Urgan

I think 2-3 might be more what you need if you're groggy at 5. Hope it works out for you. Also, well done on hitting your calorie target in spite of slowly "losing" foods (temporarily). That is no joke.

Ah. You can go as low as 1mg from a store shelf. I wonder if cutting it down to 2mg would help?

What dosage of melatonin are you taking?

Tell me about it. But like I said, based on the way it went down, it's looking promising.

...we find out on Monday! After a Saturday black belt test-sitting, lol. SUSPENSE R US.

Test did.

This is sounding like what my husband has, or a similar flavor. Hopefully it passes over quickly.

How. Thoughtful. I'm initiating evasive procedures involving separate boxed dinners and generally minimizing contact. I can die from the plague on Thursday, but not Wednesday. Man, what a way to shift your thoughts away from being nervous about doing a test. It's approximately 10,000 times worse to imagine not being able to do the test.

And on both of those notes....did I mention I got a text from my husband saying he's coming down with some kind of sickness? Yaaaaaaay.

Can we talk about how it f---s you up and makes you want to crawl under a rock and just reside there from now on? That isn't the test talking, it's pure industry-grade "Why am I here, again?" I had such a headache until my siesta yesterday, it was unreal. Also, it was overcast 68 degrees then and overcast + rain + cold today.

December 2019: Week 2 No, I'm Not Nervous. Who's Nervous? Tasks Clean kitchen counters Clean kitchen table Change bed sheets Christmas decorating? Practice Iaido - 0/2 Jo + Bokken - 2/2 Technique review - 6/6 Flashback - 4/14 26.1 26.2 Nutrition No New Natural Flavors Swap chocolate bars for chocolate chips Test blackberries Monday Well, here we are again. Glorious. T-2 weeks before PTO. Test is in two days. I'm just treading water 'til then. So is my bench press. This is going to be another week where lifting gets the short end of the stick, but it can't be helped. Koshinage and lower body work don't mix, it's been proven, and Saturday is black belt test for Sempai, so.....not sure how/if that will work out. Not worried about it until after the last second of jiu waza. Tuesday The Fs I give are very disproportionately assigned this week. Yes, all the panic was had. We did separate dinners and I avoided him handling anything food-related without making him feel like a plague rat (hopefully). There was no big discussion about it and we both slept most of the time we were indoors, because it was stupid damp-cold and we were both tired, but there was handling of doorknobs with paper towels and silent prayers. Wednesday Well, I didn't get sick, so whatever I did worked. Husband went back to work, so evidently it was very transient. I skipped the gym in deference to testing, hauled my keister out the door, forgetting my rings in the process, and proceeded to be late in spite of leaving early because Winter Weather Traffic. Sigh. Add driving stress and naked-fingers stress to testing stress, and you have got yourself some Stress. What a world. Um. Well, I think in spite of all that I had less anxiety than testing for purple? Maybe? It's hard to say. I will say it is soooooo much less stressful pair testing than testing alone. I had a good uke who didn't really know the techniques themselves well, but has a long background in martial arts (good form in general, excellent ukemi) and is also a purple belt. I had asked him to uke for this last month and he was a real sport for stepping up and doing his best. Which was really well given how crazy the requirements are. So I was super grateful. We only ended up having to repeat a handful (no more than 5) of permutations of a technique between us, so gonna say we probably passed. We'll know for sure on Monday. Black belt testing for a friend of ours is going down this Saturday. My first view of that experience. We're going to hopefully get our nails did after that (no prizes for guessing the color.....). After this, I went home and ate a whole bunch of things then cooked out. Thursday Work from home and take cat to vet day. Whee. Nothing seems to be obviously wrong with her, so blood panel and $200, AWAY. Nothing to complain about today, got a good bit of work done, all the cat litter was delivered. A win-win. Friday WOW was Friday fired so hard. 3 major things all wanting to be top priority at the same time with different claims to supremacy. One of them involved trading hardware back and forth with the dev, one was a massive prod break, one was a minor prod break. Fixed two of them, the one with the hardware peripherals was so very broken that it forced the dev back to the drawing board while I juggled the other two chainsaws. This went on until T-1 hour to leave, so it wasn't a high stress day or anything. Saturday Black belt test viewing, that was certainly a thing that happened. A 3 karateka to 1 aikidoka funfest. The karateka were insane. That is all. A rare instance of me in a nail salon with my soon-to-be-former-purple-belt partner, we did mani-pedi things. We talked about our odds of successfully obtaining brown and our strategy for preparing for qualifiers waaaaaay ahead of time, a bit at a time, so we don't have to climb that mountain all at once. I may have shiny brown nails now. Equally rare, the nail polish survived the night without getting pillow imprints. Amazing. The downside of all this activity is no gym and my routine was generally blown right to Hell, but every blue moon that's okay. Ate my last decent chocolate bar. Cat's blood work came back as possible kidney issues, early stages. She'll need a urinalysis to confirm, which will happen on Tuesday. We are choosing--or at least I am--to look at this as Old Cat Disease and we're managing that one day at a time the best we can and not worrying about the rest. I can't make a kidney work better. Sunday Shockingly normal. Made major progress on a page in my outline. Decorated the tree. Made fussy ham and bean soup. Dumped out all the sub-par chocolate bars I was keeping out of delusion that they were worth eating. I feel pretty good about life. Shocking. Or just the glow of imminent promotion. Whatever.

