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My dad says quit a few stupid things about gays before (I think more ignorance than hatred) and my mom usually yells at him. I'm not really worried about coming out to my mom. She'll just be more worried about my future since she saw her good friend have to leave the neighborhood to keep his family from being embarrassed of his gayness. I mean my mom has her ignorance, but way left less than my dad. I have my issues with my mom, but it's more of my mom's anxiety trying to control everything.

I know my mom be little more easier to talk to her about it. She always joke it's twice the wardrobe.

I was going to come out today with my family, until I heard my dad call one of the gay activist on House of Cards a faggot. I couldn't say anything, I stuck feeling paralyzed. I couldn't even tell him off. I feel like shit now. I'm such a coward.

And I chickened out when I heard my dad refer to the dead gay activist in House of Cards as a fag. Thanks dad for making me feel really uncomfortable. I couldn't even tell him off. I feel like such a loser for that. I feel like a disgrace to my own morals. *sigh*

I want to see boobs. Nothing to see there. Nope nothing

Nice job on the plank. And welcome.

Hope it all works out for you. Drama kind of sucks.

But yay for the 3 min plank

You just had to give me more books to read

The cold messes up my sleep patterns

I think I'm getting that way too. Winter just doesn't do good with me

Cool I'm Deadpool

THIS. This Is all of my feels right now. I'm going through some of my own bad relationship back story and trying to decided if I should talk to them again and try to find...(I'm not sure what closure? piece?), but its been almost 2 years and I don't know if it would be better to just leave old wounds alone :/ Its comforting to know that other people go through the same struggles. Really great idea for the next challenge I may have to steal it

If you do, we can both struggle through and conquer it together.

I have to prepare for the worst (it's just habit I picked up). I want to do it Saturday; though if I find good opportunity tomorrow, I'm taking it.

Got covered in head to toe in peanut butter making the shelter dogs' treats. Great way to not want to look at peanut butter for quit a bit.

Had really long and great workout today. I got pinwheel down. And my back been getting more flexible.

Also, I think I did 2 pushups today. Couldn't really tell since my glasses were off (not breaking these too).

Also, talked to an old friend who I haven't spoken to in 2 yrs. Still feel bit bad I made her suffer from my issues at the time even though she forgive me. Maybe next challenge make amends with the people I basically hurt during my darker days.

30 sec plank (wasn't really pushing myself for longer)

Talked to an old friend from high school. Nice to hear from her, I think the last time I talked to her was about 2 years ago (when I was a miserable bastard).

Poor vegetables. They get such a bad rep

I'm neutral like Switzerland (which I say they be neutral chaos too...them and their bombs hidden everywhere to blow up their infrastructure if invaded)

I'm really glad you enjoyed it.  Night Vale welcomes all new citizens, and advises them not to approach the dog park.

That and talk about Carlos' hair

I have no clue what your music taste is, but maybe any of the Indiefeed podcast series might be your taste. Also, they have poetry series (if you're into that stuff).

I think it's awesome there's pride parade since still an issue for our community to be proud of who we are. I'm not yet at that point of being where I want to be pride-wise, but I'm lot better than I was few months ago.

Those people that use gays as feel-good token don't deserve a Girl Scout badge (otherwise know as that kick ass organization who protects their own including the trans)

I curious if the doors in my house can handle a pull-up bar since so much of the house has not done so great this brutal winter

Pretty sure I have horrible luck with having women drop off the face of the earth. Oh well *sigh*

Now know how much I owe for my ticket. Wasn't the worst, it only less than $200. I was expecting way much worst. Now need to see how much I have in my bank, so I can finally get my hair cut (hair's attacking again).

Think of maybe being wild and crazy and just tell my parents I'm lesbian this week. Just want to get it over with.

Now just waiting for the guy to call and finish bit more of the process for working with the farm animals. Oh yeah this weekend, I finally got to see the place. Love it there. They have a sheep the jumps through hoops and a pig that plays the piano. Oh and emus (let's hope don't have to go to war with them like the Australians did).

Something old (about year or 2 old )

Something new (or still work in progress...yes few burns on there from the ash)

GUYS GUYS GUYS!!  I THINK THIS BELONGS HERE:

 

Went shopping with my mom this weekend, and was having a hard time picking out clothes to try on that would even "fit."  Mom hands me a pretty flowered button down, and I laughed at her.  Had she even looked at the tag?  It was a size SIX.  I wear a TWELVE.  AT LEAST.  She responded with, "Do you have any idea how much weight you've lost?"  Yes.  Almost 30 pounds, but I didn't LOOK any different to myself.  I tried on the shirt to make her happy, and totally bought it.  I am wearing it right now.  As I type this.  And it looks fantastic.  I still don't really see a difference, but apparently other people do, so I'll take it!

That's what happened to me while shopping this weekend. Turns out not as big as I think I am

You guys know I love you, right? *hug*

I definitely need to work more on taking power away from my parents over my life, especially when they use what left of my depression and my crappy past against me.

I'm Chaotic Neutral.