. If that friend doesn't respond, try someone else. Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation. Don't isolate! I've been doing this every day. And more than one friend, too. Because things have been chaotic and very stressful over here with the pending move, I have needed more strength from my friends. Spend 15 minutes in mindfulness every day. I really need to work on this one.

So, how am I doing so far? Let's see . . . Diet Drop the iced coffee for more water. I already quit soda 3 months ago, and am still going strong! I have had one iced coffee since last Thursday. No, make that two. One was really bad, a caramel iced coffee from McDonalds. The other wasn't as bad, just a plain iced coffee from Taco Bell. Much less junk in that one. I'm drinking lots of water, and have not had any soda, either. That's the longest I've gone without soda, I hope I can keep it up! Eat a vegetable with one meal every day, even if it's only canned. Canned veggies are better than no veggies! Right? Strike out. I have not had vegetables even once since making this goal. Well, except for the tidbits included in cup noodles, which isn't really anything, so . . . yeah. No veggies. Dang. I sorta forgot about the goal, too. I'll work on this more. Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place. I haven't walked or marched in place every day, but I have done so more days than not. So that's something. Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week, if I can get a ride there. I will be for sure taking Rowdy to the dog park on Thursday. I didn't have a car last week at all, so I couldn't get there. But I can borrow one for this Thursday, so it's on my calendar. Level Up Your Life Reach out to a friend every day, even if it is only via text. If that friend doesn't respond, try someone else. Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation. Don't isolate! I've been doing this, strangely enough. For me it's strange anyway. I'm a total recluse, not by choice. I'm socially awkward in the worst way, plus disabled. So it's been good that I'm reaching out. It's via text mostly. Spend 15 minutes in mindfulness every day. I am getting better at this. But I'm still not consistent.

I'm 300 pounds. Walking hurts. I can't get far, maybe to the mailbox and back, without a lot of back pain. My current goal is probably pathetic, just 5 minutes of walking (or even marching in place) a day. But I was wondering if there are other exercises someone of my large size could do to help alleviate the back pain. Any ideas?

I am joining this challenge very late. And I have a bad habit of not sticking with this whole thing. I suffer from depression and bi-polar disorder, as well as disabling anxiety disorder. So I might need lots of support and kindness and encouragement to keep things up. I want to want it as bad as everyone else seems to want it. So here I am, starting very late, but I picked easier stuff to do, stuff I think I can be successful at. I used the template I found somewhere else on the forums. Diet Drop the iced coffee for more water. I already quit soda 3 months ago, and am still going strong!Eat a vegetable with one meal every day, even if it's only canned. Canned veggies are better than no veggies! Right? Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place.Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week, if I can get a ride there. Level Up Your Life Reach out to a friend every day, even if it is only via text. If that friend doesn't respond, try someone else. Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation. Don't isolate!Spend 15 minutes in mindfulness every day.

Can I respawn again? Am I resurrected? I need to have a clean slate and start over. Diet Drop the iced coffee for more water.Eat a vegetable with one meal every day, even if it's only canned. Canned is better than nothing. Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place.Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week. Level Up Your Life Reach out to a friend every day, even if it is only via text. If that friend doesn't respond, try someone else. Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation. Don't isolate! I guess I'll start a new challenge. Join a board. Add this forum to my sticky pins so that I visit it more. Maybe that will help. I'm trying not to give up on myself.

Am I resurrected? I need to have a clean slate and start over. Feel free to copy and paste and use for your own challenge (make sure to follow the 'pick 1' or 'pick 2' directions! don't do all of them!) Use as much or as little from this as you'd like. Diet Drop the iced coffee for more water.Eat a vegetable with one meal every day, even if it's only canned. Canned is better than nothing. Fitness Walk every day (5 minutes), even if just marching in place.Take Rowdy to the dog park, and throw the ball around for him, once a week. Level Up Your Life Reach out to a friend every day, even if it is only via text. If that friend doesn't respond, try someone else. Find someone to connect with for just a short conversation. Don't isolate!

Well, obviously I haven't done so well. I never get on this website. I never work on it, either. I've gotten fatter by about 25 pounds on top of it. I have very limited mobility. I have no idea what I can do for myself when I struggle so much with depression that I can't seem to make myself care most days. I only know that it's all getting worse instead of better, because I suck. I like what Lalie said, that sometimes exercise takes the form of shuffling around outside for half an hour. That's good. I don't need any more alone time, I'm basiclly a shut in. Not by choice, really. I don't have a car. I guess it's my choice to stay fat and immobile though. I guess I'm choosing to stay stuck by not moving. I suppose that's true. I'm not sure what to do next.

FOOD LOG: Breakfast: It was about 9:30 this morning. I sat in my car as it idled outside of McDonalds. I ate alone, listening to music on the radio. I felt guilty, knowing that what I was putting into my body was terrible for me, and opposite of what I should be eating! I have a food problem. I can't seem to figure out how to make myself actually make good choices. I make poor ones all the time, and then feel guilty about it. Lunch: It was about 4 in the afternoon, and I felt weak and shakey. I'm sure the poor breakfast choices had a lot to do with it. I had just left a parent teacher conference with my kids' step-mom. (We get along great, by the way.) She offered to buy me Taco Bell. I was more than happy to let her do just that. I ate a hard taco supreme and one of those Doritos hard tacos. And drank a large Pepsi. Again, bad choices. I didn't care. Dinner: I had forgotten to eat dinner, and didn't notice until after 9 p.m. My adult daughter and I ordered a pizza from Dominos. She ate one whole slice. I finished the rest of the medium sausage pizza. Washed it down with water. That's good at least, right? No, I'm not kidding myself. I know the whole day was a disaster. I have a food problem. I binge eat like mad, feeling guilty the whole time. It's a bad habit. I have to figure out how to force myself to stop doing that. ACTIVITY LOG: Fetch with Rowdy: I played fetch with my australian shepherd, Rowdy. We played for about 30 minutes. This is a minimal exertion activity on my part, generally. I was still sore from my previous attempt at the Nerd Fitness Beginner Body Weight Workout: I am so out of shape. It's depressing. The more I overeat, the more I gain weight, the more difficult moving becomes, and the more discouraged I get, and it's a cycle. The discouragement leads to binge eating. Bleh! Feels hopeless! SPIRITUAL LOG: Went to my church's addiction recovery program. Spent some time in prayer today. Don't feel I was very sincere to be honest. I felt angry with God. Read a few uplifting things, felt better afterwards. SOBRIETY LOG: I have been sober for 70 days now. I am working on step 4, inventory. I attended a 12 step meeting today. MENTAL HEALTH LOG: I struggled today with my eating disorder (binge eating, food addition, whatever). I also had guilt and depression because of it. I did remember to take my medications today. AND I remembered to drop off the prescription for the new medication that my psychiatrist wrote for me to try. NOTES: Maybe I'm not serious enough to be doing this. I want to change, but I feel like the challenges of changing myself are insurmountable! My mental illness takes over me, and I struggle and fail. My eating disorder gets the better of me all of the time. I struggle. If I don't do better, I will die at a young age. My doctor told me I had to shed 100 pounds within 18 months! In the past 2 weeks I have gained 5. I feel like it's hopeless! This battle log is gonna be 100% honest. Unflinching and fearless. Not that there won't be fear. But that I won't let fear stop me from being 100% honest about my struggles, my failures, my faults, and my successes. I hope that by being brutally honest, I will find whatever it is I need to make a change.