Thanks. I find if I let other people have a vote in what I do, I will do nothing. However, some things may/may not be worth the potential for heartburn. Ha, my shoulders got some kind of attention and it's telling me all about it now. We had to work around some definite Issues last night, but we got it done. T-1 one week.

You know, it seems like when these things happen the guy who did the injuring has a harder time of it than the person who is injured. Like, a lot harder. It sounds just awful to have a day where it seems like you step in it with everybody and then you kick a guy in the face. Woof.

It is but one place where every bit of lie and garbage about Health and Fitness are mindlessly parroted as if anyone could possibly be hearing Don't Arch You'll Blow Out Your Back! for the first time. OTOH, I feel like I've ascended to another level in terms of social media presence. I had my first unsolicited dick pic a few months back and now I can add Don't Arch to my trophy sheet. Actually totally serious about this--you know what they say about people who take flak. It's all good. We're pulling a double tonight in the hopes of having enough time to go through allllll the techniques (10 of them, half of which have 3 or 4 parts, each of which have a left, right, irimi and tenkan! Arglebargle. And then there's the weapons work and the jiu waza, separate from that. It's the kokyunage test.) and feel confident we can do them from entering attack to pin. None of this hand-waving the takedown because we know it, gotta do the thing. It's always a joy to get to test night and have to force yourself to remember what that pin was, again.

Yeah, Sensei went so far as to say he'd just make us do koshinage on right side because it's enough of a technique challenge to get us to do hip throws for the first time (he is not at all an "if he dies, he dies" type of Sensei). I can load up both my partner and Sensei, so strength is not the issue (not that strength is the foremost concern when they should just roll off...baby steps, plzkthx). I actually got partner way too far forward and was holding her up on mid/upper back (and she is pear-shaped). Oops. Almost got it down, I am loading a lot more consistently now. We have been known to apologize from either position when we screw up on test night, but we've just about gotten past the freak-out reflex. Sometimes it's just outright funny. We opt for slow and correct, but sometimes fast and hard out of pure fear happens. It happens often on orange belt tests for some reason.... The presence of multiple people on the mat makes it feel more like a performance and less like a trial, even though you are doing the exact same thing. We're working hard to make it happen this way just for this benefit.

When "natural" actually means "the fakest fake you know"..... Brown, and I'm trying to work it where I test with another purple belt at the same time. Takes a lot of the panic attack out of it when you can sell yourself the idea that they're totally watching the other person just now, not you.

December 2019: Week 1 Let's Go Tasks Clean kitchen counters Clean kitchen table Change bed sheets Christmas decorating? Practice Iaido - 0/2 Jo + Bokken - 1/2 Technique review - 3/6 Note: I adjusted down weapons review because I can't count. Flashback - 4/14 26.1 26.2 Nutrition No New Natural Flavors Swap chocolate bars for chocolate chips Test blackberries Monday I gymmed and did both bench and OHP. We will see if I perish. Motivation was nowhere in sight at work. Nothing says welcome back to the office after a holiday quite like an hour long meeting that's irrelevant to you bowling over the usual routine. At the dojo we reviewed all the things, trying for left side most of the time. It was a mind-bending experience. Started and ended class late, stayed late talking (we're going to do a double class on Wednesday for test prep), got home late, bah. So tired. I did turn off the light at a somewhat almost decent time, as my bedtimes go, as a precaution against passing out and letting my computer run all night long. Shark Week showed up right on cue. Tuesday Woke up to an idiot's criticism of my post in Instagram. Gooooooooood morning, er'body. Record of me giving the idiot a hard time: Him: You're arching your back too much! Me: Whatever you do, Mr. Private Account, don't look up the Olympic press. I don't think you can handle it. Him: Well, it's your health. Best of luck. Me: Well, it's your presumptuousness. Best of luck. Crickets after that. Game, set, match. I win. What I won was a really, really difficult-to-endure day at work, courtesy Shark Week. All the things to do, none of the will to do them. Taquitos were got for dinner. I did do some writing, though. Yay that. Wednesday Rack pull day--225lb triples were my absolute legal limit (for reasons you will soon see). Ran out the door, was 20 minutes late because a sedan decided it wanted to crawl up under an SUV in the middle of the busiest road in the met. Shut down two lanes of traffic and forced everything to the left-most lane when a major exit ramp was less than a quarter of a mile away. It was great. I felt like air traffic control at work, everything was just coming in at once and then there's this long, long term upgrade project that kinda makes me wanna end myself. Meanwhile the power has been flickering on and off at my parents' house and the power company struggled to do its job and make the power make the things turn on and stay on. This struggle seemed to involve hacking one of their bushes in half to get to the proper utility box, for some reason. I brought one of my emergency rice packets heated up with my cooler press-ganged into the opposite of its usual function. Aaaanyway, by the time I got home everything was normal. So there's that. A double was pulled, and wow was that weird. It wasn't hard, it didn't really feel like more work had been done than normal other than that sensation you're camping the dojo. The strength in my posterior chain was g o n z o when I tried to do koshinage. It was sad. I literally failed a rep, more or less. I think I have the idea of it, enough to squeak by. We did manage to review all techniques, including weapons. I just need to remember two things: - on hanmi hantachi waza, shihonage tenkan, I need to shiko back as far as humanly possible for my stubby legs to go and step to the right as far over as I can go in order to not get into an ankle slap fight with uke. - on ushiro katatori kokyunage pt 3 (turning opposite), I can't anticipate the grab, I have to let that happen first. When home, did some review, finished Japanese practice, ate a bunch of stuff, drank some tea, went to bed at a not-stupid-for-me hour Thursday My forearms and shoulders are sore. The weirdest type of DOMS yet, this combination. It persisted all day, surprising me during such activities as shrugging, anything touching my shoulder, and putting on pants. Glorious. I had to pass a charisma check on the way home. You see, there is a route Waze will direct me to take to get home when traffic is bad, and then there's the route that it will take me when traffic is apocalyptically bad. It was the latter kind of day. I said no. Nav said turn left about four or five times on the route I chose. So I finally gave in and made the turn to take me through the windiest path you know. Or so all these side road paths end up being, this particular one was new to me. Which is why I wasn't expecting a security guard station in this particular subdivision. A real live man guarding this particular neighborhood at 5:30 on a Thursday. Alright. So he asks me where I'm going, and I explain I'm just passing through because the main road is gross today. He suggests it may be better to take that road because the speed limit is 30MPH and there are two neighborhoods between me and my destination. I said that's what I was going to do, but nav was quite insistent. He reiterates the warning that the speed limit is 30 and enforcement is strict a couple of times before deciding he's going to let me through when I promise to Obey teh Rules, because as I explained for one thing I've never been here before, so. That worked out. You bet I drove the speed limit, because it was pitch black and indeed this route was foreign. It was in fact slow as molasses, but that seemed to be my doom this particular evening. On the plus side, my mug arrived from Japan (I don't think it even took a full two weeks to arrive...wow), along with various shirts. Also, been working on my outline and that's going well considering the amount of energy I have to spare. Friday There is still soreness, but not enough to keep me out of the gym. 76lb OHP triples FTW. The rest of the day had nothing to recommend it. Saturday + Sunday I wrote quite a bit. Hit a squat volume PR of 2 sets of 196lb triples. That's double how many times I've done triples at that weight lol. We got the tree on Sunday and I pressed it twice. It is a very dehydrated tree. Did some weapons and technique review. The test panic slowly setting in like a fog. I really, really, really miss my bed right now.

December 2019 Goals Setting Myself Up For a Successful New Year? It took two months, but there's a chance I am on the way out of neck strain purgatory. Too early to say for sure. I've exchanged writing with reading in priority, and I am okay with that. This is ironically the "fault" of The Blackdog, but the book is actually good! It's just that looking at the cover makes me crazy inspired? It really is crazy. I love this book. I love the story I am working on. It's a win-win. Weight has been around 120lbs, down from the 122-123lb range with no change in calories but a skewing toward carbs with the change of breakfast. To speak nothing of the reduction of emissions that is definitely confirmed and appreciated. We're gearing up for belt test time! Let's do this thing with more modest, focused goals. Tasks Things to Do that Make Me Feel Less Like I'm Living In a Dump: Clean kitchen counters Clean kitchen table Change bed sheets Christmas decorating? Practice It's test time again, 3 months earlier than the last two belt tests. It's a bit of a risk, but it'd be cool to squeak in another rank up before 2020. It's Christmas time. Here's the adjusted practice goals with this in mind. Iaido - 0/2 Jo + Bokken - 0/3 Technique review - 0/6 It's time to dare to dream that I can clean up most of the stubbed-out sections of the outline. I've got 1.5 weeks off with very little frenzy, so no reason not to try. Flashback - 0/13 26.1 26.2 Nutrition The postmortem on November's efforts is I definitely did stabilize my weight and reduce the incidences of bloating/gas. I did this by making the following changes: - exchanged kombucha for regular teas - reduced kombucha from daily to 1x/week - dramatically reduced protein bar consumption from daily to 3x/week - maintained regular sauerkraut consumption - added carbs in the form of rice, rice ramen, bean chips, a tiny bit of fruit, and on the dessert side mochi and Toll House Simply Delicious chocolate chips (THREE INGREDIENTS. THREE. Does not taste like garbage. What is this alchemy?) - avoided "natural flavors" when making purchases which incidentally are absolutely everywhere, even in tea blends Things I'm going to try to do for December: No New Natural Flavors Swap chocolate bars for chocolate chips Test blackberries As you can see, nothing that's particularly overwhelming going on for this month. Christmas decoration, belt test, vaguely aggressive writing, and some very modest dietary tweaking. I don't want to mess with my food too horribly much more, because my strength training is experiencing some issues and eating all the things is pretty much the name of the game in the interest of keeping ahead of energy demands. Debriefs: Week 1 Week 2 Week 3 Week 4

I think this is a textbook definition of "dubious honor."

Almost like it's not worth fooling with at this point.

November 2019: Week 4 Thank You For Your Sacrifice Tasks Clean kitchen counters Search and Destroy Floor Stains The Great Fall 2019 Try-On - 75% Create Winter Work Wardrobe - ??? Donate What Doesn't Fit Practice Iaido - 1/4 Jo + Bokken - 4/4 Technique review - 7/8 DuoLingo - 27/28 LingoDeer Lessons - 4/4 LingoDeer Review - 4/4 Write or delete 17 Write 25 + flashbacks Nutrition Monday: NONE Tuesday: NONE Wednesday: Clif protein bar Thursday: Giant. Shrug. Friday: *x2 Saturday: Clif protein bar, mochi, * Sunday: mochi, *x2 * I assume away all knowledge of what's in food I eat out, all macros for those meals are a guess Monday The Thanksgiving holiday week begins. It was Jekyll and Hyde at work, the morning was d-e-d and the afternoon was crammed full of things to do. Bare minimum accomplished. Edited outline, yanked out a big section of stupidity. Tuesday Work was busy all day. Thanks to leftovers, I did not cook or eat Taco Bell this night, because prepping veggies for Thanksgiving was about the extent of my powers. Did all kinds of Japanese practice. Reviewed weapons techniques. I'm finding a lot of things that need adjustment in my outline, and believe you me it's not my first read-through. Wednesday Short work day, all work front-ended in the first two hours then drove my happy carcass to my parents' house for Thanksgiving. Thursday I had the weirdest dream ever. It was the end of Monday class at the dojo and Sensei cheerfully announced test day was actually the next class. Cue panic-stricken cramming test prep off the mat. We discovered two gokyo techniques on the list we didn't know about so we started working on those, but they didn't behave anything like gokyo and it was really hard to concentrate with everyone around us trying to socialize and dodging the basketball players all around us trying to play. So basically it was just another day on a crowded mat lol. Oh and Thanksgiving happened. FIL had a knee replacement the prior week and wasn't up to coming over. The event was two hours shorter at least than normal, glory be. Came home and spent stupid amounts of money on BF and Christmas stuff. Ate chocolate for dinner. Dogs and cats living together, mass hysteria. Friday All the upper body volume and all the money was spent. Started a trend over the weekend of really focusing on the outline in the strike zone of this challenge, even. I didn't hurt all that much, either. Kind of miraculous. I picked up some laundry slack to make the rest of the time off a bit less crazy. Saturday Did a bonus set of 180lb squat 5s (three sets total), looked in vain for red bean mochi, wrote a lot. A lot. Refrained from buying all the things. Sunday Pretty normal, except for the titanic breakthrough that forces a bit of reordering of sequence of events (started Saturday, really). It's not so much a shakeup as engaging the brain for the first time on this section, I mean really thinking logically. Yeah, I do that occasionally. Scares me, too. I am on track to do something that not only propels this story forward, but tells a bit of a story-within-a-story better than I'd planned to tell it as a stand-alone, since I am letting the character tell it himself through 3rd person limited and 1st in parts? the idea is some parts are vivid memories and some parts are glossed over (half of the glossing is because he's self-censoring, the other half to scoot toward the interesting bits) We'll see if it survives the smell test after it's all written up. Worst case scenario, I have a better version of that story set up for later. A dramatic reenactment of my body this week: Ooooh boy, it's 3s week, everybody get ready it's time for S H A R K W E E--oh wait, we're not lifting on Monday? Oh well then, nevermind. We'll wait then. Alternatively, I was just run down enough that my body felt sorry for itself. You decide. And now, time to pretend like I remember how to do my job!

Definitely enough time to get closer for people who bear down and drill the weaknesses. And the strengths. And everything else. I'm sure the testing will be exciting with multiple dan lined up. Good luck to everybody involved, candidates and especially ukes. (I've seen two kids test for black, but not an adult yet. Testing for brown then watching a candidate for shodan on Saturday will make for one of the more eventful weeks of the year.)

Maybe you've already said, but when are these tests happening? Ours are 12/11 and 12/14. Too close for comfort much?? We're reviewing like it's the difference between life and death. Bullet. Dodged.

Normally we try to get some exposure to both sides as we introduce technique and have some basic familiarity with one side. This belt has so many techniques and most of them are nuanced variations of kokyunage, it's been a right-side-a-thon for months. Now we're playing catch-up lol. Not recommended, but here we are. We communicate pretty well on this point and I don't think we have too many problems getting the theory of the thing across? If we say left or right we mean the body of the person being instructed (an implied your left hand, etc...) and "to the mirror" or "to the chairs," or "to the shomen" if we are speaking in relation to the room we're in. Oh good grief but we could write books about all the times when doing an unfamiliar technique there is a moment where we have to pause, look down, and reflect over which of our hands is left or right! 8:30PM classes be like that. Spoiler: it's the left side. Even a lefty like me hates left side. Yeah, we have a few of them in class and it never ceases to amaze/amuse/horrify. Thanks. It's not a lot, it doesn't involve an uke, but just the mental exercise of "walking through" the technique seems to do a lot of good for retention.

November 2019: Week 3 Trying New Things Tasks Clean kitchen counters Search and Destroy Floor Stains The Great Fall 2019 Try-On - 75% Create Winter Work Wardrobe - ??? Donate What Doesn't Fit Practice Iaido - 1/4 Jo + Bokken - 3/4 Technique review - 6/8 DuoLingo - 20/28 LingoDeer Lessons - 3/4 LingoDeer Review - 3/4 Write or delete 17 Write 24 Write 25 + flashbacks Nutrition Monday: Clif protein bar, braised beef containing ketchup, mochi, * Tuesday: NONE Wednesday: * Thursday: NONE Friday: Buchi kombucha Saturday: Clif protein bar, * Sunday: Clif protein bar, * * I assume away all knowledge of what's in food I eat out, all macros for those meals are a guess Monday I think I may be on the path to getting my body back to normal, if I can avoid aggravating it further. Big if. Not the best day for keeping "natural flavors" out of my life. I did enjoy some mochi at work and am working out the most efficient way to do tea things in the office. Work itself was a PITA and the most unnecessary sentence of the month was uttered by my boss's boss cutting down something that was on my Instagram feed (not me specifically) that he caught maybe 2 seconds of as he came in late to a meeting. Nobody asked him for his thoughts on strength training, but he gave them anyway. On the way home a car tried to merge into me when there were two perfectly good lanes to share and I ran over what was probably some construction piping for the next major intersection past my parents' subdivision. What a DAY. We reviewed hantachi and buki waza then juuuuust about switched over to left-handed versions of what we covered last week when time was called so the red belt impending-testing-for-black-in-a-month could have some randori time. I sat out because arm and shoulder are just barely on speaking terms now. Came home and reviewed the left-handed versions, will be very, very glad for the chance to do them on a live human because wow some of those become alien concepts when mirrored. Try doing left-handed hantachi sankyo by yourself for the first time and see how straightforward that ends up being lol. Finished enough work on item 24 that I can mark it off. On a weeknight. What. Tuesday I was very good about my food. Head felt meh. I got a decent nap at lunchtime that helped a good bit. Work was turkey crap trying to wrap up the sprint. Came home and made black bean soup THEN napped because husband has been passive-aggressively suggesting NOW dinner is happening too late. He was up and getting dinner at the same time as always despite it being readily available all evening. WELL OKAY THEN. Wednesday I've turned the lights off before midnight for two whole days in a row just based on being tired. I'm sure this has nothing to do with my being able to fall out of bed without feeling like a corpse. Now I'm not just bouncing out and carpe diem and whatnot, but at least I don't feel like death. It's a small win. I'd say gym was mediocre--not bad, not great. I got rather upset toward the end of the day because there's politics to move the department in one (undesirable from my POV) direction and then my boss who has a different philosophy and I feel caught in the middle. It's great. Mom made me pancakes from a gluten-free mix I left...she forgot about the milk thing and put regular stuff in there. So far only gas and the feeling that the next BM will be Interesting. Aikido class was weird this time, it was drills + yoga. Almost wish I'd skipped it, but I know the last day of class will be a week after the test, so that was a relief. Thursday Ugh. ^Accurately describes the whole day. Nothing especially bad happened, it was just achy and meetings and driving in the dark and cooking dinner was the biggest chore of 2019 with that I've Been Freshly Beaten feel typical of Tuesday/Thursdays. FIL got his other knee replaced today. Dad is getting a valve replaced Friday. It's Surgery November, everybody. Yay? Nothing Aikido-related happened today, too ded RIP. Friday Ah the end of a week that felt like one long uphill battle. Not much to report about Friday, it was pretty standard for us (mom and dad had a right old time at the hospital that kept them there until nearly midnight, he didn't end up getting the replacement I don't think). Right up until it came time for grocery delivery, which turned into a nightmare. We have a Sprouts and a Publix delivery at night. The Sprouts shopper did the following shenanigans: Showed up 30 minutes before the two hour window of 7 - 9PM tried to swap 3lbs of chicken thighs for 1.26lbs (I had to catch her in the act of doing this while stopped in traffic, I noticed the alert in time to address it) refunded my chocolate bars with no effort made to find a replacement for a plain dark chocolate delivered a bag of opened rice did not deliver our milk The Publix shopper was just really stinking late, a half hour past the window at 9:30. So that was a magical experience. Our PS4 decided not to turn on (combination bad power cord and UPS battery ran down). Best Friday ever. I took my teapot that I've had since at least 2012 on a spin for probably the first time. Brewed with way too much tea in it the first time, oops. Saturday Attempt 2 with the teapot was more successful. Squatted 196lbs for doubles, it was very difficult but did not kill me. I obtained Oolong and Rooibos + vanilla bean teas, discovered they were good. Did a lot of review, editing, and a bit of writing on my outline. I determined that the thing to do for the next week is not go to the gym for at least two days and see what good, if any, that does. Sunday Standard Sunday. Tried on a bunch of clothes, most were fine and coming in season, but I don't have anywhere convenient to put them yet so back on the table they went. I love the book I'm reading but it has this little problem in that it makes me want to write? Did a lot more interacting with my outline. No dojo or gym for at least most of next week makes for a really unmotivating end to a weekend. Totally forgot about iaido. Dangit.